After returning home, Sang Zhi put on her slippers and sat back in her original position.
Sang Rong and Liping were still in the living room, not talking much. One was watching TV and the other was reading a book. There was only the cheerful sound of the TV in the room, which was not much different from the atmosphere just now.
Li Ping looked up at her and asked casually: "You're back so soon?"
Sang Zhi took a cherry tomato from the fruit bowl and stuffed it into her mouth. She reached out and took off her coat and said, "Send it to the gate of the community. Brother Jia Xu will let me come back."
Liping nodded and didn't ask any more questions.
Sang Zhi bit the fruit and rolled her eyes around Sang Rong and Liping. She felt that Duan Jiaxu performed quite well, so she asked cautiously: "Mom and Dad, what do you think?"
Liping's eyes returned to the TV: "What is it like?"
"It's been years since we last met," Sang Zhi whispered. "Now that we have met, we have talked about so many things. Have your attitudes changed?"
Sang Rong smiled and said, "Young man is quite nice."
Sang Zhi quickly agreed: "Yes, he is a very nice person."
"He is indeed very good. He is very good in all aspects. Even though we didn't meet him a few times when we were in college, I feel that he will definitely have a future." Sang Rong's eyes were still on the book, and his voice sounded
Very kindly, "It must be uncomfortable for a person to come here alone after so many years."
Sang Zhi paused and pursed his lower lip.
Sang Rong didn't mention it further, but suddenly changed the topic and laughed: "I heard your mother say before that when you first met Duan Jiaxu, you were not ashamed to cry in front of others."
Li Ping also laughed: "I was crying because I thought I was doing something, but I ended up making trouble with Ayan."
When they mentioned it like this, Sang Zhi also felt embarrassed: "Then I'm not young, am I?"
"I've been thinking about things from the past lately. When you were a child, you were not in good health." Sang Rong put down the book in his hand, as if reminiscing, "At that time, I was either allergic or had a fever.
Your mother went to the hospital every day and saw that you were crying all the time, and in the end you didn’t even have the energy to cry."
Liping also turned off the TV.
"We feel uncomfortable watching it, but there is no other way. Your brother was young at that time and didn't welcome your presence. I feel that after we have you, we won't care about him much." Sang Rong said.
He smiled and said, "I also wrote in my weekly diary that I would rather have a dog at home than this sister."
Sang Zhi felt unhappy for a moment.
Before she could say anything, Sang Rong said again: "But when you were in the hospital, he couldn't see you, and he came to us to look for you every day. He lied to him that he had thrown you away, and even made him cry on the spot."
"..." Sang Zhi licked her lips, "Why do you say this all of a sudden?"
"It's quite interesting when I think about it. It feels like it just happened yesterday." Sang Rong said, "As a result, you and your brother are about to get married now."
Sang Zhi said in embarrassment: "I'm still early."
Sang Rong sighed softly: "It's just that dad is not an authoritarian person. He doesn't have the idea of being superior to others just because our family's conditions are not bad. It doesn't mean that he thinks no one is worthy of my daughter.
No matter who wants to be with you, I will definitely find something wrong with them."
"..."
"It's not that we just can't endure hardship." Sang Rong said, "It's just that we are not willing to let you endure hardship at all. I am afraid that you will have a bad life in the future. I have this worry all the time."
There was a lump in Sang Zhi's throat.
"I'm just an ordinary person, and I have the same thoughts as all the fathers in the world." Sang Rong said, "I hope that my children will have a smooth life and live a safe and happy life."
Sang Zhi said softly: "I know."
"I originally wanted to hide it from you, but I was afraid that if you found out later, you would be unhappy and blame us." Sang Rong took off his glasses and murmured, "Today, dad said something to Jia Xu."
"..." Sang Zhi was stunned and opened his lips subconsciously.
"I mentioned to him all the things that I am concerned about now and what I think should be said. Maybe these words will hurt him to a certain extent. But he should also seriously consider your future because of this.
