"Why are you so confused? You are still a doctor! She obviously woke up with great difficulty, how could you let her sleep again?" Shi Yanni suddenly and loudly blamed me, and she was very emotional.
I felt extremely sad, "I...I...wuwu!"
"Yes, Feng Xiao, how could you do that? In that case, you should not allow her to sleep there?" Lin Yi also said.
I shook my head and sobbed, "I just thought that she had just woken up and shed so many tears and talked, and I was worried that she wouldn't be able to bear it physically. But who knows..."
Lin Yi sighed immediately, "You..."
Maybe because I was crying, the child felt my sadness. His hand came to my face again, "Dad, Dad!"
I reached out and gently took the child's hand, but he broke away immediately. His little hand immediately pointed at the corner in front of us, next to the TV, "Mom, Mom!"
I looked towards that place suddenly, but found that there was nothing except a pot of green bamboo in the direction the child pointed.
Shi Yanni next to her suddenly let out a scream.
Lin Yi immediately went to criticize her, "It's broad daylight and she is your daughter. What are you afraid of?"
Just now, my heart tightened: Could it be that the child really saw the ghost of his mother? But I immediately woke up. I am a doctor, so of course I would not believe such a thing. Then I went to see the child again and found that he
He was actually smiling at the place he pointed at just now, and immediately made a "giggle" sound, "Mom, mom!"
My heart tightened again, and then I looked at Lin Yi and Shi Yanni, and found that Shi Yanni's eyes were full of fear.
Lin Yi shook his head and sighed, "Sometimes children can see." Then he stood up and walked to the place where the child just pointed. I saw him saying to the air: "Xiao Nan, I know you are here.
Worry about the child. Don’t worry, the child has Feng Xiao and us, and we will raise the child to adulthood. Just go with peace of mind."
I looked at that place with wide eyes, and goosebumps came up on my back!
The child suddenly started crying loudly. I hurriedly shook his body and coaxed him softly.
Lin Yi had already turned around, sighed and said to me: "She may be gone."
Shi Yanni's body suddenly collapsed on the sofa, and her crying sounded again. I suddenly felt that I was enveloped in sadness again, and my tears burst out again...
Lin Yi was still sighing, and then came to me and said: "Feng Xiao, now is not the time to be sad. Tell me, what are you going to do about Xiao Nan's funeral?"
I shook my head, "I don't know. I'm very confused right now."
"She is gone. In fact, isn't this a relief? We must always think about the problem from the good side. Of course, we can completely understand that you are sad, but in fact, why are we not hurt? Feng Xiao
, the child is still young, you have to take care of yourself. The situation is already like this, and excessive pain is useless. Hey! Let's do this, I will send someone to handle Xiaonan's funeral, and you can leave it alone. And we have a custom in Jiangnan that when the wife dies,
Husbands should avoid going to the crematorium as much as possible, as husbands should never go to that place," he said.
I have heard of such a custom, but I used to think it was just a custom or superstition, but the performance just now shook my long-standing inherent understanding of the world. I asked him: "
Could it be that after a person leaves this world, will their soul really be left behind?"
Lin Yi suddenly shouted in the direction of the kitchen, "Auntie, come out!"
The nanny ran out. Lin Yi said to her: "You go back with the child's grandma first. I'll stay here to talk to Feng Xiao. By the way, take the child away too. My driver and car are below."
The nanny responded repeatedly and immediately took the children from my hands. I stood up and prepared to send them off but was pulled back by Lin Yi, "Feng Xiao, what time is it now? Why do you need so many etiquettes?"
I immediately sat back on the sofa.
The nanny held the child and accompanied Shi Yanni to leave. When she left, Shi Yanni's cry sounded again, a painful cry of "嘤嘤", and the child also began to cry. He was in the nanny's arms and stretched out his arms towards me.
Those little hands, "Daddy, Daddy!"
I couldn't bear to look at him and deliberately turned my face away. In fact, no one knew that at this moment, my heart really hurt.
The door was shut with the first bang, and Lin Yi and I were the only ones left in my house. No, there was also Chen Yuan in that room.
"Your Aunt Shi is here. She is timid and there are some things that cannot be discussed in front of her. And Xiaonan has just left. I was worried that she would be too sad, so I asked her to leave first." Lin Yi said, and then took out a cigarette.
Come on.
