Of course I understood what he meant, even before he said the next sentence. I shook my head and said: "I can't find another person to live with me. The child is still young, and I don't want to
He suffered no harm at all. And my life is not good, so I can only bring harm to my woman."
At this point, I suddenly felt that there seemed to be another layer of meaning in what he just said, so I hurriedly said: "Uncle Feng, you and Aunt Shi are Xiaonan's parents. Don't worry, I will always take care of you."
I regard myself as your son-in-law. From now on, I will take care of you in your old age for Xiaonan. In my heart, you will always be my father-in-law and Xiaonan’s father."
He gently patted my shoulder, "Feng Xiao, I know this completely. Although you have many shortcomings, you are kind-hearted and kind-hearted. Aunt Shi and I are both very kind."
I value you. We have no children now, and we will depend on you when we grow old. Hey! You see, my Jiangnan Group is so big and makes so much money, but what’s the point of it now?
"
I immediately fell silent because I didn't know how to answer his words now.
But he said again: "Feng Xiao, I don't quite agree with what you just said. Not every stepmother is so hateful, and the child needs maternal love, so that the child's psychology can become normal in the future. Don't you think so?
As for what you said about whether your life is good or bad, I don’t think you need to think too much about it. Just say something that shouldn’t be said. Maybe your horoscope is not compatible with Xiaonan, well, and your previous person.
, that’s why this situation occurs. So, if you can find a woman you like in the future and whose horoscopes match, you still have to consider your future marriage. Do you think so?"
I no longer have any such thoughts in my mind now. I shook my head and said, "No way. In fact, I thought about it a long time ago."
He sighed, "Let's talk about it later. By the way, it's not good for Xiaonan to stay at home like this now. I'll have her sent to the crematorium first. She can only make you sad at home."
I shook my head and said, "Let's talk tomorrow. I want to spend the last night with her tonight."
He sighed: "That's okay. You are a doctor and she is your wife. You won't be afraid, right? If you are, I will ask my driver Xiao Li to accompany you, or I can call a few more people."
I still shook my head and said, "No need. I just want to be alone with her."
He stood up immediately and patted my shoulder gently, "Okay then. I'll leave first. I'm very worried about your Aunt Shi being at home. I have to go back and spend time with her."
I stood up and saw him out the door. He turned around and looked at me with concern, "Feng Xiao, are you really okay?"
I shook my head, "It's okay, don't worry."
He left, and I closed the door immediately. Now, Chen Yuan and I are the only ones in my family, but we are already separated by life and death.
I went to Chen Yuan. She looked so terrifying now. She was silent without any breath. I went to hold her hand, and there was a biting feeling in the palm of my hand.
Chill, this biting chill made my whole body shiver uncontrollably. I immediately let go of her hand, and then went to the ends of her dry hair... At this moment, I couldn't help but feel sad, and I suddenly let out a wild beast.
Such a miserable scream.
This painful cry made me cry so hard that I felt like I was at the end of the world.
When my tears dried up, I realized that the surroundings were dark and it was already night.
I struggled to stand up, then slowly walked to the door, and turned on the light. Chen Yuan was lying there, just like she was in a coma before. I couldn't believe that she had really left this world.
But I knew it was true, it was already a fact. Then I went to the living room and turned on all the lights.
I was sitting alone on the sofa, just sitting there blankly. After a long time, I suddenly remembered what Lin Yi told me about his mother-in-law. I immediately stood up from the sofa and ran quickly to the kitchen...
. Found it, I found the flour in the cupboard, and then went to the room where Chen Yuan was.
When I came out of that room again, the ground there was already white. I closed the door and went to another room. I didn't turn on the light, so I lay quietly on the bed and let my mind go through it.
For the first time, those scenes of when I was with Chen Yuan resurfaced. I thought that doing this was also a way of accompanying her. Also, I really want to sleep now, and then I hope she can enter my dream.
Chen Yuan, you just left like this, why don't you come and say goodbye to me?
However, I had a dreamless night. Although I clearly knew that the occurrence of dreams was not directly related to her status in my heart, and more accurately, it was the result of my physical and mental exhaustion, but I still felt sorry for her.
