Only at this moment did I truly feel that she was my only support.
Lin Yu, her experience, wisdom, warmth, and even the charming secret fragrance exuded by accumulated fat make me yearn for it infinitely. She has a deep fragrance like ripe apples, not the superficial fragrance of flowers. She makes me feel safe.
She is so sexy, she never pretends to be in front of me, and she is considerate to me in every possible way. She has all the charm of a mature woman, her temperament is elegant and noble. More importantly, she is very tolerant.
Last time, she was tolerant of me in that situation and didn't care about me. Now that I think about it, I feel extremely ashamed. In fact, I also know that the reason why she is so tolerant to me is because she is
You really like me in your heart, that is a true feeling.
In fact, I have a true feeling for her in my heart, and I am fully aware of this. What happened last time was just because I valued my future too much. In the final analysis, it was still because of my selfishness.
In the face of her tolerance and my own selfishness, I feel even more ashamed at this moment. However, I need her so much now, and this need makes me have to temporarily forget my own shame, because besides me
There is no choice.
However, I didn't call her because of the shame inside me.
I went to my restaurant for dinner. Now, I don't dare to go to strange places at all. Then, I drove downstairs to Lin Yu's house. I found that it was dark inside her villa.
The sadness in my heart suddenly surged into my heart. At this moment, I couldn't help but pick up the phone and asked, "Sister, where are you now?"
She immediately heard the sadness in my voice, and then asked me with concern: "Feng Xiao, what's wrong with you?"
Hearing that she still cared so much about me, my heart immediately warmed up, "Sister, it's okay. I'm downstairs at your house. I miss you."
"Ah? I'm shopping at the mall. I'll be back soon. Wait for me there," she said.
She hung up the phone amidst my repeated promises. I could hear her urgency in her voice, and her urgency also made me feel her excitement.
I was ashamed again because I clearly knew the hypocrisy contained in what I just said.
I went to the other side of her villa, which is close to the lake. I didn't want others to see me here, because I had to avoid any negative influence on Lin Yu.
There is a little moonlight tonight. Looking around, the surface of the sparkling lake is sprinkled with a faint silver light. The moon hanging high in the night sky is thrown into the lake like countless broken glass pieces. I have no intention of admiring such a night, because
There is still fear and uneasiness hidden in my heart.
Not long after, I heard the ringtone of my cell phone. I took it out and looked at it, then hurriedly ran towards the front of the villa. The phone number displayed on it was Lin Yu's phone number.
However, I stopped immediately after running a few steps. Because I suddenly felt something strange appeared in my mind... It was a glimmer of light. I turned around suddenly, really, I saw it, look.
When we arrived at Hongya's villa opposite, there were already lights.
It didn't happen just now, I'm absolutely sure.
My cell phone was still ringing. Lin Yu might have heard the ringing of my cell phone, and since my car was still parked there, she could of course determine my location, so she called me softly, "Feng Xiao..."
"
I quickly ran to her, "Sister, it seems Hong Ya is back? I just noticed that the light in her room was on."
She shook her head, "She's not coming back. She has entrusted me to sell the villa for her, and her supermarket has also entrusted me to sell it for her, but I feel a little reluctant to let it go."
I suddenly felt sad: It turned out that the villa opposite had changed its character.
"Sister, why doesn't she come back?" I asked, and then followed her into the house.
This time, I clearly feel that the relationship between us is different from before. Now, we no longer have the passion we once had, and we have become dull——
She entered the house in front of me, and I followed her. After entering, I closed the door. If it had been in the past, she would have turned around immediately and looked at me with burning eyes, and then our passionate exchanges
Hug and kiss, then dance to the bed, and the next step is to have fun...
But, that's not the case today. Today is completely different from before. She was in front of me. When I turned around and closed the door, I found that she was continuing to walk forward, and I also heard her saying: "Have you eaten?"
Immediately, she threw the satchel on her shoulder onto the coffee table.
I replied: "I have eaten."
She said, "I've eaten too. You sit down for a while while I go and take a break."
She didn't come to see me at all during this whole process.
I don't know if she did this intentionally, but I have clearly felt the gap between us. I know very well that this gap was caused by me last time.
