The shadow remained motionless, as if it hadn't noticed that someone had entered the room.
Nalan Ronghua, covered in wind and snow, slowly came to him and squatted down. She didn't have the aloof demeanor of a queen. At this moment, she was just an ordinary mother, feeling sorry for her son.
It’s the same sentence, and everyone understands the truth.
But unless the knife falls on your own heart, you will never realize how painful it is for others.
Nalan Ronghua knew everything clearly, but could only watch helplessly. There were always so many helpless things in this world, which were beyond human control, let alone forced. She could rationally persuade Ling Xiyue to see her heart clearly,
But in the end, she still felt sorry for her son.
The man who used to be dressed in snowy clothes and looked like a fairy jade was now sitting on the cold jade ground with his knees in his arms, huddled up under the window lattice, his head lowered and buried deeply in his knees.
Motionless, as if frozen.wavv
On his snow-white clothes, patches of bright red condensed into dark red. The smell of blood lingered faintly in the air, and the mottled moonlight could not illuminate this dark corner, let alone dispel the loneliness in the room.
"Xueyi..." Nalan Ronghua stretched out his hand and gently placed it on his pale fingertips.
The man in disheveled clothes trembled slightly, but he still did not raise his head. Instead, he squeezed himself tighter. He didn't want others to see him like this, or in other words, he couldn't face himself like this.
The mist rose slightly in Nalan Ronghua's eyes, "Xueyi, no one is a saint, and no one can make mistakes. We are human beings and we all make mistakes. You don't have to be too harsh on yourself. It's not too late. It's not too late."
The man's shoulders moved slightly, he slowly raised his head and met his mother's eyes.
Even through the dark night, he could clearly see that the cold black eyes were now scarlet and messy, the hair on his forehead was messy, and there were blood stains on the corners of his pale mouth, "Mother...
…”
A trembling sound and two shallow words made Nalan Ronghua burst into tears.
It seemed like I had seen that night more than ten years ago, when the child with silent eyes opened his heart and gently called his mother for the first time. But this time, he looked more fragile than ever before, as if once again,
Abandoned by the whole world.
"I lost her..." Nalan Xueyi raised her hand slightly, trembling slightly, looking at her palm filled with dried blood, with scarlet eyes, and murmured absently, "This time, I really lost her completely.
She..."
She is obviously still there, somewhere in this world, fine, but he has lost her forever and is too cowardly to dare to see her again.
Moreover, he was almost, just a little bit close, killing her and the person he loved most.
This is all his fault, Yue'er will never forgive him.
Seeing his son in such a state of despair, Nalan Ronghua felt heartbroken. He closed his blood-stained hands and held them tightly, "Xiyue is a good boy. She will understand you and forgive you. All this is also a conspiracy."
It was a mistake."
All I can say is that God’s will plays tricks on people.
Bei Chenyan's departure and Xi Yue's amnesia gave Xue Yi hope, but it was this little hope that pushed Xue Yi completely into despair.
"No, it's me, I know everything..." Nalan Xueyi shook his head in a daze, his peerless face was now messy, he laughed, and his smile was broken, "It's me, I sealed Yue'er's memory, I thought
, if she met me first, everything would be different..."
He continued intermittently, laughing at himself, "When Xuan Ye appeared for the first time, I knew that he was Bei Chenyan. He is not dead, he is back..."
Nalan Xueyi looked at her mother with broken eyes, like a child admitting his mistake to his mother and telling his crime, "I know that Yue'er has thought of all kinds of things. She didn't want to come to the snowy land with me, but I
Seal her memory again..."
"Three mountains and five tribes were slaughtered, and it was not him. I know that, but I am not willing to be the one abandoned every time. I want an excuse, an excuse to kill Bei Chenyan.
"
He had done so much, and Yue'er finally chose him, once, and only once, but things turned out to be the way he least wanted to see.
His own fault made the people he loved pay the price.
He was wrong, terribly wrong.
However, it was too late.
If before Yue'er left the Snowy Land of the Far North, if before all that happened, he had given her the letter of divorce, given her everything she wanted, and let her go, then Yue'er might have forgiven him.
now……
He has made one mistake to the end and will never be able to turn around again for eternity.
How could Yue'er believe him again, when he had already decided to look back before that? There was no friendship left between them. She would not listen to what he said anymore, and would not even be willing to see him again.
Nalan Ronghua's eyes were deeply shaken.
She didn't expect that there would be such twists and turns.
But the more she knew, the more she understood that this love was not available.
There is nothing unforgivable, Xue Yi just wants to seize this warmth so much that she is stuck in the mud and unable to extricate herself.
Only she knew what this warmth meant to Xue Yi, but she was too persistent and would make the same mistake again and again.
Deep affection, longevity, hurting others and hurting yourself.
"I am unwilling..." Nalan Xueyi looked at her mother, with blood all over her body, making his cheeks look paler and his lips trembling, "It was he who pushed Yue'er into my arms with his own hands, and it was he who pushed her into my arms with his own hands.
You gave her to me, but now you want to take her back. How can there be such a reason in this world?"
Nalan Ronghua's heart hurt, "Xueyi..."
His dark pupils were dotted with scarlet red, and they were so fragile that they seemed to break if touched. He looked at his mother helplessly in a daze, "As soon as he comes back, he will take out my heart. Who has ever asked me if I can bear this kind of thing?"
lose?"
"Xueyi, good boy..." Nalan Ronghua felt a sudden pain in his heart. He reached out and stroked his son's messy hair with his trembling fingertips, as if comforting a child, soothing him, "I don't want to, we don't want to...
"
Why, fate has to play tricks on them like this.
The sins he had suffered must now be endured by Xue Yi again.
She originally thought that he was just like her, unable to get love, but she didn't expect that he would be forcibly poached from his heart.
"But I'm in pain..." Nalan Xueyi clutched his sleeves with both hands, leaving a large area of crimson and wrinkles, and his finger bones were so pale that there was no blood at all. He lowered his head, his voice trembled, and he said hoarsely, "Mother, in my heart