The words spoken by human beings themselves are always contradictory.
Some people say that everything depends on human effort.
Some people say that you should quit when faced with difficulties.
Some people say just try your best.
Some people say no matter what.
···
People seem to be a collection of contradictions.
Sometimes have mercy on animals.
Sometimes fish and meat animals.
Sometimes I hate someone.
Sometimes I sympathize with someone.
Ask, are there really pure people in this world?
I mean, pure kindness, pure disgust.
If you become one of these two, does it really mean that you won’t suffer?
But as human beings, we can only think about this kind of thing.
Human beings cannot be pure when facing society. Even some animals will behave well when people give them food, and then attack each other after eating. Even animals are not pure, so how can they ask people to become pure?
"Crack."
Su Yao lit his second cigarette.
Those things mentioned on the 16th may be happening now.
But what can you do about yourself?
I don’t even know where You Ye is or where she plans to go.
After all, the acting is too poor...
No, after all, when I said those words, I knew it would be difficult to deceive her.
It seems like a joke to talk about things like the method of stimulating generals.
"call--"
Breathing out the mist again, Su Yao picked up the remote control and searched for various news aimlessly.
I also look out the window from time to time.
The curtains gradually lost their luster, and the sky became dim.
But after all, I couldn’t find any news on TV or mobile phone that there was a problem with the Moon Country’s rocket. However, I saw that Lunar Lander 6 successfully ascended into space.
Seeing the thing that was getting smaller and smaller on the screen and leaving a big trail of smoke, Su Yao had a thought - You Ye would be up there.
But he immediately denied it.
Let’s not talk about the process. Even if she can hide in the launcher and lift off together, what can she do? Rush towards the illusory black hole by herself?
"call···"
Perhaps because of smoking several cigarettes, Su Yao felt more and more that the air in the room was stuffy, like it was filled with dust, which made people feel unpleasant.
So, Su Yao put on her coat and went out.
The street lights outside have been turned on.
"Baba, it's really like that~"
"Did I really kiss you? Where did I kiss you?"
"I kissed them everywhere, hee hee."
"Kissed everywhere? Who is that guy, where is his home, what is his name, and who is in his family? Tell me..."
“···”
They met a father and daughter head-on. They looked at each other for a moment with the ashen-faced father, then moved away.
Seeing the cute little girl jumping around and pouting, Su Yao would occasionally think of his own daughter.
Xiaoli...
If Xiaoli told herself that a boy kissed her, maybe she would become irritable like her father.
Well, with her daughter's personality, this kind of thing might really happen. But if Su Ze is with her, even though that kid is a bit naughty, he will always protect his sister.
Ahhh.
After all, everyone died because of protecting their sister. If it weren't for my sister...
There is no way to think like that.
If it were me, I would definitely do what they did.
Looking at the night sky with a few hazy stars, Su Yao sighed.
That's it.
What I am doing now is no different from what You Ye did at that time. It is a decision that I will make without having time to think about it, and it is a decision that I will still make after thinking about it.
"It's over there!"
“···”
After walking less than ten meters from the old building where he was, Su Yao saw three or four security guards walking aggressively toward the leisure area designated for the elderly and children.
I can't tell whether it was intuition or boredom, so I followed them.
The place where the security guards arrived was next to the slide, which was slightly mottled with signs of age.
There is a little girl hiding underneath.
Wearing a black dress, she buried her face in her knees.
"Hey! Little sister, are you a resident here?"
"What happened?"
"Why are you so dirty? What happened?"
“···”
Several security guards received a call from an owner saying they saw a strange person in the blind spot under the slide. At first, they thought it was a homeless man or something sneaking in, but now that I have seen it, it seems that is not the case at all.
The childish little face was raised, covered with mud and indescribable dirt, and there were dried blood stains on the sides of the cheeks. Tears were stained with those things.
"This... blood?"
"Hey! Doesn't matter?!"
"Call the police first, call the police later..."
Several security guards were a little panicked when they saw the blood, but they were still calm.
"You're here first... hello?!"
Before she could react, she had already slipped out under the noses of the three of them.
I don’t understand it at all. You were sitting on the ground just now, why did you suddenly run so far behind you?
There is another man in the opposite direction.
——
Su Yao saw the little girl squatting on the ground from a distance and knew who it was without even thinking.
