I felt that the only way was to tell the truth. From the time he raised this question to the time I made up my mind, it actually only took less than a second, because I knew there was no room for any hesitation on my part.
I said, with a wry smile on my face, "I am the director of the department, and I can only consider the interests of everyone in the department. As the saying goes, no matter where you sit, you can only consider what you need to do in your own position. Moreover, every time I
All income-generating items have been approved by the hospital leaders. Under the current management situation of our hospital, what I did did not affect the overall development of the hospital."
Director Ma still looked serious, "I want to ask you a lot of questions, but I want to know how you will clean up the revenue-generating projects in the department in the future."
I immediately said: "Of course we will clean it up. It must be cleaned up. However, that needs to be done after the hospital's development direction has been formulated, and it needs to be cleaned up only after the reform has reached a certain level. Regarding the overall development of the hospital, any individual or department
All interests must be compromised. This is how I have always viewed this. For example, if the hospital leaders ask us to stop the current income-generating projects in our department, I will immediately cancel those charging projects without any conditions. This does not have any
question."
Secretary Qiu smiled and said: "I completely believe this."
Director Ma's face immediately burst into a rare smile, "Secretary Qiu, do you think our conversation is over today?"
Secretary Qiu smiled and said: "You decide. Director Ma, you came to talk to Xiao Feng on behalf of the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee. You have the final say."
Director Ma smiled and said: "Shall we talk to Xiao Feng together? I represent the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee, and you represent the Department of Health. Come on, let's not talk about it. I think it's getting late, so that's it.
After I go back, I will report today’s conversation to the department leaders. Xiao Feng, today I am just talking to you about the organization. As for the appointment issue, it still needs to be discussed and decided by the minister’s office meeting. So I hope you will take a closer look at today’s meeting.
The conversation is kept confidential for the time being. This is discipline. Do you understand?"
I suddenly felt uneasy, but I had to answer immediately: "I know."
Director Ma immediately stood up and went to shake hands with Secretary Qiu first, "I'm going back first. There are too many things on my hands."
Secretary Qiu had also stood up a long time ago, "Director Ma, I will ask you to come to us more often to guide our work in the future. You are busy today, so I won't keep you here."
Then Director Ma came to shake my hand, but he just touched my hand lightly and pulled his hand back, and then left without saying anything.
Secretary Qiu and I sent him out, and Secretary Qiu immediately asked his office director to send him downstairs.
"Xiao Feng, come here, let's talk some more." Then Secretary Qiu said to me with a smile.
In fact, I felt very uneasy when I left first, and wanted to leave immediately. For a strange environment, I have an instinctive urge to escape.
Secretary Qiu asked me to sit down and then sat down on the sofa opposite me. Then he crossed his legs and still had a smile on his face. "Xiao Feng, your answer today was good and very high-level."
I suddenly felt secretly happy, but there was a wry smile on my face, "Secretary Qiu, my administrative experience is actually very poor. I'm ashamed."
He still smiled at me and said: "I don't think so. You are now the director of the department and the director of the medical university. You must have administrative experience, but you just lack the experience of managing a large unit. But a large unit
No matter whether it is a department or a department, in fact, the management is similar. What you said today is very good. To be the leader, you only need to come up with big policies, and the second thing is to implement your intentions vigorously and resolutely. Director Ma’s question just now
I also want to know about your courage at work. Also, I don’t know who recently learned about your upcoming transfer, so they went to the Organization Department of the Provincial Party Committee to report some of your questions, so Director Ma also had to ask
You have problems like that. Xiao Feng, don’t worry, there should be no problem with your matter."
Only then did I suddenly realize, "Secretary Qiu, don't worry, I will definitely work hard and I will definitely live up to your expectations."
He stood up immediately and reached out his hand to me, "Xiao Feng, I completely believe you have this ability. Director Ma is right to remind you, don't tell today's incident publicly until your appointment is completed."
Let's talk about it. But I still have to congratulate you in advance, Xiao Feng, do a good job! Hey! I really envy your youth."
I excitedly grabbed his hand and said, "Thank you, Secretary Qiu, for your trust."
He laughed "hehe" and said, "You shouldn't thank me. I will have to ask you for help with some things in the future."
I hurriedly said: "I don't dare to be Secretary Qiu, you are the leader."
Later, he personally escorted me out of his office. When I left, I saw a pleasant smile on his face. I suddenly felt excited in my heart: Is this really the end of this conversation? And
Are they still satisfied?
Yes, at this moment, I can’t believe that all of this is real. Just imagine that I, a young doctor, could reach the position of director of a tertiary A hospital in a short period of time. This really makes me unable to believe it. This kind of
My helicopter-like promotion makes me feel like I am in a dream. Is this my destiny? Is God really blessing me like this?
