Chapter 1770: Emotional collapse is just that moment
After looking at Zhao Tianqin for a while, Huang Zezhong couldn't help but said, "I will work harder to learn cooking. My cooking skills in my previous life couldn't have been so bad, and I asked you to tolerate me for ten years. I'm not good at everything."
It's worth it for you to marry me and have two children. Children are not something I can just have if I want them. If you are willing to have children with a body like yours, you must love me too.
Maybe... what I say next may be wrong, don't take it to heart.
You also know that people with poor health are different from others in their hearts. They are easily sad and sad. You are obviously world-weary. Your poor health and pregnancy and childbirth will inevitably lead to greater mood swings. I am too busy to neglect you and the child.
.You and your child are alone and in poor health, so you may have random thoughts.
Just like the sensational news on New Year's Day...the depressed mother committed suicide by jumping off a building with her triplets. She was too lonely and had to take care of three energetic children. Her husband was busy making money all day long.
She also worked part-time at night, and her mother-in-law scolded her a lot, so she couldn't bear it and committed suicide.
I don’t think her husband and mother-in-law are right, nor do I want to accuse the mother. But the emotional breakdown was just for that moment. Maybe the mother should regret it now. If she scolds her mother-in-law or husband, she can vent it out
There would be no such thing. I kept enduring and suppressing it, and my heart was filled with pain, fatigue, and pain. Finally... I collapsed in despair.
Although I don’t have children at home and have never taken care of children, I have seen how others take care of children. It is difficult to take care of a baby. He cannot understand what you are saying. He will cry when he is hungry, cry when he feels uncomfortable, and he will cry when he is unhappy.
Mom can't let go for 24 hours.
I once read in a book that a mother took care of two children alone. She didn't have three or four hours of sleep every day, and she had to breastfeed her children. She even had to take her children to the toilet. She couldn't take care of her children, and there was no time to clean up the mess at home.
In addition, my husband became depressed due to a few casual words, and the children only grew up and got out of it.
Normal people are like this, but you were in such poor health, and the pain was magnified. I can't imagine how painful it must be to give birth to a child. You didn't mention the massive hemorrhage and the coma for three days and three nights. I felt very painful. I always remember that kind of pain in my heart.
It hurts so much that I can’t breathe. Every time I think about it, I feel heartbroken, guilty and regretful.”
After a pause, Huang Zezhong calmed down and then continued, "How can you take care of your children and family with a body like yours, so you hired a nanny, right? You don't have to do anything. Maybe you will feel lost and feel useless. Your body
It’s very bad. Maybe I can’t take care of my children well. Will I feel even more lost and deny myself?
I don’t know why I agreed to you giving birth to your second child. Now I know that your body will never let you get pregnant, and I will definitely have birth control surgery before getting married. You said I am very busy, maybe I
I want to earn more money to treat you, and it takes a lot of money to take care of you and your children. I can't let you live worse than at home.
So after all, I neglected you. Maybe you were depressed after giving birth to the second child, maybe you thought I was cheating or something else, maybe something happened, so it stimulated you... and finally died suddenly from myocardial infarction...
I don’t know if my guess is correct, I have a vague feeling in my heart. You’re right, right?”
Zhao Tianqin put down his chopsticks, raised his head and looked calmly into Huang Zezhong's eyes, "I don't know... maybe... but it's all in the past. Now I don't like you, don't love you, and have no feelings for you. Do you think I will still wrong myself and you?"
Together? I tell you these things to let you understand that if you miss some things, you will miss them. No one will wait for you where you are.
You keep chasing me, just because you think I am familiar. If you find a woman and have a close relationship with her, you will forget everything in the past. You will feel that there is no difference and that others will be better than me, because I have always been there in my previous life.
I never liked you and loved you more.
I haven’t picked up a bottle of bruise ointment since I was pregnant with my second child. Do you know what it means? I can’t bear you anymore. Mother Zheng said that we seemed to be separated after I gave birth to my second child. Part of your clothes
It's in the guest room. They came over to see me and the children, and I didn't talk to you either. The two of them were silent to each other, and they only spoke occasionally... They didn't look like a normal couple at all. They seemed to be doing it to give their children a home.
Make do.
Now that we are not a couple and we have no children, do we still need to make do?"