He watched helplessly as she used extraordinary speed to bypass the security guard and rush towards him.
“···”
It's like the whole person was thrown directly into his arms.
He just held the clothes on his back and buried his head deep in his chest.
I saw it a long time ago, that is to say, I saw tears welling up in the corners of her eyes before she rushed over.
Those were very sad eyes. Very helpless.
It's easy for Su Yao to think of how he felt when faced with something irreversible.
Right?
It must be very uncomfortable, very scary, and you really want to find someone you can rely on, right??
Su Yao could clearly feel that her petite body was trembling slightly, and warm liquid touched her neck and dripped down from her collar.
The clothes on her body are very dirty.
It looked like he had walked through some dark passage again, and maybe he had been attacked. He smelled the smell of blood. He also noticed with sharp eyes that there were small holes in his clothes that looked like bullet holes. There were traces that looked like they had been burned and torn apart by explosive fragments.
.
“···”
"Do you know this little girl?"
"What's going on? There's still blood on the body."
"I think it's better to call the police directly..."
"Ask first before speaking."
Several security guards immediately followed and surrounded Su Yao.
"Hey, you seem to be a resident of that building, right?"
A sharp-eyed security guard frowned.
"Ah, yes. I am a resident of that building."
Su Yao hugged Youye with her arms without leaving a trace, and at the same time covered the traces of the attack on her back, "This is my girlfriend. She fell down while riding and damaged my motorcycle. She is afraid of being scolded by me when she comes back."
Just hide here."
"Is that so?"
The security guard looked suspiciously at Youye, who was huddled in Su Yao's arms. He hesitated and nodded, "I see there seems to be blood on your girlfriend's face. Take her to the hospital as soon as possible. Do you want me to call 120 for you?"
"Thank you. I'll take her back and change clothes and go right away."
"Okay. Little girl, no matter how expensive a motorcycle is if it breaks down, you can buy it again, but if the person is gone, you really can't find it back. I think your boyfriend cares about you, so you'd better go to the hospital as soon as possible before the time comes.
You’re still left with sequelae at such a young age.”
"I'm causing trouble for you."
"fine."
Several security guards waved their hands and left.
“···”
Su Yao moved his hand and placed it on You Ye's head, playing with the two overlapping hair strands like cat ears.
"I just said that no matter what, you wouldn't plan to tie me to the bed and wait for me to starve to death."
"You came back a long time ago and realized that I had untied myself, but you didn't want to come back to see me, so you just hunkered down in a corner like this?"
“···”
"sorry···"
"Brother, I'm sorry..."
"You Ye can't do it...it's useless. It was already launched before it was too late..."
After letting go of his hand, Youye stopped where he was.
His eyes were already red, and tears kept overflowing. That was an expression I had never seen before, and it made people feel pitiful when they saw it.
Those pupils no longer had a lively and naughty look, they were much darker.
"It doesn't matter if you can't do it or not."
"The important thing is that I know how you feel."
"ha···"
Su Yao's breath formed a white mist under the street lamp at night when the temperature dropped a little.
Put your hand on her head and caress her.
Seeing her shed tears will inevitably make you feel distressed.
"Why don't I feel the same as you?"
Su Yao raised his eyes slightly, maybe his vision was a little blurry.
"I know."
"It's sad, the feeling of powerlessness faced with the fact that there is nothing you can do."
"I always feel like I have to do something..."
"Ah, you have to do something, whether it is useful or useless. Numb yourself and force yourself crazily."
"Because I don't want to fall into mental internal friction, I torture myself physically and mentally."
"But in the end, we still have to face reality."
"Youye."
"You...have worked very hard."
Su Yao smiled as softly as possible and gently pinched her face.
“···”
Stare into the eyes that have lost their color, and then get closer.
Lean down.
Touch, touch her.
At first, Youye's lips were cold, without any warmth at all. She would not respond in any way.
But gradually——
An analogy is like a thirsty and sticky throat that is moistened by water.
The water flowing through the throat instantly cured the thirst in the throat.
Immediately, everyone felt that this was not enough.
Just a little bit of water entering the throat wakes up the body that needs more water.
Start an instinctive search.
Instinctively ask for it.
