Hong Yanwu grew up among the crowded people of the Republic.
People of his generation have never left the group since they were born. Family, school, workplace, even in a labor camp or squatting on a fence, they all live a collective life. They are always in a noisy and high-density crowd.
Tired of the small living space.
Therefore, in the past, his understanding of loneliness and isolation was very superficial. He did not expect that compared with a life of hunger, poverty, and discrimination, the real feeling of loneliness and loneliness was so terrible.
The first time he experienced this feeling was when he was "locked in a small cell" (a small cell that is about three meters high and about eighty centimeters wide, and about one and a half meters long) used to confine prisoners.
Before entering the "single cell" in prison, he had never tried to live alone in a fixed environment without communication.
The reason why he was placed in solitary confinement was because the cell space was so small that he was squeezed by the prisoners around him and became agitated and frantic. This pain caused him to yell and curse loudly in public. "It's so annoying! Let me clean up for a while!"
I don't know which god was at work. As soon as he heard his wish, he immediately fulfilled his wish. As a result, he was taken to a separate "single room" to be "clean" and "at ease".
There, he couldn't see anyone for a day. Five days later, he experienced the feeling of going crazy for the first time. At that time, he thought, if Mr. Ma outside (slang, "Master Ma's three eyes" refers to the police) had
With this power, you can lock up a suspect like this for a month at any time, and you have to recruit anyone.
But at this time, even with all his brains, he could not imagine that at the age of fifty-two, he would actually get worse and experience this feeling again.
In the first month after returning from the hospital, Hong Yanwu couldn't even turn over in bed. I don't know what kind of medicine Gao Ming injected into him, which caused his body to weaken rapidly. It was completely a symptom of a stroke.
There is no TV, no books or newspapers here, and no outsiders can be seen except for the couple who are guarding him. The couple are also very rude to him, except for scolding and insulting, they don’t say a word. They only feed him porridge and often goof off.
Or forget. Since he was locked up here, he has never had a serious meal, so that he often suffers from insomnia due to hunger. When he has insomnia, the empty bedroom is so quiet that he can only hear his own heartbeat.
Like a vegetative person, stupid and dazed.
In this way, he was tortured by hunger, loneliness, and isolation at the same time every day. It was not until a month later that he initially recovered his ability to move. But by then, his body had been ruined and turned into a useless person. He could not even get up and go to the ground.
Difficult.
From this time on, Lawyer Wu would come here every week to persuade him. Although he was tortured and wanted to agree, his reason told him that wealth was the guarantee of his life. If he agreed, his life would be gone.
He was not stupid, so he simply responded with a line from "Taking Tiger Mountain by Wisdom", "Want money? None! Want food? You guys have already robbed them all! Want life? One!" So, he still saved his life.
, continue to live in this room day and night.
In the days that followed, he was so depressed that he went crazy. He lost weight day by day, and his spirit became weaker and weaker day by day. He tried every means to persist, reminding himself that he could not follow the wishes of these people. He began to recall the movies and TV series he had watched.
, and also recalled the books I had read to make myself feel better.
"Torture is the enemy's weapon. Cowardly people lose their spines under the torture tools, but strong party members want to break this superstition..."
"I know the names of superiors and I also know the names of subordinates, but the party rules prohibit telling the enemy..."
As his thoughts flew by, he remembered lines that were so familiar that they were so familiar. The images of Xu Yunfeng and Sister Jiang jumped out of his mind. They were from the movie he had watched countless times when he was a child, including "Eternal Life in the Fire".
hero.
Soon, in his imagination, the SS Major "Khan Dies Madly Dies More" from the Albanian movie "Better Die Than Surrender" also appeared.
"Sweat death, madness, death, death" said to the little girl Mira in prison: "Life is beautiful, girl. Life is only once for us. The sun is shining outside and people are enjoying the endless fun of life, but you are here
If you suffer in the women's cell, you will die."
The beautiful Mira chose to die. The theme song sounded at this time, "Hurry up the mountain, warriors, we join the guerrillas in the spring, the enemy's doom is coming, and our motherland will win freedom and liberation..."
