Maybe it's because I drank too much, so the excitement made my mind wander. But I didn't talk to the driver. I still need to observe this new driver for a while.
When I got off the bus, I said to the driver, "You can rest at home tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. You can pick me up at my house at five o'clock in the afternoon the day after tomorrow. I have an entertainment."
He promised repeatedly. I suddenly remembered something, "Take some of the cigarettes and wine in the trunk of the car and give them to your father. Just say I gave them to his old man."
He hurriedly said: "Mayor Feng, this..."
I smiled at him and said: "This is my intention. Anyway, I don't drink much, let alone smoke. These things are usually arranged by you and secretary Xiao Xu. It's okay, you will get used to it slowly. This is not
Even if it’s a big event, you guys have to work very hard. As long as there are no problems on major occasions, that’s fine.”
He nodded and drove away. At this moment, I suddenly felt that I was really excited today. I was so excited that I was a little impulsive: Why did I say those words to the driver? But I didn't think anything, after all, it was not a big deal.
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When I arrived at Zhu Dan's place, she had already finished taking a shower. After I entered, she did not hug me as usual, but immediately asked me to take a shower. I didn't say much, because I knew that I was in trouble after drinking.
The smell is terrible, although I can't smell it myself.
She put the water for me, and then gently took off my clothes. Her movements were very gentle, so gentle that it made my heart warm, and a sense of happiness suddenly came to my heart. At this moment, I suddenly felt
She really seems to be a virtuous and lovely wife.
And such a feeling of warmth and happiness immediately made it difficult to restrain the impulse in my heart. I put my hands on her shoulders, and then said to her: "Xiao Dan, do you know?
?Today I almost thought someone was you. You don’t know, the moment I saw that woman’s back, my breathing almost stopped.”
At this time, she was unbuckling my trousers. When she heard what I said, she immediately raised her head and looked at me, "Smile, was the purpose of you making that call to me just to confirm whether that person was the real person?"
I?"
When she asked this question, I immediately regretted it, but the words had already been spoken and there was no way I could take them back, so I had no choice but to nod and say: "Yes. Xiao Dan, I was extremely nervous at the time, and suddenly I felt like a world
A feeling of doom.”
After saying this, I regretted it even more. This was me showing her that I had fallen in love with her. I once heard someone describe the feeling of being drunk: I was very excited when I was drunk and couldn't help but
When speaking, when a sentence is said, I immediately feel that it should not be said, but the next sentence that should not be said has already appeared.
Now I'm in this situation.
At this time, I found that her eyes were full of tenderness. She stood up and gently hugged me. She rubbed her face on my cheek and whispered to me: "Laugh,
You know what? I was very happy to hear what you just said."
At this moment, a kind of warmth suddenly surged into my heart again, but at the same time, I felt a little regretful: Are you really planning to marry her and live a long life with her?
My hands went to her back, and after hesitating for a few moments, I gently held her in my arms. But I didn’t know what I should do now. I understood that everything I had just shown was due to impulse, and now I
I hesitated and regretted it. I knew that it was unrealistic for me to marry her, because she would not be able to accept that I would continue to date other women after our marriage. Even now, I cannot tell her such a thing.
So, I immediately and instinctively chose silence.
She hugged me for a while, maybe because she suddenly realized that I didn't speak, and then she seemed to understand. She pushed me away gently and said, "Go take a bath. It's easy to catch a cold when the water is cold."
Then I saw the sadness and disappointment on her face.
She didn't come to take a bath for me, but just brought my pajamas inside for me in the middle of the bath. I felt extremely guilty, so I didn't make any requests to her. Moreover, I didn't dare to see her at all.
s eyes.
Although I felt an extremely pleasurable physical sensation while soaking in the hot water and felt the alcohol in my body slowly evaporating, my heart was very desolate. So it didn't take long for me to come out of it.
, then wiped her body clean and put on the pajamas she just brought in.
After I went out, I found her sitting on the sofa watching TV. I went to sit down next to her with some embarrassment. After hesitating for a while, I took her body in my arms. She didn't refuse, and her body was soft.
, but I felt that her thoughts did not seem to be in her body, because I felt that she was careless about me.
I called her, "Xiao Dan..."
She answered me immediately, "Well..."
However, her voice still sounded careless, or absent-minded, which made me suddenly feel a sense of fear and boredom. I took my hand out of her waist and said, "You can watch TV."
.I want to go to bed. I’ve been too tired lately.”
She seemed to react at this moment, "Let's go together."
I suddenly felt an inexplicable excitement in my heart.
She turned off the TV, and then went to the bedroom with me on the bed. But I found that she still looked so absent-minded, and then asked her softly: "What's wrong with you?"
She was startled for a moment, then turned to me and smiled sweetly, "It's nothing. Go to sleep."
I went to hug her body, and immediately felt her body being numb again. My passion suddenly became less intense, and I sighed in my heart, "Go to sleep. I'm sleepy."
I really fell asleep immediately, and it turned out to be a dreamless night.
When I woke up the next morning, I found that she was also awake, and she was looking at me. I was a little surprised, "Why did you wake up so early today?"
But she just smiled at me. I seemed to understand, and immediately asked her again: "You didn't sleep last night?"
She withdrew her gaze from my face, shook her head slightly, and then said softly to me: "Smile, I can't sleep."
At this moment, I seemed to understand... I immediately asked her: "Xiao Dan, do you regret being with me?"
She shook her head slightly, "I don't regret it, but I feel like I have no hope."
I suddenly felt uncomfortable in my heart, but I still said to her: "Xiao Dan, I told you before, you can leave me at any time."
She immediately came to look at me and said, "Then you recognized the wrong person last night, why are you feeling so uncomfortable?"
I was stunned immediately.
But she was still looking at me, "Smile, why can't you accept me? Is it because of my past?"
I shook my head, "Who doesn't have a past? I have more past."
She immediately asked, "Why? What unsolvable problems have you encountered? Can you tell me? We can solve it together. I believe we can solve all problems together. Laugh,
Can you tell me now?"
I was silent, then shook my head slightly...
People's premonitions are sometimes very sensitive. When I went to that restaurant last night, when I mistakenly thought that the woman holding someone else's arm was Zhu Dan, but later it was confirmed that she was not her, I felt like...
Suddenly I had an ominous premonition that there would be big problems in my relationship with Zhu Dan.
In fact, people's premonitions are more often the result of our subconscious analysis of the antecedents. As far as my relationship with Zhu Dan is concerned, I had no intention of establishing a marriage relationship with her, and I have told her many times.
This, but after all, she is young and hopes to have a family of her own in the future. This is inevitable. Since I cannot give her these things, it is inevitable that she will be dissatisfied with me and even think about leaving. This will happen sooner or later. But
When I mistakenly thought that this day had arrived, it was still very difficult to accept it in my heart.
But now, I am really facing this problem. In fact, although the misunderstanding last night was difficult for me to accept at that moment, it also served as an early reminder. Such early reminders are many
This has somewhat strengthened my current mental endurance.
Also, her absent-mindedness last night also made me feel calm in my heart.
Now, at this moment, I finally face all this, and I am very rational at this moment. I know that I still can only choose to give up, and I still cannot tell her the most fundamental reason. So, now I
The right to choose was given to her.
I dare not look at her. At this moment, I am like a prisoner awaiting trial, waiting for her to pronounce my sentence. (To be continued)