That day, when I called Shi Yanni to ask about the jade piece, although she gave me a relatively satisfactory answer, I still had some doubts in my heart: at that time, she seemed to hesitate for a moment in the middle of her answer, and
The answers before and after are also somewhat contradictory.
However, I hesitated immediately: Is it okay if I ask her about this matter? It is my private matter after all. Moreover, it seems that it is inappropriate for me to doubt Shi Yanni. After thinking about it, I finally gave up.
I wanted to ask her about this in my heart.
Then we chatted for a while, and then I returned to my office and called the head nurse again.
"I have already discussed it with Director Qiao. Let's do what she said. But we have to keep it secret until it is done. Don't ask for everyone's opinions on this matter. Anyway, it is to generate income for everyone.
Director Qiao and I will be responsible for the problem. The upfront fees will be paid from our department's account, and you can discuss the specific matters with Director Qiao." I said to her.
She looked at me in surprise, "Well, where are the hospital leaders..."
I said, "That's my business. Haven't I made it clear yet?"
She stuck out her tongue at me and said, "Director Feng, you are becoming more and more like a leader."
I couldn't help laughing, "Really? It's a pity that I'm not a leader."
She said: "You have the air of a leader. Really. If I hadn't been very familiar with you, I would have been extremely nervous."
I laughed, "Since you are not nervous, it means that I am not like a leader in your mind. Is that right?"
She suddenly became embarrassed, "That's not what I meant."
I said: "Okay, that's it."
She did not leave immediately, but took out a large kraft paper envelope from her body, "Director Feng, this is the thoughts of everyone in the department. Everyone said that since your wife's matter did not let us help, but the thoughts are still there
It should be expressed.”
I immediately said to her seriously: "This is not okay. I accept your wishes, but I cannot accept this thing. You know my temper."
But she insisted: "Director Feng, everyone knows that you are not short of money, but is this a little bit of everyone's wish? If you don't accept it, the doctors and nurses in the department will think that you don't give them face. In the past,
Isn't this what everyone in the department does when there is a wedding or wedding in the family? Haven't you been a part of it many times? Director Feng, you have to accept this. It's not about money, it's about your heart."
I was stunned for a while, and then I sighed and said, "Well, then you can leave it here with me. I'll treat you to a meal another day to express my gratitude to everyone."
She left, and I took a quick look at the envelope and found that it contained at least tens of thousands of dollars. I smiled bitterly and then sealed the envelope in the drawer.
Suddenly there was an uneasiness in my heart, and I didn't know why I felt like this for a while. After meditating quietly for a while, I finally understood why, so I picked up the phone and called Tang Zi. I could only call her.
The call came, "Tang Zi, do you know where Liu Meng's parents live?"
"I don't know!" she said, and then she hung up the phone with me. I was stunned for a long time, and then I couldn't help but smile bitterly: If something like that happened to her uncle, she must hate Tang Zi, and it may not necessarily mean the same thing at the same time.
He hates me.
But, who should I go to? Where can I find Liu Meng's parents? I can't help but feel uncomfortable. Now, there is only one thing I need to do, and that is to atone for my sins, otherwise my heart will never be at peace.
The only way is to go to Tong Yao. But how do I tell her about this?
Feng Xiao, since you have done those things, now you must have the courage to face them one by one. I said to myself in my heart.
Is there any other way? But then I hesitated again.
It's impossible to ask Yu Min, I know this very well.
Forget it, let’s talk about it later, not to mention what role this little money can play? Then, I said to myself, in the end, my weakness defeated my own mentality of atonement.
I called Lin Yu when I got off work, "Hong Ya said you have something to do with me?"
"In this way, you can go directly to my house after get off work. I will be home in a moment. I want to have a good talk with you," she said.
"Did you say no on the phone?" I asked tentatively.
"No. Sister has been very worried about you recently. You have to come." She didn't give me the chance to refuse.
"Okay." I said, and suddenly I realized that it was very, very difficult to refuse her.
After entering Lin Yu's villa, I smelled a scent, the scent of hot pot. Then I saw the pot on the induction cooker on the dining table was rolling, and there were a lot of hot pot dishes on the table. There were also hot pot dishes on the floor.
There is beer.
"Did you make your own hot pot?" I asked in surprise, because the aroma of this hot pot is very unusual, and it is not a taste that ordinary people can prepare.
