She couldn't imagine how much pain and pressure Wang Xudong was feeling in his heart, and he still pretended to be nonchalant and told her that everything would be fine in the future and they would have their own children. How could he not want to have another child?
Being able to erase the pain of losing this child is also a person's most instinctive and primitive desire for family, but she can no longer satisfy his wish.
Therefore, from that time on, Zhang Xiaoyun had completely made up her mind that she could no longer live like this with Wang Xudong. From that time on, her whole person seemed to have changed, becoming sarcastic and mean.
are the most hurtful words.
Especially for Wang Xudong, as soon as Wang Xudong came close to her and saw her, she wanted to drive him as far away as possible. She also made it clear that she wanted a divorce no matter what, and she also held on to Wang Xudong's excuse and firmly believed that he was
Cheating, not hesitate to use the most hurtful words to stab him severely.
In short, as long as she can get a divorce, Zhang Xiaoyun will not care about all the consequences and costs. Instead, she hopes to hurt Wang Xudong as deeply as possible. She knows that Wang Xudong is a responsible and emotional person, especially after knowing that she cannot have children.
It was impossible to leave her, but how could she stay with Wang Xudong, leaving him to suffer pain and childless loneliness for the rest of his life?
Wang Xudong has a strong body, a wealthy family, and unlimited abilities. He has a lot of women of all kinds. As for Zhang Xiaoyun, she is also a person who values self-esteem more than anything else. It is impossible for her to say that she would rather accept Wang Xudong's sympathy and care.
They asked Wang Xudong to find a healthy girl, give birth to their own children, and form a happy family.
Everyone, including Zhang Haotian and his wife, felt that she lost control because of the painful blow of losing her child, and they were careful not to mention the child and Wang Xudong as much as possible.
No one knew that after she made such a decision, she felt as calm as death, and after she said those hurtful words to Wang Xudong again and again, forcing Wang Xudong to finally agree to the divorce, she herself
It was as if she was being cut in her heart again and again. Thinking about how Wang Xudong had to bear all this, her heart was so painful that she wished she could die.
Zhang Xiaoyun held the report and her tears were already out of control. Her heart was filled with hatred, hatred for Li Zetian, hatred for herself, and even more hatred for the unfair fate.
If it weren't for this diagnosis, maybe she could have a good talk with Wang Xudong. Even if he really fell in love with someone else, she would make it happen. Or maybe Wang Xudong really didn't want to let go. Maybe one day she could
Let go of all the worries and maybe they can start over.
But now, she can't even give Wang Xudong a child, and she has lost even the most basic rights of a woman. How will she face Wang Xudong? She is not even qualified to forgive Wang Xudong now, she can only pretend to hate him.
, pretending to be enemies with Wang Xudong, she could not say that Wang Xudong still had any nostalgia for her, because she knew very well that Wang Xudong would not give up this marriage easily as long as there was still a glimmer of hope.
But she could no longer give him any happiness, so she might as well let him give up completely and find the happiness that truly belonged to him.
Zhang Xiaoyun tried hard to calm down, but her tears kept falling out of control again and again, falling like beads with broken strings.
There are many, many things that when you have them, you don't cherish them or even completely ignore them, and you don't feel their existence and importance. But once you really lose them, the pain can be said to be overwhelming, and you can't help but feel it.
to bear it.
For example, Zhang Xiaoyun once even thought about giving up on the child who was lost forever and going to the hospital to abort him. However, only when she truly realized that the child had completely left her body did she truly feel the pain.
An unforgettable pain.
And Wang Xudong, she can now recall all the kindness Wang Xudong did to her. Even though she said so many duplicitous words when she decided to divorce, she had to admit that Wang Xudong was indeed treating her with all his heart.
He was so devoted to her. And she really still couldn't let him go.
Even at this time, she still loves Wang Xudong. If it weren't for this kind of love, she might not have chosen to divorce at all. Because love not only means possession, but also means making the other person happy. She understands it too well
, Wang Xudong does not love her, although he is very kind to her and makes her very happy, but that is because she is his wife. As for Wang Xudong's happiness, it does not lie with her.
Zhang Xiaoyun was stunned for a long time. She held another piece of paper in her hand. The words written on it were all wet with her tears, and some of the words on it were blurred.
That was a letter she wrote to Wang Xudong. There were some words that she could never say to Wang Xudong and could only be written on paper.
Although, she also did not intend for Wang Xudong to see this letter.
"Xudong, this is a letter written not so much to you, but to myself, because there are some words that I can no longer say to you since I decided to divorce you, and they can only be said forever.
Buried deep in my heart.
I love you. This is something I almost never say to you. This is my personality. You also know very well that there are many things for me to say that I cannot say. I can only say this to you.
, and the most important thing among them is this sentence I love you.
I know that you may not believe it at all, and think that I am joking or even lying to you. After all, you should hate me now, or hate me very much, because the things I said to you, I know
Those words hurt people's hearts and self-esteem, but I can't help but say these words to you. Because, in fact, this is exactly the result I want, and it is good for both of us.
And there is indeed a lot of truth in it. I do hate you. It’s not that I hate you for offending Li Zetian and killing our child in the end. It’s also not that I hate that you didn’t show up when I needed it most. More
I hate that you never loved me.
Yes, you gave me a marriage, and it can be said to be the most perfect marriage. I know that almost every woman in the world will be jealous of me, thinking that I have found the best husband in the world, who is very handsome and has the ability to make money.
, and he was so kind to me wholeheartedly.
But only I can clearly feel that you are very good to me, but that is not the same as true love. It is completely different from how I treat you and you treat Su Wanqi." (To be continued)