I was sitting on the sofa, and I felt a sense of restraint at this moment. My body felt stiff, and I felt at a loss.
She came out, looked at me from a distance and asked: "Feng Xiao, I feel like I want to cry when I hear your voice on the phone. What happened?"
I shook my head and said, "It's okay." I didn't want to tell her about Shangguan Qin for the time being, because I didn't want her to think that I came to her after something happened to the woman over there, so I immediately said, "It just feels like it's been a long time."
See you."
She looked at me and smiled, "Really? Your mouth is getting sweeter and sweeter."
I said: "Sister, do you have wine here? I would like some wine."
She shook her head and said: "There is wine, but no vegetables. Oh, wait, there seem to be a few bags of peanuts and some pickled mustard."
I smiled and said, "That's enough. That's enough."
She said: "Let me have a drink with you too. Okay?"
I immediately became happy and said, "That's great."
Then, she put a few things on plates and brought them to the table, along with a bottle of wine. It was Wuliangye.
"Okay, Mr. Feng, come and have a drink." She then said to me with a smile.
I smiled, and then went to the dining table. I found that there were far more things on the table than what she just mentioned. In addition to the things she just mentioned, there were also canned fish, a roast duck and some other things.
I asked her in surprise: "Can you do magic?"
She kept laughing, "These are the things we usually have at home. Whatever."
She is not the secretary-general of the provincial government for nothing. Such a thing is certainly a piece of cake. I thought to myself. Then I opened the bottle of wine and filled two large glasses.
I raised my glass to her and said, "Sister, come here, I respect you."
She raised her glass to touch it with me, "I haven't drank for a long time. The Organization Department is different from the Government Office. The job of the General Office is to accompany people to drink, while the Organization Department is to watch others drink."
I couldn't help but laugh, "Sister, are you inspecting cadres through drinking?"
She also laughed, "This is also one of the aspects. People often say that the quality of wine depends on the character. Drinking has many names, and the behavior of drunk people is naturally varied. If you do a psychological analysis of the behavior of drunk people, you can see
This person’s character, thoughts, and experiences. Alcohol has the effect of paralyzing the brain, so when someone is drunk, his consciousness will lose control, and he will not care about some things. This is why he talks nonsense after drinking. This
In fact, it is the most superficial content. Although the brain is paralyzed, it still has a weak consciousness and can feel a little external stimulation. If someone continues to drink heavily and reaches the point of being drunk, the consciousness will be blocked and unable to
Feeling the stimulation of external things, the brain enters a deep sleep state. At this time, the unconscious begins to activate, and the images or words that were once hidden in the deepest part of the heart will be expressed involuntarily. This is what the drunk does not know, because he has lost the initiative.
Consciousness, then the potential content, that is, the most real part, is revealed. According to my observations over the years, different types of people have different wine tastes."
I was very interested, "Sister, tell me, what are the types?"
She said with a smile: "The first type is the drunken sleep type. The main manifestation is sleeping after drinking, without unnecessary words and behaviors. This type of person has an easy-going personality, is relatively magnanimous, and will not quarrel with others over trivial matters.
He cares about everything and gets along easily with others, but rarely communicates with others. He is quite satisfied with the current situation of life and does not have high requirements or expectations for the future. He has not encountered too many ups and downs and his life is smooth sailing."
I nodded, "I seem to belong to this type."
She looked at me and smiled, "Really? The second type is the drunken pleasure type. This type of person is happy after drinking. A kind of happiness bursts out from the bottom of his heart. He can laugh non-stop and sing non-stop.
Stop, you can dance non-stop. This type of person is open-minded and cheerful. They are loyal and courageous, but also chivalrous and tender. They like to communicate with others, can face reality correctly, love life, and are full of confidence in the future.
Life is full of hardships and joys.”
I said: "I am also like this type."
She glanced at me charmingly and continued: "The third type is the sociable type after drinking. This type of person likes to talk after drinking. They speak quickly and think quickly. They can understand their superiors, be considerate of their subordinates, and can communicate well with their subordinates.
