The next day, I got up very late. When I got up, there was no one in the dormitory. They all went to class, and for the first time, my second son didn't wake me up. I looked at the dormitory and couldn't help but sigh.
In one breath, I gave up temporarily and planned to wait for him to calm down for a while before having a good talk with him.
It was too late to go to class, and it was still early for dinner. For a moment, I didn’t know what to do. I wandered around the room twice, played on the computer for a while, listened to music, and even
After pretending to read two pages of the book, I saw that only 5 minutes had passed. So I gave up passing the time in the room and wanted to go find Ling. I missed her.
Ling’s school always looks big and quiet, which is very different from my school. My school is too noisy, which hinders the blind expansion of enrollment. Our small campus has a lot of things that far exceed other schools.
It accommodates men and women with extreme adolescent turmoil, so it will always be bustling. Ling's school is in the suburbs, and the campus is very large, so it always feels very quiet, much like her, so quiet that it makes people feel very quiet.
Comfortable.
Through the efforts of the past few weeks, I have basically figured out Ling's daily class schedule and work and rest time. Today is Tuesday, she only has two law classes in the morning, and the class ends at 10:30. Look at the watch, it has just arrived at 10 o'clock, the time
It was still early, so I sat in front of the flower bed outside their teaching building and waited for her. It was a large piece of grass, neatly trimmed, and it would be very pleasant to sit on it and read a book and bask in the sun.
, but I haven’t had the chance to enjoy these yet. Because every time I come to Ling’s school, I’m looking for her, so I ignore these very details.
But at this moment, taking advantage of half an hour of leisure, I took a vacation for myself.
I originally just wanted to sort out my mood. The bell thing and the dick thing made me quite confused. But at that time, I didn’t think about anything. I just did that, basking in the sun, like
This school brought me the same thing, I also learned to be quiet: both mentally and physically.
Half an hour passed quickly. I heard the bell ringing, so I stood up and waited for the bell to come out of the classroom.
The bell came out. I don't know why, but she was not very tall but she stood out so much among so many people. I saw her at a glance. I laughed and waved to her, so she also saw me.
Jing next to her smiled, bit her ear, and then ran away with a few other people. Ling and I were left standing face to face, looking at each other. At that time, Ling's eyes were very strange, a little hopeful,
A little scared, a little expectant, a little scared... I didn't like the look in her eyes at that time.
"You're here?"
"Well, I'm here."
"What's the matter?"
"It's okay, can't I come to you if I have nothing to do?" Indeed, every time I came to see Ling in the past, I would always find an excuse for myself: I came to see a friend and saw her; I saw a very nice little girl.
The things are very suitable for her...because I always feel that even if she rejects me, I won't look pitiful. And this is the first time that I stood in front of her without looking for any reason, maybe because
What happened yesterday made me grow a little bit, right?
She smiled, and I could see that she was smiling very well. "What did you say? Stop joking."
"I'm not kidding, I just want to come and see you. I don't have any classes in the morning, so it's quite boring." I lied, "I've been to your school so many times and I haven't had a good tour yet. Please accompany me to visit it."
Is that okay?" I still had to find a topic.
"OK."
So we started walking around her school side by side. At that time, the shortest distance between me and her was only 10 centimeters, which is more than half the palm of my hand. But I didn’t know how to close the last 10 centimeters.
.
As long as I pretended to lean a little closer to her inadvertently, she would also inadvertently shrink to her side. We just leaned from the middle of the road to the edge of the steps, and I still kept the distance between her and me.
This is 10 centimeters.
"Look, you're almost pressed against the wall!" I didn't want to stay silent like this, so I started teasing her. "You still said it, it's all your fault!" She retorted. I don't know why, every time we start to bicker like this.
You will feel more relaxed.
"Don't blame me, I'm walking fine. I saw you kept turning to the left and that's why I leaned towards you!" I pretended to be stupid.
"You, you, you... just be poor!" She was speechless after being squeezed by me. She got angry, ignored me, and rushed forward.
"I, I, I... why don't I stop talking!" I smiled and chased after him.
She ignored me and continued walking. She walked with long steps, as if she wanted to get rid of me.
I took a step forward and followed her, and at the same time I started to find new things to say.
“The weather is nice!”
…
"Your school is really big!"
…
"It must be very easy for you to study literature. You just need to memorize the words. But for us, it's miserable for us to study theory. There are a lot of messy things. Oh, you are so good!"
…
"oops!"
She finally stopped: "What's wrong?" She asked urgently, and at that moment I could see a trace of concern in her eyes.
I feel very warm.
"It's nothing. I'm not trying to figure out what I can say to get you to ignore me?" I didn't change my talkative nature.
"You!" She was so angry that she gritted her teeth and stamped her feet before going back to the dormitory.
I was also panicked and quickly pulled her: "I'm sorry, Lingdang. I didn't mean to make you angry. You know I like to talk a lot. In fact, I really didn't mean that. I just wanted to talk to you."
"Do you speak like that? Are you deliberately trying to bully people!" She said to me angrily. The plain look that I first recognized her for has long gone. Now in front of me is a little girl, a little girl.