In this way, it seemed to have become a habit, and he was reminded of several familiar Chinese and foreign heroes one by one. The heroes also told him countless times that the enemies wanted to isolate him and kill him. They hoped that he would collapse and beg for mercy.
, in order to control his destiny at will. And the temperament of a martyr is to always firmly believe that the darkness will eventually pass!
But...can he do it? How long can he persist?
The method of confinement was indeed much gentler than being tortured, but it also tested people's mental limits more. And in his sleep, he could not escape being captured by the enemy and executed to extract a confession.
Before the execution, the enemy first killed one of his companions, and then tortured him. Chili pepper water, tiger stool, leather whip, soldering iron... a series of tasks were all the same, but he resisted them all, and he didn't
How scared he felt. But in the end, a beautiful female officer appeared among the enemies, and she seemed to have a great liking for him.
He knew it was a "sugar-coated cannonball", and he wanted to peel off the sugar-coating and eat it as planned, and then hit the cannonball back. But the female officer was charming, sweet, and extremely seductive, and the methods she used were so in line with his wishes.
The lights were bright, the wine was green, and the moonlight was sultry. He finally lost control and told everything he knew. Then there was a sound of glass shattering, and the enemies rushed in frantically to drag him out and shoot him...
When he woke up completely, he was very glad that all this had not really happened. But the fear of surviving the disaster and the panic of facing death made it difficult for him to let go for a long time.
Then, he remembered the rebellion in his dream and wanted to slap himself in the mouth.
She actually dropped her chain for a bitch, she has no future no matter what, it’s so obvious!
But then he couldn't help but wonder, if this really happened, would he rebel and surrender to the enemy?
"Gurgling", a burst of gastrointestinal peristalsis.
No need to think about it, the answer is yes.
He is not a martyr, and a hero is not something anyone can become if they want to. If there is no hope of living, a roast duck can make him lose his armor.
The days of being imprisoned continued for a long time, and all the things that could not be hit with eight poles were remembered.
Originally, I was trapped in this bed, unable to move my hands and feet at all. In this situation, the only thing that can still be used is the brain, and only memories and fantasies are unrestricted.
When Hong Yanwu played "Swordsman" in his mind, he was surprised to find that his experience was just like a replica of Ren Woxing. The difference was that Ren Woxing was remembered for his star-absorbing magic and the position of leader.
, and what Gao Ming asked him for was equity and legal person status. What's more, he was also missing, but Ren Woxing and his good buddy Xiang Wentian came to rescue him, but he didn't even have anyone he could count on.
If Izumi was here...
As soon as he thought of this name, a voice immediately sounded in his heart.
Dead! Quanzi is dead! He has been dead for a long time!
But it was useless to deny it. In his mind, a face similar to that of a suburban farmer still appeared in his mind. It had clear cheekbones and thick black lips. The two wide, bulging eyes were large and lifeless, and the expression was always numb and dull.
Chen Liquan is not good-looking, but Chen Liquan is the only good buddy who doesn't care about his family background and has always been with him. They are Ciqi (in dialect, referring to close buddies) and Faxiao (in dialect, referring to growing up together).
friends), or brothers. They kowtowed together and worshiped Master Yu as their master, learned wrestling together, and were arrested for fighting together.
On the day of the accident, he asked Chen Liquan to go to Chengdong District with him to start a fight (a slang term for fighting for superiority) in order to help Gao Ming break out (a slang term for standing up for others) and kill an old man from North City.
Pao'er (a slang term referring to an experienced old gangster) "holds Dongdan".
At that time, he took this job only because Gao Ming, who was born in the General Staff Complex, promised to help him find a job. Chen Liquan, who was already working at the coal station, had long been worried about his lack of work, so he followed him without any hesitation.
"Zhendong Dan" was well-known and had some dirty tricks. He gained his fame through his almost crazy ruthlessness. However, they were a group of four people who worked together, but they were still no match for him and Chen Liquan. In the end, the group was beaten to a pulp.