The one who speaks out what he wants to say at the wine table and accomplishes what he wants to do. This type of person has a relatively introverted personality, usually talks less, and does not express his opinions easily. He can only express his opinions at specific times and occasions.
People like to show off their edge. Such people have a strong enterprising spirit, have lofty ambitions, and will work hard for their ambitions.”
In the past, I mainly wanted to liven up the atmosphere, and I also felt that the two types she mentioned were somewhat similar to me. But now I really feel a little strange, "Why do I think this one also looks like me?"
She also laughed immediately, "You, why do you think everything looks like you?" Then she added: "The fourth type is the drunken talking type. The main symptom of this type of people is that they have to go out after drinking.
Find someone you trust to tell the story. If he is older than you, he can talk about it from when you were one year old until now. If he is younger than you, he can talk from when he can remember it until now. Haha! This
This type of person is usually introverted, thoughtful, and insightful. They usually don’t like to express themselves and evaluate others, and they don’t like to be sharp. They can only express themselves, evaluate others, and explain their own opinions under the influence of alcohol. Like this
People have mediocre experiences and are content with the status quo.”
I hurriedly said: "I'm not this type, but liking to talk after drinking should be a common characteristic of many people, right?"
She smiled and said: "It depends on the degree." Then she continued: "The fifth type is the depressed type after drinking. Such people are depressed after drinking. They are sad when they see everything and shed tears when they think about everything.
The more I think about it, the more I feel aggrieved, the more I think about it, the more sad I become, and burst into tears. This type of person is thoughtful, good at observing people, and very caring about others. However, they are narrow-minded and often feel unhappy because of trivial things, and they are afraid of being laughed at by others.
Talk to others. I always feel that there are unsatisfactory aspects in life and always have a sense of inferiority. Therefore, I can only drink to relieve my sorrow and shed my grievances and dissatisfaction with tears. Such people have experienced relatively bumpy experiences and always feel that their ambitions have not been fulfilled.
I feel unwilling."
I nodded, "I've seen this type of people. And there seem to be quite a few of them. There are already a lot of people in this world who feel they have no ambition."
She said: "Yes. People in a class society are distributed in a pyramid. There are fewer people at the top because it requires wisdom, opportunity and luck."
I deeply agreed, "Yes. I think the most important thing your organization department should do is to reduce the number of people of this type as much as possible so that they can make the best use of their talents. What do you think? Sister."
She looked at me and shook her head slightly, "Feng Xiao, you still have such an ideal idea. Make the best use of people and make the best use of their talents. The ruling class has been shouting for thousands of years. Who can really do it? I can say this, in this world
No country in the world and no era can truly achieve this. In the final analysis, it is just a slogan."
I said: "I'm not doing what I said, but I should do my best. Sister, I know very well that I wouldn't be able to be the dean without you. But I always feel that this way is not enough."
It's not entirely advisable, but I have worked harder because of this because I don't want to embarrass you. But sister, can't you change the way you evaluate cadres? For example, why can't more capable people have the ability to do so?
What about such an opportunity?”
She smiled slightly, "Feng Xiao, you are too high-ranking. This is a question for the central leadership to think about. Your level is higher than mine."
I said seriously: "No, this is also what the common people and all people at the bottom want. Getting equal development opportunities is the hope of many people, and it is also one of the signs of social equality."
She smiled bitterly and shook her head: "Yes. Why don't I know this? This matter is too complicated. It is not only related to the times, but also to the system. Let's wait, maybe in our generation there is hope to see it
That day will come."
I suddenly felt that I was indeed too idealistic, so I couldn’t help but shake my head and smile bitterly, "Yeah... By the way, sister, have you finished talking about the types of people who drink just now? I guess not yet? I think there should be more
."
She smiled and said: "That's you, you changed the topic. There is also the drunken harassment type. Its main manifestation is that you like to joke with people after drinking, no matter adults or children, and can even make adults angry.
Made the child cry. This type of person has a cheerful personality, loves life, is a typical realist, and is a person who is willing to spread joy everywhere. He usually likes to joke with others, but it becomes worse after drinking.
Nothing less. Such people can still be confident when facing difficulties." (To be continued)