"Nannan, you know your place in my heart..." Xiaochuan decided that he must untie the knot in Qin Nan's heart. He couldn't see her in such pain.
"What are you talking about?" Qin Nan interrupted Xiaochuan directly.
"I want to say that no matter what I have said to you before, it is true and has never changed. From the moment I first saw you to now, my feelings for you are the same. I think
Let me tell you that I have not lied to you, nor have I changed my mind..."
"Xiaochuan..." Qin Nan shook her head, indicating that she didn't want to hear this. Xiaochuan was not affected by her emotions and continued to talk.
"I loved you before, I love you now, and I will love you again in the future. This will not change. It's just that the first love was about possession. When I knew you didn't love me, I also tried to let go.
To love others, but when I left and gave myself time, I found that this love would not diminish, it just turned into wishing you happiness, yes, as long as you are happy, no matter who you are with."
"I'm not afraid of your jokes. When I first met you, I had a physical impulse. Later, this impulse slowly turned into warmth and peace of mind when I saw you. After so many years together, it can be said that no woman can be as good as me."
I have the same weight in my heart as you, you will always be the most perfect, best and most feminine woman I have ever seen..."
"Xiaochuan, stop talking..."
"Haha, you also know that you are a dream that I can never realize in my life. Since I know it is a dream, I am very calm and don't make any unnecessary thoughts. I just keep a certain distance and watch your elegance and beauty gradually deepen over the years.
I am already satisfied. No matter who I am with, it doesn't matter, because it will not affect the weight and gold content of this dream at all. Originally, I thought this would be it for the rest of my life, whether it was with Rita or Monica.
, Michelle..." Xiaochuan said this, paused, lit a cigarette, and then focused his eyes on the lingering smoke, his voice was low and deep.
"They are just passers-by in my life, or they are comforts. You know I am also a normal man. Just like people can't live by their dreams, they also have to eat, drink, and defecate to meet their physiological needs, right?" Xiaochuan smiled bitterly,
Qin Nan always lowered his head, but she was listening.
"But Ruoruo..." Xiaochuan raised his head and glanced at Qin Nan, then looked back, "I don't know how to describe her position in my life. She is different from all other women, including and
You are different too..."
"I'm sorry, senior, I have something else to do..." Qin Nan suddenly stood up with an extremely painful expression on her face. This was the first time that she revealed her real pain on her expression. She didn't have the courage to listen. What Xiaochuan was going to say next
It was very cruel to her.
"Don't go, listen to me, please." Xiaochuan grabbed Qin Nan's arm. Since he had already said this, if he didn't finish what he said, it would drive Xiaochuan crazy. He couldn't just
If you let her go like this, maybe you won’t know when the next time will be, or maybe you won’t even have a chance to see her again.
Qin Nan struggled hard and looked at Xiaochuan desperately. Xiaochuan hesitated for a moment when his stubborn eyes met hers, and then lowered his eyes, but the strength of his hand did not loosen at all.
There were not many people in the coffee shop, but there were also Qin's employees communicating with some customers. Qin Nan's every move was already eye-catching, but now she was flirting with a man who seemed strange to everyone.
It attracted other people's attention, and even the waiters glanced in their direction consciously or unconsciously.
Qin Nan finally sat down, because she knew that her own image was the image of the Qin family, and she should always put the overall situation first.
"Thank you." Xiaochuan let go of his hand and whispered.
Qin Nan's expression became worse and worse, but his back was straight and his eyes no longer dodge, but looked straight at Xiaochuan.
"I know this is cruel, but Nannan, I must tell you, Ruoruo is really, really important. There has never been anyone who can ignite my passion for life like her. I thought I was
She was just the same feeling that a father has for his daughter. However, later I found that I could not leave her at all. She gave me hope in life again and gave me a new direction after decades of confusion..."
Qin Nan's breathing began to quicken, but he was still listening to Xiaochuan's continued words.
"I thought I was in love with you. I have always refused to admit that I fell in love with her. I also spent a long time trying to figure out whether I regarded her as your substitute, but all the problems were gone.
There is no need for an answer, because as long as I see her, all reason cannot prevail. I just want to be with her, love her well, and give her happiness. Although I know that my abilities are limited, I have also felt inferior.
, but she needs me, and I want to do my best to spend the rest of my life giving her what she needs. Nannan, I know it’s hard for you to accept, but please stop torturing yourself, okay?" Xiaochuan’s words were obviously lost.
He was less organized, his tone became more urgent, and his thoughts became more messy.
"Are you done?" Qin Nan controlled his breath with force. She didn't blame him for his change of heart, although his words sounded like the excuse of a man who had changed his heart, because she had hoped from the beginning that he could find the person he truly loved.