It’s a little girl who needs someone to love her and needs someone to coax her.
"I was wrong. Isn't it enough for me to apologize? Why don't you give me a compliment? I don't have any merits. I just have a lot of shortcomings. If you try to compliment me, you won't have to worry about finding the words!"
She smiled: "Who cares about running against you!" Then she turned around and was ready to leave.
But she didn't succeed, because it wasn't until this moment that we discovered: I don't know when it started, but my hand had already held her hand.
This was different from the last time I watched the disc. That one was deliberate, and this one was completely unintentional. But it seemed so natural that neither of us even felt it existed.
"Let go!" She blushed.
"No! You still have to accompany me to visit your school. If I let you go, won't you run away!"
"Isn't it okay if I don't run?"
"no!"
Then I dragged her forward, just like a landowner in the old society dragging the daughter of a peasant family to pay off debts to go home to claim credit.
In fact, to this day, I'm not sure if it was considered a date at that time. Because I always felt that the coercion was more intense. Later, after Ling and I got together, I shamelessly asked her opinion. She was very sure of it.
Said: "Of course that time doesn't count! It's good that I didn't molest you. Do you still want to go on a date?"
Haha, no matter what, in fact, in my heart, I still regard what happened that day as the first date between me and Ling. Because from that day on, some feelings between her and I have undergone subtle changes.
.If I had appeared in front of her as a friend before to express my good will to her, but from that day on, I truly expressed to her the love I had long felt in my heart - that was a turning point.
The turning point when I decided not to express my love in a cowardly way was the turning point of the unforgettable past challenge when I truly decided to be as brave as a man.
Ling's school is very large, with a rectangular structure. In front are rows of teaching buildings, which are the living center of good students. Behind the teaching building is a lake that runs through the entire school, with two main roads on the left and right.
It has become a thoroughfare for people to meet and move. The dormitory buildings and stadiums are located next to the lake. The environment around the lake is very good. The branches of the willows will sway slightly with the breeze from time to time, bringing a very strong wind.
With a refreshing feeling, this is a lake very suitable for lovers. So their school gave this lake a name: Lover's Lake.
Now Ling and I are standing next to Lover's Lake. Although it has already entered autumn, the sun is exceptionally warm today. The warm sunshine is shining on our bodies, which is very comfortable and pleasant. The two of us are holding hands.
Standing by the lake, watching the ripples in the water from time to time - it should be a very beautiful scene, if Ling hadn't been struggling all the time.
Yes, from the beginning to now, Ling has always been unhappy with me holding her hand. She seemed not used to it, so I bypassed all her defenses and rushed in like a reckless child. She was unprotected.
in the territory.
"Your scratching hurts me!" She continued to use the same trick as before.
I loosened my hand slightly, but still didn't let go. Her hand was cold and a little sweaty due to nervousness. It was very comfortable for me to hold it, and I didn't want to let go of her hand.
"Does it still hurt now?"
"pain!"
"Then what should I do?" I turned to look at her, thinking deeply. "I will feel comfortable squeezing your hand, but you will feel pain. Don't squeeze your hand. If you don't feel any pain anymore, I will feel uncomfortable again."
"
"What should I do?" I asked her seriously.
She smiled, still wrinkled her nose first, and then her eyes were covered by a thick smile. At that time, her eyes were bright, very bright.
I was so mesmerized that I accidentally let go of my hand. She quickly twitched and completely got rid of my clutches.
I got upset and started to act rogue. I shouted that it was unfair: "You confused me with your smile, it doesn't count! Let's do it again." After saying that, I wanted to grab her hand again.
She ignored my protests and just dodged my attacks. From time to time she would laugh and scream wildly. I could feel that Ling was very happy at that time!
Later, when we were tired, I just sat down on the grass and gasped: "I didn't expect that being a bad guy these days has become a physical job!"
She smiled again, but she just stood and didn't want to sit next to me.
I patted my head, pretending to be suddenly enlightened, jumped up, took off my jacket, spread it on the grass, and patted it flat.
"Miss please!"
She laughed again. She was especially easy to laugh today. Then she sat down calmly and deliberately tore my clothes while sitting.
I pretended not to see it and asked her, "Would you like some water?"
"No."
I ran to the stall nearby and bought two bottles of orange juice, and handed one to her.
"I said you didn't need it and you still bought it!" She was blaming me.
"Because my mother said, when a girl says no, she means yes!" I said to her seriously while sipping my drink, trying my best to make my eyes look more sincere.
"Push!" Judging from the degree to which she was choked, my sincere expression just now was obviously a failure.
"Cough, cough, cough..." She choked and coughed, and I kept patting her on the back. My mouth was not idle: "You said I just told the truth, what about you? You...
…”
Finally she stopped coughing and glared at me: "If you weren't poor, would you die?!" She said through gritted teeth, with a bit of viciousness.
I stopped sensibly, stopped talking, and squatted down next to her aggrievedly, drinking orange juice.
She was curious, "Why don't you speak?"
"..."
"What's wrong?"
"..."
"You didn't say I was leaving!" She stood up.
"Don't, don't, don't bother me. Didn't you say you want me to be rich? I don't dare to speak!" I quickly pulled her.
