Met You in the Most Beautiful Years【100】Emotional Apocalypse of an Old Man
May 22, 2006
I couldn't sleep at night, so I subconsciously reached out to touch the cigarette case on the bedside table, only to find that the cigarettes had already been smoked.
What happened in the family home last night came to mind again.
She couldn't understand all her actions at the time, how could she do something like that to a child. She was still so young, only eighteen years old, just an adult.
The words "drunk and having sex" came to mind.
Han Jingqiu was right, men are animals that rely on their lower body to think. But she never expected that one day, she would be among them.
May 23, 2006
In the morning, Yao Lie said he couldn't get through to my cell phone. When he took it out, he found that it had automatically turned off.
After charging, I turned on the phone and saw several missed calls and unread text messages, all from the same number.
I saw "Lolita" lying next to the desk again.
I remember the male protagonist Humbert who is paranoid and obsessed with the little girl in the book, and I can't help but wonder if there is another Humbert living deep in my heart.
At 1:23 pm, I received a text message from Xiaoya.
Asked me if I had had lunch.
This point should be self-study in the afternoon.
When I was about to reply, I remembered what happened that night again, and accidentally chose to turn off my phone, perhaps because I was afraid of her calling again.
She shouldn't spend too much energy on a married man.
May 24, 2006
Mr. and Mrs. Ning next door forgot to bring their keys when they went out. They couldn't get in when they got home in the evening. They called and tried to climb through the window of my house.ine.
Thinking of the little girl sitting at the table doing her homework that night, she must have left it behind.
May 25, 2006
After dinner in the evening, I turned my phone back on and found several missed calls and no unread text messages.
I turned off my phone again before going to bed, an action I did subconsciously.
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May 28, 2006
I received a call from my mother in the afternoon and rushed to the hospital, where I saw her sitting by the hospital bed peeling an apple for Han Jingqiu.
I didn’t expect that Han Jingqiu would call my mother to Yunnan.
I went back to the army in the evening and picked up a cat on the road. It was only as big as the palm of my hand. It was very cute. It had blue-grey fur and sounded like a newborn child.
May 29, 2006
I was woken up by the kitten's cry in the morning. She must be hungry. After washing my face, I ran to the supermarket and bought a can of milk for it.
After drinking a fifth of it, the little guy has a good appetite.
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June 1, 2006
The kitten has been in poor spirits for the past two days, as if he was ill, so I took him to a nearby veterinary hospital.
The little guy has achondroplasia, which is probably why he was abandoned.
I learned from the doctor the breed of the little guy, a Carter cat, and later discovered that the little guy was still a female cat.
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June 7, 2006
Today is the first day of the college entrance examination.
I was driving by a high school. There were many parents standing at the school gate, and vehicles passing by were prohibited from honking their horns.
I returned to the dormitory at noon and fed the cat first. The little guy squinted and lay on the balcony to bask in the sun. He seemed a little bigger and more beautiful than when he first came here.
June 8, 2006
When I woke up in the morning, I found that the weather was nice and it was a perfect day for training.
Lao Qi brought his son to the army. During the college entrance examination, all students in the first and second grades of high school had a holiday.
During lunch, Lao Qi mentioned that his nephew in his hometown also took the college entrance examination this year. The weather there has not been very good these days, and it rained heavily yesterday.
If I remember correctly, Lao Qi seems to be from City B as well.
June 9, 2006
Mother came to the army in the afternoon.
Lao Qi worked as his father's bodyguard when he was young. He is about the same age as his eldest brother and gets along well with his mother.
I went to get a bottle of hot water. When I came back, I walked to the door and heard them mentioning the college entrance examination.
Nowadays, children are under increasing pressure. If they have something they can't think of, they will jump out of the teaching building if they don't do well in the exam.
The mother echoed Lao Qi's words: Who can say otherwise? I just heard from my daughter-in-law in the hospital that her niece fainted in the examination room and was sent directly to the hospital.
Is it that little girl?
When I got home, I took out my cell phone from the drawer and turned it on. It has been quiet, with no calls or text messages.
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June 11, 2006
In the evening, Yao Lie came to the dormitory and found the kitten he had picked up. Before leaving, he named the cat - Nuomi.
I called the little guy "Nuomi", but he didn't respond. He probably didn't like the name.
June 12, 2006
I went to the supermarket today and bought a cat bed for the little guy.
The little guy seemed to like it very much, lying in it and refusing to come out again during dinner.
June 13, 2006
When I came back and opened the door, the cat's nest was empty. I found the little guy under the sofa, chewing something and playing with it.
Take it over, it's a roll of transparent tape.
