After that, Xiaohong remained silent again. Only then did I remember the misunderstanding last time. I had not apologized to her yet. So he said:
"I was wrong with you last time, which made you suffer too much grievance."
"You don't need to explain anymore." Xiaohong said calmly. "The things have passed, and it's all misunderstandings anyway, so I won't blame you."
"You have forgiven me."
"……,Um."
"Why are you still feeling depressed? Do you still have any worries?"
I said, and grabbed Xiaohong's hand tightly, she shrank back with force. Then, she looked at the bottomless pool water and murmured to herself:
"When people get tired of living, they jump from here. The level of this pond can take away all pain."
"Silly girl, how can you just say stupid things today?"
I blamed softly.
“…we, let’s break up.”
Xiaohong said calmly, her eyes began to daze, as if she was thinking about a plan, and it made people believe that everything she said was serious.
"You are kidding me." I asked seriously.
"Is it right?"
"Not a joke." Xiaohong said seriously. "I'm serious."
How could she say such things to me? No, it's not true. I was so excited that I suddenly became angry.
"Why!"? I suddenly shouted loudly. "Why should we break up, why?"
"...because." Xiaohong said hesitantly. "Because you won't do this, you will regret it."
"No, I won't regret it!" I said firmly. "How could I regret it!"
After I finished speaking, I reached out and grabbed Xiaohong's hand tightly. She shook my hand away with force.
"What do you mean?" I yelled almost angrily. "If you have something to say, just say it!"
At this time, Xiaohong lowered her head, looking extremely aggrieved, and she didn't say a word for a long time. At this time, my heart softened, and I thought she must have something to worry about. So, I treated her peacefully again
She said:
"Xiaohong, I'm sorry, I'm not good at treating you just now, don't take it to your heart. If you have any worries, or if you have any opinions about me, just say it, I will agree to you
separate."
"..., I..., I'm no longer worthy of your love." Xiaohong choked up. "..., the night we were together, I really want to tell you all my past.
, but I never had the courage to pluck it up.
However, as long as I am with you, my heart will start to conflict and struggle again. I really want to tell you everything, but I am afraid that you will leave me if you can't accept it.
Until now, I realized that you are a broad-minded person. So, I finally mustered up the courage to hide this in my heart? Say it all out.
It's also what happened between me and Zhang Jun.
That day, he told me about his faith in loving me, and after that, he asked me hard that he wanted to get me immediately.
I, who truly love him, could not withstand his begging, and I actually gave him all my things in a daze.
Now that I think about it, I regret it, I hate myself countless times, and I blame myself countless times. I am so careless, useless, too unscrupulous, and too boring.
In the past, I accidentally heard some erotic words from some men: 'There is no longer a virgin in this world...'I secretly swore that I must
Dedicate my virginity to the one I love the most.
However, I lost. I have lost the most precious thing of a woman, and I am not worthy of marrying you….”
As Xiaohong spoke, tears kept sliding down her eyes. She was extremely sad and was so excited that she could no longer help herself.
Listening to Xiaohong's narration, my heart was as chaotic as a slut, and my mind was blank for a moment, and I didn't know what I was thinking. Could it be that I was evaluating her in my heart, hating her, or I'm forgiving her.
Xiaohong
Can all the narration prove that she is a slut and a woman with indulgence in personality?
No, no. She is honest and honest, of course she is easily deceived. Women will inevitably make some mistakes in some aspects. However, as long as she can know her mistakes, she is not a bad woman. Xiaohong can make all this honestly Tell me, it proves that she is an honest, innocent and honest person.
She is loyal to me, her heart is still pure, and she is still the cutest person worthy of love...
I tried my best to comfort her, hugged her tightly, and waited for her emotions to calm down.
She calmed down completely before I held her hand tightly and comforted:
"You are a good girl, you are really a good girl. You are sincere, kind, and innocent, and your heart is still pure.
I love you, not just your body, but I love your heart more. As long as your heart always belongs to me, I will love you forever."
I said and kept comforting her, and finally, Xiaohong's sad face re-smile.
"Do you really don't care about my past, do you really love me?"
Xiaohong looked at me with a questioning look.
"Love, of course I love. In fact, I have had a brother once, and that was with Yuanyuan..." I told her about the night I had on my birthday with Yuanyuan.
"Then... have you and Yuanyuan had a second time?" Xiaohong asked me again.
"You think you're going there, didn't I say that since then, I and him no longer mentioned the birthday night. She and I are just friends, sometimes good friends who help each other." Then I said again . "Everyone has his own past, how can I care about your past? Besides, how can everything about me be called perfect? Maybe in this way, we two imperfect people may be able to spell out one It's perfect."
"Haha, you really can comfort me." Xiaohong smiled happily.
"Actually, no matter what happened today, I believe that tomorrow will be a new beginning..."
After I finished speaking, I stretched out my hands to her. The two of them hugged each other tightly again...