You gave your heart, but it was trampled under others' feet. Well, since you don't want it, why should I give it in such a humble way?
Who is he? He is the eldest son and grandson of the Shen family, and one of the most outstanding children of the Shen family. What he wants has always been within easy reach. Many women of his age have been looking forward to Shenfei for him, and he has been there for many years.
Years ago, I gave my heart to a woman.
In the eyes of others, she is ordinary. She may be beautiful, but she is definitely not amazing. Not to mention her terrible character, not gentle, and very stubborn. But he just likes her, he likes her.
I like the way she worked hard to solve a difficult problem in her homework. I like the frivolous look on her eyebrows when she is picking on others, and the slightly raised corners of her mouth after her little conspiracy succeeds.
He liked her so much, but she disappointed him so much.
Not only because of the words she said and the things she did, but also because she fell in love with someone she shouldn't love.
Shen Shijun felt that in his more than twenty years of life, he had never been as disappointed as he was today, not only because Lin Xiangwan had failed him, but more importantly, she had failed herself.
But this kind of frustration cannot be expressed to outsiders, because others may ask him in return, what about you? Aren’t you the same, falling in love with someone who will never respond to you, what’s the point of doing this?
?
"Brother, don't abandon me, don't ignore me." He was her last supporter, but she was about to lose him. Lin Xiangwan murmured, and she stretched out her hand as if to grab something.
Shen Shijun trembled and finally left.
Senior brother... Lin Xiangwan took his hand back, but there was nothing in it.
There was once a person who loved me as much as life. But he was young at the time...
When we were young, we thought that love could transcend everything. At that time, we did not understand that there is another force in the world called destiny.
Tears welled up without any warning. She wanted to tell him, I know I was wrong, I'll go with you, don't leave me and Ye Nan behind, don't leave... But she didn't say anything, she just stayed like that.
He stood there, watching Shen Shijun's background fade away in tears.
The Buddha said: Living in the world is like being in a forest of thorns. If your heart is not moving, you will not move rashly, and if you don't move, you will not be hurt. If your heart is moving, if you move rashly, your body will be hurt and your bones will be hurt. Then you will experience all kinds of pain in the world.
If I already knew this road was full of thorns and iron thorns, how could I watch you walk into it for me?
It may hurt, but once the pain is over, it will be better, and it will not hurt again in the future.
"You really surprised me. I thought you would leave with him." Chu Di followed from behind. The crowd watching the excitement had almost dispersed. He took out a tissue and handed it to Lin Xiangwan.
Lin Xiangwan didn't answer. She lightly covered her face with her palms, "I'm also surprised that I would say such a thing."
"However, I still have to thank you. Believe me, I won't let you down." Chu Di responded cautiously, because this was the first time Lin Xiangwan had spoken to him in these days, although the beginning was not smooth...
...But, at least she no longer treats him as nothing.
"Who told you that I believe you?" Lin Xiangwan asked indifferently, leaving Chu Di speechless, "I just stated the facts you wanted me to believe. In addition, I also said
Anything else? You may not have done this yourself, but you can't escape it. Chu Di, there is nothing so cheap in the world. Maybe in your eyes, Ye Nan and I are just like weeds, but
In my heart, no one is more important than Ye Nan."
"Then...why do you still want to stay?"
Lin Xiangwan smiled and did not answer. Chu Di looked at her smile, and for some reason, uncontrollable anxiety surged in his heart.
Why do you want to stay? Maybe you will know it soon. Maybe you don’t like the answer, but it doesn’t matter, as long as I like it.
*It's night, on the 16th floor of the hospital, in the archives room.
Everything is silent.
Perhaps it is because people do not attach importance to what has happened, so it is always easy to open the door of the hospital's archives, which is similar to the information room.
With a flashlight in his mouth, Lin Xiangwan searched among the iron shelves filled with all kinds of archives, like a mountain of trees.
Finally, her eyes fell on the clinical experiment records from a few years ago.
The file bag made of kraft paper was covered with a thick layer of dust. The dust danced under the light of the flashlight. Lin Xiangwan untied the hemp rope wrapped around the circular paper buckle in circles until the inside was exposed.
Slightly yellowed document.
Just like Chu's mother said, clinical trials need to be conducted before new drugs are put on the market, and what is recorded on these papers is the situation of each clinical patient at that time.
There was no name, only the bed number. Lin Xiangwan saw Ye Zhong's bed number among them. However, on this piece of paper, Ye Zhong, a patient with severe heart disease, was tampered with to say that he often suffered from muscle tension.
