"Sister Yixuan, you can't say that. I think Yaochuan must be very worried about you now. He didn't come to see you. He must be blaming himself for not protecting you and his children. This must be the case."
"...Yaochuan..."
How could that man, who had always been domineering to the point of failure, accept such a blow? How could he forgive himself for killing his favorite flesh and blood with his own hands?
"Lulu, am I really not supposed to live in this world? If I hadn't been born, maybe my mother wouldn't have been driven out of the Chen family by Chen Shaoqing, and she wouldn't have suffered for so many years. Leave this world with grievances."
"Sister Yixuan..."
"If I had not been born, I would not have met Beitang Yaochuan, nor would I have killed the child in my belly with my own hands. Yaochuan is right, I am a bad woman, the worst woman in the world ."
"no."
"Woooooooo..."
Chen Yixuan lowered her head, her small shoulders shaking.
Han Lulu frowned, not knowing what to say at this time. Having no children would be a huge blow to Yixuan. Why didn't Beitang Yaochuan show up? Could it be that he really hated Sister Yixuan.
"Ring ring ring... ring ring ring..."
Huang Shaohua's mobile phone broke the quiet atmosphere in the corridor. Looking at the familiar call, Huang Shaohua answered the phone.
"Hello."
"Brother Shao Hua, brother Yaochuan are missing."
"What,."
In the gloomy night, not a single starlight could be seen.
There were bursts of thunder, and there was a dull rain. Not long after, big raindrops washed the city in the night. The raindrops became increasingly dense, speeding up the pace of pedestrians.
A swaying figure stumbled on the road, especially conspicuous among the fast-moving crowd.
The flexible broken hair covers his eyes, making it impossible to see his expression, his thin lips are lightly closed, and the hood of his windbreaker covers most of his face. In addition, he lowers his head and walks slowly, making him look like a young man who has lost his memory.
"Boom."
"Fuck, you don't have fucking eyes when you walk!"
"..."
Several men who were coming towards me ran quickly to avoid the rain and knocked down Beitang Yaochuan.
Turning his head, the man cursed Beitang Yaochuan on the ground with a look of contempt on his face.
Beitang Yaochuan just rubbed his arm that hurt from being knocked down and said nothing.
"Okay, okay! Let's go, I didn't see it raining."
"What a damn bad luck."
"..."
He looked at the man who had been knocked to the ground and remained silent. The man didn't say anything more and was pulled away by his companions at the urging of his companions.
As if he was numb, Beitang Yaochuan lost his usual domineering energy and just stood up silently, as if he already had a destination in his heart and continued to walk forward.
The cold rain had penetrated Beitang Yaochuan's clothes, and it was biting to the bone. However, Beitang Yaochuan could not feel a trace of cold.
Beitang Yaochuan stood outside the large iron gate of a vacant villa that had been sealed for many years. He looked at the villa shrouded in the air of death through the dense rain and raised his hand to push it away. Walk towards the old iron gate and walk inside.
This place is the memory Beitang Yaochuan least wants to think of.
The musty smell from the lack of sunshine all year round, the thick dust on the floor, and the darkness made it difficult for Beitang Yaochuan to see clearly what was in front of him.
I haven't been here for many years.
Beitang Yaochuan can no longer remember it, but he knows that this place is full of the beginnings of his own killings and crying.
Even though there was no light, Beitang Yaochuan still looked very familiar as he walked up the stairs to the living room to the second floor.
The dilapidated windows were blown by the wind, and the air-conditioning mixed with rain rushed into the room. Beitang Yaochuan stood in the corridor, smelling the musty smell, which even seemed to have a hint of blood.
In this villa, Beitang Yaochuan spent his childhood. He saw with his own eyes his mother's humiliation at the hands of other men, and the disgust and hatred for him in his father's eyes. It was here that he personally ended his father's life. And the mother who committed suicide.
"Well……"
pain.
The headache that had not recurred recently swept through Beitang Yaochuan's body again, making him unable to bear it and pressed his temples tightly with both hands.
Leaning against the wall, Beitang Yaochuan slid to the ground. A severe headache made Beitang Yaochuan particularly awake.
The son I have raised for so many years turns out to be someone else’s bastard.
no.
Yaochuan, mom is sorry for you...
The scenes of suicide and his father's curses echoed in Beitang Yaochuan's mind.
Yaochuan, what are you going to do?
Kill you.
bump.
He is indeed your son, it's just a little trick I used, hahaha...
bump.
Yaochuan, don’t kill anyone.
bump.
Countless gunshots, chaotic scenes, Chen Yixuan's heartache, each scene was like a chainsaw, tearing through Beitang Yaochuan's mind, making him unable to bear such severe pain.
