For a long time, there was silence between us. Because we were so close, our breaths were intertwined with each other. We tried our best to suppress the frequency of our rapidly beating heart. In the end, I raised my lips innocently. I just felt that I had spent the entire day Everything I experienced was like a joke. It was a joke. But I couldn't laugh.
"Su Yunlie. Since you said you like me, why did you marry another woman? I'm not that easy to talk to. I accept death. Once you show that you don't care about me at all, I will feel hurt. Of course, the prerequisite is that I still care about you." I wanted to step back a little. Being so close to this man would make me feel suffocated now. Our relationship no longer has the ambiguity it once had. It's sober. In fact, for everyone good.
"Yan'er, please listen to my explanation." My few movements obviously stimulated the man. There was a faint pain flowing in his eyes. His voice was hoarse, full of guilt. "Yan'er, my grandma. She passed away when she was fifty years old. When she passed away, her grandfather was still on a mission abroad. I once heard my father say that my grandma really wanted to see her grandpa one last time before she passed away. But my grandpa didn't make it in time. By the time grandpa returned to City A, the funeral had already begun. I was still very young at that time and didn’t understand anything. My father said, this is what a soldier is. Country is always the most important thing and family is the most important thing. Grandpa is here in ** *I cried like a child at the funeral. But people cannot be resurrected. Grandma’s wish to see grandpa before she died was never realized. And this has become a shortcoming that grandpa can never make up for in his life. . Yan'er, do you understand what I mean? I don't want such pain to fall on you, even if it's just a possibility. Yan'er, I am a soldier. I can marry you, but I don't want you to stay alone in the empty house. I don't want to I want you to always live in a space where you can't see me. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that even if I really like you and love you, you will still blame me in the future. Blame me for putting the title of General's Wife on your head so abominably. "
I took a deep breath. I suddenly felt sad. Yun Lie, if you love someone, you can't think about the other person like this. Do you know that your thoughtfulness will only hurt me more. I love you. So I want to stand by your side openly. I want you to be able to give me an identity without hesitation when we hold hands and walk in front of others. I hope you introduce me to others. You can say that I am your little girlfriend, your little wife, and nothing else.
"Mr. Su, do you think we are not suitable for each other? You and Miss Lin are both soldiers. So you can fight side by side and share adversity and adversity together. So you want to marry her?" I couldn't explain clearly. What are I thinking now? My heart is a little sore. If Su Yunlie really wants to marry Lin Tingting because of this, then now that he has confessed his feelings to me, what should I say.
"Yan'er, I'm sorry." After a long time, the self-blame on his face became more and more serious. I smiled bitterly and pretended to be careless.
"Yan'er, I can break off the engagement with Ting... Miss Lin. I won't marry her. I think this is the only time in my life that I want to be severely selfish. Yan'er, are you still willing to help me? "He held my face with both hands. He looked at me. There were obvious signs of pleading on his face.
I recalled it in a daze. This was indeed the first time that he had so seriously wanted to give me an identity that could stand by his side. But this time, I hesitated. There was no moth rushing to the flame earlier. courage. On the one hand, it’s because he kept me away from me several times. On the other hand...
Thinking of Su Yunche's joyful and expectant look earlier, my heart twitched. It hurt very much. Su Yunche was willing to give up the three-year contract he insisted on for me. What reason should I give to let him down again? His words of "wife" '. I found it disgusting and helpless that this title was obviously not spoken by the person I expected. But it still made my heart extremely warm. Su Yunche. Even if he had a bad relationship with Su Yunlie. Even if he was so submissive. In reality, he wanted to give up on me, but this time, he chose me...
I know that I shouldn't have so much hesitation and hesitation. How can I be so half-hearted about relationships? But now I still have some affection for both of them as brothers. I don't know who my heart is more inclined to. I don't know anymore. I don't know which one of them I want to be with more.
In fact, Su Yunlie and Su Yunche are both such outstanding people. I don't know why God gave me such good luck to meet these two brothers. But sometimes, having one more choice is just one more injury. I can't I am indecisive. I can no longer be confused with both of them. I can only choose one. Then, no matter whether the road ahead is the south wall or a smooth road, I cannot regret it.
"Yan'er, please don't say anything. Please give me an explanation. Do you want me or A Che? I know. I know that I don't have as good conditions as A Che. I can't be with you all the time. But I promise you. I will work hard and be kind to you seriously. I won't bully you anymore, okay." I could see the anxiety in Su Yunlie's heart. I bit my lower lip slightly. I couldn't make a sound. I'm afraid that I will be impulsive when I open my mouth.
