All traces of her existence were completely wiped out from the world. Even if someone occasionally recalled Shen Fengxu's past, it would only be a little bit of ashes in their hearts that would be blown away.
She woke up in the surface world.
A world only for the dead.
But all her memories come from the world of the living.
She still remembered that day when it snowed heavily, and Li Jiancheng slowly turned into ashes and scattered in the endless falling snowflakes.
I can't tell whether it is ashes or snowflakes.
Occasionally she would think of Li Jiancheng.
She knew that she should not have interacted with Li Jiancheng, just because she had fallen into many delusions and imagined this dramatic and ridiculous story.
now,
She saw Li Jiancheng again.
Shen Fengxu didn't know whether this was a delusion or reality.
She only saw Li Jiancheng and Li Shimin standing side by side, looking at the mountains and rivers in the distance. They were both young men in spring clothes, and their splendor could not be concealed.
but,
so far……
It's still snowing heavily now, with a biting wind piercing my bones, and the snow blowing against my face.
Shen Fengxu walked forward with difficulty step by step.
But it's still hard to get close to.
She fell to the ground and was buried in the wind and snow.
In the end, she could only stretch out her hand in the direction of Li Jiancheng, but she couldn't catch anything. Only the overwhelming snow drowned her deeply.
Until her whole body was covered with pale snow,
There is no trace of the past.
…
Shen Fengxu is a very cowardly person.
She clearly knew...but never dared to mention it.
I hate the memories countless times, but I dare not forget them no matter what. I just think that as time goes by slowly, the sores in my heart will one day heal.
That's what she thought.
Can……
It's very difficult.
she remembers,
That night, the moon was as cold as water, and the alleys were winding.
Shen Fengxu seemed to be abandoned here.
People around her were coming and going, speaking some obscure words. She tried hard to identify them, but the sounds that fell into her ears eventually turned into an unpleasant murmur.
In fact, Shen Fengxu doesn't like winter.
Ever since she was a child, she has always preferred spring scenery.
Maybe it's because she was born in spring, or because the spring breeze has always been gentle, and she likes all gentleness.
Apart from……
Snowy winter.
It doesn’t snow every year in the ancient city of Haizhou, but every year when it snows, there is a heavy snowfall. The entire long street is covered with white snow, and it is covered with snow as far as the eye can see.
"I like it very much..." At that time, Qing Yi's eyes followed the window and looked out, looking at the white world, his eyes lit up, "I want to go out and play."
Then he pulled Chen Fengxu,
The two of them did not enter the vast snow.
That was a heavy snowfall that will remain in Shen Fengxu's memory forever.
after that,
There was no snow this winter,
There is no Tsing Yi either.
As Shen Fengxu walked on the road under the pale street lights, he could hear people talking around him, but he couldn't hear anything clearly.
She doesn't look back, she just heads forward.
She just wants to go home.
Even if I haven’t been back for a long time...
The moment he opened the door, Shen Fengxu thought he would see a mottled white cat huddled in a corner.
But no more.
Will not come back again.
Shen Fengxu used to like to call it Xiaobai.
At that time, someone asked her: "Because it is a white cat, is it called Xiaobai?"
Chen Fengxu argued righteously: "Xiao Bai's full name is Bai Xue, but he disliked the late spring, so he walked through the trees in the garden to make flying flowers. However, the name is too long, so I chose the abbreviation."
"Okay, okay, I believe it."
I don’t know how long it took, maybe months, maybe years.
Later, the man asked again: "What is Xiaobai's name?"
"Uh..." Chen Fengxu racked his brains and thought for a long time, "Maybe... Bai Yu danced into the boat?"
She also forgot.
So the man laughed: "That's not what you said last time."
I don’t know why,
Insignificant memories always surfaced in his mind inadvertently, but the memories that Shen Fengxu desperately wanted to retrieve could not be recalled no matter what.
She was afraid that one day she would forget all those precious memories, but she could still think of some trivial and irrelevant things.
But some things can never be forgotten no matter what.
Just like that heavy snowfall one day.
Not only did it cover the long street,
It also covered Chen Fengxu's heart.
Sometimes the memory is not so clear,
Just like that night, the dim lights reflected bottles and cans in the blue and white corridor, and it seemed like a dream was sealed at the end of the corridor.
It's very cold...
Chen Fengxu took her hand,
I really want to ask her,
Why is it that I am the only one who doesn’t know?
But my palms feel cold to the touch.
So she couldn't ask anymore.