"Uh... no..."
If the misunderstanding can be resolved earlier, then my mother will not commit suicide. If my mother will not commit suicide, then I will not become a mafia...
Everything is my father's fault...everything is...
"dad……"
Although Beitang Yaochuan has never had family-like love for him, as a father, there will still be scenes that touch Beitang Yaochuan.
Even if it's just a small encouraging smile.
The person who is wrong... is myself...
The one who deserves to die...is himself.
If he were gone, then so many lives would not end in his own hands, and Chen Yixuan would not be in such pain.
He can't even protect the woman he loves most.
Beitang Yaochuan, how bad are you?
Such a man... why do he still live in this world?
"Well……"
The severe headache worsened and confused Beitang Yaochuan's mind, confusing everything about him.
"Click."
"Yixuan, Yaochuan is missing."
"What,."
Huang Shaohua did not show too much panic, but the coldness in his eyes made Chen Yixuan realize the seriousness of the situation.
"The only person who can save Yaochuan is you."
"..."
Yaochuan...
Chen Yixuan looked at Huang Shaohua's serious look, and the worry in her eyes became more and more intense.
When Chen Yixuan arrived at the door of the hospital, Li Xi's car had already been waiting at the door for a long time.
Huang Shaohua patted Chen Yixuan on the shoulder.
"No one is wrong, Yaochuan needs you."
"..."
The black car sped away in the rain, and the red speedster disappeared on the road.
When Li Xi called Huang Shao and told Huang Shao that Beitang Yaochuan was missing, he had already guessed where Beitang Yaochuan was. However, at this time, I am afraid that it would be more appropriate to let Chen Yixuan go there by himself.
Because the most important person in Yaochuan is that woman.
"Shao Hua."
"Don't worry."
Huang Shaohua turned his head and gave Wanyan Saki a relieved smile.
"Yixuan will bring Yaochuan back, I believe it."
"Yixuan..."
Wanyan looked at the disappearing car and the smooth road, praying secretly in her heart.
Is this where Yaochuan grew up?
Chen Yixuan stood in front of the lonely large villa, and the large rusty iron door was pushed open.
Huang Shaohua guessed right, Yaochuan must be here now.
"...Yaochuan..."
Chen Yixuan did not hesitate. Although her body had not fully recovered, Chen Yixuan could not care about it now. She was worried about Beitang Yaochuan.
The person who deserves to die is myself...
"..."
Beitang Yaochuan didn't know when he took out the jungle pistol he had carried with him since he was a child.
The dark, cold muzzle glowed with a faint blue light.
If you disappear from this world, everything will be pure.
And Yixuan will no longer be threatened by herself and live a normal life.
"Yao Chuan..."
"Well……"
The quiet atmosphere was broken by a soft call.
Beitang Yaochuan's hand holding the pistol trembled slightly, and the blue light reflected slightly.
"Yao Chuan, what are you doing."
"..."
The shadow in the corner of the corridor and the reflected light made Chen Yixuan suddenly think of something.
When she ran to Beitang Yaochuan, Chen Yixuan felt even more sad.
"Yao Chuan..."
"How do you know this place?"
After the severe headache, Beitang Yaochuan's voice was full of surprise, but it was still cold and ethereal.
When Chen Yixuan saw Beitang Yaochuan like this, she began to feel a little scared. She was afraid that if she came a little later, Beitang Yaochuan would do something stupid.
"Yaochuan, I'm sorry..."
"..."
"Do you hate me? Hate me for losing the child, hate me for ruining our future happiness, hate me..."
"sorry."
"Well……"
Beitang Yaochuan's eyes were still staring at the gun in his hand, his eyes flickering slightly.
"I failed to protect you and the child."
"Yao Chuan..."
Hearing this sentence, Chen Yixuan's worry suddenly turned into emotional fluctuations.
I originally thought that Yao Chuan, who had deliberately avoided seeing me these days, was because he was blaming himself for his choices. However, I did not hear the words of self-blame like I did from Beitang Yao Chuan.
"It's all because of me. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be so sad. From the moment you saw me, you have cried for me countless times."
"Yao Chuan..."
"Because I don't understand love and don't believe in love, that's why everything turned out like this. Even the God of Death didn't even let my child go."
Beitang Yaochuan had a sarcastic and bitter smile on his lips.
"Then, if I disappear, your pain will be reduced."
"No."
Chen Yixuan dodged the gun in Beitang Yaochuan's hand. Beitang Yaochuan slowly raised his head and looked at the crying Chen Yixuan in front of him. The kind of crying and sadness that made him particularly familiar.