Zhao Ziwen recalled the past and said sadly: "Do you still remember Xiao Kai? He was among the earliest batch of special recruits to die. He was shot in the head. Although I did not participate in that battle, when he was carried back,
I vaguely remember his ferocious face and his eyes that were not closed.?
Thinking of this, Zhao Ziwen couldn't help but shudder, because when he saw Xiao Kai's appearance, he had nightmares for several nights.
Because this incident was so profound, it was regarded as the most unforgettable scene in his experience as a soldier. Zhao Ziwen was drunk, so he immediately remembered it and even said it out loud.
The three recruits Lu Xuan, Xiao Kai, and Zhao Ziwen were considered to be very good at playing. They still remember that one night with thunder and lightning, they sneaked out of the military area and ran to a corridor in a nearby town to prepare for a solution.
Men's physiological needs.
At that time, their faces were still young, and they were too shy to walk in. They lingered at the door of the gallery for a long time, but the owner of the gallery spotted them and dragged them in.
But when the three of them saw several aunts in their forties or fifties, they were so frightened that they ran away, and even ran back to the military area in one breath. They stood at the gate of the military area, looked at each other, and all of them blushed.
He burst out laughing, it was so embarrassing.
We have carried guns together and gone to prostitutes together. This is what we call real brothers. Even though the whoring was a bit funny and ridiculous, they really walked in there and could never finish the one where they almost wet their pants without being frightened and ran back in embarrassment.
Night in the military zone...
In fact, even if the corridor was full of beautiful young women, they would not dare to do so because they were too young and underage at that time.
Xiao Kai? A shot to the head? Ning Wanxi suddenly stopped using her chopsticks to pick up the food. Her heart trembled and she looked at Lu Xuan in shock.
At this moment, Lu Xuan's body began to tremble slightly. He suddenly drank a whole glass of wine, then breathed heavily, his lips trembled a few times, and then he said: "Xiao Kai was not...
He was killed by a gunshot to the head."
"Then how did he die?" Zhao Ziwen asked doubtfully.
There was already a trace of pain on Lu Xuan's face, and he said solemnly: "Were you killed by me?"
"You killed him!" When Zhao Ziwen heard this, he immediately woke up from the alcohol. He stood up from the stool and shouted loudly: "What the hell is going on!"
"Brother Ziwen, don't get excited, let me explain to you." Ning Wanxi saw Zhao Ziwen's angry eyes and she wanted to eat Lu Xuan, so she said quickly in fright.
Lu Xuan shook his head: "Let me tell you."
"In that operation, the opponent's firepower was too fierce. We lost a lot of people and ran out of ammunition. We had no choice but to retreat and were piled in ruins. Xiao Kai was hit by a shot during the firefight.
It hit his head, but it was not fatal, but it hit his brain nerve tissue. He couldn't bear the pain." Lu Xuan said in a low voice, his shoulders trembling violently: "And those terrorists searched for
Come here, I can't let Xiao Kai make a sound, I can only cover his mouth desperately, so he can't vent his pain..."
Hearing this, Zhao Ziwen sat down slumped, his heart was beating violently, his eyes were a little dazed, and he muttered to himself: "How could this happen? How could this happen!"
Lu Xuan's eyes were full of pain: "Then he was killed by me like this. I personally killed my closest comrade and best brother."
After saying all this, Lu Xuan kept pouring wine for himself, one cup after another, with a sad look on his face. Ning Wanxi's heart trembled. She hugged him all of a sudden and said in a choked voice: "Lu Xuan
, it’s not your fault, it’s really not, please stop thinking about it.”
"Haha!" Lu Xuan smiled bitterly and shook his head.
And Zhao Ziwen's heart felt like a knife was cutting him. Looking at Lu Xuan's miserable face, he felt very unhappy. He even wanted to slap himself several times. Why did he bring up Lu Xuan's painful past?
Lu Xuan only told the military commissar about Xiao Kai's death, but he didn't tell anyone else. Therefore, everyone in the Beijing Military Region thought that Xiao Kai was killed by a gunshot to the head. Otherwise, how could Zhao Ziwen have been shot in the head?
Don’t you know how Xiao Kai died?
"Did you know that Xiao Kai also has a fiancée, and he often takes pictures of her and shows them off in front of us. We are so angry that we often get together and beat him up," Lu Xuan said with a smile on his lips.
Zhao Ziwen's heart seemed to be broken, and he gritted his teeth. He vaguely remembered Xiao Kai grinning in the sunshine, holding a photo of his fiancée, showing it off, and attracted the attention of himself and himself.
Lu Xuan's beating.
At that time, I was really happy, but Xiao Kai had already fallen asleep underground. No one could accept such an ending. More importantly, Lu Xuan killed him with his own hands.
If that was the case, Zhao Ziwen would do the same thing, because if Xiao Kai was allowed to speak out, the entire special forces would die!
But why did God choose Lu Xuan to be the "executioner"? It was so cruel to cover his brother to death with his own hands!
Ning Wanxi had heard this story before, but even after hearing it again, she still felt shocking. Lu Xuan was so pitiful that he had to endure such a blow.
"Lu Xuan, you should forget the past and get back on your feet," Zhao Ziwen said with trembling palms. Looking at the struggle in Lu Xuan's eyes, he realized that Lu Xuan seemed to be living happily and carefree.
But my heart was bruised and bruised, and could no longer withstand any blow.
A past event can make him suffer like this. This is a veteran's post-war psychological syndrome! Zhao Ziwen was so distraught that he never expected that Lu Xuan would suffer from this disease, which is fatal.
When he was in the military area, Zhao Ziwen heard that many veterans were so crazy that they committed suicide because they couldn't bear the psychological trauma after the war. What's worse, many veterans directly ended their young lives.
This kind of psychological trauma exists in the bottom of the heart like an inner demon. Once it occurs, it is difficult to control it!
In fact, Zhao Ziwen didn't understand at all that Lu Xuan was actually the first person with a strong psychological quality. How could Xiao Kai's incident alone hit him like this? It was too many battlefield memories that made him what he is now.
As for Xiao Kai's death, Lu Xuan blamed himself. From that time on, he gradually suffered psychological trauma, which then deepened and deepened until he was expelled from the army. It was already difficult to heal.
This chapter has been completed!