The street lights that night were still dim, and she slumped on the stairs, hugging herself, taking out her phone but not knowing who she was looking for.
Except crying,
I no longer know what to do.
Shen Fengxu was thinking about what else she had left besides these memories.
Is there nothing left?
If there is,
Why can't she find it?
…
When Shen Fengxu woke up again,
Being in someone's arms, it felt warm and comfortable, as if she had fallen into the warm and fragrant jade, which made her unable to bear to let go.
"Are you dreaming?" Someone asked with a half-smile.
Shen Fengxu opened his eyes and found that he was in a room with a stove. Although it was windy and snowy outside, the room was still warm and pleasant.
She fell into the woman's arms, and the person speaking next to her was Li Jiancheng, who should have been turned into ashes and scattered away.
"...?" She blinked slightly doubtfully.
Li Jiancheng pulled Li Shimin, who was holding his arms beside him, and said: "This is the outside world, this is my second brother, and she is my second daughter."
The woman holding Shen Fengxu smiled softly: "The wind and snow haven't stopped outside, so why not stay here first."
Li Jiancheng's second daughter, Li Wanshun, the head of Wenxi County.
Li Shimin was obviously not interested in Shen Fengxu. He kept his eyes outside the window from beginning to end, as if the heavy snow in the sky had some fatal attraction for him.
Seeing Li Jiancheng and Li Shimin living in the same room and being so harmonious, Shen Fengxu felt a little inexplicable.
But what she cares more about is Li Jiancheng.
"I thought I would never see you again..."
Li Jiancheng, who turned to ashes in the heavy snow that day, was still deeply engraved in Shen Fengxu's heart. She wanted to reach out and grab Li Jiancheng's sleeves, but she was afraid that all she would encounter was nothingness.
She is not afraid that Li Jiancheng will die,
She was afraid that she might mistakenly think that Li Jiancheng was not dead.
Li Jiancheng was as gentle as ever. He held Shen Fengxu's hand and told her: "I'm here."
Warm and cool to the touch.
Then Shen Fengxu felt relieved: "I know."
The surface world is very similar to the real world, except that it does not belong to the living. The people who walk here are the dead who still have unresolved obsessions.
Shen Fengxu didn't know why he was here.
She has no obsession anymore.
She felt that Li Jiancheng should not be there either, but Li Jiancheng is still here, not only Li Jiancheng is here, but also Li Shimin.
"Brother." Li Shimin, who had been silent until now, suddenly spoke, his eyes still falling outside the window, "It's time to go out."
Li Jiancheng nodded: "Okay."
Saying that, he stood up.
But Li Shimin held him down. He turned to look at Li Jiancheng, then at Li Wanshun, and said, "Wan'er, come with me. Brother, just stay here and rest."
After that, he left first and his figure disappeared into the endless wind and snow.
Li Wanshun stood up and asked Li Jiancheng for his opinion.
Li Jiancheng smiled helplessly and nodded.
So Li Wan followed Li Shimin out by the way.
"You really listened to him." Chen Fengxu looked at this scene and suddenly understood why Li Jiancheng died under the Xuanwu Sect.
Li Jiancheng just smiled, but did not answer the question. Instead, he changed the subject and asked, "Is there anywhere you want to go?"
Shen Fengxu shook his head: "No."
She has no place she wants to go, no one she wants to see, no things she wants to do, and no meaning for her existence.
"Um?"
"You have a lot of people here, so you can take me in if you don't want me." Shen Fengxu looked at Li Jiancheng, and then also smiled.
Three years ago, Li Jiancheng was taken in by Shen Fengxu. Three years later, Li Jiancheng was asked to take in Shen Fengxu.
"It's rare to see you smiling. It seems that you have lived well in the past three years."
"I've been working hard too..."
Shen Fengxu no longer falls into such a sad state all the time, but occasionally feels a little depressed. Most of the time, he is no different from ordinary people, except that he recalls some unpleasant past events in his dreams that day.
"That's good." Shen Fengxu had this change, and Li Jiancheng was relieved, "However, it's quite dangerous in the surface world now."
"How to say?"
"There are monsters in the inner world and some evil spirits in the outer world. In short, be careful. If you are worried, you will be fine if you stay in the Li family."
Shen Fengxu blinked: "...Li family?"
"There are four hundred and thirty-seven members of the Li family, and there are also some guards who follow the Li family, totaling more than ten thousand people." When talking about this, Li Jiancheng was still calm and calm.
"Could this be the legendary story of going to Quantai to recruit old troops and kill Yama with a hundred thousand banners?" Shen Fengxu couldn't help but sigh.