I can't give him anything, so I don't expect to always have his love. That would be unfair, but, but...
"Why must it be her?" Qin Nan uttered these words with trembling lips, "Why must it be Ruoruo, my daughter?"
"Nannan..."
"I always hope that you can find true love, but why is it her? Yes, I'm sorry for you, but what's wrong with Ruoruo?" Qin Nan gritted his teeth and spoke loudly, each word sounding like a drumstick.
The ground struck Xiaochuan's heart, and Xiaochuan was speechless.
"Brother Xiaochuan, I beg you, please let Ruoruo go. I owe you what I owe you, and I will pay it back in my next life..."
"Nannan, what are you saying? Do you think I am retaliating against you? You underestimate me, and you underestimate Ruochu too. She has the right to love when she is older. If she doesn't love me, I
Even if I love her again, I will never make this request to you." Although Xiaochuan felt guilty, he was unyielding and uncompromising on matters of principle, especially because he couldn't stand being wronged by others.
As soon as Xiaochuan finished speaking, he saw that Qin Nan leaned back straight before he could say anything. Fortunately, it was a large sofa, so it would not hurt his head. Xiaochuan yelled.
, stood up to see Qin Nan's condition. At this time, all the waiters and Qin's employees in the coffee shop gathered around him, except for some customers who were still confused.
Qin Nan's face was as white as a piece of paper, his eyes were closed tightly, and his breath was weak. Xiaochuan hurriedly squeezed Qin Nan's vaginal hole with his fingers, but there was no response at all. He picked up Qin Nan in desperation, regardless of where he was.
He rushed out, followed by a group of people. Because he was in the company, so in a moment, before Xiaochuan's elevator could reach downstairs, the entire company fell into chaos. After knowing the news, many people gathered in the lobby on the first floor.
, so Xiaochuan was surrounded by everyone as soon as he got out of the elevator with Qin Nan in his arms.
"I'm sorry, can everyone please give in?" Xiaochuan shouted loudly, and many people offered to help, but Xiaochuan refused to let go. Just now, he used the wrong force in a hurry, accidentally twisted his waist, and then forcefully hugged Qin.
Nan was waiting for the elevator. The cafe was on the top floor. Now that he was downstairs, he gritted his teeth and endured the pain in his waist. Xiaochuan was already sweating profusely.
Someone from the company had already driven the car over, so Xiaochuan felt a little more relaxed as soon as he was put in the car, but he still kept Qin Nan's upper body in his arms, fearing that she would be hurt at all due to the bumps.
This is the second time Xiaochuan has guarded Qin Nan in the ward. The first time was when she was born in Ruochu, and she was as weak as she is now. Xiaochuan even had the illusion that the scene in front of him was the same as that of nineteen years ago.
overlap, but his mood is much different. If possible, he would rather travel back to nineteen years ago and start everything over again, wouldn't he have reached this point?
The door was opened carelessly, and Qin Bei rushed in. Xiaochuan supported his injured waist with one hand and made a silencing gesture with the other. Qin Bei stepped lightly and walked directly to Qin Nan.
Beside the bed, staring at her and trying to hold her other hand that was not infused, Xiaochuan pulled Qin Bei's lapel and motioned for him to follow him to the corridor.
"What's wrong with your waist?" Qin Bei asked as soon as the door to the ward was closed. He noticed that Xiaochuan had been supporting his waist with his hands and was walking reluctantly. "I'm not in the way, Nannan, my blood pressure and blood sugar are very high."
Low, anemia, malnutrition..."
"Oh, it's all my fault. Fortunately, I fainted in front of you. If she fainted in a deserted place or in a car, it would be troublesome. During this period, she hasn't been resting well and hasn't eaten much. I was careless.
, thank you." Qin Bei said sincerely, especially after seeing that Xiaochuan was also injured. Xiaochuan was really injured a lot during this period, and the color on his face has not healed yet.
Xiaochuan waved his hand, "Just don't blame me. Qin Bei, there's something going on. You have to be mentally prepared." Xiaochuan's voice suddenly became serious, and his face became heavier.
Qin Bei's face turned serious, "Say."
"Qin Nan, a tumor was found in the breast. The nature has not yet been determined. We are waiting for the biopsy results..." Before Xiaochuan finished speaking, Qin Bei staggered. Xiaochuan hurriedly reached out to support him, and Qin Bei waved his hand.
, leaning his body against the wall, "You continue..."
"Bei, don't worry. It's most likely benign. Even if it's not, it's still in the early stages and there's no big problem..." Xiaochuan wanted Qin Bei to know that the situation wasn't too bad yet. Qin Bei nodded absentmindedly. The two of them at this moment