I just agreed to give Su Yunche a chance. Now Su Yunlie looked at me like this. I really didn't know how to respond to him. My reason told me that since you agreed to start over with Su Yunche, you should refuse it outright. I fell in love with this man. But my selfishness told me, didn’t you really like the person in front of you? Now he is willing to let go of his dignity and worries and try to be with you. Why don’t you be with him?
Ever since I was a child, I have never been in such a dilemma. I took Su Yunlie's hand away from my face. I met his eyes and blinked a few times. After a while, I said: "Su Yunlie, give it to me." Give me half a day to think about it. It is now 4:30 in the afternoon. Twelve hours later, I will give you an answer."
I was discussing with him. No matter what, I haven't been able to calm down and think carefully. I can't let the impulse consume my reason. I won't allow it.
It could be seen that Su Yunlie was not very relieved about me. I curled my lips and said as calmly as possible: "Su Yunlie, I said, I will consider it. If you don't mind me calling you at four or five in the morning. .Then I will give you a reply then."
After saying that, I stood up. I expected that I would inevitably be criticized when I went out wearing this outfit. I had no choice but to mutter to Su Yunlie and ask if he had any clothes at home that I could wear. At least, I would still wear them when I went out. Be more decent.
I felt very awkward wearing Su Yunlie's baggy top. Fortunately, the outer coat was intact. I was able to hide the awkward clothes firmly in my coat. Su Yunlie found me a scarf to tie on. He looked attentive while tying my scarf. My heart felt very lingering for a moment.
Finally, he hugged me gently and pressed my lips. Su Yunlie said softly: "Yan'er, I won't send you down. I'm waiting for your answer. But you promise me. You must think It must be clear. Don't be impulsive. I want to love you well. If you still don't want to stay with me in the end, then... that's it. Just go."
When I left, Su Yunlie looked at me, because I always felt like I was hit by a beam of light on my back. When I went downstairs, I was confused. I took out my phone and took a look. But the screen of my phone clicked. It got dark. The power was out. I was a little at a loss.
When we returned to the TV station, everyone was obviously still very busy. When a senior saw me, he immediately pulled me over to work as a helper. I was busy for a long time. When everyone in the station breathed a sigh of relief, the wall The time on the wall clock above is already six o'clock.
At six o'clock, I said goodbye and hurried downstairs. But Su Yunche didn't show up. The station usually gets off work at half past five. But I don't know when Su Yunche gets off work. I stood downstairs bored. I tilted my head. He tilted his head and looked at the misty sky in a daze.
The road gradually became dark. After thinking for a while, I decided to go find Su Yunche myself. Maybe he encountered something and was unable to escape for a while.
After taking a taxi, I arrived at the Su Group in a short time. Since I only came here in the morning, I was familiar with the road and arrived at the office floor where Su Yunche was located in a short time.
Su Yunche's secretary seemed to be leaving just now. I looked at the closed door of the general manager's office and asked the secretary first. "Mr. Secretary, Su... Sir, has he got off work?"
In fact, the lights are still on in the office. I guess someone must be there. My question is a bit redundant. But in fact, I just want to know what Su Yunche is doing in there or who he is meeting. I think I always have to have a good idea. It also avoids disturbing him by accident.
The secretary looked at me suspiciously after hearing this. "Miss, you are the little reporter in the morning. This is the general manager's private time. You can't come here if you have nothing to do."
So I had to explain in a few words that I had something to ask Su Yunche for advice. I also mentioned that Su Yunche and I were from the same university.
For a moment, I caught sight of the contempt in the secretary's eyes. My heart skipped a beat. I knew that the other party probably thought of me as someone who was trying to seduce Su Yunche. Sure enough, the next moment I heard the other party's tone was a bit harsh. "This lady, the general manager, is talking to his fiancée, Miss Xu, the daughter of the Xu family. If you have nothing particularly important, please come back another day."
After the secretary finished speaking, he made a gesture of invitation to me. I felt a little confused on my face, but suddenly I wanted to see what Su Yunche and Xu Yijing were doing inside. A bad premonition rose in my heart. The guest's eyes turned around.
It wasn't until I was sure that the secretary had left that I walked around again and slowly walked to the door step by step. I knew that what I was doing now was childish and ridiculous, but I just didn't feel at ease. I told myself that my parents would Forgive my unpleasant curiosity.
