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The love is beyond words (Rong Chen)

Chapter 331: Love is too deep to be expressed (Rong Chen)

"You bastard, you are not my son, get out of here..."

"Why should I give birth to you? It's of no use at all. I don't want you. Get out, get out..."

The burning slaps, the punches and kicks on the body, from the unbearable pain to the gradual numbness, the small body curled up on the ground, shaking constantly, and something silently flowed from the eyes...

Cold.

despair.

Mom, you can hit me, you can scold me, but you can't let me go...

Mother……

Blood flowed from the wound on the forehead, dyeing most of the face red. The smell of death spread in the moist and dark place, so strong. The pain in the body can be numb, what should I do with the pain in the heart...

"I will destroy you, destroy you forever... Hahaha..."

There is no pain when a tiny needle pricks the body, but the feeling is more desperate than death!

Why did you give birth to me? Why didn’t you love me when you gave birth to me?

Someone has been talking in my ear, buzzing like a fly. The voice is getting closer and closer, becoming clearer: "Master...Master...Master..."

Fuck you, young master!

A wave of his hand caused the man lying on the bed to slowly open his eyes due to the bone-chilling pain. It turned out that he had broken away the infusion needle while waving his hand, and at this moment, blood was flowing out continuously.

The butler standing next to him looked at him with concern: "Master, you have a nightmare."

Rong Chen reached for the paper and pressed it on the wound. The snow-white paper was quickly stained red. He glanced at him casually, and he lowered his eyes: "You keep calling Madam's name."

There was a storm in his quiet eyes. He had that dream again. When he was 12 years old, he fell into hell completely and could only live in the cold darkness forever.

That nightmare has been haunting him for so many years and is destined to last until the day he dies.

The housekeeper brought a towel and handed it to him: "Master, tomorrow is my wife's death anniversary."

"...So?" He wiped the cold sweat from his neck with a towel, his voice was cold and without any warmth.

"She is your mother after all. Go and see her!" the housekeeper said seriously.

Rong Chen threw the towel on the ground and smiled coldly: "Have you ever seen a mother infect her son with HIV?"

The housekeeper's face turned pale and he was speechless after being questioned.

"roll!"

The housekeeper sighed secretly, packed up his things and left the luxurious room.

Rong Chen got out of bed, stepped on the cold floor with his bare feet, walked to the window and opened the purple curtains with a bang. The warm sunlight quickly drove away the darkness in the room, and also made his cold and hard outline clear.

The dazzling sunlight made him subconsciously close his eyes for a few seconds. After slowly adapting, he opened his eyes and saw clearly the outside world, which was noisy, prosperous, and warm, but it had nothing to do with him.

It is already autumn, but the temperature has not dropped at all. Think about it, it will be the death anniversary of that person in a few months. How long has it been since I last visited him?

Bai Yan, Bai Ziyan, that clean and warm man. The only light and heat in his life disappeared, and he fell into the cold and dark abyss again!

Really, so lonely!

***

Rong Chen placed flowers in front of the tombstone, because his face became even paler and bloodless after having a fever. He sat next to the tombstone, smoking cigarettes one by one.

He could hardly remember how he and Bai Yan met.

Oh, it seems that one night, he got drunk, ditched the bodyguard who had been following him all day, and sat on the roadside. Sitting on the roadside in the middle of the night in the winter, there was no one but a lunatic.

In fact, in everyone's eyes, he is more terrifying than a psychopath.

He didn't know when a car stopped in front of him, and a man in a black woolen coat got out. He put a black thermos cup into Rong Chen's hand, and his elegant voice sounded in the dark night: "Drink some."

Hot water!”

Although Rong Chen drank a lot of wine, he was still very conscious. Through the dim street light, he could clearly see the face in front of him. It was delicate, clean, and gentle enough.

He didn't know what was going on, so he suddenly said: "I have HIV, are you afraid?"

Especially when the strange man was holding his hand! Rong Chen thought he would show disgust or run away like a snake, but he didn't.

"It doesn't matter, you can't infect me." He replied calmly, without a trace of panic or fear, let alone contempt and disgust, as if the man in front of him was no different from an ordinary person.

"What's your name?" Rong Chen clenched the cup in his hand, subconsciously avoiding physical contact with him.

"Bai Ziyan." He said his name faintly under the dim light, with a slight smile on his lips, like the sky and the earth shining together, the sun and the moon shining together, dazzling.

"Can you take me in for a night?" He said this in a daze, maybe because he wanted to test him, or something else, even Rong Chen himself didn't know.

Bai Ziyan was startled, he didn't expect him to say that, and he didn't speak for a while.

Seeing his surprise, Rong Chen curled his lips and sneered. He knew that no one in this world would not be afraid of him, treat him as a virus, and keep him at a distance...