." Sang Rong said, "You may think it's just a relationship and you don't need to think about it so much for the time being. But if it's not suitable, dad thinks-"
"..."
"It's better for you to end it as soon as possible."
As soon as he said this, the room fell into silence.
Sang Zhi suddenly understood what they meant.
Perhaps because they were worried about her emotions, they never said it clearly. They just said they disapproved, but they would not stop it. But what they really hoped for was probably that she and Duan Jiaxu could end it.
After a while.
Sang Zhi said: "I just can't endure hardship at all."
"..."
"I feel unhappy when someone scolds me, and I don't feel happy when I can't eat what I want. Only when I have no choice will I do something I don't like but must do." Sang Zhi said.
The voice was very soft, "So, it's because I'm very happy to be with him and I don't feel hard at all, so I keep saying these things in front of you."
Li Ping touched her head and said nothing.
"I'm still in college. I don't mean to fall in love and get married right away." Sang Zhi said, "There is still so much time, and I can often bring him back to show you so that you can understand what kind of person he is.
.”
Sang Rong looked at her and hummed seriously.
"I'm not asking you to accept him immediately and like him immediately." Sang Zhi breathed out, "I just want you not to care too much about his family affairs, because this is not a choice he can make."
"..."
"In other respects, it doesn't matter what opinions you have." Sang Zhi said, "As long as you are fair to him."
The conversation between the three was interrupted by Sang Yan's arrival.
Sang Zhi felt a little depressed and returned to the room. She sat on the bed, dazed, thinking about Duan Jiaxu's reaction just now. Her thoughts were chaotic and she was thinking about a lot of things.
After a while, Sang Zhi sniffed and called Duan Jiaxu.
The other end immediately picked up the answer, and his tone was the same as usual: "What's wrong?"
Sang Zhi picked up the pillow on the bed and stuffed it into her arms. She lowered her eyes and stared at a point in the void. She didn't know what to say and didn't say a word.
"Why don't you speak?" Duan Jiaxu's voice was casual, "Did you press it accidentally?"
Only then did Sang Zhi say: "No."
Duan Jiaxu didn't ask any more questions. He chuckled and mentioned other things: "You earn a lot as a tutor, and this red envelope is like a brick."
"It's not that exaggerated."
"I'll give you one next time," Duan Jiaxu said carelessly, "I didn't pay attention and forgot that we can still receive red envelopes at our age."
Sang Zhi was not in the mood to joke with him. Hearing his tone, she felt even more confused. She didn't hesitate anymore and asked, "Did my dad say anything to you today?"
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds.
Soon, Duan Jiaxu said: "It's really nothing."
"My father told me all." Sang Zhi didn't know exactly what Sang Rong said, so he only managed to say, "Don't be unhappy."
"What are you thinking about? Why are you not happy?" Duan Jiaxu said, "I really didn't say anything bad. Your parents are very nice. They just raised some concerns with me."
Sang Zhi asked in a low voice: "Then what did they say?"
"It seems that you think I'm too old and it would be embarrassing for you to take me out."
"..." Sang Zhi frowned, "Can you be more serious? I'm asking you very seriously."
"The uncle and aunt talked to me so much all night," Duan Jiaxu laughed, "I don't know what you are asking about, right?"
This was obviously not what he intended to say.
He didn't want to say it, and Sang Zhi stopped asking.
Her mood was a little low, and she said incoherently: "Anyway, don't be unhappy. My parents mainly treat me as a child, and are afraid that I will meet bad people, just like my brother... I need to replace them
If you don't know me, they'll probably say more. And what they say doesn't represent what I think."
Duan Jiaxu: "Yeah."
"Also, no matter what others say about your father, it really has nothing to do with you at all. Don't worry about it." Sang Zhi doesn't know how to comfort others, so he can only say what he wants to say, "I
I will talk to them again..."
"I know." Duan Jiaxu said, "Don't mention it to them. It's rare to take a vacation and get along with your parents. Don't let this affect your mood."
"..."
"Don't worry," Duan Jiaxu's voice became very soft, like a whisper, "I'll think about it again."
