"When I was in the second grade of junior high school, I finally made up my mind to break out of the prison, so I accepted the confession of my first love... No, now that I think about it, it couldn't be considered my first love at all. I just accepted it because I liked the other person."
"That's what is called falling in love for the sake of falling in love."
"Yeah. The other person was a very well-behaved child like me at the time, and he didn't even dare to confess to me. But I am more sensitive to this aspect of things, and I found that the guy's grades were about the same as mine, but he was fine.
You came to me to ask for exercises, which is obviously interesting to me. Perhaps it is out of the closeness to the same kind of people - well, just like me taking the initiative to strike up a conversation with you, I have always been quite bold - during a self-study
, I asked him point-blank if he liked me."
"I guess the other party must deny it."
"That's right. Being able to take the initiative to approach me is already the limit of that guy. It's impossible to admit love or anything. So I simply leaned over to him, hugged him and gave him my first kiss."
"Is it so exciting? Forcefully kissing a male classmate in public."
"No, not in public. My classmates and teachers were not around. At that time, I hated going home to see my parents, so I would study at school until the school was cleared. That guy would accompany me until the end every time. Maybe this
That's why I have a crush on him. Because we are both top students, and we are always discussing studies when we are seen, so no one will doubt our relationship, and even if rumors arise, teachers will help us
Refuting rumors... Haha, the reality is so ridiculous. Adults accuse me of non-existent charges, but they will cover up for me what I really did. Maybe because of this experience, I can't figure out what is right.
what is wrong……"
"No one really cares about right or wrong. Adults only care about whether what you do is what they want."
"Well, that's true. Because the two of us can continuously improve our grades together, even after we started to fall in love and interacted more frequently, the teachers turned a blind eye to our close relationship. As for our classmates, we usually
We would all exercise restraint, so the rumors about us gradually disappeared. Everyone really thought that the two of us were just a combination of top students, and we often got together to discuss studies... Oh, in fact, I was really a top student, even if
Up to now, even if I am friends with a strange person like you, the most common topic we discuss together is study, right?"
"Of course I recognize your ability, but discussing the topic of study is just because I don't know what to say to you."
"Yeah~ I didn't know what to say, so he and I were also discussing studying at that time. I actually like studying because studying was the only thing I could do in my childhood. I was locked up at home and couldn't go out.
The various knowledge in books opened a window for me, allowing me to know what the outside world is like. I have had no friends since I was a child, and my classmates in elementary school were not as good as me, so my parents prohibited me from playing with them. In junior high school
, because of my appearance as mentioned before, I am even more rejected by girls and feared by boys..."
"Why be in awe."
"Ah, I didn't tell you before? There were a lot of boys who liked me at first, and there were quite a few who dared to confess to me. But there are bad school bullies in the school, and those idiots wishfully thought that a school belle like me should be
Now that I think about it, that guy is quite brave. Although top students are protected by teachers, it is still quite dangerous to approach me. Because my appearance is too outstanding, gangsters from other schools would come to the school gate to block me at that time.
.Sigh~ I really hate delinquents. If it hadn’t been for these bad things, I wouldn’t have been wronged, and then I would have turned against my parents and ended up like this..."
"It's hard to say. The fact that you are able to put your rebellion into practice and even forcefully kiss your first love shows that you already have the seeds of restlessness in your heart. Even if you don't have that experience, something in the future will trigger this restlessness and make you
Follow the same path."
"Maybe...I may not be a peaceful person by nature. Because I can't do anything at home, so going on the road after school has become the only time I have at my disposal. My parents and teachers all know that he and I will study late at night.
, so they thought it was good for the two of us to go home together. His and my homes were not too close, so we usually parted ways at the station. After I entered junior high school, my parents became busy due to promotions, and sometimes
I didn't come back until midnight. Most children would definitely feel lonely and uncomfortable because they couldn't see their parents, but I was very happy to have my own free time. I...I don't know why, but I did develop earlier, and my figure was at that time
Completely crushing other girls of the same age, the corresponding troubles in adolescence are more intense than others. Because I have read many popular science books-I mean serious popular science books, but some are not for children-I knew it early.
