"Your eyes are all red. You haven't slept all night, right?" he asked again.
I didn't answer because I didn't know how to answer, so I let them go inside.
"Let's take Xiaonan to the funeral parlor. I have already contacted the time of cremation. Xiaonan's mother also came to see her off. She didn't rest all night last night," Lin Yi said.
I went to see Shi Yanni and found that her face was a little swollen and her eyes were red. So I said to her: "Auntie, you should pay attention to your health. Xiaonan..."
When I said this, I couldn't help but shed tears again. It wasn't pretentious, but Shi Yanni's sadness infected me.
"Brother Feng, go and see her for the last time." At this time, Shangguanqin came out and said to me.
I noticed that her eyes suddenly turned red. I shook my head and said sadly: "I won't watch anymore."
In fact, I had already seen those people pushing Chen Yuan out on a cart. She was covered with a white sheet that covered her head.
Shi Yanni suddenly rushed towards the cart and let out a miserable cry, "My daughter..."
Lin Yi immediately hugged her, "Okay, okay! I told you not to come, but you have to come. Don't do this, let's go."
A group of people surrounded the cart and left my house. At this moment, I truly realized the reality that Chen Yuan would never exist again. I immediately sat down on the sofa. I felt so cold.
, an extreme chill suddenly filled my whole body and my bones. This sudden cold feeling made me curl up on the sofa and shiver.
In my ears I could hear Shi Yanni's loud and hoarse cries.
Everything has gone away.
Suddenly I felt something coming to my body. I found it was a thin quilt and Shangguanqin's concerned face.
I curled up on the sofa. Although I had the quilt on my body, I still felt cold and my body was still shaking. Shangguanqin asked me: "Brother Feng, are you sick?"
I said with a trembling voice: "Shangguan, find me something to eat."
I guess I have low blood sugar, because now I remember that I haven’t eaten a grain of rice or a drop of water from yesterday until now.
"Wait a minute, I'll go down and buy it for you." She said hurriedly, and then quickly went out.
I was the only one left in the room. Although I still felt cold all over my body, my brain was unusually clear. I was looking ahead. The foggy thing in front of me was the TV. I couldn't help but take a look at what I was pointing at yesterday.
In that direction, suddenly, I found a brilliance appearing in that place——
I saw a bright light appearing in front of me. That light was so bright and pure. Yes, it was pure, because I found that its brightness was so soft, so bright that no one could see a trace of impurities, just like
In the spring, when I stood on the top of the mountain, I was bathed in the warm sunshine. There was no shadow or reflection of my body. The light was evenly sprinkled in front of me from all directions, and it was wrapping me... I suddenly felt like I was bathing
I'm in that warmth, my whole body is warm, there is no place where I don't feel relaxed and relaxed, and my heart also calms down. This feeling makes me feel so happy, it's the kind with a slight euphoria
The pleasant feeling makes me feel like I have returned to my childhood, my carefree childhood, as if I am nestling in the warm embrace of my mother. No, to be more precise, at this time I feel like I am still in my mother's arms.
In the fetal state, surrounded by warmth and hugs. We adults have no memory of the fetal period, but at this moment, I suddenly have that feeling, just a feeling.
Suddenly, I seemed to see a person walking out of the dazzling light. He was vaguely walking towards my direction from the depth of the light. He was walking towards me, with a black figure surrounded by shadows.
Wrapped in light, it looked like a vertical and twisting curve. He was slowly approaching me. As he came closer, his face was still wrapped in light, making it difficult for me to see his appearance clearly, but I
I have clearly seen that the clothes he is wearing are pure white, almost blending with the light around him. However, the white of his clothes is not as pure as the light, so I can separate him from the light.
Come on.
He was getting closer and closer to me, and I saw her face. It was her, it was Chen Yuan! With a fair and beautiful face and black hair, she was walking towards me and showing me a sweet smile. She smiled slightly
The red lips highlighted the whiteness of her teeth. She was calling me, "Feng Xiao..."
I suddenly became excited and ran towards her quickly. She was still smiling sweetly at me. I went to hug her and cried with joy, "Yuanyuan, it's great. It turns out that you are still alive. It turns out that I can still be with you."
Together, it’s great!”
She gave me a real feeling, because I immediately felt the warmth of her face and the fragrance she always had.
