Chapter 330: Love is too deep to be expressed [Qin Nansi]

The capital city is covered with clouds, drizzle is falling, the cemetery is solemn and quiet, and the air is filled with the smell of coldness and death.

It’s the beginning of spring again. Green buds sprout from dead branches, and crystal clear water drops fall silently. A man dressed in black presented a bouquet of flowers in front of the tombstone. A seven or eight-year-old boy standing next to him also held a bouquet of flowers in his arms.

A bouquet of blooming tea flowers.

"Xifeng, kowtow to your Uncle Yan."

"Oh." The beautiful little boy placed the flowers in front of the tombstone next to his father. Then he knelt down in front of the tombstone and kowtowed three times. When he stood up, his trousers on his knees were stained with water.

Traces, a little cool.

He didn't know very well who Uncle Yan was, but every year on this day his father would bring him to worship him and kowtow three times. Even his mother and father had never been so cautious. In other words, ever since he could remember, his father

He never mentioned his mother, nor did he pay homage to her. Every year, his grandparents took him to pay homage to his mother.

My grandparents all said that my mother died of a serious illness. Some people said that my mother was not dead at all, but she just betrayed my father and ran away with another man.

Qin Xifeng never asked his father which one was true and which one was false, because every time someone mentioned his mother, his father's expression would be extremely heavy and gloomy, as if he was very reluctant to hear his mother's name. Over time, no one dared to speak in front of him.

carry.

Qin Nansi knelt down and wiped the water on his clothes with a tissue. His expression was calm and unfazed. If you look carefully, you can catch the broken marks and deep pain in his eyes.

His mother passed away a few years ago, leaving him and Xi Feng to depend on each other. In the past few years, his temperament has become more reserved and quiet, and he rarely talks. If it weren't for Long Lifei, the director of the Presidential Palace, he would not even say a word all day long.

Said: The whole person was lifeless, as if there was no breath of life anymore.

"You go to the car and wait for me first." Qin Nansi put the car key in his hand.

Although Xi Feng is young, he is very smart and obedient, and the security around him is good. He has nothing to worry about.

"Okay." Qin Xifeng held the car keys, turned around and walked down the stairs step by step. His father did this every year, and he was used to it.

Halfway up the stairs, he suddenly stopped and was suddenly curious. Why did his father have to go first by himself every time? What was he doing here?

Qin Xifeng did not continue walking down, turned around and looked in the direction of the tombstone, walked back a few steps, and walked to the corresponding location clicked below.

Qin Nansi walked to the tombstone and caressed the black and white photo with his thin fingers. His outline was still as warm and clean as before. He bent down, pressed his forehead against the cold tombstone, and slowly closed his eyes.

Already...

Qin Xifeng saw his broad shoulders trembling slightly, moved two steps to change positions, and froze in place.

From his angle, he could just see his father bursting into tears.

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Long Lifei and Long Ziqi flew to the United States to study at the age of fifteen. Xi Feng was young and needed someone to take care of him. Qin Nansi did not continue to stay in the presidential palace, applied to retire, and opened a coffee shop in the capital.

The scale is neither big nor small, and the profit is just enough to support life. The store only employs two clerks, a girl and a young boy who just went to college and worked part-time.

Apart from taking Xi Feng to and from school, Qin Nansi spent most of his time in the coffee shop without any other entertainment. In the past two years, Rong Chen often came back to sit there. He looked at Qin Nansi with a sinister look in his eyes.

It was biting and biting, and Qin Nansi never took it to heart, no matter how vicious the words were to humiliate him.

On the night of Huang Rong's death, Rong Chen drank a lot and stumbled in, smelling of alcohol and with blurred eyes. At that time, there were no customers in the store, and Qin Nansi was doing his hygiene alone.

Rong Chen lay on the bar, laughed softly, and murmured one sentence repeatedly on his lips: "She finally died... She suffered so much, and finally died..."

Thick, fan-like eyelashes quietly covered her eyes, and then a large teardrop oozed across the corner of her mouth, which looked particularly unreal under the light.

Qin Nansi knew that he was crying not because of Huang Rong, but because of Bai Yan. The woman who killed Bai Yan eventually died of torture. Have you seen Bai Yan in the sky?

Qin Nansi did not go back in the evening and stayed with Rong Chen in the coffee shop all night. He sat at the table and fell asleep at some point. When he woke up, the coffee shop was empty and he was the only one left.

He knew that Rong Chen would never come again.

Ye Ni is dead, Huang Rong is dead, and the people who killed Bai Yan have all disappeared. Rong Chen, seeing himself, will only miss Bai Yan more, so he will not come again.

Later, Qin Nansi never saw Rong Chen again until the news of his death came out. On the day of Rong Chen's funeral, it was raining. He stood in the crowd and saw the funeral convoy moving forward in an orderly manner. The boy with handsome features held Rong Chen in his arms.

Chen's portrait slowly walked at the front...

He recognized the boy at a glance as the college student who worked part-time in his cafe. It turned out that he was from Rong Chen!

On the third day after Rong Chen's funeral, the boy came to the coffee shop. He sat down and said straight to the point: "I can't come here again."

Qin Nansi handed him the salary he had prepared: "I know, take care."

The boy was stunned. He didn't expect his reaction to be so calm. He looked at him with clear eyes for a long time. Nan Si looked at him and seemed to see another person in these eyes.

That person also has a pair of dust-free eyes, clean and pure.

