I was really helpless, "Hong Ya, even if I never get married again, I can't marry you. Because sister... you know."
Her expression was sad, "I know. I said, I don't expect to marry you, but I want to be with you."
"Why bother? What are you doing?" My voice became choked.
She whispered: "Because I owed you something in my previous life."
I turned around and walked towards the car, "Let's go."
To be honest, when we entered the cemetery, I was filled with extreme uneasiness. This uneasiness came from deep in my heart, perhaps the so-called conscience. Therefore, since entering the cemetery, I
My legs felt as heavy as if they had been filled with cement. We walked to Chen Yuan’s tomb without saying a word.
The moment we arrived at Chen Yuan's tomb, I was immediately shocked by Hong Ya's movement - she knelt down in front of Chen Yuan's tomb, "Sister! I'm here to apologize to you... I'm sorry for you.
"
I suddenly felt at a loss, and then I couldn't help but kneel beside Hong Ya. I didn't speak because I didn't know what to say now, and I didn't dare to say anything here.
Hong Ya was kowtowing three times in a row.
I was still at a loss next to her, so I had no choice but to kneel like that, and then prostrate myself in front of Chen Yuan's grave, because I could only use this action to express my deep guilt to her.
Confess your sins to her in this way.
Hong Ya stood up from the ground, "Feng Xiao, I feel much more relaxed now because I finally faced her." Then she looked at the photo on Chen Yuan's tombstone and said softly: "She is so beautiful.
"
I remained silent, I felt like a complete sinner in this place.
"Feng Xiao, go find an iron bucket. There are those in the cemetery, specially used for burning paper and relics. You go, I am here alone to talk to sister Chen Yuan. Her name is Lin Nan.
Right?" She said to me immediately.
I nodded and left, as if escaping.
At this moment, my mood is very complicated. I was extremely reluctant about Hong Ya going to this place today, because I thought it was indeed a bit shameless, but Hong Ya's sincerity and persistence made me have to bring her here.
Here we are. Judging from Hong Ya’s behavior just now, she was indeed sincerely apologizing to Chen Yuan. Not to mention other things, I was shocked and moved just because she had the courage to face Chen Yuan.
.
You must know that this is a cemetery. Hong Ya, a woman, can actually face Chen Yuan alone in such a place. How much courage does it take? Although Chen Yuan has passed away, the photo on her tombstone is clearly visible
It represents her, and in a place like this, the pressure that Chen Yuan's photo can bring to a living person should be many times greater.
I found a staff member and gave him fifty yuan. He moved a big iron bucket and followed me to Chen Yuan's tomb. At this time, Hong Ya was sitting cross-legged in front of Chen Yuan's tomb. I didn't know
What did she just say to Chen Yuan.
When Chen Yuan's relics, mainly her clothes, burned in the iron barrel, I immediately felt a kind of warmth. The flames were red and yellow, and they burned very brightly.
The smoke drifted faintly into the sky. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew, and the flames began to ripple. The wisp of smoke that was swinging up suddenly became distorted, turning into chaos above our heads. The inside of the iron barrel was already
The burned ashes and the remaining ashes of the money and paper were blown up from the iron barrel by the gust of wind. Suddenly, there were countless black mosquitoes dancing in the sky, and they completely enveloped Hong Ya and me.
I was immediately horrified.
Hong Ya's face also changed. She threw the money into the iron bucket and said, "Sister Chen Yuan, take the money and use it over there. You can buy whatever you like. We'll come back after it's used up."
Burn it for you..."
Her words added to the terrifying atmosphere. I hurriedly added a few pieces of Chen Yuan's clothes into the iron bucket. The flames started to rise again, but the gust of wind had already brought those black mosquito-like smells.
The ashes went far away...
We didn't talk on the way out from Chen Yuan's cemetery, because my mind was still thinking about what happened after the strange wind that blew just now. In a place like this, even a non-superstitious person can
You will be afraid, let alone a person like me who feels guilty and guilty?
"She forgives us." Hong Ya suddenly said this after leaving the cemetery.
I was shocked, "What?"
"She forgave us because she accepted the money papers," she said.
Only then did I realize that she was thinking about that strange wind just like me. I asked: "Hong Ya, do you believe that a person really has a soul after death?"