Sang Zhi was stunned, and just when she was about to ask him what he was thinking about, there was a sudden knock on the door, and Sang Yan's voice came: "Mom made soup and asked you to go out and drink it."
She raised her eyes and subconsciously responded: "Okay."
Duan Jiaxu obviously heard it too: "Go and drink, don't let them wait."
Sang Zhi was silent for a moment, not knowing how to ask what happened just now, so she just said oh and repeated: "Then don't be unhappy."
A long time had passed since Sang Zhi finished drinking the soup and came back from washing up. She took out her phone again and opened WeChat. After hesitating for a long time, she entered the sentence in the chat window with Duan Jiaxu: [You just said to think about it.
, what are you considering?】
I stayed at this interface for a while.
Sang Zhi silently deleted all the words and changed them into two words: [Good night.]
She turned off the light and lay on the bed, with these words echoing in her mind.
I'll think about it again.
think about it.
consider.
Both Sang Rong and Duan Jiaxu said they raised some concerns.
What are you worried about?
Is it an age issue, or is it something about his father?
But there is no way to change these two. Then the only thing left is Duan Jiaxu's economic conditions.
But he is not considered poor.
That is, he may not be able to afford a house for the time being, but if he works hard for a few more years, and then she comes to work, it won't be a big problem.
So what does Duan Jiaxu have to consider?
It can’t be...
Sang Zhi forcefully took back the thought that was about to come to her.
Staring at the ceiling, Sang Zhi's eyes were numb, and she suddenly felt out of breath. She sat up, a layer of mist appeared in front of her eyes, and she forced it back.
At this moment, all the determination and unyieldingness became unclear.
In fact, Sang Zhi feels that one day, her parents will definitely change their minds. In a short period of time, she will be distressed because she doesn't know what to do, but she is not too worried about things that they do not support.
But she was a little afraid of Duan Jiaxu's thoughts.
Sang Zhi knew very well that he cared about this matter very much.
So he mentioned this matter to her on the first day they were together, and he also cared about whether she minded. Even he knew very well that this matter had nothing to do with him at all.
But I still feel humbled by it.
It was an extremely deep-rooted thought, and it was a fact that he couldn't change.
Sang Zhi will be worried because if Sang Rong and Liping talk tonight, he will really feel that he is not good enough.
Could it be because she started to feel stressed?
Could it be that he gave in because of his gratitude to Sang Rong and their opposition?
Could it be that he really doesn’t intend to be with her anymore?
Will you really give up?
Sang Zhi pursed her lips hard. Holding back the lump in her throat, she picked up the phone again, wanting to say something to him, hoping that he would not be sad and not pay too much attention to this matter.
Don't start thinking about what he said to think about again.
At this moment, Sang Zhi felt powerless and weak to the extreme.
Sang Zhi felt that she could be good to him all her life, and hoped that he would no longer be unhappy or hurt because of what happened in the past.
But he seemed to be hurt again because of her.
She slowly put down her phone.
Sang Zhi's thoughts were lost and he suddenly remembered.
Downstairs in the community where Duan Jiaxu lived before, she expressed her feelings cautiously and solemnly. His eyes were dyed with light, and he reached out to hug her and kissed her forehead.
Then, he said with great care: "Well, I like you very much too."
The next day, Sang Zhi was taken by Li Ping to visit relatives again early in the morning. Noticing that her mind was not here, Li Ping did not force her and found a reason to let her go back.
After coming out of her relatives' house, Sang Zhi went to find Duan Jiaxu.
Since he was going to work on the seventh day of the Lunar New Year, he didn't plan to stay long. He had booked a flight back to Yihe tonight.
Duan Jiaxu's expression remained the same, as if he was really not affected.
Sang Zhi emphasized a few more words to him, asking him not to be unhappy. He put on a funny face and said, "Why are you coaxing a child?"
Before getting on the plane, Duan Jiaxu thought for a while, took the initiative to comfort her, and then said: "I will spend the New Year here well, play for a while, and then go back to school."