I suddenly felt a tremor in my heart. After getting in the car, I closed my eyes and sat on the driver's seat. I was so excited that I suddenly wanted to cry.
It took at least ten minutes for me to slowly calm down. Still with my eyes closed, my image suddenly appeared in my mind.
Maybe I'm a weird person. Ever since I went to college, I have started to meditate on my own appearance occasionally. This is a very strange feeling——
My own appearance slowly emerged in my mind. The me in my mind was so familiar. It was the way I usually saw myself in the mirror. No, it seemed different. It seemed clearer and more vivid. Yes.
Yes, that's me... is that me? I'm like this? How could I be liked by so many women like this, how could I have had so many women? Feng Xiao, is it really you?
You are going to be the director of the Provincial Obstetrics and Gynecology Hospital soon? No, right?
I was talking to the me in my mind, and he was smiling confidently at me. The me in my mind was just like when I faced the mirror. Every time I faced the mirror and observed myself carefully, I would
In this way, I felt that the person inside was both familiar and unfamiliar to me. I winked at him, and he did the same, which was very funny and interesting.
At this moment, I was like looking in a mirror and saying to the me in my mind: "Feng Xiao, is that you?"
He was smiling at me, "Yes, not you or who?"
I asked: "What virtues and abilities do you have? You are so bohemian that you can become the director of a tertiary A hospital! Is this true?"
He said: "It's true."
I asked again: "Why?"
He was laughing, "No reason, because you are Feng Xiao. This is fate."
I asked: "What is fate?"
He replied: "I don't know."
I immediately opened my eyes and couldn't help but smile bitterly. Yes, I don't know what fate is. Moreover, I don't know who the person in my mind just now is. Just now, I have fallen into a situation that is difficult for countless people.
The philosophical questions that have been clarified include: Who am I? Where do I come from, and where do I want to go in the future...
But, who can figure this out?
Do people really have past lives and afterlife? It seems not, right? People are just animals, advanced animals, intelligent animals. After death, they disappear into ashes and have nothing. But, why is it me? Why?
Will it be me, Feng Xiao, who can be the dean instead of someone else? Isn’t this fate? How to explain this?
He couldn't help but smile bitterly: Feng Xiao, you're in trouble again. Then he started the car and drove towards his home.
"Sister, they have already talked to me." I called Lin Yu while we were on the road.
She asked: "How is it? Are you okay?"
I said: "They seem to be quite satisfied."
She smiled and said, "Really? That's good."
I asked: "Sister, did you greet Secretary Qiu and Director Ma in advance?"
She smiled, "What do you think?"
I was extremely grateful, "Sister, you have thought so thoughtfully about my matter, I don't even know what to say."
She said: "Feng Xiao, why are you telling me this? In fact, the most important thing about this matter is that Governor Huang spoke for you. He told me that he was sorry that you couldn't be his secretary, so he gave
The person concerned said hello."
I had mixed feelings in my heart. I felt that I was so embarrassed that I was favored by fate. "Sister, I am really grateful to you..."
She said: "Feng Xiao, come to my house tonight. Sister has something to tell you. You are going to be the dean soon. I have to explain many things to you. Otherwise, I will feel uneasy because I have some
I'm worried about what will happen to you in the future. After all, you don't have much administrative experience before. A provincial tertiary hospital is not that easy to manage. Look at your former director Tang, he is a good example.
, and he has been the vice president for so many years. But you, Principal Zhang, are different. What you are facing now is that you must immediately transform from a doctor, department director, and university director to the top leader of a unit. This is
I need you to be careful in everything... Haha! Let’s talk about it tonight.”
Her words made me suddenly nervous and worried, "Sister, I think it's better to hold the deputy position for a period of time as you originally thought."
She suddenly laughed, "Feng Xiao, you are the least demanding man I have ever seen. Is there anyone like you? You are not the first in command but you want to be the second in command. Haha!"
I felt very embarrassed and said, "Sister, I really think so."
She said: "I know, don't I know you well? Feng Xiao, this is the cutest thing about you. You are actually very simple. But this is exactly what worries me the most. Okay, after we meet in the evening
Let’s talk about it in detail, it’s not very convenient for me to talk here.”
After hanging up the phone, I suddenly felt warm in my heart, and I completely believed that all this was not an illusion.
In fact, many times I have a dreamlike feeling. I always feel that everything that has happened to me in the past few years is very dreamy. It seems that many things cannot appear and happen in reality. Moreover, I always feel like I am in a dream.
The emotion "life is like a dream" appeared in my mind.
That's really it.
In just a short period of time, too many things have happened to me. Those things caught me off guard. It was as if God was joking with me. My marriage was in trouble time and time again, and the women around me
But there are more and more. However, in my career, opportunities that ordinary people can't dream of appear again and again. Although there are some dangers involved, they are all saved one by one.