"Don't you want to ask me what's going on?" Rong Yu's red lips looked a bit like a boy's, and her thin body was a bit frail, with a kind of feminine beauty.

Who would have thought that such a young man would be the head of the new generation of the Rong family.

Qin Nansi looked calm and invited him to drink a cup of American coffee: "I don't want to know." He lost interest in everything. The only reason for his life was three words: Qin Xifeng.

Rong Yu's face turned pale and he took a sip of the coffee cup. The bitter taste spread on the tip of his tongue and penetrated to the deepest part of his heart. Regardless of whether Qin Nansi would listen or not, he said in a low voice: "Rong Chen is mine.

Uncle, I know him and you, because we are the same kind of people."

He saw the photo of that person in his uncle's drawer, slowly inquired about them, and followed his uncle's footsteps to this place. Something hidden in his heart suddenly emerged, and he seemed to understand something vaguely.

For example, he didn't like close contact with the opposite sex, or he was very curious about the man in front of him! The closer he got, the more curious he became, and the more he got to know him, the more he wanted to get closer. Those things that had been suppressed for a long time seemed to be released in an instant, and he suddenly understood,

It turns out that like my uncle, I like men!

The same type of people, which type of people are they?

"The person my uncle likes, does he like you? I thought you didn't like him, but during the time I was working here, I found that you loved him more than anyone else, more than my uncle! But why didn't you want him in the first place?

What about him?"

Qin Nansi's hand wiping the cup paused, and his eyes looked at him, with a faint flash of pain.

Yes! Why didn't you want him in the first place? If you could be braver, wouldn't it be him sitting in front of you now?

"He is dead, but you are still alive!" Rong Yu pursed his lips and looked at him with shining eyes: "I like you, I want to..."

"Go back after you finish your coffee." Qin Nansi interrupted him with a faint voice, looking out the window. His men were still waiting for Rong Yu: "Don't keep them waiting for too long!"

Rong Yu's face turned pale, and his hands hanging by his side clenched into fists involuntarily: "Why? If a person dies, he will never survive! Why don't you look for a new beginning? You obviously still have a long future...

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Why should you immerse yourself in a silent world and let sadness and numbness swallow you up?

Qin Nansi's calm eyes met his unwilling ones. After a moment of silence, a heavy voice sounded: "The only thing I can do after a long time is to miss him."

This is also the reason why he is still breathing at this moment.

He will never have the strength to love others in this life, because his heart is so filled with a man named Bai Ziyan that it is about to explode, and there is no longer any gap left for others.

"Are you going to be like this all your life?" Rong Yu stared at him quietly with wide-open black and white pupils, as if he couldn't believe it!

Qin Nansi did not speak. The relationship between him and Bai Yan did not need to be explained to others. He said concisely: "You and I are not the same kind of people."

Rong Chen and Rong Yu both like men, but he doesn't. He just likes one person, and it happens that this person is a man. It would not be the same for any other man...

Today, he finally begins to understand Bai Yan's feelings, but it's a pity that that person is no longer around. But it doesn't matter, he is wearing their wedding ring on his ring finger, and the only soul mate in his heart is Bai Yan! He

His feelings for Bai Yan were unwavering and transcended life and death! No matter whether Bai Yan was alive or dead, he never felt that he was separated from Bai Yan.

Although this belief came too late, Bai Yan had already lost all hope and despair!

Rong Yu looked at him, his eyes a little red, and his eyes fell on the ring hanging around his neck, which was a pair of rings on his finger. His heart tightened. These days, he didn't know that this man was dull and taciturn.

It’s not that I don’t know how much trouble and pain he and that person had.

What is more painful in this world than falling in love but not being able to stay together? What is more heartbreaking than saying goodbye.

He likes this man, but he still can't get into his heart.

After his uncle died, he had to take care of the entire Rong family by himself. It might be difficult for him to even see this person from now on.

He picked up the coffee cup in front of him. The coffee was already cold. He drank it in one gulp. The coldness and bitterness flowed down the esophagus, and every drop flowed into the deepest part of his heart. When he put down the empty cup, he also seemed to let go of his feelings for him.

Obsessed with love.

He stood up and bowed respectfully: "I have been taking care of you all these years. Goodbye."

Qin Nansi stared at him quietly, and pursed his thin lips into two words: "Goodbye."

Don't give to those who can't afford it, and don't force it to those who can't afford it. He is unable to respond to anyone's feelings, so naturally he will not give anyone the slightest hope. After his words fell, Rong Yu had already lowered his eyes before he walked out of the coffee shop.

He continued wiping the cup as if he was sending away a casual customer.

Rong Yu walked to the door, paused, and couldn't help but look back at him. He lowered his head and wiped the cup seriously. His eyes turned red, and he pulled his lips inexplicably with a smile that didn't mean anything. Then he opened the door and left.

How many bloody lives and how many dirty pasts have been buried in the Rong family, including his own! I came today just with the attitude of giving it a try, and the result was as expected!

That’s okay, at least there are some words, I told you! There are no regrets in this life!

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Qin Nansi continued to live his life calmly and calmly, and Rong Yu completely disappeared from his world. His former subordinates would occasionally come to his cafe to drink coffee, and when they chatted about Rong Yu, they all had the same evaluation of him.

Four words: Cruel and ruthless.

Qin Nansi always felt as if he had never heard of it. Once he saw Rong Yu in an online video. He had grown taller, and his outline became colder and clearer. There was an aura of darkness all over his body. He was no longer the same person.
To be continued...