Li Qi stood in front of the Qin Mansion with an anxious face, banging the door hard and mumbling something.
After a while, the door opened. Aunt Chen who opened the door saw Li Qi back and said happily: "Sir, you are finally back."
Li Qi didn't wait for her to finish her words before he strode in and said, "Where is Madam now?"
"Oh, Madam is in the garden."
As soon as Aunt Chen finished speaking, Li Qi rushed directly towards the garden.
"Hey, hey, sir, that."
Aunt Chen seemed to want to say something else, but Li Qi had already gone very far.
Li Qi was extremely anxious now. Even if he was given another chance, he never expected that Mrs. Qin could not look away. Moreover, the matter did not seem to be serious enough. He was shocked, scared and angry.
The garden of the Qin Mansion is not big, but it is Madam Qin’s favorite place to stay. All the flowers in it are planted by her herself. Therefore, the Qin Mansion also has an unwritten rule that ordinary people can’t do anything without Madam Qin’s permission.
He would never go to the garden. Even Li Qi went there once, but in the end he was kicked out by Mrs. Qin who called her rude.
As soon as he entered the garden, Li Qi faintly saw a concave and convex figure standing in the only pavilion in the garden. With this excellent figure that even the loose long skirt of the Northern Song Dynasty could not hide, he knew that without asking.
It must be Mrs. Qin.
Li Qi was about to step forward when he suddenly heard an anxious male voice, "Why? Sanniang, why are you doing this?"
Zheng Yi?
Li Qi was stunned and stopped suddenly. He turned his head and took a closer look. He saw that there was indeed a trembling figure standing behind Mrs. Qin. It was just because of the angle that it was blocked by the pillars, so Li Qi was not there for the moment.
He didn't notice it. When he reacted, he quickly turned sideways and squatted down among the flowers nearby. He didn't care about eavesdropping anymore. He just wanted to know the reason why Mrs. Qin wanted to become a monk. In fact, if the other party hadn't been Zheng Zheng.
Yi, he has already walked up.
Then Mrs. Qin sighed softly and said, "Second brother, that troublesome girl Xiaotao told you."
"None of this is important. I just want to know why you did this? Is it because my aunt wants me to go to Zuixianju to help?"
Mrs. Qin smiled bitterly and said, "I really didn't expect my mother to tell you so soon."
"It's not important. Not to mention that I may not go. Even if I want to go, I will come to discuss it with you in advance. Why do you have to do this?"
Mrs. Qin sighed: "Second brother, whether I become a monk or not has nothing to do with this matter. In fact, I had this idea more than a year ago, but then Li Qi came suddenly, so I didn't go.
It really has nothing to do with you."
Day. I didn’t expect that I traveled so quickly. God couldn’t have specially sent me to stop Mrs. Qin from becoming a monk. This is ridiculous. It seems that God was moved by Mrs. Qin’s beauty. Li Qi heard this too.
I felt scared for a while, but at the same time I was even more curious. Why did Mrs. Qin want to become a monk in this golden age?
Zheng Yi suddenly laughed, his laughter full of self-mockery. After a moment, he said: "Really? Then why do you want to say you want to become a monk at this time?"
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As soon as Mrs. Qin said a word, Zheng Yi interrupted her and said: "That's right. I admit that I really miss you, and I came back this time because of you, but I thought you should understand me. I absolutely
I won't force you to do anything that will make you unhappy. If I wanted to make trouble, I would have made it in the first place, so why would I wait until today?"
Mrs. Qin shook her head gently and sighed: "Second brother, why are you doing this?"
"What's the trouble for me? I also want to ask you, what's the trouble for you? Qin Mo has been gone for many years, why can't you let go, why do you still remember him, why am I not even a stranger in your eyes?
Even worse than a dead man, I ask myself that I have never done anything sorry to you." Zheng Yi became more and more excited as he spoke, and his voice suddenly became louder.
When Mrs. Qin heard the last sentence, she couldn't help but became furious and said in a deep voice: "Second brother, please respect yourself."
