Chapter 422: Be with her every minute and every second and never be separated again
When they lived alone, she was happy every day, her health was getting better and better, and she had gained so much weight.
He was the one who killed her, letting her leave him when she was only 30 years old, and letting him experience the pain and despair of losing her. Even if he died, she would not forgive him or see him. He took her out and cremated her.
The thumb-sized light yellow round bead left behind was smelled at the tip of the nose, and it seemed that a faint fragrant milk fragrance was smelled, which was clearly the fragrance of her body.
He opened the safe and found a necklace, went to the workbench on the third floor, put the beads on the necklace and put it on. He held the beads tightly in his hand, are you still with me, right?
He returned to the Construction Bureau to cancel his leave and started working again. His job stabilized and he hired a nanny who was in her 40s and had good cooking skills to take care of Siming, who was only 9 months old.
Siming, I have spent my whole life thinking about you. Where are you? I am so sad without you. As soon as I stop, I will think of you every bit. You are so sweet that I am obsessed with it. My home without you is deserted.
There is no warmth and no happiness.
My daughter always falls asleep holding her photo. Although my son is still very young, he sheds tears when he looks at his mother's photo. We miss you very much...
It's all his fault. He didn't cherish her and made her leave him. No wonder his father-in-law and mother-in-law said that he didn't know how to cherish her. If he wasn't so strong, stayed with her, took good care of her, and didn't neglect her, she wouldn't
Her body will fail and leave him. He can only forget the pain and sorrow of losing her by immersing himself in work and taking care of the children.
He has been missing her, but she won't even enter his dreams. Does this mean she hates him and doesn't want to see him? Has she completely disappeared into his world and never been found again? But why does he have a feeling
The feeling that she is beside you?
He took a deep breath and smelled the beads, and could smell a faint fragrant milk fragrance.
During the National Day holiday, his father-in-law and mother-in-law returned to Jiangzhou City and planned to go to work after the National Day holiday. He took his two children back to their old house at No. 473 Tianbao Road and returned to their newlywed room. He restored everything in the room.
He looked like he was when he got married, and his heart ached when he looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar furnishings.
He still remembered every detail of the wedding 10 years ago clearly. She had to choose him among so many people. The beginning of his happiness did not bring her happiness. He loved her but did not fulfill his role as a husband.
The responsibility is to take good care of her without accompanying her.
During the two years they lived alone, she was so happy that he felt happy and complete.
He missed her so much, wanted to find her, and his heart felt so empty and painful. Although she said she loved him, he did not accompany her well and take good care of her. She had been alienated from him for so many years, and she was afraid that all the love she had had was lost.
All finished...
He sadly left the old house with his two children in his arms and took them to the zoo. When the children turned 18, he would go find her. She would never lie to him and would wait for him, right?
When Huang Zezhong was buying tickets, he was stunned when he heard the song played on the huge screen at the entrance of the zoo, "One flower, one world/One leaf, one bodhi/Last night's banana rain/Awakened the beautiful/Continuously dense/Continuously dense"
Her voice seemed soft and waxy, so he took out his mobile phone to find the song and download it.
After having fun with his children for a day, he returned home and listened to the song he downloaded today. It was very similar to her voice, but not as delicate and sweet as hers. Her voice was always sweet to the bottom of his heart and made him happy.
Feel.
And all the photos, audios and videos in the mobile phone she had used disappeared. She deleted them all, formatted the memory card and restored the phone to its factory settings. He had no way to restore it. There was nothing in all her social software, they were empty.
, only a few words recorded her sad mood.
Did she delete them all because she knew she was about to die? Did she not even leave him a single thought? Did she blame him and hate him?
He listened to this song every day, missing her soft and sweet childish voice. The more he listened, the sadder he felt, and the more he felt that it didn't sound like hers. He really wanted to hear her voice...
When Siming was more than three years old, he packed up another guest room on the second floor and planned to use it as his room so that he could sleep alone like Yingying. He opened the closet and took out the sheets and quilt covers, only to find the portable bag on the bottom of the closet.
The computer was a laptop he had never seen before. When he plugged it in and turned it on, it still worked. The screen lit up, and on the screen she was holding Siming, who had been smiling for about six months, with a bright smile. Her daughter Yingying stood there.
She was holding her neck behind her and pressing her cheek with a bright smile. The three of them were sitting on the grass in the garden with the same bright smile, but he was not the only one.
Looking at her bright smile, he held his forehead and closed his eyes sadly. She didn't love him anymore. Was there no him in her world?
It took a long time for him to calm down. He took the mouse and opened the disk to see what was inside. The large number of photos on disk d were all of her and her children. Occasionally, there was a photo of him holding the child, and a photo of him alone.
There is not one. There are only two folders in the e-disk, which are videos and audios. The videos are all kinds of funny videos of children, without her and him at all. A lot of the audios are of her singing children's songs a cappella without repetition.
More than a thousand children's songs.
He clicked on the player and added all the audios to play. Her delicate and soft voice sounded, and her sweet voice made him burst into tears...
"Baby, I make a promise to you with a rainbow..."
Except that there is nothing on these computers, and the browsing history of the browser is empty and there is nothing.
He leaned against the back of the chair and closed his eyes, listening to her sweet singing. He missed her so much and really wanted to hear her soft and waxy childish voice calling him, "Aze, my husband and I love you."