An insatiable mood.
if…
Unless something comes along that can fill it, it can never be filled.
No matter how much I drink, I feel like it’s not enough…
The mood to learn something is getting stronger and stronger.
——
Is sex considered a low-level pleasure?
Su Yao doesn't know.
But sometimes this kind of thing can make people forget their troubles for a short time.
It is certainly not a good thing to be drugged by low-level happiness. If that kind of thing... sinks, the final result will only be destruction.
But I have to admit that it is a considerable amount of good medicine at this time.
Su Yao limped away, and You Ye also staggered behind.
It didn't look like You Ye fell down while riding a motorcycle, but it looked like Su Yao fell down together with her.
They all remained silent.
They naturally moved closer after closing the door.
“···”
Only this time, Su Yao never saw You Ye teasing herself with various disguised expressions and gestures.
He just stayed there for a while.
She responded to herself in a small and matter-of-fact manner. However, she could still sense that she needed him strongly at this time.
Because those pupils never looked away, staring at his face from the beginning to the present.
No smile.
The tears stopped and soon started again.
Do you think she hates this? Want to do something else?
Not really.
She took the initiative to become what she is now.
The slender legs also became railings, preventing Su Yao from stopping.
——
After the end.
Su Yao took Youye to the bathroom and forced her to sit on a small stool.
Start washing her body with the shower head.
Only after taking off the clothes can you see the shallow red marks that have healed inside. Some are longer than the arms. Some are as big as fingernails but darker in color.
Corresponding marks can be found on the clothes.
Bullet holes——
Scratched with a sharp weapon——
Explosion fragments——
···
It's hard to imagine what she did and what kind of existence she provoked.
But compared to the kind of place that involves a country's most core secrets, even Youye can't get any benefits.
Su Yao never thought that with You Ye he would be invincible. That was stupid talk.
After all, Lian Youye only exists through humans, so how can he simply do whatever he wants in the human world.
Wait for the water in the bathtub to be filled.
The bathtub in Su Yao's house is very small, more like a larger tub than a bathtub.
It was very crowded for Xia Xianyue to come in, but Youye's petite body was just right. With her habit of sitting on his lap, it wasn't crowded at all, but she felt very good.
Now, too, let her go in and go in yourself. Maintain the usual posture.
Although there were no words, Yu Ye was not really motionless.
He could see her tail wandering out and attaching itself to his burned ankle. It felt like a feather brushing against his face.
Then the back of the hand was forcibly pulled out.
These have been repaired one by one.
"Big brother..."
Hear her tired and frustrated little voice.
"I thought you really planned to become mute."
Su Yao smiled and wiped her tail with a towel from behind.
"Sister...how are you doing now?"
"I don't know. Maybe it's the same as you just now, maybe you've forgotten me."
"Then... what kind of world is it?"
She shrank up and leaned against the bathtub.
"It's almost the same as here. The only difference is that it's real and this is fake."
"True and fake..."
Youye muttered to himself in a daze, "Big brother, do you think it's important?"
"Maybe it's not important. Even the difference between true and false doesn't exist at all."
"If we compare the two places to rooms, now it's because we can't see the future in the room here, so we have to go to the other room."
"Sister...would you feel happy in that room?"
“···”
Su Yao put down the towel, "I hope she becomes happy."
“···”
Youye turned around, with an inexplicable look on his slightly childish face.
His eyes were not as dim as before, but a little more alert.
Her small, white hands explored and held gently.
"Where the Stars Are, You Ye doesn't think it sounds good."
"Um?"
"But, because it is the memory of big brother and You Ye, I think it sounds good."
“···”
The lips were no longer cold. They finally regained some warmth at this moment.
then.
What I felt from her was an unprecedented demand.
"Ugh... Youye doesn't want to disappear."
"don't want···"
"Can't see it."
“···”
There seems to be no contradiction between crying and being completely absorbed in it.
In other words, Youye, who has now given up pretending to make fun of himself, hopes to face himself with his true face, and explore the most real and complete sinking in himself.
But even though the scene was so lively, Su Yao still felt a little strange.
——
The next day, Su Yao, who woke up late because he had exhausted too much energy, saw it.
You can easily see that cruel scene when you go out.
Yuye is dead.
I feel weak all over...it can't be because of Yang, I haven't been out yet