"Teacher, if I'm like this, it's over, right? That's it, that's all." I smiled and stretched out my hand to the physical education teacher. On one side, I wanted to pull the physical education teacher who fell to the ground to get up, while on the other side I
He spoke slowly.
But what surprised me was that after he failed, the physical education teacher actually showed a very hearty smile, as if he was a completely different person, grabbed my hand, stood up, laughed and said to me: "You kid,
It’s really awesome, I’m convinced. If you have time, just teach me more tricks.”
"Teacher, what are you..." I couldn't help but be confused when I saw this scene, but I swallowed, calmed down, and spoke slowly.
The physical education teacher gently patted my shoulder and said to me with a smile: "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. We don't know each other even if we don't fight."
As the teacher's words fell, he turned around, bowed deeply to the students with an apologetic expression, and said with a smile on his face: "Okay, students, this farce is over. Now
Let’s draw the end point here. On the first day of this class, due to the teacher’s own poor academic skills, he was embarrassed in front of all the students. Now that the matter has come to this, teacher, I would like to say sorry to all the students. I will do my best in the future.
Regarding martial arts, in addition to asking the teacher me, you can also ask this classmate."
Having said this, the teacher gently pulled me in front of him, pressed my shoulders to turn me around, and said to me with a smile: "Come on, introduce yourself to everyone."
"My name is Yang Chen, hello everyone." I reluctantly raised my hands to the classmates in front of me and said with a serious face.
The physical education teacher took the glasses handed by the student next to him, wiped them gently, put them on, raised his head, and said slowly to the people in front of him: "Let us applaud Yang Chen for his wonderful performance today!"
"Okay!" The classmates first shouted, and then they all applauded to congratulate me.
At the same time, everyone began to look at each other and communicate with their own small circles.
"This teacher has such a good temper! It seems that we have a good teacher."
"Yes, yes, I also think this teacher is good."
"Even though you looked so fierce just now, now you are quite sincere in admitting your mistake. It's great."
"Classmate Yang Chen was handsome just now..."
"Yeah yeah……"
"We all underestimated him just now... He's really awesome."
"The gods fight, the gods fight..."
"..."
I listened to every word of what the classmates said below. The change in everyone's attitude towards me was much better than I imagined. The girls who were disgusting with me just now also calmed down.
Quite a few.
At this time, I also had a slight change in the attitude of the teacher in front of me.
The teacher smiled and clapped his hands, trying to attract our attention. When we all focused on him, he smiled and said to us: "Classmates, okay, now I should fulfill my promise."
It’s time. Students, please don’t leave the playground. We will gather randomly for roll call in a moment. Okay, let’s disperse!”
When everyone heard these words, it was as if they had received an imperial edict. They heard a "wow" and dispersed in an instant, scattering on the playground in the blink of an eye.
The physical education teacher pushed up his glasses, walked up to me, and pressed
I whispered over my shoulder: "Your class teacher still has a way, she is really worried about you making more friends."
"Huh? Teacher, is it possible that having more friends is a good thing? And... why is the head teacher so worried?" I turned my head in confusion and looked at the physical education teacher who was talking to me with a smile.
"This is actually a trap set up by your class teacher... But your class teacher risked my life. This is really painful for me, it really hurts... You kid, you really don't have a big deal to do it..." said
At this point, the physical education teacher couldn't help but smile bitterly and lightly hit my chest, saying with a helpless look.
"Our class teacher? Why is she so busy?" I couldn't help but stroke my chin and whispered softly.
The physical education teacher raised his head slightly, looked at the sky with a smile, and lowered his voice and said slowly: "She is indeed very troublesome. When she came to discuss it with me, I was shocked."
"What does she want to do? To make me friends? I'm not autistic enough, right?" I looked up at the physical education teacher and asked my three questions.
The physical education teacher gently pushed up his glasses and said to me meaningfully: "She...she said you have changed recently. Seeing how you close your heart every day, she feels very sorry for you and doesn't want you to take detours. Do you understand?"
?”
"How did she know?" When I heard this sentence, I felt a little stir in my heart, but I still raised my head in disbelief and asked directly.
When the physical education teacher said this, he couldn't help but ponder for a moment, then took a deep breath and said slowly to me: "According to your class teacher, she said this was her guess. She said she had experienced it herself.
She has learned a lot of things, and she can guess what you have experienced recently based on changes in your expression and behavior."
