When we reached the top of the mountain, she finally spoke, "Smile, can you please stop for a moment? It's so beautiful here. I want to take a good look."
I parked the car on the side of the road and got out of the car with her. She came over and held my hand and said to me: "Let's go sit on the side of the mountain. Look, it's so beautiful down there."
I immediately saw a big rock on the side of the road, under the mountain. She and I sat side by side on it. Below us was not a cliff, but trees descending in steps. The trees on the mountain in front of us were
They are not so beautiful at a close distance. Their colors are too light and the layers are too clear. On the contrary, they are not as mixed as when seen from a distance, and they are not as beautiful as when they are hazy. I can't help but think, in fact, the relationship between people
, including the relationship between a man and a woman, unless the two people have true feelings.
There is a blue river at the foot of the mountain. There are several farmers on the hill behind it, which seem to be newly built houses. Nowadays, more and more people in the countryside are going out to work, and their income from working out is mainly used in their new homes.
In terms of construction, this is a Chinese tradition. Home represents one's own land, and it also extends to the custom of returning fallen leaves to their roots.
Zhu Dan sat next to me, her body gently leaning on one side of my body, and her head resting on my shoulder. We sat like this for a while, and then she said softly to me: "Laugh,
This is great. It would be great if we had a house in this mountain."
I gently hugged her waist and said: "The scenery in the mountains is certainly beautiful. But look at the places under the mountains, there are no roads, no Internet, and the TV can only receive a few channels. Living like that
Will you get used to this place?"
She said softly: "I will definitely get used to it. As long as you are willing to be with me."
I suddenly felt that she had changed a lot recently. In my opinion, she should not be a sentimental woman. Although women are more or less sentimental or romantic, today she behaved
must be particularly prominent.
Maybe she had a premonition that our breakup was approaching, or she was making the final decision. I seemed to understand something in my heart. At this moment, the sadness in my heart suddenly poured out, and I immediately hugged her tightly.
, but I immediately relaxed my grip. I knew that the decision-making power on this matter actually rested with me.
I didn't speak, I didn't say anything. Because at this time, I didn't know what to say at all, let alone express any commitment to her.
After a while, she moved her body, and then said softly to me: "Let's go."
At this moment, I regret very much, regretting my silence and dullness just now. Even if I can't promise her marriage, I can at least say a few nice words to make her happy. Are you happy?
When I was regretting not falling, she had already stood up from me, and then walked quickly towards the direction of the car. Looking at her back, my heart suddenly shook! At this moment, I suddenly thought of Shangguan Qin
Come.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered that Shangguanqin and I also took this road when we went to that small mountain village. But that small mountain village was much farther than where we were going today.
That time, when Shangguanqin and I were driving on this road together, we were so happy and happy, and we were full of laughter along the way. But now, she has passed away, and everything has long been gone.
Things are different and people are different.
No, no, I can't let Zhu Dan follow in the footsteps of Shangguan Qin, Zhao Menglei, Chen Yuan and others. Any woman who marries me or talks about marriage will have a bad end. Suddenly, a trace of emotion suddenly appeared in my heart.
The throbbing, a kind of determination immediately appeared in my heart.
Before getting in the car, I said to myself: When we come back from the Buddha Temple today, I will break up with her and express my thoughts directly to her.
Although this was an extremely difficult decision, I knew I had to do it because I had no choice or right.
We arrived at our destination more than an hour later. Fortunately, we were driving this off-road vehicle today, and we would not have been able to go up the mountain without it. Although this temple is relatively well-known, it is remote after all, and the investment from the religious department is limited.
It is seriously inadequate, which is why the traffic situation is so bad.
But on the other hand, a place like a temple should be isolated from the world, so that it is conducive to the practice of monks.
We stopped the car outside the temple, and Zhu Dan and I walked toward the main hall together. This temple is ancient, and it looks like an ancient temple that has been built for hundreds of years, and there are no traces of modern repairs at all.
When we walked to the gate of the main hall, we suddenly heard the long and continuous sound of bells coming from inside. The bells circled and lingered in the mid-air on the silent mountain, which immediately made people feel a sense of involuntarily.
A sense of solemnity and awe.
She and I immediately stopped and stared at the main hall inside, until the bells slowly dissipated.
