Brother Zhang looked at the mirror for a long time. Looking at the unfamiliar self in the mirror, he suddenly felt funny, but when he got up, he still picked up the pair of glasses on the table.
When he puts on glasses, he becomes a complete mortal, and can be contaminated by all the emotions and desires that he should not have had before, although he still knows how to be contaminated by these filthy things.
But it doesn’t matter, there is still a lot of time, so take your time.
When he walked out of the door, he happened to see Wugenshui squatting in the yard with the alien elf man studying the medicinal value of a plant. He stood on the balcony on the second floor and took the initiative to say hello: "Good morning."
Wu Genshui almost staggered when he heard this greeting. He turned back to look at Brother Zhang tremblingly, and squeezed out a smile that was uglier than death: "Morning..."
Brother Zhang nodded and walked downstairs. When Xiao Ma, who was wiping his weapons on the table, saw him coming down, he immediately wiped off all the weapons and blades before standing up and saying, "Boss, where are you going to play today?"
"I'll go shopping by myself first."
Brother Zhang adjusted his glasses: "Is that right?"
"Yes, yes...this is the state, you can start, find the feeling you want."
"Okay..." Brother Zhang glanced at the breakfast that had been prepared long ago: "Should I have breakfast?"
Xiao Ma slapped his head and then remembered that Brother Zhang actually has no human appetite at all. Because he has no feeling of hunger, food is just a condiment rather than a necessity for him.
"Eat, you must eat, eat three meals a day. If you don't eat, you will feel hungry. You have to get back the feeling of hunger you had before."
Brother Zhang came to the chair and sat down, and then began to carefully recall how he should have spent his mornings when he was an ordinary teenager.
At that time, he was in the first grade of junior high school. The boy who didn't get enough sleep was in a hurry every morning. The oil, salt, sauce and vinegar at home made the morning time feel like a battlefield.
Because my mother passed away very early, and my father was not a good cook, most of the time he only had a bowl of egg fried rice or a bowl of egg noodles. Although life at home was not difficult, time in the morning was really tight.
I don’t know how long it has been since Brother Zhang had that kind of egg fried rice with a burnt smell.
"Can you cook?" Brother Zhang asked Xiao Ma.
"How can I do that...I always eat instant noodles or self-heating rice when I'm alone."
"Then can you help me fry a bowl of egg-fried rice?" Brother Zhang smiled and said, "My fried rice is a bit too delicate."
"Okay, okay, I'll go right away."
Although Xiao Ma didn't know what Brother Zhang's intention was, the Holy Lord's words were orders and he had no right to refuse.
Soon, there was a ping-pong-pong noise in the kitchen, followed by the familiar burnt smell, which is the smell of protein deterioration when eggs are overheated.
After a while, Xiao Ma put a very strange bowl of egg fried rice on the table. He said a little embarrassedly: "I have done my best. If not... let's go out to eat."
Brother Zhang just smiled and shook his head, took the bowl of egg fried rice which didn't look delicious and started eating.
Does it taste good? It's really not good, but it's exactly the smell he's most familiar with, with a sense of clumsiness and memories of the past.
The greatest function of food is naturally to keep people alive, but few people know that its second greatest function is to carry memory.
No matter how long it has been, sometimes when you suddenly eat a familiar taste, it can bring you back to that time in the past.
An old man who has been away from home for fifty years may even burst into tears over a piece of scallion pancake. This is the power of food.
Brother Zhang was eating this bowl of unpleasant egg-fried rice, but in front of his eyes, his father was cursing and busy in front of him, while he was sitting on the doorstep devouring this bowl of unpleasant egg-fried rice.
He didn't know why he was able to eat such unpalatable food at that time. Looking back carefully, there was only one reason among the many reasons that was most intuitive: hunger.
The memory of hunger was gradually brought back. The feeling of hunger and stomach churning swept through Xiao Zhang's body in an instant, and his stomach made a growling sound.
Holding the bowl, he was stunned for a moment, just because he had never felt like this again for many, many years. The slight discomfort made him so happy that his hands began to tremble.
He lowered his head and ate the food in big gulps. Although the food was really unpalatable, the feeling of fullness after the food entered his stomach made him feel emotional fluctuations for the first time in ten years.
Xiao Ma was a little scared next to him, because he had just taken a bite of this rice. It was really something that a pig would shake his head at, but Brother Zhang...
"Boss, no, let's not eat. You don't have to take care of my face."
But Brother Zhang just shook his head and continued to devour until he finished a large bowl of rice.