"Is it so scary? Detective Sherlock? Then I want to know what she guessed." After hearing this, I finally felt a little panic in my heart, and then I shook my head in disbelief and asked directly.
"She said that you should be like this because of something that you remember deeply. Also, your recent changes are also because you have just experienced the most painful thing. She also said that you may be like this because of this incident.
, causing your temperament to change drastically, and you have completely changed into a different person." The physical education teacher suddenly lowered his voice, pulled me down to the fence of the playground, and whispered softly in my ear.
Then the physical education teacher suddenly raised his head, shrugged at me, and continued with a wry smile: "I originally wanted to ask more, but she just didn't want to tell me. It's your privacy to talk about these things. No matter what she guessed, she was right.
Wrong or not, as long as it gets out and reaches everyone's ears, it will have a qualitative change in your life. This is something you don't want to see. And since I have revealed so much, she will only let you talk. The rest will be left to you.
Too much will make you disgusted."
"Damn... what she said is clear enough... but what she said is indeed good. I'm really interested now in what kind of person she is." I swallowed softly after hearing this.
He took a sip, forced himself to calm down, and slowly started to complain.
"She said, if I use this method to stimulate you, you will definitely take the bait. Sure enough, you took the bait." The physical education teacher looked at me with a smile and said softly in a rather emotional tone.
"...Well, her guess is accurate." After I finished speaking, I sighed softly, and nodded to the physical education teacher with a wry smile, while expressing my helplessness on the other hand.
"but……"
Before the physical education teacher could speak, my expression suddenly changed, and I said to the physical education teacher seriously: "I hope you can tell my class teacher for me, and from now on, don't use this kind of thing to pity me. I
I don’t need anyone’s pity. What I pursue is heart-to-heart communication. That’s why I don’t want to make so many friends, because I only pursue and expect the real thing.”
"Real thing? That is really an ideal thing..." The physical education teacher couldn't help but marveled when he heard this sentence, but then his facial expression returned to calmness again, and he said slowly: "The real thing you are talking about is
Similar to that... Is it the real thing that Hikigaya Hachiman desires most from the characters in "My Youthful Love Story?"
"That's right, but he and I are somewhat different in our pursuit of real things." I sighed, nodded, and answered directly.
"It's different? How is it different?" The physical education teacher couldn't help but froze when he heard this, but then he became more energetic and asked quickly.
I lowered my head, gently touched the fence in front of me, and said in a somewhat expectant tone: "The real thing I am pursuing is that I want it to be real. If I can be in front of them, I will no longer suppress myself.
I don’t have to cover up my character anymore. As long as I don’t violate the law, I can indulge myself in front of them as much as I want. Instead of pretending to be a human being and deceiving myself in front of anyone.”
When I said this, I couldn't help but take a deep breath and continued to explain: "In front of them, I can safely confide my feelings, vent my stress, and treat them as the most trustworthy people in my life. This is what I pursue.
The real thing.”
The physical education teacher looked at me with some confusion and asked calmly: "Isn't this a conflict at all? Since you want to find this kind of emotion, you need to make more friends... If you make more friends, you can find it faster.
The right person for you."
I shook my head gently, sighed helplessly, looked up at the sky with a wry smile, and said in a hoarse voice: "But, precisely because I want to make such friends and have such emotions, I
It’s even more impossible to highlight yourself, because making friends with special eyes is not the real thing I’m pursuing.”
Without waiting for the teacher to answer me, I sighed again and continued: "Teacher, can you understand? Just like you, once you approach me with pitiful eyes, unless something major happens, people's first priority is
The impression is hard to change, but what other big events will happen in our ordinary student life? What do you think? Furthermore, you and I have different identities. Unless we get along very well and can become true friends, otherwise,
You and I can only be teachers and students, so there are restrictions on the topics we can talk about and the tone of speaking, etc. From the first moment they marveled at me, I was given the first impression.
The better the first impression of me is, the smaller mistakes I make in the future will be infinitely magnified. As a result, I won’t be able to get real and thoughtful communication, and I won’t get the real thing again.”
The physical education teacher who kept talking to me was a little confused and was speechless. The physical education teacher who didn't know how to respond to me was also silent for a long time.
After hesitating for a long time, the PE teacher slowly said to me: "I...I really haven't thought about such a thing..."
At this time, I squinted my eyes and looked at the migratory birds flying high in the sky, and a bitter feeling inevitably appeared at the corner of my mouth.
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[Yes...how can people who have not experienced these things notice these things?]