Chapter 891: I feel that I am too despicable and shameless to be worthy of you
Lin Zezhong sighed and hugged Zhao Tianqin's slender waist, leaned on her back and said softly: "Baby, I just want to tell you that I love you, I love you very much. I am always stupid when I am in love.
I am stupid and make you angry, I worry about gains and losses easily, I am not confident, and I always feel that I am not good enough.
It’s not that I didn’t reflect on myself, it’s just that I couldn’t figure it out at the time.
I have always lived alone and needed to earn money to support myself. No one taught me how to communicate with women, and I didn’t know my responsibilities as a husband.
I rarely communicate with you, I don’t know what you are thinking, I can’t guess and don’t know what you need.
When I tried to make myself better, I also ignored you. You always looked so deserted and didn't care about anything. I was actually afraid of staying with you for a long time, afraid that you would see so many bad sides of me.
You hate me even more.
Especially when I have such adoptive parents and I treat them like this, I feel that I am too despicable and shameless to be worthy of you.
I thought you wouldn't hate me so much if you were accompanied by children and saw less of my shortcomings.
You love me too little, and you didn't even feel a trace of love after giving birth to Yingying. You never let me see your body, and you always avoided me when changing clothes. We are a couple who have shared the same bed for so many years.
You don’t like me touching you, you don’t like having sex, you even hate it. I even think you don’t like or love me the way I don’t want to, so I’m afraid you’ll leave me.
I am getting older day by day, but you have never changed. Before I had children, I took you like your father. After I had children, taking you and the children out was like taking three children out. All unfamiliar people
I think you are my daughter, so I feel inferior and less confident and more afraid that you will leave me.
Do you know why I like to wear suits? It’s not just for work, nor is it easy to buy and match clothes.
But I think you like it. You are sixteen years old and you have thrown yourself into your father's arms countless times. I think you have an Electra complex. Your father always wears a suit, so I dress like this.
In addition, we went to the zoo on National Day after we met. People misunderstood me as your father and you smiled like that, but that day you said I looked good dressed like this, so I always dress like this, rarely wearing casual clothes.
I think if I can be like your father, I can make you and your children have enough food and clothing, and be nice to you, you will love me more.
Later, I suddenly figured out that I should stay with you, guard you, take good care of you, and love you.
Even if you don't fall in love with me, you are my wife. You have always been a person with very upright views. You will not be ambiguous with any man or have an affair within marriage. We can grow old together without regrets.
Even if there is no love, we still have family affection. It is enough for us to stay together for the rest of our lives and never leave.
It's because I'm such an asshole, I didn't take good care of you, I ignored you for too long, and I didn't notice that your health was so bad, and I didn't know that you wouldn't be able to do anything when you were stimulated.
I really need to reflect on myself, will you give me a chance?
I can only accept your touch. You hate the touch of other men and think they all stink.
We are a perfect match. No matter how time passes and the world changes, you and I will eventually meet, and I will still fall in love with you.
Don't you think this world is very familiar? Especially this mansion, it makes me feel like I have lived here for a long time. The light clan was born by your origin and influenced the world. The buildings in the light clan land are very similar to this, right?
Those buildings and standard mansions were created by you at will.
If it weren't for the deep memory in your subconscious mind, how could you create such a building? We are still together in countless unknown past lives, so baby, don't push me away.
No matter what the road ahead is, no matter what the future holds, I will find you, I will never leave you, and I will never let you go."
Zhao Tianqin had already stopped clicking on the tablet. She calmed down and said: "It's very familiar. I feel like I was born, raised and died here. If there is a previous life, you should hope that you didn't hurt me or do too much to me."
Otherwise, I will really kill you and completely destroy your soul, body and spirit. If there is no afterlife, you will not be able to hurt me anymore.
So I think we shouldn’t have children and let them suffer in the middle.”
"Baby, don't be like this. I don't know if I was such a bastard in my previous life, but I won't be in the future. Can't we be happy together?
Can't the long years we spent together in the two lives in the place of origin cover up your bad memories? In the first life, I stayed with you for 3.12 million years, including more than 1.2 million years after we got married.
In the seventy-fifth year of the second life, didn’t you love me at all at that time?
I know that the past seven hundred years of reincarnation have been too painful for you, and the memories of your previous life have been too painful and profound, but you are now completely back to normal, and if I hold you harder, you won't get bruises all over your body.
How much you once wished to have such a healthy body and be with me, but now that it has come true, you want to give up on me."
The hands surrounding Zhao Tianqin were loose but very strong. He frowned and didn't know what to do with her. It was a wonderful feeling for him and her to be together, but he caused her too much pain, more than she wanted to do.
Forgive yourself.
"Happiness, my life has been full of misfortune and pain since I met you, and the pain was brought to me by you.
Have you forgotten why I married you and stayed with you in two lives in the Origin? Even if I said I loved you in the first life, you didn’t believe it. In the second life, I liked you a little, but you knew in your heart that I was just to break up the separation.
Only the curse of love will accept you.
Do you think I could let you live without such a long companionship? Can you forgive me if you were in my position?
Even if you feel the dream memory that I intercepted completely, you still can't empathize with it. How can you empathize with me if the pain is not in your body.
You are right, I have no intention. What do I want with this intention? It is good to live in a deserted and deserted life without any desire!
You have got me too, there is nothing to regret or miss. There are so many women in Yancheng, it might be good for you to take a good look at them and have a different experience.
Don't be so naive that you think I'll be jealous, I don't care about anything, and there's nothing worth caring about." Zhao Tianqin looked at Lin Zezhong with a serious look and said calmly. After saying that, he teleported away to the top of the tower and released a soft
Put the mat and quilt on the Arhat bed, cast the invisibility barrier and take a nap directly.
Putting the tablet on his lap aside, Lin Zezhong closed his eyes for a long time before calming down the anger in his heart. He walked out of the main hall and felt it before walking towards the corner door of the garden. He still felt mixed emotions when he walked up the tower.
She was obviously very angry, and he could feel it clearly, but she still looked calm and spoke in a calm tone, with no trace of anger on her face.