After Su Wanqi said this, she crossed her arms and trembled a little.
Wang Xudong took a look, then took off his coat, walked over and put it on Su Wanqi's body.
"I'm not cold, you can dress yourself." Su Wanqi was unwilling and prepared to take away Wang Xudong's clothes, but was suppressed by Wang Xudong.
"Get dressed, don't catch a cold. If I catch a cold, there will be one less person sleeping in the company. But you are different. If you catch a cold, it will have a great impact on the company. The whole company is like this
Many people are counting on you to support them, so just wear it." Wang Xudong said with a smile.
"What nonsense are you talking about? I'm really not cold. You put on your own clothes. You're just going to wear a singlet here." Su Wanqi still refused when she saw that Wang Xudong was only wearing a singlet.
"You should wear it. You are different from me. You grew up in a greenhouse. You have never experienced the wind or sun, let alone the cold. I grew up in a poor family, and I am very used to these things. Later, I grew up in a poor family.
I have also been a soldier and have received special training, so this wind is nothing to me. We were once outdoors in an extremely cold place with more than 30 degrees below zero, holding a piece of ice about the size of a person with our bare arms.
I was training there, using my own body heat to melt the ice I was holding. When the ice completely melted, the task was completed. Now I think about the feeling at that time, and my heart feels numb. So, compared to this little wind,
It's really nothing." While drinking wine, Wang Xudong smiled and told Su Wanqi some interesting things about his past.
Su Wanqi was a little stunned when she heard this. What Wang Xudong said was too sensational for her, but she also thought of the situation when Wang Xudong got up every morning to exercise. For what Wang Xudong said, this coldness was nothing to him.
Su Wanqi agreed with this sentence, because she knew very well how strong Wang Xudong's body was. Thinking of this, she did not continue to persist. Instead, she tightly wrapped Wang Xudong's coat around herself, because
It's really cold.
Wrapping up Wang Xudong's coat, Su Wanqi immediately felt the warmth and a unique masculine smell accompanied by the smell of tobacco. Although Su Wanqi had always hated the smell of cigarettes, at this moment, she didn't hate the smell so much. On the contrary
, and I think it smells pretty good.
"Asking you, what happens next?" Su Wanqi continued to ask Wang Xudong.
"After what?"
"You haven't been in love since?" Su Wanqi continued to ask.
"After that? After that, I joined the army and stayed there until I came back from the army this year. Where can I meet women in the army? I can't even see a sow, let alone a woman. Only after I joined the army, the only time I saw
The only woman who has been there and had close contact with her is you." Wang Xudong thought for a while and said to the author.
When Su Wanqi said this to Wang Xudong, she remembered the scene when she and Wang Xudong were lying naked on the same bed. Her face suddenly turned red and she glared at Wang Xudong: "You also said..."
"I...I didn't mean to say it, it just reminded me of this when you asked about it..." Wang Xudong still felt aggrieved.
Su Wanqi was not angry, but drank heavily, tightly wrapped in Wang Xudong's coat and looked at the scenery outside.
"Wang Xudong, actually, I'm not very sad." Su Wanqi suddenly said to Wang Xudong leisurely.
"Ah? What do you mean?" Wang Xudong was stunned, not understanding the meaning of Su Wanqi's words.
"I'm sad to see him like this today, such an ugly person. However, I'm not actually very sad in my heart. I don't know how to express this feeling in words. That's what it means. You
Do you understand what I mean?" Su Wanqi racked her brains to think of words to describe her feeling while drinking.
"Uh... I'm not very good at Chinese, but I think I can still roughly understand what you mean." Wang Xudong paused and thought for a moment.
"I'm very sad. I have devoted my whole heart to him. I have liked someone for ten years. In the end, you find that the person you like is actually a scumbag. This person has been telling you that he loves you and likes you for so many years.
, I am willing to give everything for you, I have made countless vows, but in the end you realize that it turns out that people are just treating you like a monkey, teasing you like a toy. At first, you thought this was love, and you were willing to give everything for it.
, in the end you realize that, haha, in people's minds, you are just a higher-end prostitute. That feeling... I don't know how to describe it, it's very uncomfortable, I feel like a fool, very stupid, very special.
Sad, but also very angry.”
"However, I don't have the kind of sadness that I feel after being betrayed. I really don't, and I don't know why. I don't know how other people feel after being betrayed, but the unforgettable feeling I felt after Kexin was betrayed by him.
, I still remember it, but I don’t have that feeling. I’ve also watched TV series and watched the news, in which people were dumped and cheated on, and then they were looking for life and death, but I didn’t feel that way at all. Just like back then.
After I agreed to be with him, I didn't feel any joy or happiness at all. I thought this was abnormal. I had been in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with him for some time, but I didn't feel any joy at all.
The kind of feeling you should have after falling in love, I feel that I am no different from before, I can't feel the feeling I should have at all."
"I'm thinking that maybe I never loved him at all." Su Wanqi said.
"This...isn't this impossible?" Wang Xudong found that he really didn't understand the feeling Su Wanqi was talking about, or maybe he didn't understand Su Wanqi or even women at all.
"There may be no other explanation other than this. I like him, but I have never loved him. I don't know how to explain it. Maybe it's just like this. However, I am still very sad, so uncomfortable that I can't breathe.
The feeling is that I feel very stupid, very stupid, and I feel that I have failed as a human being. Because I have really treated him, and I have decided to give everything for him..."
Su Wanqi talked slowly, drinking wine while talking, tears welling up in her eyes.
Wang Xudong didn't say a word and listened quietly to Su Wanqi's words.
He could roughly understand the blow and pain a girl who was betrayed by her first love would endure. Although Su Wanqi said she was not sad, it was obvious that her tears betrayed her heart.
If she wasn't sad, why was she crying? If she wasn't sad, why did she drink in the middle of the night? If she wasn't sad, why did she follow Wang Xudong here in the middle of the night. (To be continued)