He was running around, accidentally entered a dead end, and was blocked in a side passage under a simple building in Dongsi.
He is used to being strong and arrogant, so naturally he will be killed unless Zhendongdan and the others are willing to kneel down and call him grandpa.
In the martial arts world, it is important to lose face when losing, and as long as the old Paoer lowers his head, he will no longer be praised. "Zhendong Dan" was so anxious that he took out a snake brand oar from his waist, pointed the gun at him, and wanted to
He gave way.
At that time, there was no law prohibiting guns in the Republic, and cold weapons were worshiped in the world, and very few people used guns. Even if they were occasionally used, they were mostly five-shot shotguns and home-made powder guns. Exquisite pocket-sized guns like the German Sauer
Pistols are really rare.
Therefore, he took it for granted that "Zhen Dongdan" was just threatening him with a toy gun, and he would continue to attack if he stepped forward.
"Zhendongdan" suddenly got mad and pulled the trigger with a ferocious smile.
At this critical moment, someone suddenly bumped into him.
Under a strong force, he fell to the ground instantly. Then, in his daze, he heard several crackling sounds like firecrackers.
When he got up again, everyone was gone. Only Chen Liquan was seen lying crookedly under the dim light, with three bloody holes in his chest and abdomen. Only then did he realize that it was Chen Liquan who had saved him.
When he picked up Chen Liquan, Chen Liquan was speechless. He spurted blood when he opened his mouth. But the bullet holes in his body slowly stopped bleeding and began to foam. "Plop", "Plop"! It looked like three more sprouts.
Stomata!
He began to slap Chen Liquan in the face, fearing that he would not wake up again if he fell asleep, but the person in his arms still inevitably had straight eyes and was in a trance.
Chen Liquan's bulging eyes would shed tears, so he shed them.
What man bleeds but doesn’t shed tears? That’s all fucking bullshit!
Full of regret, he slapped himself hard in the mouth.
"Izumi! I'm sorry! It's all my fault!"
What did he feel sorry for Quanzi? Should he ask Quanzi to help? Or should he not be careless?
Should people like them not be born? Or is it impossible for them to live well at all?
Shouldn't he expect to have a job? No!
What exactly went wrong?
He doesn’t understand either!
Quanzi may understand!
The side intersection is the road. When a car occasionally passes by, the cold light cuts across his face like a razor, and also across Chen Liquan's face.
He had no choice but to hold Chen Liquan tightly in his arms and cry. His tears shed everything he knew, what he didn't understand, what he was confused about, what he feared, what was right and what was wrong on Chen Liquan's cold body. He
The cries echoed in the side passage, and soon the residents upstairs couldn't bear it anymore, and opened the windows one after another to curse...
After Chen Liquan was pushed into the emergency room, the police came and took him away from the hospital.
The next day, in the detention center, he saw the bloody clothes that made his spine tingle. After hearing the sad news, he suddenly realized that he could not afford to fight any fight.
The nature of this shooting case is egregious. For the capital police, gun-related cases are important cases that must be solved. Therefore, only half a month after the incident, the "Zhendongdan" who was hiding in Mentougou was caught by the law, and the Snake Brand Luzi also escaped from the woods.
It was confiscated from the bird's nest. During the interrogation, "Zhendongdan" confessed the source of the gun. It turned out that it was during the "Ten Years' Movement" and the boy's private belongings were confiscated from his home. Two months later, "Zhendongdan" was executed
Shooting.
The matter was over now, but he still had nightmares for a long time. The dreams were all about Chen Liquan lying in his arms and gushing blood, which made him often break out in cold sweats and wake up screaming. Therefore, he
He began to try his best to drive Chen Liquan out of his mind, and did not dare to think about it again. He did not even want to see people with the same bulging eyes, and he never interacted with them, and kept them at a distance.
Although I feel sorry for Chen Liquan, a dead person will not care about his brother's loyalty.
It's better to just forget about it.
After that, he never had any real friends.
From now on, more and more guns can be freely bought and sold, and the era of cold weapons in the world has come to an end.