She stopped talking, but continued to walk towards the wine cabinet, and then took out a bottle of Moutai and opened it. She returned to the coffee table in front of the TV, opposite me. "I will drink by myself, so don't
Drink it. Is that okay?"
Now, I think she is really a little strange, because it is not normal for a woman to want to drink. But I thought about last night, Tong Yao and I drank so much wine together, didn't the same thing happen?
In fact, this kind of thing is very simple. In the final analysis, it is a matter between both parties. The woman must take the initiative or approve it before the man is attracted to it.
Thinking of this, I said: "That's all, I'll drink with you."
She looked at me, "Aren't you afraid of making mistakes?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Making mistakes also requires opportunities. Since I don't have that opportunity, I won't worry about it anymore."
Her face suddenly turned red, "Brother Feng, that's not the case. I think you are very self-controlled. Now I understand that you are really good to me in your heart, and I also understand that you
The reason why I was with those women before was because I never thought of being responsible for them. Am I right?"
I sighed: "Maybe that's it."
She looked at me with her eyebrows, "So, you care about me. Is that right?"
I found that she confused the concept, "I care about our friendship."
She smiled and then poured me a glass of wine, "Then, why can't we become husband and wife? There is no contradiction between friendship and marriage, right?"
I raised my head and drank it, and she drank it too. I said, "Tell you the truth. I don't want my marriage to be arranged by others."
She smiled and said: "I understand. In fact, what's wrong with being arranged by others? As long as the person being arranged is suitable for you."
I shook my head and said: "You have never been married, so you have no experience or feelings about marriage. Although my first marriage was not arranged, it was unfortunate because Zhao Menglei paid too much to be with me.
Too big, so in the end she had to use that way to leave this world. In fact, this matter can be thought of from another angle. If I had not married Chen Yuan, if I had been waiting for her, then she might have
I won't take that step. In the final analysis, her death was due to my marriage to Chen Yuan, and our marriage itself can be regarded as an arrangement. You should be very clear about this matter without me saying more.
Of course, I don’t blame Uncle Lin at all, because he is Aunt Shi’s husband. I understand his thoughts at the time. But precisely because of this, I don’t want my marriage to be arranged by others again. Besides, I
Now I have no desire to get married."
She said: "I understand, you mean you don't want to be controlled by others, right? Being arranged by others will make you feel that you are being controlled by others, right?"
Maybe I was drunk, so I actually nodded. You know, I did have such thoughts, but I shouldn't admit it in front of her at all. However, I nodded and admitted it.
She added: "Brother Feng, do you know? No one is controlling you. Tell me, what is the use of controlling you? You are not an official in charge of huge public resources. Why does the chairman want to control you? In fact,
After all, you don’t completely trust him, right?”
I suddenly became alert, "No! How could I not trust him?"
She looked at me with a fixed look in her eyes, "Then you don't trust me."
I immediately smiled bitterly, "Shangguan, do you know that there is something wrong with your logic? I don't have that idea."
She said: "Then I don't understand. For example, let's take what happened between us. I think I am a relatively good woman, and I am still single and have never been married. Since I am willing to marry you, what do you do?
Why don't you always agree? And you said it yourself, you don't dislike me, right? Unless you already like another woman."
I think she was also drunk, because her words became so bold, so direct, and still so illogical. I said: "Shangguan, you are still a woman, have you never thought about it? Marriage is necessary
Emotional. This feeling is not the kind of emotion between friends, it is love. Do you understand?"
She burst out laughing immediately, "Do you still believe in love?"
In fact, when I said the word "love", I already felt my vest tingling, because this word has become a disgusting word for me. But I don't want to do it in front of her.
She said that I no longer believed it, so I immediately asked her, "Don't you believe it?"
She shook her head, "What is love? Is it because a man talks sweetly in my ear when he likes me? But when I need him, he disappears without a trace? Haha! Love! What is love?! Isn't it just a man?
Is it one of the ways to coax a woman into bed?"
I seem to understand: It turns out that she once had an unforgettable relationship, but the end result was that she was deceived.
She continued: "Tell me, do I still believe in love? If I hadn't had some sense at that time, I would have been deceived by him. After my mother became like that, when I needed his help the most, he
Suddenly disappeared. Haha! Love! Is this love?"
I was immediately infected by her emotions, so I comforted her softly: "Shangguan, you can't give up your pursuit of pure love just because you meet a man like that. In fact, I know that in this world
There are still a lot of sincere people online. Maybe you haven’t met the person who really likes you yet.”
She shook her head and started to cry, "But, I love him very much. Brother Feng, you don't know how much I loved him at that time. It was my first love. I gave all my heart to him, but he
But he treated me like that. He ran away and disappeared when I needed him most. If it weren't for the chairman, I can't believe what state I would be in now, and I'm not sure whether I would still be living here.
In the world. But, he ran away and disappeared... Wuwu!"
I knew she was drunk. When she said "He ran away, he disappeared" over and over again, I knew she was drunk, because only drunk people do this. At the same time, I also understood in my heart: She actually
I still care about that man very much. It just fulfills the saying: as deep as the love is, as deep as the hate is.
Obviously, the woman in front of me has been hurt so much that she no longer believes in love. In fact, I know that she does, but now she is afraid, so she holds that belief tightly.
Wrapped up. Maybe for other people, they may think that the kind of injury she suffered is nothing, but I understand her very well, because it can be seen from her performance at the moment that her contribution at that time should be
Wholeheartedly. As for what she said about not being deceived into losing her body by that man, of course I can only listen to it as a joke. Besides, such things have nothing to do with me, right?
I could only sigh. Then I went to look at her and said softly: "Okay, Shangguan, stop drinking. I think you are almost drunk. I am almost drunk too. I will take you back."