"Yes, yes!" Bai Ziyan thought he might have misunderstood something, and paused: "My apartment has just been renovated, and it may be a bit messy! I hope you don't mind!"

Rong Chen was shocked!

That night he actually stayed in Bai Ziyan's apartment. Bai Ziyan even made supper for him that night. Only one of the two bedrooms had a bed and quilt. Bai Ziyan gave the room to him and made do with it on the sofa for the night.

.

Rong Chen didn't sleep on Bai Ziyan's bed, he didn't even dare to sit on it. He had never met such a person before, why wasn't he afraid of himself, why didn't he avoid himself, and why was he so kind to himself.

"Aren't you afraid that I will be infected with HIV?" The next day, Rong Chen asked him straightforwardly.

Bai Ziyan was making breakfast and looked calm. He said: "HIV mainly exists in the blood, semen, vaginal secretions, and milk of infected people and patients."

In the past, HIV was really scarier than ghosts, but now that science and medicine are advanced, HIV is not that scary, and there is no need for patients to be discriminated against!

Rong Chen stood there blankly, his faint voice hitting the deepest part of his heart every word. In so many years, no one has ever treated him with such a peaceful attitude and such a casual way...

Anyone who knew he had HIV would avoid him, as if the air around him was dirty!

Without any hesitation, he walked into the kitchen and threw all the dishes he used last night on the floor. He broke the chopsticks in half and threw them into the trash can.

Bai Ziyan was stunned: "What are you doing?"

Rong Chen's face was expressionless, and he didn't dare to look at him with his eyes lowered: "I will buy new ones to compensate you! I didn't sleep in your bed last night, so you don't need to change the sheets. And - thank you!"

As soon as Bai Ziyan finished speaking, Rong Chen had already walked out of the apartment before Bai Ziyan could react.

The sun was bright and enveloped him. His body was shaking involuntarily, his eyes were swollen and astringent, and something was trying to flow out from the corners of his eyes. He had stayed in hell for too long, and he had almost forgotten what warmth looked like.

Bai Ziyan, Bai Ziyan, this strange, clean and warm man made Rong Chen feel that he was alone and alive for the first time.

The next day, Rong Chen went to buy a set of dishes in person, and stood hesitantly at the door with the bag in hand, not daring to knock on his door. Bai Ziyan was not afraid of HIV on his body, but he was very afraid, afraid that someone might accidentally infect him with HIV.

he!

Finally, he placed the bag at his door and turned to leave.

The closed door suddenly opened. A man wearing a white shirt and black trousers stood at the door. Looking at his back, he said calmly: "Since you are here, come and have lunch with me. I am alone anyway."

Rong Chen paused in his steps and turned back to look at him with disbelieving eyes. It turned out...he had seen everything.

Bai Ziyan pursed his lips and showed a warm smile. He saw Rong Chen hesitating at his door, waiting for him to knock on the door. Unexpectedly, Rong Chen still lacked the courage in the end.

Who could have imagined that the young and decisive mafia head of the Rong family would stand there blankly at this moment, at a loss.

Bai Ziyan walked over, grabbed his wrist and pulled him directly into the house.

Such an understanding, such a warm and clean person, crashed into the depths of Rong Chen's heart from the very beginning, turning everything upside down and leaving no peace.

But Rong Chen also knew that he was not worthy of standing next to Bai Yan.

He didn't come to see Bai Yan often, only once in a while. He didn't stay here and tried to avoid physical contact with Bai Ziyan. Later, Bai Yan was busy with work and the number of meetings became less and less.

Rong Chen didn't feel disappointed at all. He already knew Bai Ziyan's identity, and he also knew who Bai Ziyan liked. He was secretly happy in his heart. Although Bai Ziyan and himself were the same kind of person, he was also very sad.

I feel sad that I will never be liked by Bai Ziyan.

He knows Bai Ziyan's secret, so naturally he won't hide his secret. Bai Ziyan is such a person, clean and gentle, who makes you unconditionally trust him and rely on him without knowing it.

He was not the heir of the Rong family, but an illegitimate son of the previous generation Rong family head. His mother worked in a nightclub and accidentally fell in love with the Rong family head. She became greedy and wanted to tie up this man, so they had sex with him.

She had tampered with the condom when she was in the hospital, so Rong Chen was born in this world.

The Rong family did not recognize this illegitimate child at all. The woman was out of shape because she gave birth to him. The Rong family did not give her much money. She worked hard to raise a child and her temper became worse and worse. She did not dare to argue with the Rong family, nor did she dare to argue with the Rong family.

Not daring to offend the people in the nightclub, he took all his anger out on Rong Chen.

Before he was twelve years old, Rong Chen's memories were of his alcoholic, promiscuous mother, being beaten, being called an illegitimate bastard, and being humiliated and tortured.

