And now Bai Ling is in my arms. I brought her here. This night, the night is so dark, the sea is so quiet, there are no waves. The wind is also so cool, not a little bit hot, not that kind
The hot wind makes it hard to breathe.
Such a night seems to be extremely suitable for lovers to stroll under the night sky, on the beach, and spend those intoxicating hours.
"Where is this?" she said in my arms. I didn't turn on the light. The moonlight shone in from outside the window, and I could vaguely see the furniture in the room.
I gently put her on the bed. The bed was by the window, where it was brighter. After I put her down, I kissed her forehead and said, "This is your nest, our home!" I said.
The sound is very small.
She picked it up and hit me again and said: "I'm not drunk. Don't say that. Your home is not here, and my home is not here. You have Qianqian in your home. That is my cousin. You are mine."
Cousin men, you have children, I, I am a lame, old, old woman, old woman, yes, the leg is still lame, don't be so annoying, okay? It's hard for someone to like a lame person
A woman, there is a man who likes me, I think I should agree to him——"
I said sharply: "No!"
"Why?" she asked me.
I said: "No, it's no, there's no reason. Give me a chance, give me some time, I want to be with you, I'll take care of you, I'll love you, you really don't be afraid, it's no big deal
Yes, the big deal is, let’s leave here together and go to a place where others can’t find us. Let’s live a good life together, okay?”
"You are so selfish. Can you leave your parents behind? And what about your children? Can you bear to leave your children and run away with, ah, a lame old woman?"
"There is nothing I don't want to do. As long as I am willing to do it, no one can stop me. No one -"
"No, I don't dare. I won't do anything to regret my mother. I can't do it. In my eyes, family affection is the first priority. Love, huh, is nothing. Really, it's nothing.
,No!" She yelled, and then started crying.
She was crying very sadly. I looked at her and didn't know what to do. I could only hold her tightly in my arms.
I wiped her tears, then sat on the bed and hugged her and said, "Bai Ling, don't cry. When you cry, I want to cry too. I feel very sad. Let's be good. Let's all be good, okay?"
"There is nothing in this world that I can bear any kind of suffering. There is nothing that I can't bear. I have a very strong character. I will not be knocked down by life. Also, I will not forgive you. Really
No, I hate you, I hate you, why did you love me in the first place?"
I said: "At that time, I didn't know anything. I was a poor kid. I was in the company and you were the queen. You were superior. Everyone was afraid of you. I was afraid of you too. I didn't dare to think about that at all. And
You are older than me, so I have never thought about it at all, you know? It’s all you, why do you want to seduce me? "
"Seduce you? You bastard, think about it carefully. Did I seduce you? You still say you are honest, but in fact you are not honest at all. You know everything in your heart, and you understand everything. You did it on purpose.
You're pretending, I hate you, I hate you, what are you using to make me never forget you, you tell me? You tell me!"
I felt happy and sad after hearing this. Yes, I don’t know why I made her fall in love with me. I don’t know what I did. Anyway, I fell in love like this. Who can explain clearly about love?
Do you understand?
"Bai Ling, actually I hate you quite a bit, you know? Since I met you, I have never had a good life. You are like a mystery, and you are full of dangers everywhere. You don't know
How much have I suffered for you?"
"Ah!" She burst into tears, then hugged me tightly and said, "Stop talking, I beg you, stop talking, I know everything, I know everything, I know everything, Xiaolin, I'm sorry
, it’s all me who harmed you, I’m sorry for you, be good, dear, I love you, but I can’t help it, I don’t know what to do? Xiaolin, it was my sister who harmed you, I am a disaster star, I can only harm you
I love you, my dear, if I can, I can die in exchange for your happiness, I am willing, you know? I miss you so much, I have been thinking about you, but I dare not contact you, I dare not, I
There was nothing I could do. In those days and nights, I thought about suicide many times. I thought it would be better to just die like this. It would be better if I died and just don’t think about anything. Living is so tiring, too painful, too painful.
It’s torture—”
Her words made me want to leave this world just like her, and I had the urge to leave this world.
Yes, it is so painful to live like this, not being able to be with the one you love. The fate is too bizarre and ups and downs, it seems endless, you don’t know when it will end, the disaster will never be over, and what you get is not you.
The happiness that cannot be obtained is far away.
It would be an extremely happy thing to be able to leave this world without worries.
It stands to reason that a man should not be depressed because of the love of his children, but you don’t know that if you meet a woman like Bai Ling, and you have encountered such a story and such a relationship, you will really not be able to let it go, and you will never let it go again.
Before meeting Bai Ling, I never seemed to regard love as so important, because without experience, I would naturally not be superstitious or sink.