Zheng Yi closed his eyes and said with a hint of sobs in his voice: "I'm sorry. But there is a question that has been hidden in my heart for a long time. I have been thinking hard, but I have never been able to find the answer. Now that I have said this today, I still have a question.
I hope Sanniang can give me the answer."
Mrs. Qin seemed to know what he wanted to ask, and said: "Things have been in the past for a long time, why are you still clinging to the past?"
Zheng Yidao: "Maybe this is not worth mentioning in your mind, but this problem has been bothering me for too long. I am thinking about it when I am awake and thinking about it when I am sleeping. Sanniang, you can take pity on me or give me charity.
Please tell me truthfully why you chose Qin Mo back then, and what makes him better than me? What is it that makes you treat him like this?"
Mrs. Qin closed her eyes gently, and after a while, she said: "I can tell you, but you must first promise me not to waste your talents on this, and not to let down those who care about you.
You said you have never done anything to hurt me in your life, but did you know that doing this was the greatest harm to me, and it made me feel like I was carrying a sin every day."
Zheng Yi trembled all over and lowered his head. After a moment, he said: "If I am convinced by what you say, I will agree to you."
"Okay, okay. Yes, no matter it is family background, talents, or even business, cooking, my husband can't compare to you. There are even many people who can't compare to you. But in my eyes, you are not as good as you."
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As Mrs. Qin spoke, she suddenly turned around and said softly: "Second brother, we have been playing together since we were young. People always say that we are childhood sweethearts, but this is not the case, because you don't understand me at all.
You don’t know what I like, what I hate, and what kind of life I want to live. You don’t know anything about me. In fact, it’s not just you. Apart from my husband, no one in the world can understand me, not even my parents.”
"How is this possible?" Zheng Yi was surprised, and his voice started to tremble a little.
Mrs. Qin nodded and said: "I'm afraid you don't understand now. I remember when we went to the Lantern Festival together, Sister Li was there at that time. I lost to her for three consecutive years, but every time I lost, you would be the first to step forward.
Come to comfort me, but do you know that I don't care about winning or losing at all, I just enjoy it. I hope you do the same. In fact, even if you published another couplet at that time, I would be very happy, but your comfort made me feel happy.
I feel a little overwhelmed."
Zheng Yi was shocked: "This is absolutely impossible. I clearly remember when you lost to Madam Li again in the third year, you cried at that time."
Mrs. Qin shook her head and said: "I didn't cry immediately, but when you, those friends, and Sister Li came to comfort me, I cried. I cried not because I lost. It was precisely because I felt
Why three years have passed and no one understands me. I felt very lonely at that moment. I once asked myself if my personality was too weird. But after asking, I found that what I actually wanted was very simple. I just
I want to live a plain and happy life, even if it is a simple meal, I won't care. I went out with you to look for poems and ask questions. It was just because I really liked poems at the time, not for anything else. Later, gradually, I became more and more interested in poetry.
More and more people noticed us, and our fame grew. I really hated that time, hated those meaningless disputes, and even began to hate the poems and songs that brought me all these troubles. I was
I don’t even want to leave the house. But you still ask me to go out to recite poems, compose poems, enjoy the scenery and paint, as always, but do you know that every time I come back, I feel very tired."
"Why didn't you tell me then? If you had told me, I would never have done that."
"Why didn't I tell you that when I lost to Sister Li for the first time, I told you that I was fine and I felt very happy, but what about you? Did you believe it? You thought I was pretending to be relaxed.
You thought I was pretending to show it to you on purpose, but it comforted me even more. Also, if you asked me to go out for fun later, did I tell you that I didn’t want to go out, then what would you think? Even if you really understood,
I'm afraid you will give up your hobbies and your group of friends. If this is really the case, I believe no one will feel at ease.
Zheng Yi was stunned for a while, sighed heavily, and laughed at himself: "It's a shame that I thought I was so self-righteous before, it turns out I'm so confused."
Mrs. Qin said to herself: "Later, sister Li's father-in-law and father began to fight openly and secretly in the court, fighting to the death. This incident had a great impact on me. At that time, sister Li went to her father-in-law again and again for help.
