At this time, I had completely felt her affection for me. Under such circumstances, I should have expressed my thoughts to her, and she seemed to be waiting for me to express it to her. But at this time, she seemed to be waiting for me to express it to her.
, I couldn’t say it, because I suddenly realized that she was really so holy in my heart, and I told myself that I couldn’t deceive her.
However, can I tell her about my past? You must know that your past cannot be told to others at all. It will be the most fatal damage to my career and life. Moreover, if
If I really tell her, can she still accept me?
Absolutely not. If I were a woman, and a girl like Chenchen, I would definitely not accept a man like me. I used to be so bohemian, and my life was so corrupt, even if I am now
She has changed a lot, but once I really tell her about my past, it will definitely be difficult for her to accept everything about my past. I have already had that experience, that is Tong Yao.
In fact, Tong Yao's understanding of me is very limited. She knew part of my situation through her work and career. Even then, it was still difficult for her to accept it. And now, I am thinking in my heart, if I really want to go to Chenchen
If I want to express my feelings, then I should tell her everything about myself. Now I should cherish true feelings more, which is the foundation of future marriage. Cheating can only bring temporary happiness; cheating, absolutely
It is the grave of marriage.
But I don't dare and can't take that kind of gamble, because it takes more than just courage to uncover one's scars.
But I know it very well in my heart, that is, if Chenchen can really accept all my past, I am completely willing to give up everything I have. It is absolutely worth it.
Therefore, at this time, I was very conflicted in my heart. Amidst this conflict, I chose to remain silent.
She stopped talking. After a while, when I drove the car onto the airport expressway, she suddenly said to me: "I won't go, so you can go to the river."
I felt a little strange, "Chenchen, why did you suddenly change your mind?"
She sighed softly, and then said quietly: "Brother Feng, you are still a man, do you have to ask me to say some things directly?"
My heart suddenly trembled. Her words clearly expressed what she meant to me. I knew how uncomfortable it would be for her to say such words in front of me.
Easy, this completely shows that she really likes me. But... I was excited inside, but I tried my best to keep myself calm. I sighed and said: "Chenchen, of course I know, in fact, this is the case.
I should have spoken out about the matter, but I didn't dare... Chenchen, let's find a place to sit down. I think I should tell you something. Otherwise, I will be really sorry for you.
.”
Yes, at this moment, the moment Chenchen said those words to me, I immediately decided to tell her everything about myself.
Of course, this was impulsive. I knew clearly that my decision was impulsive, but I still made up my mind immediately. Because I really felt her true love for me, and in my heart
I also care about her so much. The look in her eyes makes my heart tremble every time. I say to myself in my heart: You must be like this, otherwise you will be too disappointed with her love for you. Moreover, by doing this
I am worthy of my old director. The final result of cheating will definitely be the breakdown of our relationship. This is what I least want to see. Rather than this, it would be better not to start.
I believe that she will not tell anything about my past after knowing it, because she should know why I told her those things. I believe that my sincerity will definitely touch her heart, at least she will not trap me in it.
Deathly. She is kind and pure, I have no doubt about it.
She glanced at me and immediately turned away, "Okay."
I drove to a teahouse on the bank of the river. The teahouse is open-plan, with rattan chairs placed on the bank of the river. The sunshine in this season is very warm, which is very suitable for drinking tea in such a place. But I don’t come here.
There are not many people because people who come here need to be calm and relax.
I deliberately chose a seat far away from other people and ordered a pot of tea. Chenchen sat opposite me. She lowered her head and crossed the fingers of her hands together very hard. I knew that at this moment, she
Feeling very scared, or nervous and uneasy.
I suddenly felt that it was very difficult to really talk about my past. At this time, my heart was full of fear, and I also felt a little regretful.
She raised her head and looked at me. I didn't dare to touch her eyes. She said to me softly: "Brother Feng, didn't you say you wanted to tell me your story?"
My eyes couldn't help but go to her face, and I saw that she was looking at me. Her eyes were full of expectation, but her face was flushed. Her eyes melted me, and the trace of hesitation I had just now was instantly absorbed.
melt.
I opened my mouth to speak, but found that my mouth was so dry... It was the first time that I felt that speaking was such a difficult thing.
"I have been married twice..." Finally, I heard myself say it.
She whispered: "I know."
I still find it so difficult to continue talking, "I have children."
A smile appeared on her face, "I know it too. Your child is very cute and pitiful. Maybe the child can't even remember what his mother looks like in his heart."
"I not only have one child, but also a son. He lives with his mother, and his mother is married to another man." I finally told it, with sweat all over my back. After I finished speaking,
My heart was pounding.
Her expression changed, and I could see it clearly. Her voice became trembling, "Can you tell me? What happened?"
I started to talk about my past, how I got to know Yu Min, and the origin of the child. I also talked about my past relationships with Tang Zi, Zhuang Qing, Shangguan Qin, Liu Meng, and Sun Lulu, but
I didn't tell her what happened with Lin Yu and Ruan Jie. I couldn't tell her because such things were no longer just my own business. The purpose of telling her all this was just to let her know about my past and the real truth.