Sang Zhi nodded absently: "Yeah."
"It will take several months to go." Duan Jiaxu said playfully, "Don't cry because of homesickness."
Sang Zhi stared at him and moved her lips, wanting to ask something, but was afraid of getting a bad answer. She fell silent and just nodded again.
Sang Zhi didn't know what she was worried about, but she just didn't dare to ask what he was thinking about. She was extremely vigilant and felt that as long as she didn't ask, it would remain like this.
She felt like she had become a pessimist.
You can only think of the bad side of everything.
But if she thinks too much, Sang Zhi will feel that she is scaring herself.
If Duan Jiaxu really had such thoughts, he would definitely not have such an attitude now.
Sometimes, many ideas will change because of some normal little things. After Duan Jiaxu returned to Yihe, he became very busy and had less and less contact with Sang Zhi.
This is actually a very normal thing in normal times.
Not only after the New Year, Duan Jiaxu also often had to work overtime before and was always busy. Sometimes she would look for him and he wouldn't reply immediately, and Sang Zhi wouldn't care too much.
But during this period of time, Sang Zhi always thought about his words "I'll think about it again", and all the emotions kept accumulating, like a balloon that was constantly being filled with air and was about to explode in the next moment.
Combined with his behavior like this.
Sang Zhi would wonder if he was avoiding her.
Are you really considering it?
Do you want to separate?
That night, Sang Zhi slept extremely uneasily.
She had a dream one night.
She dreamed that Jiang Ying appeared in front of her again and said to her: "Are you really going to break up? It doesn't matter. Duan Jiaxu won't be too sad. He will think that you can find a better one."
She dreamed that she didn't go into the kitchen to help Liping that day, and then saw Duan Jiaxu's frozen smile after hearing Sang Rong's words.
In the dream, Duan Jiaxu said mockingly: "I'm afraid you'll mind."
In the dream, he smiled and said, "I think your parents are good people. They helped me like that, and I can't be sorry to them."
All the pictures intertwined and seemed real in this illusion. In the end, Sang Zhi dreamed that that night, he did not accept the red envelope from her and whispered: "Maybe it's better to forget it."
The next moment, Sang Zhi opened her eyes and woke up.
Sang Zhi covered her heart, her head still blank, feeling confused after a dream. She couldn't remember what dream she had just had, and she couldn't remember it no matter how hard she thought about it.
After a while.
A huge feeling of emptiness occupied her whole body. Sang Zhi grabbed the quilt and suddenly began to shed tears, and she could not restrain the sobs in her throat. Afraid of disturbing Sang Rong and Li Ping next door, she could only use her best strength.
Endure it with all your strength.
Sang Zhi picked up the phone and wanted to call Duan Jiaxu.
Noticing the time, she stopped moving and watched the screen gradually go out with extremely blurred vision.
I do not know how long it has been.
Sang Zhi wiped away her tears with determination, turned on her phone again, and booked the nearest flight back to Yihe.
Sang Zhi could only book a flight at ten o'clock the next night. After waking up, she told her parents that there was something unexpected at school and she planned to go back early.
After lunch, Sang Zhi started to pack her luggage. When she saw the milk bottle on the window sill, her eyes stopped and she walked over to pick it up.
She poured out the stars inside.
To this day, Sang Zhi still remembers that she used the star paper to write down her original feelings, and then put it in the bottle.
Sang Zhi reached out and picked up the two stars of the same color inside and put them into his pocket.
When the time was almost up, Sang Rong drove her to the airport.
Sang Zhi went through the security check alone and waited in the terminal. Hesitantly sent a WeChat message to Duan Jiaxu, but waited for a while without receiving a reply.
She pursed her lips, but still didn't tell him that she was going back to Yihe now.
Got on the plane and sat in the aisle seat.
Sang Zhi put on her seat belt. At this moment, she suddenly remembered that when she was in her first year of high school, she secretly ran to Yihe to find him. It was also like now, she bought a flight ticket at last minute.