Just now, in the melodious and solemn sound of the bell, I suddenly felt that I was so small and humble.
"Let's go." I said to her. Immediately, we entered the outside of the main hall together. It was an open space. It was so quiet that you couldn't hear many sounds, and it was completely empty. Except for Zhu Dan and me, there were no other people in this place.
There were no other pilgrims, and I didn't see any monks come out to say hello to us, and there didn't seem to be any place selling incense and candles.
I entered the main hall with her, but it was still empty. In front of me was a huge statue of Tathagata Buddha, with a majestic shape, a faint smile on his face, and a kind of compassion in his compassion, as if everything in the world made him sad. Maybe.
This is just my personal feeling at the moment, because when I found myself here, I immediately felt a sense of shame.
There are three futons in front of us, yellow ones. In front of the futons is a bamboo tube filled with bamboo sticks.
At this time, I saw an old monk wearing cotton monk robes walking out. He went directly to the small bronze bell on the right side in front of us, and then knocked it gently, and the small bronze bell made a crisp and clear sound.
Beautiful sound.
Zhu Dan knelt on the futon in front of her, and I immediately knelt down with her. She kowtowed devoutly three times in a row, and then went to pick up the lottery tube in front of her. I stood up after kowtowing three times, and then I saw
Zhu Dan was still kneeling there, closing his eyes and vigorously shaking the lottery tube. During the whole process, the old monk was beating the small copper bell rhythmically, and the entire hall was suddenly filled with a solemn and solemn feeling.
filled with.
A lotus fell from the lotus tube to the ground. Zhu Dan opened his eyes, put the lotus tube down and gently picked up the lotus that fell on the ground. He looked at it, then stood up and walked towards the old monk.
.
Just now I also saw the content on that signature. It was actually just a few words: Sign No. 35.
I followed her to the old monk's side. At this time, I found a red merit box next to the small bronze bell. I quickly took out a few hundred-dollar bills from my wallet and put them directly into the merit box without counting them.
went.
The old monk smiled and took the lottery from Zhu Dan's hand, looked at it, then beat the wooden fish and chanted: "I have not yet succeeded in recruiting a son-in-law, so I come to ask for divination. Who knows how hard it is to achieve good things? I hope that in the next life I will be fulfilled, and I will be blessed with good fortune."
Spend more nights.”
Zhu Dan was stunned and asked hurriedly: "Master, what do you mean by this?"
The old monk clasped his hands together and said: "This female donor, this temple does not understand the signature."
Zhu Dan was stunned immediately, and then I saw crystal tears flowing from her eyes. In fact, she understood the meaning of the few sentences the old monk just recited, and of course I understood it too, but she
I just don’t want to believe it.
The old monk still clasped his hands together and recited the Buddha's name in a low voice: "Amitabha!"
I went to pull Zhu Dan gently, sighed and said, "Let's go."
She immediately wiped away her tears and said, "Smile, you can smoke one too."
I shook my head at her, "No need."
In fact, it's not because I don't want to be superstitious, but because I suddenly have a heartfelt fear of this place. In addition, I am still saying to myself: Isn't it just a small bamboo stick?
How can one know a person's complicated destiny?
She remained silent after leaving the main hall. Her state made me feel very uncomfortable. I had no choice but to comfort her and said: "Xiao Dan, it's just a sign, don't be so unhappy."
She shook her head slightly and said: "I realize now that I have been dreaming. Originally, I should not have had hope in our relationship from the beginning. You have reminded me more than once, but I
I just like to dream too much. Laugh, let’s break up. I think it’s more honorable for me to bring this matter up to you.”
Although I already knew that this would be the outcome between us, and I had already made up my mind on the way here, at this time, when she really said such words to me, I still felt
Suddenly there were bursts of stinging pain.
I tried my best to suppress the pain in my heart, nodded and said: "Okay."
She immediately raised her head and looked at me, and I found that her eyes were full of tears. She sobbed and said to me: "Smile, let's go have a meal together tonight, and then we can spend the last night together. Is that okay?"
"
The stinging pain in my heart became more intense, but I still tried my best to restrain the sadness and pain in my heart. I still nodded and said: "Okay."
She wiped away her tears, then came to hold my arm and said, "Let's go back." (To be continued)