She smiled and said: "I asked a chef from our unit's canteen to cook it for me. They also bought these dishes for me. I am the secretary-general, so this is nothing, right?"
I said: "That's great, but I haven't had hot pot for a long time."
She glanced at me and said, "Feng Xiao, why were you so drunk yesterday?"
My expression suddenly became sad, "Sister, I feel uncomfortable."
She sighed softly, "If you had been nicer to her when she was here, you wouldn't be as uncomfortable as you are now. Do you think so?"
I didn't expect that she would say this to me, because no matter what, she had a part in why I felt sorry for Chen Yuan? Of course, it was impossible for me to say such words, "Sister, you are right."
She was still sighing, "Feng Xiao, you may think that what I just said is a bit hypocritical, but I tell you, I speak from my heart. It may not be your responsibility for your wife to be in such a situation, and you also
You did not abandon her because of her situation. This is what you did right. Although the relationship between sister and you is ethically inappropriate, we still have feelings for each other, including you and me.
The same is true for Hong Ya, and our relationship was before you and your wife got married, so I don't feel like I have anything to feel sorry for her. If I want to feel sorry for anyone, it would be your ex-wife. But these things have become nothing.
It doesn't matter anymore, because your wife has left after all, and it is meaningless for me to explain myself. But Feng Xiao, what about your relationship with other women? I don't believe that you have the same feelings for them as I do.
The same feelings. Are you right what I said?"
I didn’t understand why she said these words to me, but what she said was indeed true. I had to agree, so I nodded awkwardly and said, "Sister, you are right. I went too far before, but now I think of myself."
It’s really ridiculous.”
She said: "Feng Xiao, you still don't understand what I mean. What I mean is that I can understand that you are in a bad mood now, and I also think that you should feel guilty in front of your dead wife. Because you were in her lifetime.
You indulged yourself too much. But things have passed, and what you should be thinking about now is the future. You have regretted and felt guilty more than once after losing your lover. Do you want to do this again in the future? "
I immediately understood what she said: she was referring to my future treatment of her and Hong Ya. She was reminding me not to hurt a woman who really likes me again.
"Sister, I know." So I said with shame.
A gentle smile appeared on her face, "It's good that you understand. I never cared about you dating other women before, because I didn't feel worthy to care about you because you had a wife at that time. But it's different now
, since you call me sister, then I have the responsibility to remind you. Feng Xiao, sister has also thought about it before, maybe after you have experienced some things, you will only truly mature after experiencing those things yourself.
Because I think a person's maturity is a natural process, and maturity cannot be taught to you by others. That's why I didn't care about your things, and this is actually one of the reasons. Okay, now you understand
.Come, let’s have hot pot. I’ll drink some beer with you today, because I don’t want you to get drunk. When I saw you so drunk last night, I felt very sad. Feng Xiao, you are a man, and you must be brave enough to face me.
Using alcohol to anesthetize yourself is actually a kind of escape from the reality you live in. Do you understand? My sister has encountered fewer difficulties in this life. But when have you ever seen your sister become as drunk as you? You, really
!”
Her words were both reproachful and caring, which immediately made me feel ashamed. I said, "Sister, I will never do that again in the future. Don't worry."
A smile suddenly appeared on her face, "That's good, come on, let's eat."
The hot pot tastes really good, and it was in her home. This scene completely enveloped me in a different kind of warmth.
We clinked glasses and drank a glass of beer together, and suddenly I saw her looking at me with a smile, "Feng Xiao, how have you considered working as a secretary to Governor Huang?"
In fact, before I came here, I had already estimated that she might ask me this question. This was one of the reasons why I tried to reject her at that time, because I hadn't thought about it yet. I really didn't.
I'm a bit lazy, so there's always one way to deal with things I don't understand: procrastination.
Regarding this matter, I think my biggest problem is fear. I am full of fear about that job because I really don't know how to be a secretary.
I have no idea about the position of secretary. Although Kang Demao and I are very familiar with each other, and he once told me a lot about his work experience, I have always instinctively refused to digest those contents. Moreover,
, the more I compare myself with him, the more I feel that there is a huge gap between me and him.
Therefore, I have great confidence that I can be a good doctor, because after all, this is my major, and I have relatively rich clinical experience. My current life and work make me feel like a fish in water, even though
I have encountered some unsatisfactory things, but I have overcome them one by one and luckily. Therefore, I am very satisfied with everything I have now, and I have also developed a kind of inertia. (To be continued)