Six years later, Chen Enci still remembers Qin Zhe's tone when he said these two sentences.
calm.
gentle.
ha.
You see, six years have passed.
She hadn't forgotten yet, everything seemed to have just happened yesterday.
Chen Enci chuckled, raised his glass, and drank the remaining red wine in one gulp.
She poured herself another glass. She had just recalled that she had drunk a lot of wine during that time six years ago. Now that the alcohol was a bit strong, she spilled the wine on her hand, soaking her fingertips.
band-aid.
She took out a tissue, sucked the wine off the band-aid, then lowered her eyes and smiled brightly.
Tell me, what kind of person is he?
When you treat her well, you kill her.
When you abandon her, it will slowly kill her.
Yes, chronic...
Chen Enci took a slow sip of wine, raised her eyelids and looked at the glass in front of her. There were thousands of lights outside the window, but she seemed to see the young girl sitting alone in the garden community many years ago.
When they first broke up, she wasn't that sad. She rushed from Shanghai to Shenzhen, but what she got was a scolding from her manager at the time and a half-year cold storage period.
At that time, she had some savings. She had lost her love and job, but she would not end up in such a miserable situation. She returned to Beijing, rented a small apartment in the Fifth Ring Road, and began to adapt to the life of living alone.
In the first month, she didn't feel much.
In the second month, when the season changed in Beijing, she caught a cold and was lying in bed with a high fever. When no one was paying attention, she thought of him for some reason. She was probably confused by the fever, so she stumbled out of bed, opened the door, and put a finger on the doorknob.
After searching for a long time, she could not find the white plastic bag containing the antipyretic medicine. Later, when she realized that her memory of the fever was confused and she no longer lived in the garden community, she squatted on the ground with her arms folded.
That was the first time she missed him after he broke up with her.
That night, she took a taxi to the hospital alone, queued up to go to the emergency room alone, got medicine alone, and got water while alone. Then she finally came to her senses. He and she had really broken up. They had broken up.
It's been two months.
The second time she missed him so much was in late summer and early autumn. She suddenly woke up from her nap. She always felt that she had forgotten something, but she just couldn't remember it. Until evening came, half of the sky in Beijing was covered by the setting sun.
After it was dyed red, she remembered that he met her a year ago today.
Did you know?
When thinking about a person, there are no once or twice, only zero or countless times.
In the long years that followed, she could always think of him.
When I see the word Qin, I can think of him, when I see Shanghai, I can think of him, when I see my fiancé, I can think of him, when I see my ex-boyfriend, I can still think of him. When I’m lying in bed late at night and scrolling through Weibo, I can still think of him when I see a provocative sentence. Dai
Listening to a song with headphones, I can still think of him when I hear a certain touching lyric...
She actually had a good life, but just when she thought she was going to be suppressed endlessly by her agent, she met Lu Xing. Lu Xing helped her terminate the contract, and Lu Xing helped her sign a new company, one that was better than the previous one.
The agency is a hundred times bigger, but Lu Xing only manages her as an artist.
She became busy again. At that time, she became very popular, and there were many people chasing her. Wherever she went, she received all kinds of flowers and gifts expressing love, but she didn't like any of them.
Lu Xing smiled and scolded her for being picky, saying that her vision was too high. She smiled and said that she was a little fairy from the sky, how could a mortal be worthy of her.
Among those who pursued her, there was one Lu Xing was most satisfied with. He was a third-generation rich man with some political background, but he was not the kind of person who was ignorant and unskilled. On the contrary, he was a top student with two doctorate degrees. He had won many honors at a young age.
He is polite and respectful to others. In short, in Lu Xing's words, he is a rare person.
That man chased her for four years. For four years, he never gave up even when she was hacked by the entire internet and had all the entertainment industry bosses, well-known directors and famous male stars.
Lu Xing couldn't stand it anymore, he was secretly trying to match her up with that person.
She rejected that man for four years and couldn't get rid of him. Finally, when she was at her lowest and was being chased and scolded by the entire Internet, he proposed to her. She was really moved. She was the only one.
People know that at that moment she almost nodded, almost accepted the ring, almost got married, but she finally said sorry.
That person was unwilling to give up and threatened to become more courageous the more frustrated he got.
She really couldn't bear to watch him waste time on her, so she somehow managed to say: "I have someone I love."
The other party had a good upbringing, so when she heard these words, she didn't force her. Although she couldn't love her, she didn't hate her because of her love, so she said goodbye.
After he left, Lu Xing, who was hiding next to her, ran up to her and said, "Well, do you have someone you love? Why did I never know about it?"
She smiled and said, "No, I lied to him."
After saying that, Qin Jie came to her mind.
That was the first time she thought of him after following Lu Xing.
She thought that when she got busy, she wouldn't miss him. Only then did she realize that it wasn't that she didn't miss him anymore, but that she kept it deep in her heart and didn't let herself touch him.
For more than four years and more than a thousand days and nights, she and he had never contacted each other. But that day when she looked back, she suddenly understood that in the past four years, there had been so many people chasing her and they were sincere to her.
It's not that there are no serious people. The reason why she couldn't fall in love with any of them was because of him.
More than four years later, she discovered that she loved him.
When they broke up, she didn't understand love. After being separated for a long, long time, she fell in love with him.
It was because she fell in love with her that from that moment on, when she saw the word Qin, she hated her so much, when she saw Shanghai, she hated her so much, when she saw her fiancé, she hated her so much...
Just because they fell in love, he and she were suddenly brought together by netizens on the Internet. When she saw his words "It's not her, we're not getting back together", she was filled with anger.
Just because she fell in love, she no longer allowed herself to live happily ever after. She wanted to take over "Life", do meaningful things, and live a good life.
It's because she fell in love that she couldn't be so free and easy.
She just resented him. He was obviously the one who provoked her first, so why did he let go first?
Why can't he wait any longer, wait for her...
Just because she fell in love, when he said, Chen Xi, please let me chase you again, she was both happy and panicked.
... She wants to look back, but is afraid of making the same mistakes again.
...Because no one knows how much she loves him, who keeps saying she never wants love.