At this moment, my heart has calmed down. Maybe it's because I have seen countless deaths, or maybe my heart has long been numb. I find that the sadness that just poured out of my heart has slowly gone away, and
, my tears have dried up. I asked Lin Yidao: "Uncle Lin, are there really ghosts? Do you really believe that such things exist?"
He nodded and said: "Yes. Let me tell you something. When my mother-in-law passed away, my father-in-law was still there. He had to spread a layer of firewood ash in the room where the mother-in-law's memorial tablet was placed, and then also destroyed the room.
It was locked. On the seventh day after my mother-in-law passed away, which is also the legendary day of the first seventh day, our family was having dinner in the living room. It was a sunny day in summer. The sun outside was hot and the temperature was low.
Very high. When we were eating, my father-in-law suddenly said something. He said, it’s too hot today, maybe she won’t come back. We were all confused at the time, but then we saw my father-in-law open the room where the mother-in-law’s tomb was placed.
We hurriedly followed him to the room. When my father-in-law opened the room, all of us exclaimed. Feng Xiao, guess what we saw at that time? "
I said: "Isn't it because you saw the soul of your mother-in-law?"
He shook his head and said: "That's not true. According to legend, we adults have relatively strong yang energy and cannot see such things at all, but children may see it. For example, my little grandson just now probably really saw his mother.
At that time, we saw a lot of footprints on the floor of the room, on the thin layer of firewood ash. Some of them should be my mother-in-law's, because I found that those few footprints were
The footprints are exactly those of the shoes my mother-in-law wore before she was cremated. In addition, there are many bird-like footprints on both sides of those footprints, and yes, there is also a kind of mark, which is the mark of an iron chain."
His words made me feel like my scalp was exploding, and a string of goosebumps appeared on my back again. I couldn't help but ask in silence: "What is that?"
He said: "At that time, my father-in-law sighed after seeing those marks and said, she is back. Oh! Retribution. A person who made a mistake in the world must be punished after arriving in the underworld. Look, your mother
He was tied back with iron chains by the God of Chicken Feet, what a sin!"
I suddenly felt that my body was weak and weak, and I knew that I was frightened by his words. "Is there really such a thing?" I asked, hearing my voice trembling.
He nodded, "There are gods three feet above the ground, Feng Xiao. Some things cannot be explained by so-called science. As living people, we must always have kind thoughts and be grateful, and we must also put our own
This kind of gratitude can be brought to more people in a kind way. Only in this way can we feel at ease even after we die."
I listened quietly, with mixed feelings in my heart. However, deep down in my heart, it was still hard to believe what he said. But...how to explain the child's behavior just now?
In fact, in my heart, I am still very willing to believe what Lin Yi said just now, because I think if we humans really have souls, it will at least make us less afraid of death, and as living people, we will not be so afraid of the passing of the dead.
It won't be so painful - since there is a place to go after death, what should we worry about and be hurt about? Even if we go to hell, isn't our life the same as hell? Every day of our life is not
Are you all experiencing ups and downs, joys and sorrows?
Therefore, in my heart, I regard the story Lin Yi just told me more as a kind of comfort from him to me.
"Okay, Feng Xiao, let's not talk about those things. Let's discuss Xiaonan's funeral now." Then he said to me.
I said: "She has passed away. It's best to finish her funeral arrangements as soon as possible and then find a cemetery to bury her ashes. Xiao Nan's life was too short, and it was so miserable. I think
, and she doesn’t want to stay in this world for one more day. However, I think it’s better to ask Aunt Shi about this matter, after all, she is Xiaonan’s mother.”
He nodded, "I agree with your idea. In fact, everything we do for the deceased is for the living. We just need to pursue a kind of peace of mind. Originally, I was thinking about whether to do it properly.
It's a funeral, but I don't think I should disturb Xiao Nan's soul. Let her go in peace and quiet. Maybe she has already arrived in heaven, so why not be a funeral to her?
What about real relief? You think so, Feng Xiao?"
I nodded, "Now I'm so confused that I don't know what to do."
He came and looked at me, "Feng Xiao, maybe there is a question I shouldn't ask you now, but I can't help but want to ask it."
"You can ask. It's okay." I said.
"What are you going to do in the future?" He asked, still looking at me, and then added: "Do you understand what I mean? What I'm saying is that the child needs a mother in the future." (To be continued)