I also know where my troubles come from when it comes to things between men and women. So I... sometimes ask him to come to the house while my parents are away, and then do some things that I shouldn't do at that age..."
"It turns out that you paid first blood so early, and you did it on your own initiative."
"No! I'm not debauched yet...ah! How rebellious to that extent! I'm quite knowledgeable in that area, so I know there are some things that the bottom line cannot be touched!"
"That's really amazing. You, a rebellious girl who rents a house, can teach yourself to keep the bottom line without any guidance, while some guys who seem to be good girls don't know how to keep themselves clean."
"Can you please stop calling me a room girl? This is also a kind of ridicule, okay? It is precisely because of my rebellion that I have my own ideas, so I will not be affected by the public's orientation. Girls at that time liked
I think those scumbags are handsome and cool, but no one wants to take a second look at a nerd like that guy. But I feel that I need to find a reliable person in love, and those bastards give me a headache just by looking at them.
, it’s even more impossible to talk to them!”
"Okay, I will try my best to avoid this kind of title, you go on."
"What does it mean to try to avoid...absolutely avoid it!"
"Well, I try to avoid it. Also, I'm curious, since you are not bringing your boyfriend home to have sex, are there any other things you shouldn't do at that age?"
"Just...just...solve the troubles of adolescence in a relatively harmless way, such as showing him...Oh, I can't go on! This is really too shameful! I won't talk about it anymore!"
"I understand, but I didn't expect you to feel ashamed. I thought your talking about these things was just as normal as talking about what you ate last night."
"How is that possible! I also have a sense of shame, okay! I'm not morally corrupt, Elumia. I just satisfy my desires within the limits allowed by law and morality. Don't always treat me as a bad person!"
"I understand, but as I said before, I just hate this kind of behavior, so I can only hope you can tolerate it."
"Oh~~~ I'll try my best. You've worked hard to accept me, so naturally I have to find a way to accept you, right? In short... I lived a very happy life during those days, and I was in very good physical and mental condition.
Haha~ Now I think that boy is really lucky to meet a beautiful girl like me who dares to play and knows how to play. So many people broke their heads and failed to get me, but he, a nerd, got it effortlessly, and got it from me
Got so much here…”
"It's not effortless. He studies very well. This is where he works hard. If he wasn't a top student, how could he approach you so easily."
"You are right, because he is very good, that's why I like him, right?"
"And you also got something from him. You didn't give it unilaterally."
"Well... when I think of him, I always feel that I gave him an advantage and let him take all the benefits. But if I think about it more carefully, I actually really have feelings for him, right? Who can say the hazy feelings in adolescence?
~Perhaps I only dated him out of rebelliousness at first, but as time went on, I felt that I really fell in love with him, otherwise I wouldn’t have asked him to do those things at home~~~Sigh~!
Elumia, you may not believe it. At that time, I was just like you, and I hated getting a room easily."
"I believe that your nature is not bad, so there must be some reason why you are like this."
"Ah? Do you really believe it?"
'Of course, trust is the most basic requirement between friends. If you are not lying, then I will believe everything you say.'
"Ah...this sentence is weird. Then wouldn't you believe me if I lied?"
"No, I can feel if you are lying. This is my ability."
How can I have this ability! I can only feel whether a person is good or bad, but I can't tell whether she is lying~ Sister Aini didn't give me this skill!
"Really or not? Then I won't be able to lie to you anymore?"
"It's true, because I'm a superhero."
"That's right! Huh~~ It's a good thing I didn't lie to you too much, otherwise wouldn't I be just like a clown?"
"You won't look like a clown, you are already beautiful."
"...Are you complimenting me?"
"No, I'm teasing you."
"...Erumia, no matter how beautiful you are, I will never fall in love with you. I am really straight."