This is what Wang Xudong was thinking about when he was dazed in the study for a long time. The best explanation and reason he could think of was this. Indeed, after Zhang Xiaoyun became pregnant, she obviously changed a lot than before, becoming more sensitive and emotionally unstable.
Too stable, this is also the most normal situation. Pregnant women themselves will have emotional instability due to changes in hormones and body.
Zhang Xiaoyun shook her head silently, and then said: "No, in fact, I also want to take this opportunity in a few days to have a good talk with you. I actually know very well in my heart that you don't have any problems.
He is very good and treats me very well. No other man may be able to compare with me. If I had not married you, but had married any other man, I would not be able to enjoy everything I have now, whether materially or emotionally.
."
"But the problem is our relationship, and me." Zhang Xiaoyun looked at Wang Xudong and said very sincerely: "Actually, I understand how good you are to me, and I also know that I can't find another person like you.
You love me so much and are so kind to me, and you are such an excellent man yourself."
"But the more you act like this, the more doubtful I become, because I don't believe that any of this is true." Zhang Xiaoyun said calmly: "It always feels like it was stolen from someone else...from her."
Yes, none of this belongs to me, so I always feel that sooner or later I will lose it."
Wang Xudong was stunned, then smiled bitterly and shook his head: "Xiaoyun, I don't know what else I can do to make you believe me..."
He is really a little powerless. Is it wrong to say that he tried his best to treat Zhang Xiaoyun? Does he have to treat Zhang Xiaoyun badly? There is no such reason.
"I don't know either." Zhang Xiaoyun shook her head. It could be seen that she was actually in great pain. After all, it should have been a beautiful marriage and love, at least in the eyes of others, it was an almost perfect relationship, but she was
There was no way to enjoy it with peace of mind. She always carried the shadow of the third party in her heart.
"Then we have to live like this forever?" Wang Xudong asked unwillingly. He has never been a person willing to accept his fate. The two people have come together and should live a happy and ordinary life. How can he say that because
These things in the past will affect the rest of your life.
"There will definitely be a way. I think the main reason is your pregnancy reaction. People have said that you will be in a bad mood when you are pregnant and it is easy to think about all things. If you wait until the child is born and the hormones slowly return to balance, it will not
There are so many things going on.”
Wang Xudong said with a smile, "This child is really nothing. He is torturing you like this before he is born. When he is born, I will give him a good beating."
Zhang Xiaoyun did not laugh, she just lowered her head and said very insistently for a while: "It's not because of hormones, it's not because of pregnancy. It's because there is a minefield in this relationship, a time bomb.
Even without the child, this relationship was full of doubts and worries from the very beginning."
"If you said that you fell in love with someone else, a very ordinary woman, then I might still have confidence that I can replace her. But you fell in love with Su Wanqi, and even Qin Kexin is no match for her.
, what qualifications do you think I have to compete with her?"
Zhang Xiaoyun simply opened her mouth this time and said all her inner thoughts directly, "When I think that the person you once loved was her, I actually feel very inferior in my heart. I even feel that Qin Kexin, Lin Xiaoya and I
, I can’t compare to any of the women around you. They are all more beautiful than me, more feminine than me, and can support your career development better than me. But I seem to be unable to do anything in front of you.
, sometimes I feel like I’m worthless.”
"So, I have always been very clear that being with you is just my own wishful fantasy. I never thought that this dream could come true. What I didn't expect was that it did come true, but in such a disgraceful way.
, this method will only make me more embarrassed, because I stole it from her."
"I am a policeman, and the concept I have always accepted is that sooner or later, I have to pay back what I have stolen, and even have to pay a price. So these days, I have always felt uneasy. No matter how nice you are to me, there is no way to offset this.
I feel uneasy, so when you talk about that online loan company, I really want to work hard to get to the bottom of it, because there is only one thing I can do for you."
Zhang Xiaoyun finished speaking in one breath, as if she finally breathed a sigh of relief. These words had been buried in her heart for a long time, and they had always been a stone weighing on her heart.
Wang Xudong was stunned. He could sometimes feel Zhang Xiaoyun's emotional ups and downs, but he never knew what she thought like this.
"Xiaoyun, first of all, there is no need for you to feel inferior, because you are no worse than anyone else. I admit that Wanqi, Kexin and Xiaoya all have their merits. They are all very outstanding girls, but you are equally outstanding.
Judging from all the things you have done, it can even be said that you are a very great woman. You have saved many people and many families. For the sake of justice, you can risk everything and bring many evil people to justice. This is
Not everyone can do it.”
Wang Xudong is not trying to comfort Zhang Xiaoyun. He has always admired Zhang Xiaoyun from the bottom of his heart. Zhang Xiaoyun's stubbornness and persistence are something he has never seen before. Moreover, her stubbornness and persistence are for ideals or justice. This is
It's not even something ordinary people can do.
"Also, I already said it when I proposed to you a long time ago and asked you to marry me. If I want to marry you, I want to be with you. It has nothing to do with your excellence. This is not to say that the winner of the draft must be selected.
Pick the best one. Marriage is when you and I are together, and when things don’t suit you, we work together to tolerate each other.”
"I've told you all this. At that time, you gave up all your worries and chose to be with me. Why are you bringing up the old things again now?" Wang Xudong held her hand and said patiently: "So I feel
, a large part of the reason is still because of pregnancy, which has caused you to be greatly affected psychologically, so you worry about gains and losses."
"Either we go see a psychiatrist." Wang Xudong thought for a while and said, "It's not terrible to have problems. As long as we can face them together, I will never leave you at any time."
"Including what I just said to you, maybe I said it a bit harshly and expressed it in the wrong way, but in fact I really care about you." Wang Xudong said seriously, "I told you before when I proposed,
I will work hard to manage this relationship in the future and love you well. The foundation of our relationship was indeed not strong enough before, but now it is deepening little by little as time goes by. I believe you treat me the same way. I am not saying that because of the child
Only then will I care about you. What I care about is you and I am afraid of losing you.” (To be continued)