She raised her head and stared at me, "Are you driving me away?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Well, let's go for a walk. I think it must be very lively outside today."
She immediately laughed and said, "I think this suggestion is good."
In fact, what I mean is very simple: stop drinking and leave my home. Only in this way will nothing happen between us.
After what happened to Tong Jiumei, I was even more worried about myself. I clearly knew that some things should not be done that way, but they continued to happen again and again. This was a kind of sadness to me. I remember someone said: A person can't control himself.
A man with that part of his body will never be very promising. I firmly believe this, and I also hope that I can change from now on.
I stood up immediately and said, "Then let's go."
She said: "Wait a minute, let me help you clean up these things. It will be next year soon, what a mess the house looks like!"
At this moment, I couldn't help but start to wonder: Is she drunk?
Soon, we cleared the things on the table, and there was still half a bottle of wine left. I put it back in the wine cabinet. I obviously felt drunk, because when I was putting away those things, I felt my
There was not much weight on my hands, and I could clearly feel my excitement.
I also noticed Shangguan Qin's appearance, and I noticed that she staggered a little when she walked. I couldn't help but feel relieved: at least we all still had the most basic sobriety. To be precise, our wine today should be just right.
After packing those things and we were getting ready to go out, she said, "My clothes."
I hurriedly went to get her clothes from the sofa, but found that her back was facing me. I immediately understood that she wanted me to put them on for her.
I stretched the coat behind her, and she reached into the sleeves and put it on. Then she turned to me and said, "Thank you. You cooperated well."
I couldn't help but smile bitterly, "It seems to be like this in the movie."
She smiled and said: "I like men who are very gentlemanly. Brother Feng, you should take the initiative in such things."
I couldn't help laughing, "I know. I'll definitely do it next time."
I don’t know why, but at this moment, I suddenly felt a warm feeling: Isn’t this a scene that may only occur when a couple goes out together?
"Brother Feng, let's not drive. Let's just walk on the street together. Okay?" She said to me when she went downstairs.
Of course I wouldn't object. So we went downstairs.
Today is New Year's Eve, there are very few people and cars on the street, and the night seems bleaker than usual. She and I are walking side by side on the street, the cold wind blows from our cheeks, and behind us are
Two long shadows. I don't know why, but I immediately felt that in such a cold night, our hearts were so close to each other.
Perhaps, we are all hoping for each other's warmth.
But then I reminded myself clearly: You can't do that, there is some warmth that you can't bear.
As I walked forward like this, I suddenly remembered that night a few days ago, when I was walking on the street with a woman like this. However, I didn't know where she was at the moment.
I couldn't help but sigh, and actually felt a little longing for her in my heart.
Suddenly, I heard Shangguanqin beside me say something, "Brother Feng, I feel a little dizzy."
I hurriedly said: "It's easy to do this if a cool breeze suddenly blows after drinking. Shangguan, let me hail a car for you. You go back and rest first."
But she shook her head and said: "I don't want to go back. I don't want to go from this year to next year alone."
I suddenly became embarrassed, "Then..."
She turned around and said, "Brother Feng, there is a park not far ahead. Let's go there and sit."
I said: "Okay."
She immediately became happy and came over to hold my arm. I was about to break away but finally gave up: Why bother? Let’s do this today.
Her hand held my arm, and her body began to lean against mine. I believe that as long as someone sees us, they will think that we are a couple. At this moment, I began to doubt my stubbornness.
Come: Feng Xiao, why can’t she?
Of course not, I don’t want her to become the next Chen Yuan, nor do I want to be arranged with her again. Immediately, I said to myself in my heart. I know that this is the one that will never be solved in my heart.
Knot.
Soon, we arrived at the park. In my mind, there should still be a long distance from my home to this place, but I never expected that we would arrive so quickly today.
This city park existed many years ago, but in recent years the government has renovated the place, planted more trees, and opened the original walls. Of course, there is no longer a fee. This place has become an old place.
It's a good place for old ladies to exercise in the morning and evening. In fact, purely from this place, the government has allowed the people to enjoy some of the achievements since the reform and opening up.
We walked inside. Although the lights in the park were not very bright, they brought out the greenery in the night just right. The greenery in the night has another kind of beauty, which makes people feel a poetic feeling.
Warm.
"Brother Feng, my head feels so dizzy. Let's go there and sit down." She said to me next to me.
"Yeah." I said, and couldn't help but reach out to her waist and squeeze it gently. Her waist was very soft and thin, and her body was very close to me. At this moment, I actually felt something inside me.
Tremor.
This is a quiet place, with a bench between two big trees. We went over and sat down, and her head immediately rested on my shoulder, and at the same time she made a long and beautiful voice, "Feng
Brother, this is great."
I said, "Yeah. It's nice. It's so quiet here."
However, as soon as I finished speaking, I suddenly heard a "bang bang" sound coming from the distance. Immediately, countless such sounds rose into the sky, and brilliant flowers bloomed in the sky.
It will be midnight soon? I thought to myself. Yes, that's true. People in the city do this every year. At this moment of bidding farewell to the old and welcoming the new, they will use fireworks to express their happiness and expectations for next year.
But the two of us are hiding here, quietly watching the beauty lit by others.
The sky has become a sea of flowers, and we are all looking up quietly to watch.
She said: "It's so beautiful."
I stupidly said: "Yes, it's so beautiful."
She said: "I'll just go and put a few flowers whenever I want."
I immediately laughed, "Isn't that easy? Let's just buy it and put it away now."
She said: "No. I hope to light them with my husband and children one day. That would be great."
I was speechless for a moment.
She said: "Brother Feng, are you still doubting that I have that kind of relationship with the chairman? Do you think there must be conditions for him to help me like that?" (To be continued)