Speaking of this, Bai Jinse couldn't help but stretched out his hands to cover his eyes. It took him a long time to hold back the tears in his eyes and looked at Shen Dingran again: "So, Dingran, I want to tell you now, if he wakes up, this thing will , just pretend it never existed. If he...can't wake up, I will send you that email. There should be a lot of things he wants to say to you in it. You two have known each other for so many years and so much has happened. Gratitude and resentment, I have seen the entanglements between you this year. Regardless of the grievances and grievances of the previous generation, you have always been equal in relationships! Chu Xiuci has never felt sorry for you emotionally. I know this is a bit cold-blooded. After all, you can't accept that Chu Xiuci killed your parents, but it was your parents who killed his family first! All this happens for a reason and I also know that you are just emotionally I can’t get over it, but Chu Xiu Ci has become like this now. Is it useful if you still remember those things to embarrass yourself?”
Shen Dingran glanced at Bai Jinse with red eyes and said nothing.
Bai Jinse sighed: "Before Chu Xiu left the disaster area to find you, he called me and sent me an email. I know that he told me just because you regarded me as a friend. I didn't know that Chu Xiu was pregnant with How did he feel about going to the disaster area to look for you? However, I think his idea must be that if he can't find you, he will definitely not come back alone. I know you feel very uncomfortable now... But now that the matter is over... I can only I advise you to take it easy. In the face of life and death, we are all too insignificant! No matter what, you must live well!"
Shen Dingran listened to Bai Jinse's words. After a long time, she raised her head to look at Bai Jinse with red eyes: "Thank you, Jinse, I understand! Thank you for your comfort. Really... I won't think about it anymore! If... If he can’t wake up, please send me the email tomorrow!”
Bai Jinse nodded: "Now, let's go down, okay?"
Shen Dingran slowly stood up from the ground and looked at Bai Jinse: "Let's go!"
…
When Bai Jinse returned home, her appetite was not very good either.
She took a few bites and then lay in bed in a daze. Mo Si Nian had personally prepared disaster relief supplies in the past few days and had to take care of work. He basically had to work overtime every day.
She was lost in thought when a message from Lin Xi came over.
[Lin Xi: Jinse, I’ve heard a little bit about Shen Dingran and Chu Xiuci. What’s Chu Xiuci’s situation now?
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[Bai Jinse: They...Chu Xiuci suffered extensive internal bleeding in order to save Shen Dingran. He hasn't woken up yet. The doctor said that if he doesn't wake up tomorrow, he will be like that in the future!】
[Lin Xi: Ah, so serious?
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[Bai Jinse: I didn’t expect the situation to be so serious! 】
[Lin Xi: Is Shen Dingran very sad now? Which hospital is Chu Xiuci staying in? Let Yun Yan and I find time to go see her together! 】
[Bai Jinse: Don’t go now. Her mood is still recovering. Wait until she gets completely better before you go. Otherwise, I’m afraid she can’t control her emotions now! If you go there, it will make her even more uncomfortable! 】
[Lin Xi: Okay, then just wait! 】
[Bai Jinse: Do you have anything else to do with me?
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[Lin Xi: Lancheng is planning a donation event in the next two days, do you know?
I heard that the initiator is Du Yuan from the Du family of Du Zhen Jewelry!]
[Bai Jinse: Is he so kind?
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[Lin Xi: No matter what his character is, as long as he can raise some money for the disaster area, it is considered a good thing. After the donation, there will be a dinner, do you want to go then! 】
[Bai Jinse: I don’t know about the dinner party. I don’t really like that kind of occasion, but I will definitely go to donate money!]
[Lin Xi: Yes, you can do your best! Then you should go to bed early and I won’t disturb you anymore! 】
[Bai Jinse: You too!]
…
The next day, the expected luck did not happen to Chu Xiu Ci.
Shen Dingran waited until night before going to see a doctor.
The doctor gave her a pleasant surprise this time and told her directly that Chu Xiuci... would never wake up again, unless there was a miracle!
Bai Jinse went to the studio today, and just after dinner when she got home, Shen Dingran's message was sent.
[Shen Dingran: Jinse, send me the email! 】
She didn't talk about Chu Xiuci's situation, but just this sentence, what else does Bai Jinse not understand?
She felt sorry for Shen Dingran for a moment, sent her a hug emoticon, and then went to send her an email.
Bai Jinse knew better than anyone else that no matter what she said now, it would be impossible to make Shen Dingran happy.
Shen Dingran turned off the lights in the ward and sat alone in the darkness, in a daze.
Her phone rang, notifying her that she had received a new email.
Shen Dingran then used the faint light to pick up the notebook on his side and opened the mailbox.
Entering my mailbox, a new email jumped in front of me.
Title: To my beloved Ranran.
"Ranran: When you see this email, I may never pester you again, I may be... gone."
After seeing the first sentence, Shen Dingran couldn't hold back his tears, and they fell down instantly.
The person on the hospital bed was obviously lying quietly and would not open his eyes again, but Shen Dingran still did not dare to cry as if he was afraid of shocking him.
She suppressed her crying, wiped away her tears, and continued reading.
"Speaking of which, I used to be calm and collected. I never thought that one day I would become so crazy that I don't even recognize myself. Maybe I really have a paranoid gene in my bones. , at this moment, I wrote this suicide note before going to the disaster area to find you. To tell you the truth, I am thinking very darkly in my heart at this moment. If I can't find you, I might as well sleep underground with you! But then, I thought about it again, you used to love beauty so much, and I couldn't bear to have you get into such a dirty mess. You were rescued anyway, and you can continue to be the pretty Ranran. As for me... whether I am dead or alive, In fact, it doesn't matter. I live... In fact, I just want to see you again. I thought I could work hard to let you go. However, during the days when you left Lancheng, I had insomnia all night long. Only then did I realize that without you , I really can’t live anymore, I restrained myself from looking for you, but, of course, if it weren’t for this sudden earthquake, I might not be able to hold on any longer. I even thought sinfully... Or , this is also possible, it is an opportunity given to me by God, I want to see you, I really want to see you, I want to see with my own eyes that I am safe and sound!"
"Listening to my paranoid and crazy tone, are you going to get angry again?
Ranran, don't be angry, I'll apologize to you, okay?
Actually...in the days that followed, I regretted countless times. I was too ruthless at the time, because I didn't know at that time that losing someone I cherished would be so heartbreaking. As expected, I answered that sentence, losing someone.
Only then did I realize my regret. After losing you, I felt... everything I did became meaningless. I never thought that I would become what I became later. During this time, I often thought, I