The Most Beautiful Years Met You [Ninety-Nine] The Emotional Enlightenment of an Old Man
April 17, 2006
Send the little girl to the train station in the morning.
The little girl still didn't seem to understand, her eyes were explicit and direct.
Thinking of Jiang Hui's phone call in the morning, I took the little girl to a friend's dinner party that she had declined. During the meal, her friend made fun of her. The little girl was very unconvinced. She blushed and repeatedly emphasized that she was an adult.
Are you really an adult?
Wearing a sweatshirt with cartoon patterns and a bun, how is it different from the middle school students carrying schoolbags on the road?
I didn’t go with Jiang Hui to visit Jian Qiang’s grave in the afternoon.
The little girl said she wanted to apply for university in Yunnan. At that moment, something seemed to break out of the cocoon in her body.
Young girls, who have a love affair with the military, or are spoiled by current TV dramas and novels, like older men, passionately to the point of blind worship, completely divorced from reality.
Is that really like it? In fact, it’s just that I like the feeling that I have beautified.
In her, I saw the shadow of Han Jingqiu a few years ago.
The little girl's eyes are very beautiful, just like the eyes of the ragdoll cat I saw in the boutique last time, especially when the eyes are filled with tears.
It's not that we are indifferent, but we can't do anything about it. This may be the best result.
April 18, 2006
At 2:30 in the morning, I sent a text message to Xiaoya, but I never got a reply.
There was a faint feeling of guilt in my heart.
Are those words too harsh for a teenage child?
April 19, 2006
Today is my mother's birthday. My father and his wife came back in time and set up a few tables in Yufu Tower to treat guests to dinner in the evening.
It was almost eleven o'clock when I got home. I lay on my bed and couldn't fall asleep for a long time.
It must be because I drank a cup of tea after the meal.
April 20, 2006
Today at dinner, my mother mentioned the issue of having children again.
I can only use words to prevaricate.
It’s not that I don’t like children, I can’t tell you how I feel about it, it’s like I suddenly lost all interest in this aspect of things.
April 21, 2006
I don’t know where the mother brought back a child from.
She was about five or six months old, with a pair of big bony eyes open, and her chubby little hands holding on to the buttons of my shirt. Later she wet my pants, took off the diaper, and she was a little girl.
The little guy grinned with a toothless grin, grabbing the buttons and turning them around.
A very subtle feeling that cannot be described.
April 22, 2006
I'm going back to Yunnan tomorrow, I've dealt with Xiao Zhanfo, and there's still some aftermath work to be done.
April 23, 2006
I was a little surprised to see Han Jingqiu at the Yunnan Airport. I didn't expect that someone who was supposed to go back to city B would come here secretly and take the same flight as me.
She refused to go back to city B and insisted on living in a house in a family courtyard.
April 24, 2006
In the afternoon, I received a call from Han Jingqiu, saying that she had cooked a large table of dishes at home. The implication was obvious.
Just find any reason to refuse.
I don't know when I started to be unable to bear her intimate actions, whether intentional or unintentional. It may have started when the Han family saw that scene, or maybe earlier.
April 25, 2006
Busy working.
April 26, 2006
Keep busy with work.
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May 2, 2006
At noon, Yao Lie and I went out to a restaurant for dinner. At the next table were six or seven students in school uniforms.
There is indeed a high school nearby.
It can be heard from their conversation that they are worried about the upcoming third model.
The college entrance examination is on June 7th, which seems to be soon.
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May 7, 2006
In the evening, I helped Lao Qi pick up my son from school. I met a female student at the door, who kept following me and calling me uncle.
I looked in the mirror when I was shaving just now, and I’m actually not that old.
I don’t know how I became an uncle.
May 8, 2006
After finishing my work, I just returned to the dormitory when I learned that Han Jingqiu had come to the army in the afternoon and left before anyone could see him.
Is there any problem between you and your wife? Lao Qi asked me.
I don’t want to say more, and I don’t know how to tell others about the difficulties I’m experiencing in my marriage.
Marrying Han Jingqiu back then had nothing to do with love.
If she hadn't been injured in the Yu family, if the following things hadn't happened... maybe it would have been a mistake to accept her in the first place.