She only said "I love you" to him twice in her life.
When he was immersed in her singing and about to fall asleep, he suddenly heard, "Aze, if you can hear this, it means that I am no longer here. You can take good care of the child and give the child to my parents. You can find another one."
I bless you!..." After a long silence, it suddenly sounded, "I have no regrets in this life. If there is an afterlife, you and I will be well, and we... will never meet each other... Haha." Low and soft, Nuonuo
His sad laughter made his heart so cold that he felt like he was falling into the abyss of despair.
Huang Zezhong couldn't help but pull out the necklace, hold the beads and take a deep breath, and then he could smell the familiar and fragrant milky fragrance.
She said she would never meet again, because she really blamed him and hated him. He really knew that he was wrong. He took good care of the children. Will she forgive him and see him when he dies? She has forgiven him for making mistakes again and again.
, but this time he didn’t know...
The words 'never meet again' hurt his heart so much that he wanted to leave with her, but he was sure that she would never forgive him, her family and her children if he didn't take good care of the child.
are more important than him.
Every day when he came home, he would play the children's songs she sang a cappella to the children. The two children became more and more cheerful listening to her singing, but they also missed her more, and they could only fall asleep holding her photo.
As he listened to her singing, he missed her even more. He couldn't climb up the abyss of missing her, so he could only keep himself from falling.
On February 21, 2023, it was her birthday. In the evening, he picked up his daughter, who was in third grade, and his son, who was in preschool. He took three days off for them. He planned to take the children to her home in Shanling County.
Take a look at my hometown.
He has been missing her very much recently. He often thinks of the way he fell in love with her at first sight when they met for the first time. She walked towards him wearing a light blue cotton knee-length skirt, and she rushed into her father with a bright smile.
The look in her arms and his dream that night. In the dream, she was also wearing a light blue cotton knee-length skirt. She took the initiative to hold his hand and smiled brightly at him. He didn't know what she was talking about, so he couldn't help but step forward.
He took one step into his arms, and his nose was filled with the fragrant milky fragrance.
And he seemed to really smell a rich and fragrant milk fragrance, which made him somewhat unclear whether it was reality or a dream.
When he came to the home where she lived when he was young, he had never been there before, but he still felt very familiar. He took out the two photo albums of hers in the drawer, which he had never seen before. The photos of her from childhood to adulthood, she was exquisite, smart and beautiful.
outrageous.
He took a photo. She was young and thin, wearing a jade-coloured winter skirt with lapels. She had a charming smile and beautiful eyes. Looking at her photo, his heartbeat would still speed up. He had lost her for too long and missed her so much.
Is she dead? The back of the photo says March 15, 2002, Manpukuji Temple.
She once said that before she came to Jiangzhou City, she and her parents would go to Wanfu Temple every birthday to get good luck.
He took the child to Wanfu Temple and went into the main hall to pray for her. He hoped that she would walk slowly and that he would go to her immediately when the child grew up. Don't forget him and forgive him for the sake of taking good care of the child...
And he seemed to smell the rich and fragrant milky fragrance of her body again.
When he went to see the peach blossoms in the col of the back mountain, he lay down under the peach tree and closed his eyes for a while.
He actually dreamed of her. She had waist-length hair, wearing the light yellow sleeveless dress he sent her away. She closed her eyes and lay sideways on the dusty floor of the small room.
There was nothing inside, only snow-white walls. This was the first time she had entered his dream since she left. He missed her for countless days and nights, and he couldn't even take a look at her despite seeing so many photos and videos.
After he woke up, his heart was still beating violently, as if he had seen her for the first time, fell in love with her at first sight, and was moved by her.
When he returned home with her photos, he always smelled the rich and fragrant milky fragrance of her body, which made him feel like he was in a dream. But after she left, he went for a run every day and returned to his normal and healthy body.
Although he had been fat for a long time and she had never said anything disgusting about him, in retrospect she probably did. She once said she hated fat people.
But now that he has a normal and healthy body, a good body that has never been sick, he should not have hallucinations. Even for a long time at night, he felt that she was sleeping in his arms, sleeping on his arms, leaning against her.
Holding his chest and putting her hands on his waist, her nose was filled with the fragrant scent of her milk, but when she opened her eyes, there was still no one there.
One night when his father-in-law and mother-in-law came to live at home permanently after retirement, he went back to his room to sleep after watching his children do their homework. In his dream, he only felt hot and painful, followed by a period of chaos. When he woke up, he was back in October 1987.
On the 10th, he is still a few days away from turning 4 years old, and his baby is probably still unborn in his mother-in-law’s belly.
He was actually reborn back to his childhood with his memories. Can he see her again? Although he was sad to leave the children, he looked forward to seeing her again. He just didn't know when he would grow up and earn enough money to see her again.
Looking at her when she was young, it would be great if I could accompany her, take care of her, and protect her when she grows up.
He missed her so much, the way she loved to laugh, the way she was shy, the way she was confused, the way she was playful, the way she was angry, the way she was clever and weird, the way she choked people, the way she looked like a little fox, the way she read a book with calm eyes...
...all kinds of emotions, anger, sorrow, and joy made him addicted to it. He really wanted to run towards her, hold her in his arms, never let her go, and be with her every minute and every second.
Not separated either.
He will accompany her well, take good care of her, pamper her, love her...make her happy, and make him happy again!