Such things come one after another, leaving me no time to be overly sad or happy. New events have begun, either lost or gained. These things that happen to me are like the dark clouds, thunder and lightning, and wind before a storm.
Either it rolls in, and then it pours with rain, thunder and lightning, leaving no time for sadness and crying; or the dark clouds are blown away by the wind, and the thunder and lightning are still brewing, and are swept away by the hurricane, and then the sun shines brightly, leaving me no time.
Excitement and cheers.
Maybe there is a sentence that can describe the feelings in my heart - this world is so fucking crazy and exciting!
After returning home, I had a deep sleep. The past things are in the past, new opportunities are already waving to me, and they are so within my reach. What do I have to worry about? Therefore, my heart is completely
I feel relaxed. What I need most now is to sleep. I feel so sleepy.
Excitement and excitement consume the most energy.
There were no dreams in my sleep, my sleep was so quiet and peaceful.
Later, it was the ringtone of my cell phone that woke me up. It was Lin Yi calling.
I woke up immediately when my cell phone rang for less than two seconds, and immediately picked up the phone. At this moment, I didn't dare to delay any calls. But I felt a little regretful because of what I had just said.
That kind of good sleep is too rare for me. It is a state of complete selflessness and a state of extreme relaxation in my heart.
I saw Lin Yi's name flashing on the screen of my mobile phone, so I didn't dare to delay even more, because I remembered what he said to me. He said that he would go to Principal Zhang to negotiate immediately. And my heart at this moment
I also felt very guilty: I should have reported the situation to him after coming out of the health department. However, after I called Lin Yu, I forgot about it.
"How's it going? How was the conversation?" His voice came immediately over the phone.
I was immediately glad that I answered the call quickly, thinking that he must not know that I was sleeping just now. So I hurriedly replied: "We just finished talking."
He asked: "How is it? Not bad, right?"
I replied: "It seems that they are quite satisfied with my answer."
He said: "That's great. Although the conversation is just a procedure, it involves Secretary-General Lin's face. This is good."
I was secretly happy, because my previous thoughts were also like this, which shows that I have become mature. Being able to synchronize with Lin Yi's thinking is a kind of maturity in itself. I said: "Fortunately, I did it in advance
Some preparation."
He said: "I have made an appointment with Principal Zhang. I will have a meal with him tonight and have a good chat about your affairs. Feng Xiao, please come with us tonight. We can talk about anything in person. You, Principal Zhang,
Although people are very shady, they still pay attention to the rules of the game."
I suddenly became embarrassed, "Uncle Lin, I..."
He immediately asked: "Do you have anything else to do tonight?"
I hurriedly replied: "That's right. Sister Lin said that she wants to have a good talk with me tonight because she is still a little worried about me becoming the leader of the hospital in the future."
He sighed: "Your sister Lin really cares about you from the bottom of her heart. Okay, then you can go to her place. It doesn't matter from my side. I just have a good talk with you, Principal Zhang. Feng Xiao, don't worry, he won't
It would be too much."
I felt very ashamed: They were all so kind to me, but what had I done for them?
I couldn't sleep anymore, so I immediately took a shower and shaved off the beard on my cheeks. I told myself that I must be fresh and clean to see Lin Yu.
I call her sister, but her status in my heart is no longer just "sister". "Sister" is just a title. She is not only my woman, but also my support. In my life
, she has occupied a very important position.
After taking a shower, I looked at myself in the mirror and was very satisfied. I found that the person in the mirror no longer looked strange at all - this is me, a man who has become a little thin but full of energy, a man who is about to have a beautiful life.
My future self.
I looked at the me in the mirror and smiled. I smiled with great satisfaction.
When I arrived at Lin Yu's house, I discovered that she had gone home from get off work early. Because I found that she had already prepared meals and was waiting for me. As soon as I entered her villa, I smelled the fragrant aroma of vegetables.
She looked at me with a smile and asked me: "Feng Xiao, you didn't go to work today?"
I asked her in surprise: "How did you know?"
She smiled and said, "Because you don't have that smell in the hospital. Also, I think you must be very excited after they talk to you, and you will definitely not go to the hospital again."
I understood immediately, "Sister, the latter reason is the main reason why you think I won't go to the hospital, right?"
She smiled and said: "Feng Xiao, you are so smart."
I laughed sheepishly, "Sister, these people are lazy. Now that I am leaving my previous unit, I will definitely not go to the department again."
She shook her head and said, "You are really different from other people."
I didn't understand what she meant and asked in surprise: "Sister, what does this have to do with other people?"
She smiled and said: "If it were anyone else, if they encountered such a thing, they would definitely be so excited that they would immediately go to their original workplace or invite their good friends to have a drink."
