"This... you can't help but feel inferior to me across from you. You have a young face and a childish voice. You are so beautiful.
So I think I like you a little bit like an animal. Every time I think of your face, I feel like an animal. Just looking at your face, I feel like you are less than ten years old.
I am not such a gentleman just because of the remaining memories in my true spirit, but because you are young and look too young, so I dare not kiss you.
The first time I saw you, I was sitting at the reception desk of our department. I couldn't help but stand up and run towards you. You walked toward me step by step, walking into my heart like an elf.
You may not know that the day I was waiting for you to approach me was the most uneasy moment in my life, my first heartbeat, my first inferiority complex, my first timidity, and my first feeling of happiness.
You look like a delicate and beautiful porcelain doll, and your whole body is very delicate. At first glance, you can tell that you are a young lady from a wealthy family.
Your father is so young and handsome. When you rushed into your father's arms, I thought he was your boyfriend. I felt heartbroken, heartbroken, and desperate. Your words of "Daddy" brought me back to the human world.
I followed you and your father that day and watched you enter Yunqi Pavilion before going back. Do you know how sad I was at that time?
I have nothing, my father does not love my mother, and you have a watch worth 100,000 yuan. In 2004, 100,000 yuan could buy a house with an area of more than 30 square meters in a good location. There is a huge gap between us.
When I returned to the dormitory, all I could think about was your appearance. I clearly remember all your looks and expressions from the time you got off the bus to the time I sent you to the dormitory.
It was the first time that I could not read a book and had insomnia for the first time. All that appeared in front of my eyes was your appearance, and I kept thinking about you until I fell asleep from exhaustion.
In the dream, you were wearing the light blue cotton knee-length dress that we first saw. You took the initiative to hold my hand and smiled brightly at me. You also said many words. I couldn't help hugging you. The fragrance of your body made me so happy.
I feel happy in my dreams.
Although it is my first time to see you, I feel that you are the woman I have been waiting for for a long time. When I touch your hand, I feel heartbeat and happiness. You give me a very familiar feeling, and the fragrance on your body also makes me feel very familiar."
Lin Zezhong smiled in a low voice with nostalgia. Seeing that she didn't speak, he continued: "The next day I got up too late and didn't go for a run. I went to wait for you downstairs in your dormitory at 6:30, and followed you to Jin's Restaurant, where the food is the worst.
I was having breakfast in the garden, and the way you kept on eating even though you clearly couldn’t eat it really amused me to death.
You were talking and laughing with Zuo Jing when you were knocked down by someone. I didn't react just by looking at your smiling face. I didn't react until you were hit and fell. I'm sorry that I reacted slowly because I didn't block it with my arms.
If so, you should just throw me into my arms.
Do you know how stupid I was at that time? I didn’t even remember that freshmen were sent to the military camp for fourteen days of military training at eight o’clock in the morning. The next day, I was stupidly waiting downstairs in your dormitory until class was about to begin. Only then did I remember this.
It's always easy for me to be foolish when I'm with you, to be carried away by love or your beauty.
At noon when your military training ended, I was waiting downstairs in your dormitory for you to come back. You passed me by without even giving me a look.
After that, I waited downstairs in your dormitory every day and followed you to have breakfast, but I didn’t have the courage to say hello to you. I found out your class’s schedule. I went to your class when there was no class, and rushed to your class as soon as there was a class.
I caught you in the classroom just to sit near you while eating and watch you.
You are such a heartless girl. I took you to report on applying for a card and so on, but you didn’t remember me for nearly two hours.
I eat near you every day. I even stand behind you countless times when I go to get food. I deliberately get close to you. There are many people in the cafeteria and you bump into my arms many times. You don’t even look back at me or talk to me.
say.
September 20
It was raining that morning. When I saw you in the rain, I unconsciously called you. You don’t know how much courage I mustered up to talk to you.
Your beautiful big eyes looking at me make me so nervous. I actually wanted to tell you that day that I like you, even that I love you, and that I want to pursue you!
When you agreed to go to dinner with me, I felt so happy and excited.
I've known you for many days and I still can't muster up the courage to confess to you. If you hadn't challenged me, I don't know when I would have dared to confess to you and tell you that I like you.
If I wasn't afraid of scaring you, I wanted to tell you that I love you that day, and I fell in love with you from the first moment."
Zhao Tianqin replied coldly without raising his head: "Why are you telling me this now? No matter how beautiful love is, it is all in the past.
If I knew you would bring me so much pain, I would not stop and look back at you, I would not challenge you knowing that you like me, I would not give you a chance to pursue me, I would not be with you
, I will not marry you, let alone go to Nantong City with you.
If I had always been at home, with my parents by my side, I would have been stronger, and I would not have died of physical decay at the age of thirty. After so many reincarnations, I have rarely died due to physical decay, and my true soul is almost broken and supported.
You will die if you don't stop.
What I regret most is that I didn’t insist on living, and I should have divorced you after Yingying was born. What’s the use of a man who is silent and doesn’t even know how to go home?
How much time have we spent together in the fourteen years since we fell in love, got married, and died?
When we were studying, you studied hard. In your sophomore year, you completed all the knowledge you needed in your junior and senior years. In your junior year, you started studying master’s and doctoral knowledge. The only things you accompanied me were breakfast, lunch, dinner and occasional outings. Later,
He often left me alone to revise the drawings.
Although the number of times I deliberately distanced myself from you and went to see you was very small, and most of the time it was you who asked me to go, it was still more than the number of times you came to see me.
After you got married, except for the first six months of your marriage, you were relatively free. On Saturdays and Sundays when you didn't work, you would occasionally accompany me around for a walk. After that, you traveled frequently and intensified.
And every day when you are not on a business trip, I can only see you except when you are sleeping. Maybe you want to say that I go to bed too early, but whose husband often doesn’t come home until 9 o’clock?
You spent two-thirds of a month on business trips, and you often went out for dinner when you were at home. You said you would come back as soon as possible, and ten o'clock was as soon as possible? Later, twelve o'clock or even one or two o'clock was not uncommon.
You usually go out at 6:30 in the morning, but you don't go to work until 8:00, and in summer time, you don't go to work until 8:30. However, it only takes half an hour to go to the Building Bureau if you drive slower, and only 20 minutes if you drive faster.
Until I passed away, I told you a total of thirty times to stay with me. You had time to buy me things I didn’t need but had no time to accompany me. Didn’t you ever reflect on yourself? You never stood in my perspective.
Have you considered my feelings?
Your true spirit comes with the power of space, time, and other energies when it comes to fuse with you. The green spirit has very little influence on you, so these are all your own problems.
Green Spirit can only affect people around you who are not determined.
Where do you love me?
Love me...ridiculous!
It's like you love me when you want me!
The way you are obsessed with me also looks like you love me!
A bastard man who is so confused by beauty that he loses consciousness!"