Rubbing his brows, Huang Zezhong leaned close to Zhao Tianqin's face, "It's your business if you don't want to be, but I won't be with others, and it doesn't matter how others behave with me. I won't let you be with others either.
There’s a chance. Either you accept me, or we stay single together for the rest of our lives.”
After speaking, Huang Zezhong sat down and continued to eat the noodles cooked by Zhao Tianqin. The extremely delicious and fragrant noodles did not make him feel better. Such a firm attitude clearly meant that he did not want to be with him anymore. Maybe she also had a divorce in her previous life.
The thought of leaving him may be taken action, but maybe there is no time to take action...
Zhao Tianqin raised his head and glanced at Huang Zezhong, his eyes full of disdain, "What if I find a random man and commit myself to him? Do you really think you can stop..."
Huang Zezhong quickly put down the bowl and chopsticks, turned sideways and grabbed Zhao Tianqin's waist and said, "Say it again..." His beautiful cross-dressing eyes were slightly narrowed, full of danger.
Zhao Tianqin twitched the corner of his mouth and said coldly, "I'm looking for another man... um..."
The next second, Huang Zezhong used a little force to pull Zhao Tianqin into his arms, lowered his head and quickly kissed the person who was speaking.
Zhao Tianqin, who was forcibly kissed, kept struggling and found that Huang Zezhong was hugging her so tightly that she couldn't break away. She turned her head to avoid his rough kiss, and hot kisses fell on her face one after another, and then on her neck a few seconds later.
superior.
His neck felt itchy and numb, accompanied by a strange and indescribable feeling. Zhao Tianqin couldn't help but raise his hand to cover Huang Zezhong's face, "Don't do this...don't kiss me...".
After a few seconds, Huang Zezhong still didn't stop, still holding her tightly. Although he no longer kissed her neck, he still kissed her cheek.
Zhao Tianqin said angrily, "Huang Zezhong...let me go, no kiss...".
Huang Zezhong, with dark eyes, raised his hand to hold Zhao Tianqin's slender neck, lowered his head and kissed his small and thin lips, moving gently and slowly.
Zhao Tianqin, who couldn't get away, pursed his lips tightly. After a few seconds, his nose felt sore and tears fell down drop by drop. He turned around to avoid Huang Zezhong's kiss and said coldly, "It's up to you. If you don't give it to anyone, treat it like a dog bites you."
Take a bite..."
Huang Zezhong, who was holding back his smile, said with a smile, "I didn't bite you, but you just took a bite of my hand... You are so sweet..."
Hugging Zhao Tianqin hard, Huang Zezhong let go of Zhao Tianqin's waist, holding Zhao Tianqin's shoulder with one hand, and gently wiping Zhao Tianqin's tears with the other hand. He said softly: "Don't provoke me on purpose, it's you who got hurt when I lost control.
And you shouldn’t hold back like this, raise your feet, hit me, pinch me and subdue me. You can’t push me away, because I am born with supernatural powers and I am much stronger than you.”
Zhao Tianqin pulled Huang Zezhong's sleeve to wipe his tears and wiped his nose. He stood up, pulled the stool away from Huang Zezhong, and continued eating noodles.
After a few seconds, she turned around and glared at Huang Zezhong, "Go get a towel and wash my face and neck. It's all oil and your saliva. It's dirty..."
"I'll kiss you if you dislike me again, little girlfriend!" Huang Zezhong stood up, his face turned dark, and walked to the bathroom to get a towel. Returning to Zhao Tianqin, Huang Zezhong took the towel and gently wiped Zhao Tianqin's cheeks and neck.
"No, I feel disgusted. If I kiss you again, I'll kick you below to make you remember that you are afraid of me." Zhao Tianqin said fiercely, but his voice was still a soft and waxy child's voice, without any hint of threat.
Huang Zezhong smiled and gently touched the skin under Zhao Tianqin's left ear with his finger, "Does it hurt? It's red."
Zhao Tianqin glared at Huang Zezhong fiercely and then ate the noodles, his cheeks turning slightly red.
"Speak, does it hurt? If you don't tell me, I will think it doesn't hurt." Huang Zezhong pulled up a stool and sat down next to Zhao Tianqin, waiting for Zhao Tianqin's answer.
"It doesn't hurt." Zhao Tianqin's face returned to fair, and his expression became a bit colder.