After waiting for a while, just when Gong Yu thought that Zhou Sheng would not answer his question, Zhou Sheng spoke quietly again, but what he said had nothing to do with Gong Yu's question just now.
"I didn't expect you to ask me this. I thought no one in this world would care about my whereabouts or my existence. After all, in this world, everyone has their own worries. Worry about your own.
Issues such as profit and loss, considering one's own future, etc. are enough for a person to care about. Will anyone care about the existence of a person like me? This really didn't occur to me."
Hearing Zhou Sheng's emotion, Gong Yu felt sour for some reason, and he felt like crying. To say that his relationship with Zhou Sheng was nothing, in fact, there was very little communication between them.
Zhou Sheng didn’t say as many words to himself as he did to other people in the private school, but for some reason, Gong
Yu can always see something similar to himself in Zhou Sheng. I can’t say which aspect it is specifically, it’s not the way he looks at problems, or his reaction to some things. It’s really hard to tell which aspect it is.
However, Gong Yu did see a familiar feeling from Zhou in his heart.
So Gong Yu was indeed worried about him just now. After listening to his words, he didn't care whether Zhou Sheng's words were true or not, but the feeling in his heart was real. Even Gong Yu
I thought that perhaps Zhou Sheng's feelings in his heart were much stronger than what he said.
After all, Zhou Sheng is a person who doesn't like to talk. It is very difficult for a person like this to express one-tenth of his feelings. It is very difficult to express clearly.
After listening to Zhou Sheng's emotion just now, Gong Yu felt nothing but sadness in his heart. Zhou Sheng had never thought that there was someone in the world who would care about him, who would care about his stay, and who would worry about his future.
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These are things that everyone cares about themselves. Few outsiders care about them. Even their own family members do not care about them. In their view, it is the best thing for them to disappear as soon as possible. Of course, maybe
When working or when they need to contribute their own efforts, they will first think of such a person, but at other times, they would rather this person not exist in the family.
With such a clear understanding of the meaning of his existence, Zhou Sheng actually became calmer and his heart became harder and harder. At first, he would be sad and sad about his situation in this family, but even
Yu wanted to beg for family affection, but gradually he realized that these were all his extravagant wishes.
Maybe these people do regard themselves as family members, and maybe they are a little better than outsiders. But one thing is true, that is, none of his family members have the courage to provoke outsiders.
But you can bully yourself at will.
These people euphemistically call it a family member who breaks bones and connects tendons, but in fact, you are valuable only when they use you. Perhaps, in their minds, their own family members are not as good as outsiders.
After all, outsiders don't poke their hearts every day with every sentence they get up, and they don't wander around in front of their eyes like an eyesore.
Maybe he felt such deep hurt from his family when he was born that he became more and more reticent. Whether at home or in private school, he had already closed his heart and was unwilling to contact anyone, even his family.
If you treat yourself like this, how can you open your heart to others?
Moreover, what those people said about Zhou Sheng, saying he was selfish, hypocritical, etc., although Zhou Sheng screamed in his heart and struggled to admit it, it still had some impact on him. After all, Zhou Sheng's
In my heart, his family still has special characteristics, so even if I don't want to admit what these people said, it still has a great impact on my heart.
Zhou Sheng like this sometimes can't help but wonder whether he is wrong and others are right. He is the most selfish, ruthless and hypocritical one. Maybe others are really like this.
As selfless as they say, as philanthropic as they say, as they say, they take out their hearts and devote themselves wholeheartedly to this family.
But soon, Zhou Sheng would see what disappointed him, and various signs proved that his original idea was correct, and that he had indeed not admitted them wrong. These all made Zhou Sheng doubt himself again and again, and then he was
The process of being hit, then being confirmed, and then being hit even more continues in a cycle, and there is no day when I can get out of it.
Sometimes, Mr. Zhou Sheng is also very angry, but he is really fed up with the faces of other people in the family, but what is the result of his anger? It is just to make those people add another crime when they accuse him.
, that is, you have a bad temper, get angry easily and get angry and quarrel with others, these have become your own problems.
It's really funny. Zhou Sheng sometimes thinks to himself, if he can really live like them with his eyes closed and a blind heart when facing other people, or in other words, they do use their sincerity, but that heart
You can only see yourself and not the contributions of others.
What they can see is that they are working hard for this family. They think so from the bottom of their hearts, rather than looking at things from a third-person perspective like Zhou Sheng saw. They can see clearly. Everyone wants to
It's all about yourself, and you can't see the contributions of others.
In their minds, they just picked up one thing from the ground, which is also a very, very hard thing. They must be more careful to see that there is another thing dropped on the ground, and how careful they must be to analyze it.
This thing needs to be picked up. How hard does it take to bend down to pick it up? How much patience does it take to put the thing back to its place smoothly? This is simply a huge project.
As for others, what did they do? It was just washing the dishes, cooking, washing the clothes, sweeping the floor, or the tasks they were assigned to do every day. These were all the same, a piece of cake.
These are not worth mentioning.
Only what you do is the most important, only your own contribution is the greatest. If other people can't see this, then they are all white-eyed wolves, they are all ungrateful, they are all blind, or they are pretending with their eyes open.
Blind, they are all unfair to themselves. Your own contribution is the most important.