Because her mother had been selling concubines for a long time, she didn't know which man had infected her with HIV. The owner of the nightclub knew about her situation, so naturally he would not let her stay. She lost her job and was suffering from AIDS.

Chen's beatings and scoldings got worse!

On the night of her twelfth birthday, the woman went crazy again. She beat and scolded Rong Chen for no reason, almost beating him to death. She punched and kicked him with all her strength. Rong Chen was beaten and curled up on the ground, unable to hold back.

Shivering, he clenched his fists tightly.

He can endure his mother's beatings and scoldings, no matter how painful it is, it doesn't matter, as long as his mother doesn't abandon him, he only has his mother as his only relative.

His mother was extremely crazy that night. Not only did she beat and scold him, she even pricked herself with a needle and used a needle stained with her own blood to prick Rong Chen's wound in order to infect Rong Chen with AIDS.

She hated that man, and Rong Chen also hated him!

He really didn't understand at that time why his mother chose to give birth to him. Since she gave birth to him, why didn't she love him?

Rong Chen suddenly felt that it was very likely that he would not survive. That was fine, she had given her this life, so let her take it back!

Fate was not so tolerant to him. He had two broken ribs, a broken leg, forehead and arms, and injuries all over his body. He was not dead and was taken to the hospital.

My mother went crazy and jumped from the 7th floor, dying on the spot.

The man finally appeared. He took Rong Chen from the hospital to the Rong family, but did not give him any identity or care. Rong Chen was still a trash and dirty existence in the Rong family, and no one would give him a good look.

, everyone looked at him with such disgust, naked and undisguised.

Why?

Why do some people have the right to be born, but they have to suffer the fate of being abandoned first? Why are they forced to live under the shelter of others and endure humiliation and torture to survive?

Why doesn't anyone love him? If not, can he be allowed to love himself selfishly?

Let him drag these people, this filthy Rong family, to perish in hell together.

It took him half a year to get the man's attention, and five years to establish his power in the Rong family. During this period, he already knew that his mother had infected him with HIV. At that moment, he really wanted to destroy the entire world.

Those who could have given him warmth gave him nothing but coldness and despair; why did those who were his closest relatives push him into the abyss again and again!

Why exactly?

It doesn't matter, he won't let anyone know that he wants to live, because before he dies, he wants these people to die first or live worse than death!

That man's wife and son tried their best to kill him, but he survived a narrow escape. Not only did he infect each of them with HIV, but he also caused incest between mother and son. Oh, and there are those two arrogant and domineering sisters.

, Aren’t they usually very noble? Oh, then he will let them show their most lustful side, let everyone see their lustful and despicable appearance under men!

That man found out in the end that Rong Chen had done everything, and he couldn't believe it.

Rong Chen is not afraid, because this man is about to die. From now on, the Rong family belongs to him. No one dares to humiliate him anymore, and no one can ignore him anymore!

He personally pushed those who had the same blood as his into hell, and let them taste the taste of hell. Everyone died in extremely painful ways, and his hands were stained with the blood of every family member. He was an emotionless person.

The monster is the most bloodthirsty head of the Rong family in history!

Among the blood of the Rong family, he only left the second lady’s son, Rong Yu!

Rong Yu is the only clean child in the Rong family who still has kindness in his heart. After his death, the Rong family belongs to Rong Yu, regardless of whether Rong Yu accepts it or not.

***

Bai Ziyan was not surprised after knowing all this, nor did he accuse Rong Chen of being cold-blooded, bt. Those clear eyes looked at Rong Chen who was talking about the past indifferently and with a numb face, but he just felt that he was too lonely.

Rong Chen has lived too lonely for so many years.

He said: "Rong Chen, their deaths were caused by themselves and have nothing to do with you. But in the future, will you continue like this?

Rong Chen was stunned by his question. He had never thought about the future at all. Would a person like him still have the word "in the future"?

"Rong Chen, forget the past and be a good person. I believe you can do it." Bai Ziyan's beautiful facial features showed a smile, and his clear and clean eyes stared at him, the twinkling light called - trust!

From then on, Rong Chen concentrated on managing the Rong family and never killed an innocent person indiscriminately. He was even willing to secretly reach an agreement with Long Pei to protect Long Pei, because Long Pei's safety was Bai Ziyan's safety.

It's not that he hasn't looked for Bai Ziyan in these years, but he doesn't dare to stand in front of him. He's afraid that his feelings will be discovered and he will refuse outright. He's also afraid that too much contact will make him unable to control this repressed and impulsive emotion.

Feelings, and then unintentionally hurt him.

You know, in this world, the only person he doesn't want to hurt is Zi Yan.