I obviously put it in the pen holder, but I don’t know how it ended up here.
The little guy drank a little too much milk at night, curled up his paws, lay on his back in the cat's bed and burped, looking naughty.
On a whim, I called it "little girl". The little guy suddenly turned his head, with a bit of chaotic blue film in the bony eyes of the cat, and shouted in coordination.
Do you like this name too?
June 14, 2006
I returned to Fengcheng today.
I haven't told my parents about the divorce yet because I don't want them to worry too much.
During dinner, my mother asked me if I wanted to change my mobile phone number to a local one in Fengcheng.
I just took the opportunity to build a small wooden house for the 'little girl' in the yard, but the 'little girl' doesn't seem to like it very much and is not very adaptable to the new environment.
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June 18, 2006
I went to the business hall in the afternoon and bought a new card, and when I left, I brought the old card back with me.
Maybe it's because there is still more than a hundred dollars in the card.
The aunt at home said that "little girl" had been crying all day long and had not drunk any milk. She went to the cabin to look at the tower and lay there dejectedly. Her nose was wet and a little cold.
After dinner, I took it back to the room.
You'll just have to sleep with me tonight, and I'll buy you a cat nest tomorrow, little girl.
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June 22, 2006
After returning from the army, the house of Political Commissar Zhang is very lively nearby. Political Commissar Zhang’s grandson is taking the college entrance examination this year, and tonight the whole family is preparing to stay up late to wait for the results check in the early morning.
Just now I heard laughter coming from next door, I must have passed the exam.
But the sound was so loud that it woke up the 'little girl' too.
A question suddenly occurred to me. Different provinces have different college entrance examination systems, so the score requirements for the previous one should also be different, right?
June 23, 2006
Temporarily replace Lao Xu and come to city B for a meeting.
I don’t know why I volunteered myself after Lao Xu said he couldn’t come. It’s not in line with my character. Maybe it was just the heat in my forehead at that moment.
When passing by the family home, I went to visit Han Yongsong at the Han family. There was no one at home, only Mrs. Tang and the orderly were there.
I didn't expect to meet the little girl at Zhang Ji's house.
When I heard her voice in the living room, I was stunned for a moment. Before coming to this family home, I should have thought that Ye Jiming's home is here.
The kid who calls me every night has lost a lot of weight and looks like he will collapse if the wind blows.
The look in her eyes when she looked at me was full of grievance and resentment.
If she were a normal child, after what I did to her, she would avoid me like a snake or a scorpion, resenting me in her heart, and maybe even fearful, right?
Sitting in the car with her, I noticed her gaze and felt inexplicably reserved, which was a torment I had never experienced before.
She said I was heartless and unrighteous, but I thought I was despicable and shameless.
The man she kept calling her uncle had taught her righteously before, but now he forcefully kissed her, his wife's niece, and even had some sexual intercourse with this teenage child in the dead of night.
Such a dirty thought, isn’t such a man shameless?
I didn't want to make her cry, but I couldn't find a better way, so I could only watch her cry and get off the car and leave.
Little girl, you are still too young. When you look back one day, you will be grateful for my rejection of you here today.
June 24, 2006
At noon, I went to a barbecue restaurant with my comrades to eat, and met a little girl there again.
There were three boys with her, one of whom was sitting with her. I had never seen him before, so I couldn't help but take a second look.
He is a very gentle boy, he probably likes the little girl, otherwise he wouldn't keep staring at her.
She went to the private room upstairs to eat, a little distracted. When Yao Lie said that the red-haired boy sitting with her had been to the Armed Forces Department in the morning and was brushed off because he talked like a gangster with a smooth tone, she suddenly felt a little worried, little girl, thinking
She used to be rebellious and went downstairs on the pretext of making a phone call.
I saw her in the corridor, chatting with the boy. The two seemed very close.
Thinking of Yao Lie's words, I was worried that she would be deceived and wanted to send her home, but she refused. Her rejection of me was obvious.
The complicated emotions disappeared when I saw the little girl taking a taxi and leaving alone on the second floor. In fact, she understood the importance clearly and said that she wanted to leave with the boy just to make me angry.
On the way back to City B, Yao Lie suddenly mentioned the little girl and said that he saw her standing at the door of the headquarters waiting for me yesterday.
It was such a hot day and all my clothes were soaked with sweat. It must have been a long wait.
I can't explain the specific feelings at that time, but it has all passed.
——————The author has something to say——————
I originally planned to finish writing and uploading it all at once, but I found that it was probably too late, so I uploaded it first. Anyway, I will finish writing the diary on the 11th. How about the group~