I blamed myself endlessly. After waking up, I immediately stood up and hurriedly looked at the time, only to find that it was exactly the time I usually get up.
The house was empty, and the sky outside was not completely bright yet. After going out, I turned on the lights in the living room, and then quickly went to the room where Chen Yuan was and turned on the lights.
To be honest, I was a little scared, maybe because of the child's performance yesterday, or maybe because of Lin Yi's further interpretation of the child's performance. From this, I was secretly glad that I fell asleep completely yesterday. So I thought, if
I stayed with Chen Yuan last night. Would I be afraid if I faced her like that all night?
Now, I have to admit that my deep sleep last night was a complete escape.
Last night, I could go to Chen Yuan and accompany her to talk to her, but in my heart I already thought that it didn't mean much. Since she was unconscious in bed for such a long time, I
Don’t I have less to say to her? Now that she has left this world, since she can no longer hear what I said, it becomes meaningless. Now if I talk to her again, the words I say are just for the sake of
To comfort myself, the thousands of words I say are ultimately meant for myself. If there are outsiders around, it will be more like a performance.
The situation was different before. At that time, my purpose of talking to her was to wake her up, and I also firmly believed that she could hear me.
However, she is gone now, far away from this world, and she can no longer hear what I say. After all, I still don’t believe in the existence of any soul. But then again, even if there is a soul, hers
So what if her soul is still in this room? After all, there is a separation between life and death. If she can really hear what I say, it will only make it more difficult for her soul to find peace.
She was too lonely in her life. She was born without her parents and grew up in an orphanage. Later, she came to Jiangnan alone according to the instructions of the jade plaque, but she suffered so much harm. Later she met me and found me.
She married her own mother and formed a family with me, but I was so dissolute. I believe she was fully aware of the things I had done, but she never scolded me. Now that I think about it,
, maybe she feels guilty because of what happened to Zhao Menglei or Zhuang Qing. But she must be very sad in her heart. I know, I knew it before, but I was a little indifferent to it before.
Why was I indifferent? In fact, in the final analysis, I still blamed her in my heart. Because Lin Yi offered conditions that were almost coercive, I had to divorce Zhao Menglei, and the decision I made made Zhao Menglei choose to end her
My own life. And Zhuang Qing, I have been thinking that if it hadn't been like that at the beginning, maybe I would have chosen her.
I knew that of course all this had nothing to do with Chen Yuan, but I still couldn't restrain my inner dissatisfaction with her. Until later, after she became pregnant, especially after she fell into a coma due to giving birth, I felt guilty for her.
My heart suddenly soared. Later, when I faced her unconscious every day, I had to ask myself this question: Feng Xiao, do you love her?
However, the answer that emerged in my heart was almost negative. I knew very clearly that my sympathy for her might be more than my love for her.
When I turned on the light, the first thing I looked at was the ground... where were the footprints? I couldn't help but smile bitterly: Feng Xiao, are you too superstitious?
Then I went to see her, and she was lying quietly on the bed. Suddenly I remembered the words she said to me when she woke up yesterday, and my heart suddenly shook!
She said: I feel so sleepy...
At this moment, I suddenly understood: Why was she sleepy? She was obviously tired! She knew everything about me, but she could only face me with a forced smile because she loved me.
When she was hospitalized in our department for the first time because she was injured, I tried to wake her up and talk to her every day. As a result, I entered her subconscious, so she fell in love with me. To be precise, I entered her subconscious.
, her love for me is also an illusion.
Maybe it was during her coma that she understood all this and that her love for me was actually an illusion, so she felt so tired.
So, she chose to leave.
Therefore, her choice was closely related to my indifference towards her. At this time, when I suddenly realized this, when I looked at her lying quietly on the bed with corpse spots on her face
, I shed tears again, tears of regret.
But, what else can I say? Now, now, what else can I say to her? "I'm sorry, Yuanyuan, I know, I know why you left me. You abandoned your child and left me, it turned out to be revenge.
Me... ugh! It's all my fault, it's all because I'm sorry for you..."
Suddenly I heard someone knocking on the door. I quickly wiped my tears and went out to open the door. Lin Yi, Shi Yanni and Shangguan Qin appeared at the door. In addition, there were several other people following behind, including Lin Yi's driver Xiao