What follows is the sense of fulfillment after the instinctive physiology is satisfied. This feeling is not worth mentioning in the eyes of most people, it is just eating something that is not delicious, but in Xiao Zhang's case
He wished he could break the moment of satisfaction into forty parts and feel it twice a day.
After carefully experiencing the long-lost sense of satisfaction, Brother Zhang sat in a chair in silence for a long time. In the end, Xiaoma became a little anxious, fearing that he would eat the guardian of the plane to death with a bowl of rice.
About ten minutes later, Brother Zhang started to breathe again. He turned around and frowned and said to Xiao Ma: "I have almost forgotten the most basic human feelings."
"It's okay, let's look for it slowly..."
After breakfast, the two of them set off for a walk. They walked one after another in the spacious streets of the wealthy area. Xiao Ma had been observing Brother Zhang's expression, but found that although he was wearing glasses, he was also wearing glasses.
There is no special expression.
However, there was an action that suddenly attracted Xiao Ma's attention. When passing a low bush, Brother Zhang subconsciously reached out and pulled down a leaf.
Although this action is inconspicuous, it means that Brother Zhang is now in a relaxed state. He is so relaxed that his body is not completely controlled by the brain, and part of it is still following the subconscious. It was absolutely impossible for him to have such a reaction before.
, because the body is in a state of high tension all the time, it is naturally impossible for the body to behave like this.
Similar behaviors include suddenly shooting a basket while walking, saying something suddenly while walking, and suddenly putting your hands in a star-catching pose while walking. This is a common disease among men.
It is more common in young men.
In other words, part of the unhappiness of middle-aged people is likely to come from their unwillingness to let their instincts control their bodies and completely restrain their subconscious expectations, which ultimately leads them to a situation similar to that of Brother Zhang, that is, forgetting.
How to be happy.
"Should I be tired from walking?"
Brother Zhang suddenly looked back at Xiao Ma: "I have walked more than 14,000 steps. A normal person would be tired, right?"
Xiao Ma waved his hand quickly: "No, no, no, you don't have to deliberately calculate this thing, you just need to choose the most comfortable posture to live in."
"okay."
How should I put it? Xiao Ma thinks this is a rehabilitation training. From his cognitive perspective, what Xiao Zhang needs is a comprehensive rehabilitation, both physically and mentally, so that he can gradually adapt to the past.
One's identity lives in this world.
And what does this mean? Natural, natural or fucking natural. There is no need to deliberately ask yourself to be like ordinary people. Anyway, no one cares about why another person can walk twenty kilometers without losing breath, and no one cares.
Will delve into why a person doesn't feel hungry even if he doesn't eat breakfast.
The only person who really cares about this subtle difference is the person involved, and the more the person concerned cares about this, the easier it is for him to slip from one pit into another.
"Boss, don't be anxious, let's take our time."
"Oh, I see."
After a period of time, Brother Zhang began to appear in front of others with a new look as much as possible. Although it didn't last long, he had already started to ask "Can it be cheaper" after buying something?
After playing with my phone for a while at night, I suddenly raised my head and said, "I've spent a lot of money during this period." I would even try to defend myself when I had a dispute with someone outside.
These are things that he would never have done before, and even if he had a dispute with someone, he would be in a particularly good mood after coming back.
"What are you doing in front?"
On this day, Brother Zhang and Xiao Ma went out for a walk as usual, but when they passed a restaurant, they found many people gathered around to watch the fun.
Xiao Ma is a gossip, so he immediately went up to try to find out what was going on, but when he saw it, he found out that it was a restaurant opening, and then they had an event when they opened, where they challenged their gold medal chefs, and the winner would get a machine.
A 100-inch super large TV and a month-long all-you-can-eat event in the restaurant.
The chef looked very young, about the same age as Brother Zhang, and he looked somewhat arrogant as he sat there.
"Boss, try?"
"What are you trying?" Brother Zhang lowered his head and looked at the challenge content on the sign: "Do you want to challenge this?"
"Yes, to dampen their spirits."
In fact, this kind of opening challenge activity is all about popularity. Why should we choose such a young chef?
It's embarrassing. And chefs who are about the same age may not have as good skills as him.
So...just watch the excitement of this kind of event, and then everyone can wait for the boss to send some opening red envelopes.
There are challengers, but they are all good people who are confident in their cooking skills and people invited by restaurants.
With two knives, it was of course impossible for Yehu Chan to challenge a professional chef, so Brother Zhang and the others watched several rounds of chef challenges. In the first round of deboning fish, they stumped a large number of people.
"Here, here." Xiao Ma finally couldn't bear it anymore. After seeing another challenger being asked to step down, he said, "We want to sign up now!"