Very good. The office door is not locked. I turned the door handle with a small force and tried not to let the two people inside notice anything strange. The sound insulation effect of this office is excellent. Otherwise, I would not have been talking to the secretary outside. At this time, the two people inside would not notice it. After opening the door a small crack, a few words gradually reached my ears.
I listened attentively. I suddenly felt like I was committing a crime. What did I want to know? Why did I bother eavesdropping like this? Wouldn't it be better to ask directly? I put away my idea of eavesdropping. I planned to close the door and wait outside. Wait a minute. But at this time, Su Yunche's slightly pitiful voice fell on my ears like thunder on the ground. He said: "Yijing. I love you. I don't love...Miss Shang."
"Brother Che, I love you too. For a long, long time." This was Xu Yijing's answer. I don't know what the two of them said after that. My mind seemed to be completely confused. Suddenly I only had one idea left: Su Yun Che is He didn't pretend to want to come back to me just to retaliate for my cruel departure. I'm so bad. Otherwise, how could he treat me like this?
After entering the elevator, I kept pressing the button leading to the first floor. When I walked out of Su's, it was already dark. It was March, but I still felt inexplicably chilly.
I found a small restaurant to eat by myself. Before eating, I borrowed a phone from a roadside shop and dialed Su Yunche's number. I forced myself to be calm and asked: "Ache, where are you."
"I'm sorry Yan'er. I still have something to do. How about you go back to school by yourself today?" The male voice on the other side of the receiver was obviously a little flustered.
I covered my lips and lowered my head to hide the slight disappointment in my eyes. "Ache, who are you with now? I still have something to say to you. When are you free?"
I don’t know what answer he will give me. If he tells me frankly that he is with Xu Yijing, then my heart will feel better. The person on the other end was obviously hesitant. After a while, he said: "Yan'er, I I still have some business matters. I'm alone. You should go to eat early. Don't be hungry. I'll go to your school to find you tonight, okay?"
"That's it. Then don't be too busy. Don't collapse from exhaustion. I borrowed the store's phone number. I won't say that much. Goodbye." I didn't know that I accidentally increased the intensity of the 'goodbye' Those two words made Su Yunche over there panic. I didn't even know that Su Yunche kept yelling at the busy signal coming from his phone after I hung up the phone. These were all what Xu Yijing told me a long time later. At that time. There is no longer any conflict of interest between me and her.
Eating hot noodles, my hunger for the whole day was finally solved. I didn't eat lunch and drank alcohol. Now that I think about it, I really don't care about my body enough. If dad and the others find out, I can't tell you what to say. I'm not sensible and don't know how to take care of myself. As for Mommy and the others, I'm afraid they will grab me to comfort me and ask me what happened.
When I think of my family, I feel that I am very lonely now. I have run a little far away from home. Now that I am unhappy, I cannot nest in the arms of Mommy Xiyan. Let her stroke my hair and tell me. : "Yan'er, you still have mommy and daddy who love you."
It seemed to be about seven or eight o'clock when we returned to school. Xixi and Qingqing went to study in the evening. In the dormitory, Feng Man was still video chatting with his junior brother. Although they were both from the same school, Feng Man was not very cool. She liked going out at night on such a cold day, so she and her junior brother decided to do the next best thing and chat via video chat.
When he saw me, Feng Man pointed at the bag of snacks on my table. He smiled and said: "Little girl Yan'er, you are in for a treat. Now, this is an invitation from my boyfriend, the dormitory leader. Enjoy it. Where are you waiting? God, you have identified a man. Remember to ask him to treat us three to dinner."
Anyone with a boyfriend must treat him to a treat. This is an unwritten rule in the dormitory. I smiled sadly. After thanking Feng Man, I went to take a shower with my clothes in my arms.
It wasn't until I took off my clothes that I sadly remembered that there was no hot water during this time. This dormitory has hot water between 5pm and 7pm every day, and between 9pm and 11pm. There was no water the rest of the time. Feng Manzheng was chatting with his junior brother. She obviously didn't remember this.
In desperation, I could only change my clothes and go out. When my eyes touched Su Yunlie's loose top, I took it in my hand and rubbed it. I thought that the next time I saw Su Yunlie, I would Give it back to him.