I hugged Bai Ling and leaned there quietly. Bai Ling didn't say a word in my arms, she just leaned there quietly, holding my arm.
We didn't do anything, and I didn't think about anything else.
Say a few words occasionally.
"Promise me that you will live a good life, Xiao Lin, promise me that only if you live a happy life can I live a good life. If you are not happy, can I be happy? No, I have hated you.
But compared to the things you did to me, I hate myself more. Why wasn’t I born a few years later? Why did I grow up in such a family? How I wish I was like you, born in a fishing village and not going to school. We
It doesn’t take much money. I live a simple life without any bad experiences. Xiao Lin, in fact, I am not worthy of you. You also know that at the beginning, you saw those things in my computer. I, I
——" She shook her head and started crying again.
I hugged her tightly and said, "You fool, do I care about that? Don't I understand you? Don't I know what you need? I see everything. There won't be anyone in this world like you."
I understand you this way, do you understand?"
"Xiao Lin, in this world, I have met such a man, a man who understands me best, loves me the most, will do anything for me, and treats me as the purest man. No one can be like you, without any
A man would be like this. I would never believe those men. They all treat you well at first, but then they stop treating you well after they get you.
And for your money, I don’t need that kind of man, I don’t want it, I just want to be with you, I really want to, I have dreamed about it, I feel that after meeting you in this life, my whole person is frozen in you
My life is yours, Xiaolin, promise me, promise me, okay? Don’t do stupid things. If you do that, I will suffer even more, really!”
I wiped my tears and said: "It's my fault, I'm too casual, I can't control myself too much, I'm an asshole, I'm simply a gangster, I don't control myself, I'm selfish, I'm an asshole, I
Scum, I shouldn't be able to withstand those temptations. I always feel that nothing will happen when I do many things, you know? I am very bad, I slept with them, I am sorry for you, sister, I am really a bastard, I
How can this be done? How can it be done?"
"Fool, don't blame yourself like this. You are a man and a child. I know your character very well. You are kind-hearted and you don't want to see women in trouble. In fact, you take love very seriously. That's exactly what you do.
When you were with me, you didn’t take them into your heart at all. You were driven by a man’s preferences. Men are all like this. You are just a man. I have never blamed you for this. If I could be with you
, OK, I will stay with you every day, you won’t do it at all. You have suffered so many grievances and so much suffering. Don’t I understand your character? Xiaolin, let’s not talk about this anymore. I want to lie down for a while.
When you're tired, you go home quickly. It's getting late and something big is going to happen. I understand Qianqian's character. She didn't do that on purpose. She just loves you. She's like that because she's afraid of losing you. Live your life well and have children.
Now, it’s more important to do well, understand?”
"She said she was working overtime at her workplace these days, and she stayed in the dormitory at her workplace. Her mother took the child with her. I sometimes slept in the bar these days, and sometimes I just went back to look after the child. The child was still young, so I couldn't help him.
, I won’t go back tonight, I’ll accompany you, you can sleep, just sleep like this, come on, lie down!”
I asked her to lie down, then put a pillow under her head, and then covered her with a blanket. After turning the air conditioner to the appropriate temperature, I came over and kissed her forehead and said, "Baby, go to sleep.
I'm right next to you, don't worry about anything, this night is quiet, sleep well-"
I let her sleep, but I was a little reluctant to let her go. I wished that the night would be dark forever and there would be no day. We wouldn’t go out, do anything else, or face other people. Just like this, I would stay by her side and enjoy us forever.
Moments spent together.
Quietly, she stopped talking. I thought she was asleep, lying in my arms. I didn't dare to move for fear of waking up her sweet dream.
I vaguely felt her hand start to touch me, gently touching my chest, and she said softly: "I beat you during the day, do you hate me?"
"No, I know you didn't hit me because of that man. You hated me for doing that. You hated me for still pestering you. You were afraid that I wouldn't live a good life. I understand!"
"Fool, how come you understand everything? I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been like that. You don't know. After I slapped you, I regretted it so much. After you left, my heart has been hurting. I hate myself so much that I can't wait to slap you."
I slap myself ten times, but I'm worried that you will keep making trouble like this. If Liu Qian finds out, everything will be over, do you understand?"
"Some things will be known one day. Life is not easy. Why should I wrong myself like this? I have lost too much. I don't want to lose anymore. I think I can't afford to lose. If I lose you, if you have an accident,
In the years to come, I will have an uneasy conscience. That kind of regret and guilt will torture me all my life and make me never have peace. I understand all this, so I don’t want to lose it. Forgive me, I want to do whatever it takes. I want to
Really live for yourself for once!”
(Start the update again, brothers, please give me some help! Please give me flowers and support!!