She said: "I believe it, so I have to come and have a good talk with her today."
I turned around suddenly and looked at her, "Why do you say that? Have you seen it before?"
She looked up at the sky, and I couldn't help but raise my head too. I saw that the sky was foggy, and there was nothing except a few birds and fish leaping past. Then I heard her
He said quietly: "My mother passed away a few years ago. One night before her death, I suddenly dreamed of her. In my dream, her face was covered in blood. At that time, I was frightened and woke up by my dream.
I was out of town at that time, and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I felt very scared and worried. At that time, my phone rang. The call was from my father, and he told me that my mother had just left.
I understood at that time that when my mother left this world, it would be the time when I would have that nightmare."
I said: "The minds of mothers and daughters are connected. Some people call this the sixth sense of human beings. Maybe this is not the basis for the existence of souls."
She said: "Maybe."
In fact, even I can't completely believe my explanation.
She suddenly came and took my arm, and I threw her hand away in panic, because my mind suddenly remembered what Lin Yi said to me: There are gods three feet above the ground. What's more, this is
Where is Chen Yuan’s resting place?
Hong Ya glanced at me, and then sighed quietly.
I said: "I'm sorry."
Her voice was full of sorrow, "It's my fault, I shouldn't be here..."
I suddenly had mixed feelings in my heart, because of her, and because of Chen Yuan...
"Feng Xiao, take me home." She said to me after getting in the car.
"Hmm." I said.
"Then you go back too. I know you can't escape now." She added.
I am silent.
"Don't go drinking like that again, okay?" she continued.
"Hmm." I said.
"If you really want to drink, just call me and I'll come with you. OK?" she continued.
I hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Yeah."
"You should also go to work. Staying at home alone will make you think wildly, which is not good for you." She then added.
"...I'll go to work in the afternoon." I hesitated for a moment before saying.
"If you do this, I will feel relieved, and Sister Lin will also feel relieved." She said, "By the way, Sister Lin said that she wants to talk to you tonight, so you can make an appointment for her yourself."
"...Hmm." I nodded again after hesitating for a moment.
I took her to the bottom of her villa. Before she got off the car, she suddenly came and hugged me. Her hot lips were deeply imprinted on my cheek, and her voice was faint, "Feng Xiao, don't forget it under any circumstances."
I, too, don’t forget Sister Lin. You have to remember that Sister Lin and I are the women who care about you the most.”
Immediately, she chuckled and left my car, and then entered her villa. My eyes were moist, and I suddenly had the urge to get out of the car immediately.
I still let myself leave.
I have to leave because I can no longer do those things under the current circumstances. No one can imagine the guilt I felt when I was in front of Chen Yuan’s tomb. I know that such guilt will probably accompany me from now on.
In my life, I have felt guilty about Zhao Menglei, but not to the level of guilt I feel now. I have been guilty of several women in my life, and now I cannot face any other women at all.
Other women.
Hong Ya said that she and Lin Yu were the people who cared about me the most. Although she did not say the word "love", I could already hear the emotion from her words, but she felt that the word "love" was used in
It’s just a stain on us. This is my guess, but I think my guess is correct. Because of this, I feel that I should stay away from her and them. The past has passed, and the past
Mistakes should not be repeated.
I listened to Hong Ya's words and drove directly to work.
She is right. If I stay at home alone all the time now, I will only be hurt by the situation. I will only feel more and more guilty and self-blame. In the end, I will only use alcohol to anesthetize myself. So the only thing is
The way is to return to the track of your normal life. Only when a person has something to do can he temporarily forget the troubles and pain in his heart, and only then can the past be forgotten.
Smoke...Suddenly, the scene in front of Chen Yuan's cemetery today suddenly appeared in my mind. The strange wind that suddenly came, and the remaining ashes rolled up by the strange wind, they were dancing like black mosquitoes.
When it shrouded our heads like this, I was just surprised and a little scared at the time. But when Hong Ya said those words outside the cemetery, I really felt a little scared. Now, I suddenly have
A feeling of numbness in my vest. The gust of wind came so strangely, and then, when the gust of wind stopped, the scene of those remaining ashes floating and disappearing suddenly appeared clearly in my mind. Could it be that
Is it true that as Hong Ya said, those things and money papers have been accepted by Chen Yuan? (To be continued)