Sitting in front of my desk, I found that I didn't want to do anything at the moment. I just wanted to be here quietly in a daze. Feng Man saw something strange about me. He couldn't help but ask: "Yan'er, what's wrong with you? Ask someone to do it on the TV station Bullied."
I shook my head. I smiled back and whispered, "I just suddenly don't want to do anything. I don't want to worry about anything anymore."
With a sigh, Feng Man stood up and walked to my side. Then he stretched out his right index finger and tapped my forehead. "Little girl, I can't understand you anymore and more. Don't think about it so much. Human." Just be happy every day. Just do the things that make you happy. Do them regardless of the cost. Ignore the things that make you upset. Come and have snacks. Do you want marshmallows or not? Eat seaweed. There are also biscuits here. You don’t have to worry about getting fat with your figure. You can eat whatever you want. Sister has to make you fatter. Otherwise, you won’t feel good to the touch."
I smiled. I picked up a pack of marshmallows and tore them open. Then I pretended not to care and gave Feng Man a nudge. "Okay, dormitory leader, don't keep me waiting for a long time."
My phone was charging. It was half past nine when Su Yunche called me and asked me to go downstairs. At that time, I had just come out of the bathroom after taking a shower. After dealing with his inquiries, I put on my coat and went downstairs, still clutching my hand. Holding the pack of marshmallows that he opened earlier.
"Yan'er." She hugged me. Su Yunche grabbed my left hand and rubbed it for me.
I was scared to come down here just after taking a shower. I was still a little cold. But when I thought about Su Yunche and Xu Yijing being together earlier, I calmly wanted to withdraw my hand.
I opened a marshmallow and put it in my mouth. When I saw Su Yunche looking at me with some exploration, I asked: "Ache, do you want to eat it?"
Su Yunche did not refuse the peach-fed marshmallows I handed over. After a pause, he considered and said: "Yan'er, I'm sorry. I broke my promise earlier. I didn't go to pick you up."
"Yeah." I nodded and accepted his apology. It's strange. At this moment, I didn't reject his apology. I also had no intention of pursuing him for deceiving me. Was it... I had already acquiesced. It is true that he has no feelings for me. He just wants to take revenge on me. Although I know that such groundless speculation is a bit hurtful, his words that he loves Xu Yijing but not me have taken root in my heart.
"Yan'er, where do you want to go? I'll take you there, okay?" Maybe he saw my indifference. Su Yunche panicked a little.
I looked up and looked at the panic in his eyes. I couldn't understand this man for the first time. In fact, Su Yunche was only twenty-four years old this year. To be honest, he was only between a big boy and a man. If it weren't for him Now he is considered to be in a very high status. I guess he will be regarded as a big brother next door. Although everyone knows that our family has no neighbors.
I chewed the candy in my mouth. I really like the sweet taste. I have liked sour and sweet things since I was a child. Marshmallows are also very popular with me. I don’t know why Su Yunche is uneasy. I won’t start. . Just said: "It's very late. If there's nothing else, I'm going back. You should go back and rest early."
"Yan'er, are you angry? You're blaming me for not picking you up from work, right? Yan'er, I..." My neither salty nor bland attitude is really unpleasant. Look, Su Yunche is even anxious. It’s like this.
A faint feeling of disgust arose in my heart for a moment. I don't like the current situation. I don't know why my relationship with Su Yunche and his brothers is a bit messy. But there are some things that can be explained clearly if I want to say it.
The atmosphere was tense. After a while, I tore open another candy and put it in my mouth. I thought, I should give him an explanation. I lowered my head and walked around his car. Su Yunche followed behind me, as if waiting for my answer.
"Ah Che, I lost the ring you gave me." I said this without feeling apologetic. I just thought that Su Yunche might not be that fond of the ring. After all, he admitted it himself. .He loves Xu Yijing. Xu Yijing. From the first time this woman appeared in front of me, I felt that there was an indescribable emotion between her and Su Yunche. Outsiders could not get in. But I, now, seem to be happy. They are.
"What did you say?" Unexpectedly, my frankness would make Su Yunche roar. He grabbed my wrist. He lowered his head and looked into my eyes, seemingly in disbelief. "Yan'er, do you know about the ring?" What does it mean? The first time I asked Xixi to give you the ring. You refused. I forced myself to admit it. This time, I gave it to you with my own hands. Because I was afraid that you would shrink back, I just asked you to keep it well. I I haven’t dared to put it on your hand yet. Tell me how you lost it. Did you not want it? Or was it really an accident?”