May 13, 2006
After finishing all the aftermath work, I went to the apartment I rented before to pick up the rest of my luggage.
I saw the copy of "Lolita" in the drawer of the tea table.
After taking a shower, I took the book and read more than a dozen pages. It was written in a stream-of-consciousness style and was almost paranoid narrated by the male protagonist.
I have heard of this book but have never read it.
With the computer on, I took the opportunity to search on Baidu. Lolita, in the West, refers to girls who wear miniskirts and mature makeup but have girlish bangs.
Inevitably, the image of the little girl from the Ye family flashed through my mind.
It seems to fit the definition of Lolita very well.
May 15, 2006
I received a text message from an unknown number in the afternoon - guess who I am?
Playful tone.
I stared at the text message for a long time, and a certain guess flashed through my mind, but I thought it was impossible. Later, the other party sent it again, and it was a former comrade.
I don’t know why I thought it was the little girl from the Ye family at the time, maybe because the tone was similar.
There are also records of her text messages on the phone.
I looked at the date and found that the last text message was sent on February 24th.
May 16, 2006
The weather is getting hotter, so I went back to the hospital today to get a change of summer clothes. I saw Han Jingqiu downstairs, and the man next to her who was flirting with her.
She has never gone back since she came to Yunnan.
I recognize that man, the one I met at the Han family.
I don’t remember what Han Jingqiu’s face was at that time. She went directly upstairs to get her clothes. When she came downstairs, she chased him for a long time, as if she wanted to explain something.
Until I drove away, I found that I had no desire to listen to the so-called explanation.
Perhaps, there is really no reason to continue this marriage.
May 18, 2006
An old friend was on a business trip in Yunnan, so I took the time to meet him.
After dinner, I returned to the army and drove past a bar. I saw a man smoking a cigarette on the roadside with a girl in his arms.
She had familiar short ice-blue hair and a short skirt that barely covered her thighs. I thought she was the little girl from the Ye family. When I got out of the car and got closer, I realized I had mistaken the person.
Maybe it's because I'm older that I worry so much.
May 19, 2006
Han Jingqiu found out the number of Jiang Hui's company and called her, causing a scene. Jiang Hui called me in the evening and asked me if I had quarreled with Han Jingqiu again.
I plan to divorce.
When he said this sentence, he was stunned for a moment, not because of the word divorce, but because of the firmness in his tone.
This was the first time I realized that I was so fed up with Han Jingqiu, my wife.
May 20, 2006
Han Jingqiu had a car accident at the gate of the family home.
She doesn't agree to divorce.
Looking at the sleeping woman lying on the hospital bed, I suddenly felt very strange. Although her facial features had not changed, she was no longer the girl with a simple mind and a younger sister.
I don’t know whether she has changed, me, or both of us.
May 21, 2006
The determination to divorce has not changed.
When she received a call from the hospital in the morning, Han Jingqiu took a fruit knife and secretly cut her veins to commit suicide while the nurse was not paying attention. Fortunately, she was rescued in time.
She couldn't help but remember that she used this same trick when she learned that she could no longer play the cello.
The Han family arrived in Kunming in the afternoon.
What I didn't expect was that I would see that little girl in the ward. If I remember correctly, she would be taking the college entrance examination in half a month.
When I saw her again, I had an indescribable feeling, like seeing her again after a long absence.
After coming out of the ward, I looked at the elevator that was opening and closing not far away. What I was thinking in my mind was that the little girl seemed a little afraid of me. She didn't dare to raise her eyes to look at me. Could it be because of what I said in Fengcheng?
What else? Or are you afraid that I will expose her old tricks in front of Han Yongsong?
I walked to the emergency exit to smoke. I just lit my second cigarette when I heard footsteps. I lowered my head and saw that it was her. Seeing her hesitating and even turning around to leave, a thought popped into my head at that time -
The little girl climbed the stairs slowly like this, actually just to avoid me.
Don’t you want to go back to the ward and see me?
This deliberate avoidance was fully demonstrated when she refused to go home with me for the night.
After drinking with Lao Qi on the training ground, I didn’t understand why I went back to the hospital again. Maybe it was because of what she said downstairs, which bothered me late at night, and I wanted a clearer explanation.