Come to think of it, not only Li Jiancheng, but also Li Yuan, the emperor of the Tang Dynasty, and Li Yu, the later lord of the Southern Tang Dynasty, could all meet here one by one.
I just don’t know if I meet people from other dynasties, will they be able to fight?
After thinking about it for a while, Shen Fengxu found it a little funny.
"What are you laughing at?" Li Jiancheng was a little curious.
"No, no." Shen Fengxu waved his hands and couldn't help but laugh again, "I just suddenly thought that if you go out and meet people from other dynasties, what a grand scene it will be. If a fight breaks out over a disagreement, I'm afraid It’s even more interesting.”
Li Jiancheng raised his eyebrows slightly.
"You said, if you bump into someone from later generations, and when you are about to fight, you hold a fifty-meter-long Tang knife to kill someone, and you directly pull out an artillery pistol, hiss... that scene... …”
Horrible.
Li Jiancheng was helpless: "What are you thinking about."
"Some reasonable speculations."
"Stop thinking about these useless things." Li Jiancheng knocked her on the head and said, "I'm going to see Shimin and the others first. You just wait here. If you're bored, you can play whatever you want."
"Okay." Shen Fengxu nodded.
…
The table world is basically the same as the real world.
Shen Fengxu can still play games or watch videos here. In short, how he lives in the real world can be completely replicated in the surface world.
She met a boy.
Guardforce.
A boy whom she found very gentle.
In fact, in Shen Fengxu's world, except for Li Jiancheng, no boy in the world has the gentleness she knows.
Naturally, it is not appropriate to call Li Jiancheng a boy.
But that doesn't stop Shen Fengxu from thinking that Wei An is gentle.
So Shen Fengxu prefers to play games with him. Although he loses more and wins less, isn't the most important thing is that comfortable and relaxed feeling?
Except for Guardforce,
None of the other people he met through the game were worthy of Shen Fengxu's memory. To Shen Fengxu, those people were all dispensable.
Even said,
If one day Shen Fengxu is unhappy,
It's the same thing if you delete it and play with some other people.
Shen Fengxu was playing a game when suddenly someone ran in excitedly and shouted: "Father——"
The sound stopped suddenly.
Because he saw Shen Fengxu.
Shen Fengxu took a look at him and judged from his appearance that he should be one of the sons of Li Jiancheng or Li Shimin. Combined with his naive and naive demeanor, he deduced that this person should be Li Chengqian without a doubt.
Then Shen Fengxu showed a smile: "His Royal Highness?"
He did not correct Shen Fengxu's title, but asked: "Who are you?"
"Chen Fengxu."
Li Chengqian was silent, probably thinking about who Shen Fengxu was, but obviously, he couldn't figure out the result.
"If you are looking for Li Shimin, he has already gone out." Shen Fengxu pointed to the door, "Maybe he will come back later, but he may not come back."
"What did you say?" Li Chengqian was shocked, "It's so dangerous outside now, how can my father stay outside?"
Shen Fengxu was also stunned: "Danger?"
Li Jiancheng is also outside.
"No, I have to go out and find my father." Li Chengqian said, turned around and walked away with a firm pace, and then plunged into the heavy snow outside the door.
Shen Fengxu was a little dumbfounded.
She was familiar with the history of the early Tang Dynasty, so she also knew something about Li Chengqian. As far as she knew, Li Chengqian was an out-and-out idiot.
Li Chengqian was also supposed to be a crown prince, but he ruined his future with his own hands.
Different from Li Jiancheng's gentleness, he was a man with low self-esteem and strong will. He clearly had countless ways to inherit the throne, but he chose to embark on a path of no life.
Forced into the palace.
Li Shimin also forced the palace to ascend to power back then.
How could he not know Li Chengqian's methods?
However, the king who was unscrupulous and even willing to kill his brothers was unexpectedly tolerant when faced with the forced conquest of his legitimate son.
None of the participants survived, except Li Chengqian, the mastermind.
…
Shen Fengxu felt like he was walking alone in the wilderness.
She can see Wei An,
It's just too far.
In that dazed moment, she always felt as if Wei An had left her, completely disappeared from her world, and would never be found again.
But when I raised my head again,
Wei An still stood there, as gentle as ever, and then told her: "I'm here."
Shen Fengxu wanted to tell Wei An about those sad and sad emotions, but when the words came to his mouth, he found that he couldn't bring them up.
It’s not that I can’t say it,
Even she herself doesn't know what the problem is.