It was Shangguan Qin's rhetorical question that aroused my suspicion. You know, I have never thought about such a possibility, because I have always believed that Lin Yi would not be that kind of person.
If it is really what I imagined, then the world I once lived in will be another reality, and all the good things I once imagined will no longer exist.
This is by no means a moral issue. I will not think too much about this aspect. I am not qualified to think about it because I myself am a person who has been very confused in this aspect. However, this involves their purpose and motivation.
Because if the suspicion that suddenly appeared in me at this moment is true, it can only mean that I am a very sad person, because in their eyes I am just an object that can be used, or even a person in their eyes.
A person who is looked down upon very much. Just imagine: If Shangguan Qin was once Lin Yi’s woman, but now Lin Yi tried every means to give her to me as his wife, who could accept such a thing?
Wu Yaru is different, she is the woman who was abandoned by him. Moreover, the matter between me and her has no direct relationship with Lin Yi.
When men think about problems, they don’t think too much about the results. Instead, they pay more attention to cause and effect and what others think of themselves. In a man’s heart, nothing is more important than his own self-esteem. This is true of Kang Demao,
Me too, but I don't take it too seriously like he does.
Shangguanqin was asking me just now: "Brother Feng, what do you mean by this?"
Her question came so suddenly and was so exciting. I think this can only mean that she is guilty because I didn't mean what she imagined.
I said calmly: "I don't mean anything. I just want to express my true thoughts."
She became very angry, but she didn't say anything more. Instead, she poured down a few glasses of wine and drank it. Then she came and said to me, and strangely, her expression changed.
He calmed down and said, "I didn't expect you to think that way. Brother Feng, you can doubt me, but you shouldn't doubt our chairman. He is your father-in-law, and he has always been very good to you. Yes, you are right.
Yes, at first I was unwilling to marry you, but then I thought about it again. The chairman is a great benefactor to me and our family. Since he needs me to be with you, I shouldn't say no.
The reason. Isn't that what happens in a person's life? I am a woman, and I have to find a man to get married and have children. And later I found out that you are not as bad as I once thought. You have a good heart, and you are especially kind to women.
Okay, very gentle and considerate, but just too philanthropic. But I believe that I can control you in the future. I also thought, isn't a person's marriage just a gamble? If you bet correctly, you will be happy for a lifetime. If you bet wrong, you will be happy for a lifetime.
Just try it again. It's no big deal. Brother Feng, I didn't want to tell you this at first, but you just suspected it, so I have to tell you my true thoughts."
I didn't look at her, I just lowered my head and ate food and drank in silence.
She continued: "Originally, I wanted our relationship to be slower and more romantic. It would be better not to reveal certain things. This will be good for us in the future. When two people live together, in fact, we just need to know many things well.
, there’s no need to tell everything, right? I think I’m pretty good in all aspects, so I should have no problem matching you. Right? Brother Feng, whether you believe it or not, these words are mine anyway.
The truest idea. But you don’t have to agree to our things, but you must never doubt our chairman’s love and care for you.”
To be honest, her words made me feel touched, because I thought her words were very true. However, the shadow that suddenly rose in my heart just now has taken root in my mind for some reason.
After I got to the root, I actually had a lingering feeling. I said: "I have no doubt. You said it yourself. What I want to say is not what you just imagined. In fact, what I want to say is
It’s similar to what you just said, because I don’t think we need to marry me because of your gratitude to him. At least I don’t want that.”
She looked at me and said, "Actually, you still don't completely believe what I said in your heart, do you?"
I was silent, and then said after a while: "Shangguan, my attitude has been very clear. You are right, it is not that you are not worthy of me, but that I am not worthy of you. Moreover, I have always felt that you and I should
We are good friends, so I sincerely hope you can be happy in this life. Also, I have told Uncle Lin my idea, so you don't need to worry about anything. Don't worry, he won't blame you at all.
Shangguan, let’s not talk about this matter, I’m very grateful to you for coming to spend the Spring Festival with me.”
She was stunned, and then smiled bitterly after a while and said: "Well, I know what you are thinking. But do you know? It is not so easy for a woman to express her love to a man. I didn't expect that
I was even rejected by you. I’m so embarrassed.”
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief in my heart, "Shangguan, I still say what I said, we are friends, so I hope our friendship can last forever. And because we are friends, I don't want to harm you."
She looked at me, "Brother Feng, do you really think so?"
I smiled and said, "Why did I lie to you? That's really what I thought."
She looked a little moved, "Brother Feng, what if, I'm talking about what if. What if one day you find out that I have deceived you or even caused you harm?"
I was stunned immediately. I have studied psychology, so I know very well in my heart: Generally speaking, people who speak like this have often done that kind of thing, or are about to do it, so they will do it.
I felt uneasy, so I washed it so that I could get the other person’s understanding in advance.
So, I immediately became nervous, "Shangguan, it depends on what it is. But I don't understand. Aren't we very good friends? Why would you do such a thing to me? So I don't believe it."
She had a strange look on her face, "Didn't I say that? I said what if."
I shook my head, "I don't believe you would do something like that to me. Even if you did, I think it would be for your reasons. But I probably won't be able to forgive you, because I can't imagine what kind of
There are reasons for you to hurt me."
In fact, she should know that my words are a warning to her.
She suddenly asked me: "Brother Feng, did your previous wife hurt you? Did your previous wife cheat on you?"
I didn't understand why she asked me such a question, because the question made me feel too baffled. I thought about it and said, "At least Chen Yuan doesn't seem to have it."
She immediately smiled slightly, "In other words, Zhao Menglei has deceived you before, right?"
I immediately felt a heartache, "But she never hurt her. On the contrary, I hurt her, and I also hurt Chen Yuan. Because I often cheated on them and was unfaithful to them."
She immediately apologized and said to me: "I'm sorry, Brother Feng, I shouldn't ask you this question. But I still want to know one thing: If this is the case, do you think they will hate you?"
I shook my head, "I don't know, I don't know... I don't think they will, right? Because they all love me. Unfortunately, I am too... Oh! Let's not talk about it, let's not talk about this matter, okay?"
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But she continued: "Brother Feng, can I understand this? As long as two people get married, they will tolerate each other under normal circumstances, unless they encounter a problem of principle. And the biggest problem of principle between husband and wife should be
It's infidelity. Am I right? Brother Feng, I'm sorry, I know that such a topic will make you feel uncomfortable, but I have never been married, so I really want to know what marriage is all about."
I sighed: "Maybe, what you said is right."
She was looking at me, and then she laughed, "I understand. Come on, Brother Feng, let me toast you. Can we talk about some fun things from now on?"
We drank it, and then I said with a wry smile: "The fun things you deliberately say are no longer fun. But tell me first, I like to hear it." (To be continued)