"I don't want you to be poor, and I don't want you to be silent!"
"I don't know what to say except for talking nonsense!"
With a plop, she fell on the grass...
"What's your law class today?" I changed the subject.
"Yeah!" She sat up, "It's quite boring."
"Ah? Why? I think the law is very interesting. If you learn the law well, you will be protected from murder and arson in the future!"
"He Zhe, is this what you studied law for?" she shouted.
"Of course, the purpose of studying law is to better commit crimes!"
She fell again...
"No, actually I really envy you liberal arts people." I pulled her up and said seriously. "I have always liked liberal arts because I have a lot of time to think about life and the world. And
It’s not like science, where you deal with a bunch of boring formulas and numbers every day.”
"Then why didn't you study liberal arts?"
"Hey, I was young and ignorant at that time, had no independent opinions, and had no ability to resist when faced with the oppression of powerful people. So my mother said: learn mathematics, physics and chemistry well, and you will not be afraid of traveling all over the world! So I just obeyed humbly.
She got it."
She laughed: "What do you mean by obeying? You don't speak seriously!"
"Isn't that just following me? I've shaped the rest of my life by doing this. Hey, I'm still unwilling to think about it now!" I sighed and lay down on the grass in a daze.
"Don't you think that you have to do whatever you study?" Now it was her turn to pull me up, "There are so many things that don't match my major, and other people can live a good life!"
She is actually encouraging me?!
I was stunned for a moment, looking at her serious expression, and then I laughed silly.
She was annoyed: "I'm serious, why are you laughing!"
"It's nothing, I think you're pretty good! I must marry such a good girl and take her home to support her." I smiled on my face, but I was as nervous as a bell and made a tentative confession.
Before I said that sentence, I had never thought that a girl's expression would be so different one second before and after. If Ling was still a cute and shy little girl one second ago, then Ling's expression the next second would be so different.
Ling turned into a melancholy and vicissitudes of life woman.
I regretted that I made such a joke at that moment - the expression on her face made me feel so sad.
"Ronin, do you know my story?" Ling whispered.
"I know, Jingdu told me." I didn't know why she suddenly said this, so she answered carefully.
"Really?" Ling spoke quietly, her voice was small and delicate. She spoke very slowly, as if she was thinking about something, "That past period had a profound impact on me, you know? It was like
A brand in the heart may heal the wound with the passage of time, but the mark will never dissipate." Her eyes drifted, were she thinking about him in her past? I feel bad for her.
think.
If it were me in the past, Ling's words might have made me retreat, or at least hesitate for a while. But now, I said without hesitation: "You think so just because you forcibly left yourself in
In the past, in your world, time stands still, so your heart will always stay in that unforgettable moment. I don’t have the luxury of hoping that you can completely forget that memory of the past, because I also know that some
People, some things are impossible to forget in a lifetime." I paused here and wanted to emphasize my tone, "But, I know what I am thinking now and what I can do now. I like it.
You, Ling, I can make you turn that memory into a real memory!" I looked at Ling and finished my words calmly.
Ling shook her head in pain: "Don't be like this, Ronin, I'm not worth it, really!" She is still escaping, she still hopes to escape!
"Whether it's worth it or not is not up to you, it's me! I think you're worth it, you're worthy of my liking, you're worthy of my love, you're worthy of my all-out care and love!" I looked at Ling, not thinking.
Let her avoid my eyes. "Trust me, okay? Give me a chance, okay?!"
Then, at that time, under the blowing of the autumn wind, by the quiet little lake, an eager boy looked at the girl beside him. At that moment, there was only one voice left in the world, a very, very, very, very little voice.
sound.
Ling lowered her head and said quietly: "Yeah!"
Then the whole world laughed.
On the way back, I quietly held her hand, but this time, she didn't pull away.
"I can make her happy!" I thought happily. This would make me retreat, or at least hesitate for a while. But now, I said without hesitation: "You only think so because you forcefully
You are left in the past. In your world, time is stagnant, so your heart will always stay in that unforgettable moment. I have no extravagant hope that you can completely forget that memory of the past, because
I also know that some people and some things will never be forgotten in their lifetime." At this point, I paused and wanted to emphasize my tone, "But, I know what I am thinking now and what I can do now.
What. I like you, Ling. I can make you turn that memory into a real memory!" I looked at Ling and finished my words calmly.
Ling shook her head in pain: "Don't be like this, Ronin, I'm not worth it, really!" She is still escaping, she still hopes to escape!
"Whether it's worth it or not is not up to you, it's me! I think you're worth it, you're worthy of my liking, you're worthy of my love, you're worthy of my all-out care and love!" I looked at Ling, not thinking.
Let her avoid my eyes. "Trust me, okay? Give me a chance, okay?!"
Then, at that time, under the blowing of the autumn wind, by the quiet little lake, an eager boy looked at the girl beside him. At that moment, there was only one voice left in the world, a very, very, very, very little voice.
sound.
Ling lowered her head and said quietly: "Yeah!"
Then the whole world laughed.
On the way back, I quietly held her hand, but this time, she didn't pull away.