I shook my head and said: "Sister, I don't have many friends. And we have already agreed to have dinner together today. Also, I can't tell anyone about this matter for the time being. This is something Secretary Qiu and Director Ma specially asked today.
Understand."
She laughed "haha", "So I know you very well? I know you don't have many friends outside, and this is where I feel particularly at ease. If you have too much contact with those people in society, I will
Worried."
I understood what she meant: she didn't want me to have too many social habits, and most importantly, she didn't want more people to know about our relationship.
"Also, even though you are told not to tell anyone about this matter, many people will still go to their original workplaces for a walk, so that they can at least vent part of their inner excitement. In fact, people's
Excitement also needs to be vented, otherwise it is likely to be suppressed. Feng Xiao, sister asked you to come to my place tonight not just to talk about things with you, but also to have a few drinks with you.
, let your excitement get some vent."
What she said is very reasonable. A person's depression, anger, excitement, and excitement all need to be vented. Any emotional reaction beyond the normal state needs to be vented. Fan Jinzhong in "The Scholars"
The madness that occurred after the lift was actually the result of the excitement and excitement not being able to be vented.
So I was very touched and said, "Sister, you are so kind."
She looked at me tenderly, "Feng Xiao, come on, let's talk while drinking."
I found that every dish she cooked was very delicious, "Sister, are you really making these dishes yourself?"
She glared at me, "Isn't it me or who? I got off work early today, and then went to the supermarket outside the community to buy food. It took me almost two hours to get these dishes."
I hurriedly said: "I don't mean anything else. I just think the food you cooked today is particularly delicious. Oh, by the way. Sister, isn't that supermarket outside owned by Hongya?"
Her eyes suddenly became hazy, "Feng Xiao, I'm so worried. I've called Hong Ya many times recently, but I haven't been able to contact her."
I said, "Sister, you don't have to worry. She told me that she wanted to relax abroad alone and come back after the Spring Festival."
She sighed faintly: "Feng Xiao, why are you men so heartless? Are you really not worried about her at all? She is a woman, alone in a foreign country, and now she is about to leave.
It’s the Spring Festival, how can I feel relieved?”
I suddenly felt a little embarrassed, "Sister..."
She waved her hand slightly at me, "Forget it, don't talk about her. This girl, it's true! She always makes me feel uneasy."
I suddenly found that I didn’t know what to say. Regarding Hong Ya’s matter, anything I said at this moment has become redundant and will make me look ruthless. But I feel: Lin Yu should know the kind of feeling in my heart.
Helpless, because she is the same as me, and Hong Ya, we all have the same helplessness.
We stopped talking for at least a few minutes, just drinking and eating in silence. Later, Lin Yu spoke first - she suddenly raised her head in silence and looked at me, "Feng Xiao, think about it.
Is there any way I can find her?"
I smiled bitterly and said: "She is alone in a foreign country with no fixed abode and has turned off her mobile phone. How can we find her?"
She sighed slightly. I felt a little guilty because I really had no choice in this matter.
After a while, she suddenly raised her glass and said to me: "Forget it, Feng Xiao, let's not think about her anymore. Come, let's drink and talk."
I drank the wine, but I knew in my heart that if Hong Ya's matter was not resolved, it would be difficult for us to have a pleasant conversation today, because I could see that Lin Yu was absent-minded.
Suddenly, I thought of a possibility, "Sister, maybe there is a way to find her."
She immediately looked at me in surprise, "In what way?"
I said: "Although she doesn't turn on her mobile phone, she can't completely separate herself from the world she lives in. So I thought, maybe we can contact her through email."
She nodded and said: "This is a good idea... However, since she deliberately does not want to contact us, even if we send an email, she may not reply."
I was stunned for a moment, "That's... yes. But we should still give it a try."
She said: "That's okay. Maybe you can send her an email and she will reply. Then give it a try."
I asked: "Sister, do you have her email address?"
She said: "Yes. Just wait, I'll go take a look. I wrote it down in my notebook."
Then she went inside, and after a while she came out and told me Hong Ya's email address. After hearing this, I immediately laughed, "Sister, I will try my best to find her."
She looked at me in surprise, "Feng Xiao, it seems you are very confident?"
I said: "Maybe."
Yes, after I heard Lin Yu tell me Hong Ya's email address, I suddenly had a feeling: maybe I can really find her.
Because the email address Lin Yu told me was a QQ email address.
One thing I firmly believe is that even if Hong Ya decides not to keep in touch with us for the time being, she will definitely not completely isolate herself from the world, and QQ chat is an illusory world.
She might chat and talk to some imaginary person in this illusory world.
From a psychological point of view, this is very possible. (To be continued)