"You may find it strange that as Long Yu's concubine and later his queen, why didn't he touch me? Because he is a very strong person and he knows that I will not willingly
I gave it to him, so he would not force me to consummate the marriage with him, and he was willing to move me with his actions until the day I willingly gave everything to him.
But I really can't get over the hurdle in my heart. He killed my brother, and also harmed my mother-in-law, which destroyed our entire family. I, I have hated him all my life, so there is no way I can fall in love with him.
At the beginning, he was quite patient with me, but then he lost sight of me a few times and became more controlling over me. He was very afraid that I would have anything to do with other boys.
Because he didn't get me, he was even more afraid that others would get me, so he stared at me very hard. If those men looked at me one more time, he would severely punish those men and even kill them.
Therefore, I usually don't dare to look at those men when I go out, for fear that I will implicate them. Over time, everyone thinks that I, the Ice Queen, am an ascetic goddess. In fact, I was just forced out.
Like ordinary women, I also long to meet someone I really like, meet someone who truly loves me, and experience the taste of love.
But I know that these are just extravagant hopes. After all, I am already married to a wife, and my husband is still the king of a country. It is impossible for me to fall in love with anyone else or have any relationship with anyone else, both emotionally and rationally.
But,,, maybe it was just fate, until that plane crash, I met you...
Maybe you don’t know that I have already fallen in love with you during the time when I was in contact with you. Although it is a bit embarrassing and disappointing to say it, it is the fact. Therefore, when you appear in Eternal City again later,
I was absolutely terrified at the time, I was so afraid that you would die.
Although you didn't die, Long Yu kept you in the palace later. Although he made you General Tiger and Wolf, I know that he was just to monitor you, so I asked you to find every way to leave the palace.
, Never come back again, but I really don’t know that you are so stubborn and didn’t leave the palace, why do you insist on staying in the palace?”
Cheng Ziyuan listened quietly. When he heard this, he raised his head and looked at Bing Ningxue. After looking at it for a while, he smiled softly and said:
"Do you know what impression you gave me?
You are a very sad person, and your sadness cannot be disguised at all. It seems that you are already sad to the core.
When I first saw you, I thought you were a very unique person. After getting in touch with you for a while, I found that there are many things hidden in your heart. I know that you are a very complicated, but also very needy person.
People who are loved by others.
It wasn't until I came to the palace and heard something about you that I suddenly felt that you, you are so distressing...
There may be other people in the palace who feel sorry for you, but they don't dare to express it. After all, they are all in the palace, being stared at by Long Yu every day, and they don't dare to say anything or do anything.
As for you asking me why I insist on staying in the palace, because... maybe I have fallen in love with you... I don't know when it started.
Moreover, even though I knew that you might already be someone else's wife, I still couldn't control my absurd thoughts and desires.
I don’t understand why I am like this, or maybe this is the so-called love. Seeing you being sentimental every day makes me feel extremely distressed.
Although I know that if I stay in the palace, Long Yu will definitely target me crazily, but if I come to the palace, I can let him target me, I can let him put all the pressure on me, and I can make you live a happier life.
If so, I think all this is worth it, so I will never leave the palace no matter what.
Besides, even if I wanted to leave the palace at that time, Long Yu would not let me leave easily.
Even at certain moments, I was mentally prepared to die in the palace."
Bing Ningxue suddenly raised her head and looked at Cheng Ziyuan blankly. After a while, she smiled sadly:
"What a twist of fate. I didn't expect that we are all the same."
"Yes, that's why I sympathize with you very much and want to take you away from this hell-like place in the palace. It is precisely because we are both the same that we are here now."
Cheng Ziyuan also said with great emotion, Bing Ningxue looked at him infatuatedly, opened her little mouth, but stopped talking.
The two of them chatted in the woods in the wilderness for a long time. It was not until Bing Ningxue fell asleep and her eyelids kept fighting that Cheng Ziyuan said distressedly,
"You go to sleep, I will keep vigil for you."
Bing Ningxue smiled slightly, came to Cheng Ziyuan, snuggled into Cheng Ziyuan's arms consciously, and said softly,
"No, just let me sleep in your arms. You don't have to keep vigil all night. If anything happens, you can know it as soon as possible."
Cheng Ziyuan nodded, acquiescing to Bing Ningxue's statement. After all, during this period, he was either on the run or on the way to escape. He was physically and mentally exhausted, and then he fell asleep with Bing Ningxue in his arms.
The next day, Cheng Ziyuan took Bing Ningxue and continued to flee to the north. Although there were rumors that he had a strange relationship with Bing Ningxue, and even the Internet had spread, he actually took Bing Ningxue away openly.
Long Yu was given a green hat, but it had nothing to do with him and Bing Ningxue. The two of them seemed to have turned a deaf ear to what was happening outside the window and were focused on their escape.