"After my life basically stabilized, I began to intentionally make friends with some gangsters. I knew that the environment I lived in was very poor, so these people were a necessary safety net... Elumia, it's despicable for me to do this, right? It's obvious.
You blame yourself for cheating on your feelings, then turn around and do the same thing again. This is Cheongdam’s behavior, right?”
"Bai Yanghua, do you think I am an upright person?"
"Well... although some of your actions do seem evil, you should be a very decent person, right?"
"But my concept of ethics is different from the public concept. What I follow is my own morality."
"Yeah~ Strong people are usually like this, right~?"
"So in my opinion, as a weak person who cannot protect himself, it is understandable that you use all available resources to protect yourself. There is not much fault at all. Moreover, you are using some scum of society and are not harming normal people.
Man, so in some ways, what you did was a good thing.”
"...Erumia, your thoughts are really special~ Is this a double standard?"
"Everyone in the world has double standards, or in other words, everyone has double standards most of the time. Even if they are stronger than me, they cannot always fully meet their own requirements, let alone a weakling like you.
.Double standards can actually be thought of as the gap between ideals and reality. We all have ideals for others, but we compromise with reality in ourselves. This is a helpless thing, and no one is immune, even as powerful as me.
Same."
I wonder if Reimei has such troubles~~~ She is the apex of strength, will she also be troubled by this kind of problem?
"Hey~~~ You always speak like this with a sense of sophistication. It sounds just like the lines in cartoons. But... who dares to laugh at you? Your behavior will only be regarded as meaningful by others.
Come and see~~~”
"Indeed, keep telling your story."
"Well... I had a very peaceful first semester in the new school. The quality of students in that kind of school was very poor. There were very few people who wanted to study hard. Most of them were just sent there by their parents to fool around.
Of course, according to your point of view, this is not their fault, right? They have lacked proper education since they were young and do not know what they should do. They don’t even know that it is wrong to hang around... Haha,
At this point, I have to thank my parents, at least they have engraved the importance of learning in my DNA..."
"Go on."
"In order to avoid trouble, I behaved very low-key in school, except for my studies. I would wear more tacky clothes than my classmates, never fix my hair in the morning, and didn't have much communication with them; while in school
Outside of school, I would transform into a goddess that all gangsters longed for. Even if my classmates bumped into me, they wouldn't be able to recognize me. Of course, I tried to keep a certain distance from those people and make myself appear to be the kind of woman who is difficult to deal with.
With the protection of these gangsters, I basically won't encounter trouble in my life. The only thing I have to do is to pay a little patience and their souls... But I ignored one thing, that is, these protectors themselves are
The biggest trouble was that I quickly attracted the attention of the local gangsters..."
"Then you really don't know how to learn lessons. The last big mistake was because of these people, but you still chose to come to them."
"No, I didn't choose Elumia. I had no choice. I am a very weak person. In that kind of environment, I have to find a shelter. Taking responsibility will only make things worse than the status quo. You do this kind of thing
Miss Zhong won't understand."
"No, I understand, so I just feel sad for what happened to you and don't mean to blame you."
"Then you still say I won't learn my lesson?"
"I'm just criticizing your cognition. You know very well the consequences of your actions, but you still use excuses such as 'negligence' and 'didn't expect' to excuse yourself."
"Yeah~ Before I knew it, I started making excuses for my stupidity again~~~"
"You are not stupid. If I were in the same situation, I might not be able to do better than you."
"Really, are you trying to comfort me? You are so much better than me, how can you be the same as me~~~"
"I was much weaker than you, you will know later, if we can always be friends."
"Don't worry Elumia, I will never take the initiative to leave you again, because leaving you is really an extremely stupid thing, and I don't want to do stupid things anymore. My purpose is very utilitarian, so I won't
Why do you swear to make yourself look bright and majestic? I need you to treat me well, so I will never try to leave you again unless you take the initiative to drive me away..."
"For now, I have no reason to kick you out, so I hope you can keep it going."
"I will try my best~~~Where is the story?"
"You are being targeted by the little boss."
"Oh yes, I'm being targeted by the little boss. That's the key point from now on. If I tell you, I might really be hated by you, but I still have to tell you. As a friend, I won't do anything like this.
Your Majesty is hiding something from you, and you can’t allow me to hide it, right~"
"If you really don't want to say it, then you don't have to say it. These are things in the past and cannot be changed. What I care about is your future and whether you are willing to change it."
"You lied to me again. You obviously care about this kind of thing, right?"
"I mind because in the present continuous tense, you still haven't completely changed, right? I will always despise you until the change is completed."
"Erumia, I think you may be the most sarcastic person I have ever seen in my life. You are the only person who can constantly emphasize your dislike of me in front of me."
"Yeah, that's really embarrassing, but I won't change it."
"It doesn't matter, I've been so mad at you. Now when I hear you say this, I still feel at ease, because it means you haven't given up on helping me change."
"Yes, as long as you are unwilling to give up, then I will never leave you."
"Pfft~ These words sound like earthly love words~ Elumia, are you really not teasing me?"
"How many times do you want me to tell you that I despise you? You are not my type, so I can't flirt with you."
"As expected~~~Oh~ Elumia, can't you give me some fantasy? Have you ever heard of a saying?"
"What statement."
"Women are bisexual. I don't like women now, just because I haven't met a woman who makes me attracted. Can't you make me really attracted to you? Do you really dislike me that much? I will do it for you
Changed, will you still dislike me if I change?"
"Baiyanghua, I care about the nature of interpersonal relationships. If I want to be friends with you, then we are friends and there is no need for any other unnecessary relationships. This has nothing to do with dislike of you, but we should never be treated with tenderness and ambiguity. Confused and confused about the nature of feelings. I repeat, I regard you as a friend. My feelings for you are friendship. It can develop into family affection at most, but it can never be love. There is no love between you and me. You You don’t need to fall in love with me, and it’s best not to fall in love with me, do you understand?”
"Ha~ I understand~ I didn't expect that the first sincere confession in my life would be rejected by you so righteously. I didn't even have a chance to resist~~~"
"You are still too impulsive, too hasty, and you easily try to catch things that you can't catch. Feeling is important, but it is more important to see this feeling clearly. The love you feel for me now is still not true love."
"Then what do you mean by true love? I really want to be with you now and don't want to leave you again, and this idea is not because of utilitarianism...at least not entirely because of utilitarianism. Isn't this considered love?"
"Do you want me to be happy?"
"Yes~ Otherwise, why would I make changes for you? Doesn't this count?"
"It is because of this change that you have the illusion of falling in love with me."
"What did you say?"
"Bai Yanghua, you can't help it anymore, right? Self-entertainment cannot satisfy you at all. You are an addicted patient."
"I...it seems like this..."
"Go on, I want to know how you ended up like this."