Listening to Chen Min's excited and incoherent voice on the other end of the phone, I acted quite calm.
"Hey, hey, did you hear me? Answer me!"
"I heard it." I replied still calmly.
"What's wrong with you? Are you not excited at all about such important news?"
"I know."
"What?! Do you know she is still alive?" Chen Min said in surprise.
"Yes, I only found out today."
"Then do you know where she is now?"
"Didn't she tell you?"
"No, I asked her, and she told me not to pry, and not to tell anyone the news."
I smiled bitterly and said, "Including me?"
"That's not true. Don't you already know that? She told you, right?"
I smiled miserably and said, "No, I also learned about it from other people's mouths."
"Then she will contact you. The person she can't let go of the most is you."
"Yeah?"
Chen Min seemed to notice something strange about me, and then said in a deep voice: "What's wrong with you? Why do I feel that you are not happy at all?"
"I'm happy, I'm so happy, haha, I won't talk anymore, I want to sleep for a while."
After saying that, I hung up the phone directly, turned off the phone and threw it aside.
I'm just angry, why didn't she contact me?
It's not that I'm emotional, it's that I really can't figure out why she is hiding it from me.
Even if you are really afraid that others will find out, you should still reveal some news to me that she is still alive, right?
Does she know how I survived these past six months?
Now she appears again out of nowhere, how can I figure it out?
I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I opened the liquor and drank directly from the bottle.
Under the stimulation of alcohol, I felt more and more painful. I felt like I was worthless, and I felt like I was the one who was deceived from the beginning to the end.
Xiao Wei lied to me, Liang Jing lied to me, Sun Xiaojie lied to me, and even An Lan lied to me!
Why? I, Chen Feng, am so easy to deceive.
Do I really have to become a black man before the world will treat me kindly?
Gradually, resentment grew in my chest until it was filled with anger.
Emotions of pain and sadness surged in my chest. After staring blankly at my cell phone on the sofa for dozens of seconds, I grabbed the bottle again and took a big gulp of white wine.
The spiciness of the liquor instantly made my stomach feel like a fire burning
Scenes from the past appeared in my mind like movie clips, and tears flowed out, blurring my eyes.
I don't know how else I can meet her. After so long, she will not reveal any information to me as long as she has me in her heart.
She only has her career in her heart. In fact, I knew from the beginning that she is a very competitive business woman.
She and I are not the same person at all, not from the beginning to now.
It was just a bustling place with dim lights, but our inadvertent encounter became my eternal pain.
Perhaps our meeting was a mistake in itself, even though it was an unforgettable mistake, a mistake so willingly, and a mistake so meaningful.
But now, the dream is broken and the heart is broken.
I grabbed the bottle again, and the strong smell of white wine hit my face. I took a sip, and it was so spicy that it reached the back of my throat.
Then the burning sensation spread to his cheeks, then to his ears, and finally to his forehead.
The great pleasure brought by strong liquor quickly diluted the pain in my heart, and I drank it one after another.
Gradually, my eyes began to blur, and I seemed to see the stars in the sky twinkling in front of my eyes, and like countless fireflies flying around me.
I'm drunk, very drunk!
In a daze, the footsteps of high heels could be heard faintly in the corridor outside the door.
Immediately afterwards there was a knock on the door of the room, and then a familiar voice came in: "Chen Feng, are you at home?"
It was Huang Li's voice. I stood up staggeringly, walked over and opened the door.
Huang Li, who was standing at the door, subconsciously covered her nose, looked at me in panic and said, "What's wrong with you? Why do you smell so drunk!"
I pulled her in from the outside, closed the door behind my back, and asked her with a stiff smile: "Are you here?"
"Are you okay? What happened? I turned off your cell phone when I called you."
I burped, smiled bitterly and laughed at myself: "It's okay, I'm going to die, what else can happen."
As soon as I finished speaking, I leaned back and almost fell.
"Why did you drink so much? Tell me, what happened?"
Huang Li supported me and pulled me to sit on the sofa. Then she said in surprise: "I went and you drank liquor. You drank the whole bottle! What's the matter with you?"
I didn't say anything, turned around and hugged her.
She is so soft, so warm, so comfortable
When I woke up from the hotel in the morning, I was still thinking about how I should meet her, but now I desperately longed for the person beside me to be her.
Huang Li was confused. She was so helpless and allowed me to hold her. After a long while, she patted the back of my hand and asked softly: "What's wrong with you? Tell me."
"It's nothing. Just let me hold you for a while. It'll be fine in a while."
"What's so sad? Tell me!"
"Lily, I've always wanted to explain to you what happened last night, but I don't want to explain it now."
After saying that, I kissed her directly on the mouth. Huang Li was kissed by me unexpectedly, and she didn't struggle.
Her passion passed through the tip of her tongue and entangled my whole soul.
I could feel her violent heartbeat and her burning cheeks.
Desire expanded rapidly under the stimulation of alcohol, and the fire in my body was instantly ignited, burning fiercely inside my body.
I carried her into the bedroom and pushed her down on the bed crazily.
She began to cooperate silently, and catered to me a little unfamiliarly.
At this moment, I am sane, not irrational like last night.
The light in the room was dim, and the air was filled with chaotic breathing sounds.
A long, long time later, we were leaning on this little bed, looking at the outside world through the half-covered window.
It was probably evening, and the setting sun was just hanging in the sky, dyeing the surrounding clouds golden yellow, very much like the world described by Hayao Miyazaki.
I was living in intoxication and dreaming in this world, and I completely lost the direction of my life in this world.
Suddenly, an inexplicable feeling of loss surged into my heart.
I don't know what happened, but the image of another woman suddenly floated in my mind, and she looked out the window. The breeze that filtered in made my body tremble.
I tried to take a deep breath to get rid of her hazy image in front of my eyes, but what I breathed in was a burst of coldness, stimulating my fragile nerves, and I felt very dazed.
Yes, it is Huang Li who is lying next to me, but I am missing another woman.
I know this is a shameless thing, but I miss you so much.
I can even clearly see my thoughts floating in the air I breathe, raging and choking with the love I still hide in my heart.
This kind of love makes me feel suffocated, and I feel a strong pain in my chest.
That's right, one side is responsibility and the other side is betrayal.
Wrong, it's not a betrayal, but maybe she never thought of me.
It’s time for me to let go of this relationship, and I don’t want to see her again from now on.
I raised my head and suddenly felt relieved.
This feeling is like something you have always regarded as life, struggling and unwilling to give up, exhausted but unable to bear to abandon it, but accidentally lost it.
Now it’s better, I don’t have to worry about it anymore, it’s so tiring.?