But what she got in return was that his father-in-law spoke angrily or avoided seeing her. Mr. Zhao also failed to help her. In the beginning, whenever Sister Li felt helpless, she would come to me.
I talked about her grievances, but later she didn’t dare to come again. She was afraid that my family would be implicated, and my father would not welcome her. At that time, I really understood what the world was like. It wasn’t until Sister Li was expelled from the capital for the first time that I
I secretly ran to see her off, and she told me that she couldn't bear to leave her husband, but so what? Because standing on the other side was her father, all her closest relatives. Sister Li was so strong, and she was forced to this point.
Not to mention me? I was really scared at the time, fearing that one day I would be like her, so I made up my mind at that time that I would rather become a nun, live quietly and peacefully for the rest of my life, than have anything to do with her.
Children from official families are getting married."
In fact, let alone you, if it were me, I probably wouldn't be able to face this cruel choice. Hearing this, Li Qi couldn't help but sigh secretly.
"I see." Zheng Yi sighed and said, "What about Qin Mo? Does he really know you that well?"
Mrs. Qin nodded and said, "I remember you were the first to meet my husband. At that time, you especially liked eating the Huadiao Zui from Zui Xianju."
Zheng Yi smiled bitterly and said: "To be honest, before today, I always regarded getting acquainted with Qin Mo as the stupidest thing I have ever done in my life."
"But my husband said that meeting you was the second luckiest thing in his life." Mrs. Qin smiled bitterly and said, "Actually, everything is God's will, and there is no right or wrong. At that time, except for you, everyone else looked down on my husband.
He didn’t even bother to get along with them. If it weren’t for you, I’m afraid my husband wouldn’t even be qualified to play with them. Even so, they often made fun of my husband, but you, my second brother, repeatedly helped your husband. At that time, I was really very fond of my husband.
I was curious why those people treated him like this, but he was still willing to play with us. One day I couldn’t help it, so I asked him. I remember that was the first time I talked to my husband, but unfortunately, he
He didn't tell me at the time, he just kept giggling. But since then, my husband and I have gradually become familiar with each other, and I found that he actually has many of the same ideas as me.
Li Qi once said that businessmen want to fight, fight, and have a lot of trouble. However, my husband doesn’t like fighting with others. He rarely even gets into quarrels with others. He would rather earn less. In fact, Li Qi is not wrong. He doesn’t fight or fight.
It is impossible for a businessman to become a successful businessman. My husband is an example of failure. But he does not mind what others say about him, because he does not like doing business at all, and is not suitable for doing business. In fact, let alone doing business.
, he has too many shortcomings. Although he often makes some ridiculous jokes and often writes some poems that make people laugh, this makes me feel very happy. Isn’t this what poetry is for?
There is no such thing as good or bad, wrong or right. Do we really want to be famous and famous forever? I am not afraid of your jokes, second brother. In fact, I was the first to reveal my feelings to my husband. That moment was really the most nervous moment in my life.
, I was afraid that my husband would look down on me, but luckily he actually fell in love with me early on, and he also told me that the reason why he felt happy despite all the ridicule from those people, was all because of me.
Because of his low self-esteem, he never dared to confide in anyone. He even planned to keep this secret in his heart forever. I was really happy when I heard that. Even though he has shortcomings and is ordinary, he can always learn from it.
I know what I'm thinking in my smile, and that's enough. Second brother, I chose a husband who can accompany me throughout my life, not a top scholar who can be both civilized and martial, right?"
She herself didn't even remember how many years she had said so many words. She also followed her words back to her happiest days. Inadvertently, a sweet, shy smile appeared at the corner of her mouth, white and white.
The moonlight gently shines on her fragile face, just like the moment when thousands of mountains of snow lotus are in full bloom. It is so beautiful, but also so precious, because you don't know that after this moment, you will have to do it again.
How long do you have to wait to see this charming smile here?
But just this charming smile made Zheng Yi completely admit defeat. He and Wang Yao grew up together, but this was the first time he saw such a beautiful Wang Yao. But ironically, this smile
But whether it was given to him, after a long pause, he said: "Thank you, Sanniang, for helping me solve this doubt. I am convinced." (To be continued...)
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