And patients with insomnia.
At the end of all the documents, on the signature document of the principal shareholders of the hospital who agreed to conduct clinical trials, Chu Dilong’s flying signature is still so bright even after so many years.
After reinstalling the files, Lin Xiangwan's hands were shaking all the time, not because she was sad, but because she couldn't control it. She threw her hand hard on the iron frame, and made a muffled sound when the back of her hand hit the iron.
Lin Xiangwan put the file away and leaned against the shelf.
The surroundings returned to dead silence, and a burning feeling came from the back of her hand.
She was a little surprised that when she saw those things, she didn't feel sad or hurt.
Grief is greater than heartbreak. There is nothing that can make her feel pain anymore.
She is not a person who easily trusts others. Although under the conditions at that time, Chu Di said such words, she was so angry that she suddenly lost her mind. But afterwards, she also thought about whether Chu Di would do those things.
...If he did it, what would she do...hate him, despise him, and never have anything to do with him? Even if she really did this, what kind of harm could she do to him? As hard as he is
Will a kind-hearted person feel sad because a woman leaves?
Does he know what it means to be sad?
But if she doesn't do this, will she continue to stay by his side? This is really not an easy thing for her...
This was like a logical paradox. Lin Xiangwan suddenly found that she was trapped in the center of the net. No matter whether she was moving forward or backward, it was like a jungle full of fog, making it difficult for her to see the direction.
*When Chu Di came to visit Lin Xiangwan the next day, she happened to be removing the gauze.
Putting aside a large handful of perfume lilies given to her, he stood at the end of the bed and watched the doctor remove the gauze from her wrist layer by layer.
The wrist wound has completely healed, but it leaves an extremely ugly scar.
"These scars may be difficult to remove with medicine, but laser scar removal is very popular now. You can try it in a few days." Lin Xiangwan's doctor told her, and when he saw Chu Di, he nodded slightly to him.
At first, they thought that suffering from such a severe wound, coupled with Ye Nan's stubbornness, would make Lin Xiangwan collapse, but in fact, her reaction was completely beyond their expectations.
She recovered at an extremely fast speed. Although she hated rehabilitation, she was never absent. She was like a weed growing in the ground, with extremely tenacious vitality and tenacity.
But it is also because of this that Chu Di feels even more worried. He is worried that she will accumulate and bury all those unpleasant things, and wait until one day they all explode. He would rather let her make a fuss with him and blame him for his negligence.
I don’t want to wait until that day comes.
Because he knew that if that happened, it would be such a devastating disaster that he and she would really be irreversible.
Lin Xiangwan shook his head, "Why do you want to remove it? It's not very good. This scar will always remind me of what happened. Besides, there are some people abroad who specially make scars on their bodies. What do they call this? Aesthetics of violence.
?Do you feel beautiful?" She raised her wrist and shook it towards Chu Di.
The mottled and messy scars faithfully recorded all the pain she had suffered, coupled with her innocent smile like a child at this time, which shocked Chu Di. He turned away and could no longer look at it.
"I don't think there's anything beautiful about this. I think people who think these scars are beautiful have some psychological defects." The attending doctor shrugged, "Okay, now that the gauze has been removed, it means you don't need to stay in the hospital anymore. Next week
You can be discharged from the hospital, and you just need to come back for rehabilitation on time.
After he finished speaking, he left wisely, leaving only Lin Xiangwan and Chu Di in the ward.
"After being discharged from the hospital... what are you going to do?" Chu Di asked. The perfume lily exuded a strong fragrance, and the whole room was filled with an almost suffocating sweet fragrance. He felt a little short of breath.
Lin Xiangwan rolled down the sleeves of her hospital gown, tilted her head and thought for a moment, "What do you think I should do? To be honest, I don't have any ideas now. Aunt Zhang will go back to her hometown in a while, and I won't be able to do it alone."
It might have been easier to take care of Ye Nan in the past...but now..."
"If you don't mind, you can live with me. Of course, I won't force you to do anything you don't like. I can take care of Ye Nan with you. It doesn't matter even if you go to work. Ye Nan can live with you.
I'll go to the company together..."
"Chu Di, are you kidding?" Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but giggle when she heard Chu Di's words. She raised her hands and faced him and said, "What else can I do with these hands? It's okay.
Pick up a scalpel? Please, it's impossible for me to pick up a pair of chopsticks now. Do you think any mother would dare to entrust her and her children's lives to me? Haven't you always disliked my work? How about this?