Many lonely nights, he drove alone downstairs of Bai Ziyan's house, hiding in the darkness, quietly watching Bai Ziyan hurried in and out, seeing the soft silhouette from a distance, which made him extremely satisfied and gratified.

.

He has been watching Bai Ziyan's despair in the darkness as he was tortured by this relationship but could do nothing about it. If he had a choice, he would want Qin Nansi to die more than anyone else, but he also understood that if something happened to Qin Nansi, Bai Yan would definitely suffer the most.

That one.

Bai Ziyan is white, and Rong Chen is black. He doesn't want to pollute the white color, but if he knew that the final result would be to sacrifice Bai Ziyan's life, he would rather break Bai Ziyan's wings and imprison him than look at Bai Ziyan.

Falling deeper and deeper.

Bai Ziyan returned to New York, and Rong Chen also went there, following him secretly. Seeing him standing between heaven and earth, he couldn't explain how he felt.

If he hadn't been called back to deal with urgent matters at home, he would have stayed in New York to accompany Bai Ziyan in his own way, but he didn't know that that farewell would turn out to be an eternal farewell.

If he had known about it earlier, he would rather use the entire Rong family to destroy the whole world than let Bai Ziyan alone, let alone let those ugly and disgusting women hurt Bai Ziyan like this.

When he received the news, Bai Ziyan's body had been sent for cremation, and Gu Mingxi and Your Excellency were present throughout the process. He was born in the underworld and was not suitable to show his face. He could only be in the dark, like a shadow.

But now that his light has died and disappeared, what kind of shadow is he?

The forensic investigation results said that Bai Ziyan committed suicide due to depression. He didn't believe it because no one knew it, but he knew that Bai Ziyan would never commit suicide.

He sent many people to investigate, and after painstaking efforts, he finally targeted Qin Nansi's wife, Huang Rong. It happened that Mrs. Huang was also investigating the matter, and he knew everything.

Ye Ni left it to his wife to solve the problem, and he wanted to personally solve the problem that made Bai Ziyan unable to love, miserable and depressed - Huang Rong!

He is a beast lurking in the darkness. He puts away his sharp claws and gently weaves a romantic and beautiful dragnet. He watches Huang Rong fall into his trap step by step. You can imagine what will happen to her when she knows the truth.

How painful!

Every time he pressed on Huang Rong's body and listened to her lustful screams, he felt extremely sick, but in order to torture Huang Rong and avenge Bai Ziyan, he had to insist on continuing to feel sick...

In the end, he finally confirmed that Huang Rong fell in love with him, and his plan was completely successful. The moment he saw Huang Rong collapse, the long-suppressed depression in his heart turned into a blockage, and the sin finally bloomed the most gorgeous flower in the darkness, with a fragrant fragrance.

After that, life became calm and boring again. No one dared to approach him, no one understood him, and there was no one to even talk to him! Hearing that Qin Nansi was doing well, he took his son and opened a coffee shop.

He couldn't help but go take a look, and when he saw Qin Nansi, he couldn't help but say hurtful words...

Bai Ziyan was killed by him, why did he still have the nerve to live in this world and live so well! Every time he was provoked, humiliated and embarrassed again and again, Qin Nansi never reacted, as if he had never listened.

to the same.

Rong Chen vaguely understood that Qin Nansi was also dead, and his heart died with Bai Ziyan!

It turns out that when Bai Ziyan died, the person who suffered the most was not himself, so that's fine, that's fine.

***

When he heard the news of Huang Rong's death, his heart was empty. In the past few years, he was filled with anger and hatred, trying every means to torture her. Seeing her become more painful every time, he felt happy in his heart.

But when Huang Rong died, what should he do, and who should he direct his hatred towards? After Huang Rong died, he had no one left to hate.

Lingding was so drunk that she didn't know why she wanted to go to Qin Nansi's shop. Maybe she felt that there would be no reason to see him in the future.

Sometimes, crying is not sadness, it is just a kind of empty emotional catharsis.

Before dawn, he went to Bai Ziyan's cemetery and sat next to the tombstone for the whole day. At night, he was taken back by his subordinates. He slept in a warm bed, with the book Bai Ziyan gave him when they first met on the bedside.

That black thermos cup.

That night, he slept peacefully. There was no bloody death or killing.

He had a dream.

I dreamed that the clean man with a warm smile said: "In the next life, remember to be a good person."

In your next life, be a good person.

He woke up in the warm sunshine and recited a sentence silently: In the next life, remember to be a good person.

That morning, for the first time in his life, he burst into tears and burst into tears.

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Young Master: This is the first time I have written a bl that ended in tragedy, and it is also the last time I have written a bl. I have always felt that it is difficult for people to live in this world, and it is even harder for people like Bai Yannansi to live. If you have Bai Yan around you

With Nan Si, even if you can't bless them, please don't hurt them.


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