Most of the better locations have been picked out.
That wasn't her first time flying, but it was her first time traveling so far alone.
Pretend that you are not afraid of anything, pretend that you do not feel uneasy, pretend that you are extremely brave, and do not feel sorry for any result you get.
Just go and see him.
Sang Zhi put her hand into her pocket and touched the two stars she had just stuffed into it. She closed her palms and quickly released them, as if she had decided on something.
Three hours later, Sang Zhi got off the plane. She took out her mobile phone, turned it on, dragged her suitcase, and walked toward the exit, when Duan Jiaxu called.
Sang Zhi picked up.
"Just, I just heard from your brother that you will go back to school today?" Duan Jiaxu's voice came from the receiver, "Don't you just come back on Saturday?"
Sang Zhi whispered: "Yeah."
"Are you here?" Duan Jiaxu paused, "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I wanted to tell you." Sang Zhi's voice was muffled, "but you ignored me."
"Something happened during this period. I didn't check my phone much. It's not that I ignored you." Duan Jiaxu said, "I've arrived at the airport. Where are you?"
"The chair next to exit T3."
"Yeah." Duan Jiaxu coaxed, "Just wait there."
Sang Zhi sat down and took out the two stars from her pocket. She rubbed her eyes and thought very firmly that she would not cry this time.
About five or six minutes later, Sang Zhi saw Duan Jiaxu coming over.
Duan Jiaxu walked up to Sang Zhi, took off his coat and wrapped it around her: "You have been in Nanwu for a long time, and you don't know the temperature here in Yihe anymore?"
Sang Zhi stared at him.
Duan Jiaxu raised his eyebrows: "What's wrong?"
Sang Zhi lowered his head and handed him the paper star in his hand.
Seeing this, Duan Jiaxu took it over: "What is this?"
Something she had always wanted to hide.
Things I don’t want him to know in this life.
In her opinion, she was in an extremely embarrassed state, like a defeated general.
In this relationship, Sang Zhi had extremely low self-esteem. She felt that there was no equality, so she wanted others to think that Duan Jiaxu was the one who was more emotionally invested.
She wanted him to think so too.
She hoped that he could never leave her.
"Do you remember the time I came to Yihe as a freshman in high school?" Sang Zhi raised his eyes again and said seriously, "I said that time I was looking for an online dating partner."
"Well, why did you mention this suddenly?"
"Actually, I'm not looking for an online dating partner."
"..."
"I don't have any online dating partners." Sang Zhi actually didn't want to cry at all. She thought it would be too embarrassing to cry, but she choked up inexplicably as she spoke, "I came here to find you at that time."
As if he didn't understand what she said, Duan Jiaxu half-crouched in front of her: "What?"
"I heard from my brother that you have a girlfriend." Sang Zhi didn't dare to look at him, and she finished her words while holding back her tears, "I stole my ID card and bought a plane ticket to come here."
"..."
"I didn't. I only fell in love with you after I went to college and came to Yihe." Sang Zhi wiped her tears with the back of her hand and couldn't continue, "I lied to you. I was afraid that you would think that I..."
I tell you everything.
I'll tell you everything.
In this case, can you know that you are good?
Can you please, because I like you so much, don’t be swayed by anyone’s words, don’t feel bad about yourself, and stay with me forever.
I like you, I like you very much.
It lasted for nearly seven years.
From her youth, to the present, and even her entire future.
Sang Zhi was extremely certain that she would never be able to like someone so much like this.
Duan Jiaxu felt extremely at a loss for the first time.
Don't know how to react at all.
His Adam's apple slid up and down, and he suddenly understood something. He lowered his eyes, slowly took apart the two stars in his hand, and saw the writings left on them.
Tender and green.
——"Although I don't want to admit it, I seem to really like someone."
——"His name is Duan,jiā,xu."
Do you believe?
When you still don’t know which character your name corresponds to.
I just fell in love with you.
The author has something to say: Good night, my dears.
I'm stuck, I'm sorry everyone. This chapter draws 100 red envelopes.