My hands went to the ends of her hair, and at the same time I greedily sniffed the charming smell emanating from her hair. The ends of her hair were shrouded in the light, giving off a thin layer of afterglow. At this moment, I was so
I really want to embrace her forever.
However, I immediately saw another beautiful face suddenly appear in front of me, "Feng Xiao, who is this woman?"
She is Zhao Menglei!
"You, why are you here?" I asked in panic, but it immediately turned into a surprise, "That's great, Meng Lei, so you are here too?"
"Let me ask you, who is this woman?" However, Zhao Menglei asked me again, her voice full of extreme displeasure.
I didn't know how to answer, so I hurriedly looked at Chen Yuan, but I found that Chen Yuan's face was full of panic, and the beautiful smile just now was no longer there. Chen Yuan squatted down, and I hurriedly prepared to help her up, but
, but I found that her body was getting smaller and smaller quickly, and finally turned into a black dot, and then disappeared. I couldn't help being horrified, and shouted out loud: "Chen Yuan!"
"Feng Xiao, I hate you!" Suddenly, Zhao Menglei's voice rang in my ears. I hurriedly looked at her, but found that her face had turned into a ferocious look. I was not afraid because
At this time, I was completely filled with guilt.
"Feng Xiao, I hate you!" Zhao Menglei yelled at me again, and then slapped me on the face!
"Meng Lei, I, I didn't mean it!" I begged her, but I didn't feel any pain on my face.
She snorted coldly at me and waved her hands upwards... The beautiful and pure light immediately dissipated, and she disappeared without a trace in front of me.
I felt inexplicably sad and burst into tears, "Meng Lei...Chen Yuan..."
I woke up suddenly, and in front of me was Shangguanqin's worried eyes, "Brother Feng, are you having a nightmare?"
I knew immediately that it was she who had disturbed the dream I had just now. Perhaps the slap Zhao Menglei gave me in the dream came from Shangguanqin's hand. Of course, she was trying to wake me up.
I was a little angry with Shangguan Qin, "Why did you wake me up?"
She replied: "Brother Feng, what's wrong with you? Did you have a nightmare just now? I heard you calling their names. Brother Feng, people can't be resurrected, you have to express your condolences. Look, I bought it for you
The eight-treasure porridge has a lot of sugar added to it. Eat it quickly."
The eight-treasure porridge is so sweet, it makes my heart feel sweet too.
"I also bought you milk, do you want to drink it?" Shangguanqin asked me gently.
I shook my head, "Shangguan, when are they going to send Chen Yuan off?"
She replied: "I will be cremated this morning. Last night I contacted a ready-made tomb and bought it from someone else at a high price. I also asked a ceramics factory to bake your wife's photo overnight. Don't worry.
, everything has been arranged properly.”
I struggled to sit up from the sofa, "Shangguan, I need to ask you a favor, okay?"
"Go ahead, Brother Feng," she said.
"Please drive me to the cemetery. I want to see her." I said. At this moment, my mind was filled with the image of Chen Yuan in my dream.
"Brother Feng, your body..." she said hesitantly, "and don't we have a custom in Jiangnan? The husband is not allowed to attend the cremation and burial of his wife."
Although I don’t understand why we in Jiangnan have such a custom, I vaguely feel that this custom contains some kind of superstitious thinking: I am worried that my husband will be taken away by his beloved woman. And the dream I just had is exactly that.
It shows that there is such an idea in my subconscious mind: Rather than leaving myself to live miserably in this world, it is better to follow her. However, Zhao Menglei appeared in my dream. Although the dream
She appeared in the way of blaming me, but it still reflected the status of Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan in my heart: I love Chen Yuan in my heart, and I hope she can take me out of this world.
But Zhao Menglei stopped me, which shows that she will always play the role of protecting me in my heart. Maybe so.
In short, one thing is very clear to me: I love Chen Yuan, so I must go to her grave to confess my love to her. Even if she cannot hear my confession, I still have to go.
, because I have truly understood the truest emotion in my heart.
Therefore, I still resolutely said to Shangguan Qin: "Please, Shangguan. I really don't have much strength now, please take me there."
She looked at the time and said, "Well, your wife may have been cremated now, or maybe they are on their way to the cemetery."
Then I went downstairs with her, my legs were still a little weak. Shangguanqin tried to help me but I refused. I didn’t want Chen Yuan’s soul to see me being intimate with another woman. (To be completed.