"Life is a snowfield that is so silent and desolate that it makes people despair; life is a mire that is full of miasma and makes people sink into it."
"So lonely people began to imagine that love is the antidote to life and that love can save boredom."
"But love is just a rare romance in suffering, and love is just the last courage when we are afraid."
"——To Xu Manying."
These words are written in the lower right corner of Xu Maning's portrait.
After walking out of the hotel, Xu Manying did not drive away, but sat in the car and watched it again.
The writing was very small, and Xu Manying had not fully unfolded it at the time, so I did not see it at the first time.
Seeing this line of text at this time, an unspeakable emotion surged into Xu Manying's heart.
"Are you saying...that I have unrealistic illusions about love?"
During the period after the two broke up, although Xu Manying was resentful, she also did some reflection on the relationship. Indeed, as Li Peifeng said, relationships are a matter between two people. If they can break up, they have more or less responsibilities.
That means the expectations are too high, the desire to control is too strong, and the pressure on the other party is too great...
"In the final analysis, the scumbag is not worth it! He doesn't deserve it! You asked me to pay for the meal, but you still want me to pay for the shopping. Is that a problem of money? It's a problem of attitude. And you keep me here, and you don't even stay after I pay for it.
If you don’t stay, just watch me go?”
"Are you begging me to get back together?!"
Xu Manying threw the painting aside and looked at the door of the fast food restaurant, upset.
…
“Where to eat?”
“Who will pay the bill?!”
Li Peifeng walked out of the hotel. His face was pale and his steps were sloppy. He looked like a living corpse that had not eaten human flesh for three months. He was in a daze.
The system's punishment buff was extremely powerful. After he paid the bill, all the food in his stomach was emptied.
This made him even hungrier than before eating. The momentary difference made Li Peifeng even want to steal the jobs of other female diners in the hotel and lick their leftover plates...
In order to prevent himself from acting irrationally when he was hungry, Li Peifeng could only choose to come out temporarily and prepare to call people to see which female classmate could get a temporary meal ticket.
"Dip~"
The Audi A7 whistled, but Xu Manying didn't even roll down the window.
Li Peifeng, who was fiddling with his cell phone, turned around dully and was relieved when he saw the other person. He opened the door and got in the car without ceremony.
"Did I let you in?"
Xu Maning said angrily: "I honked the horn to tell you to stay away. I'm about to drive, so get off!"
Li Peifeng didn't say a word after getting into the car. He just looked around for food. Finally, he saw a half bottle of tea in the center console. He couldn't help but leave it and twist the cap to drink...
"That's what I have left!"
Xu Manying curled her lips and said, "It has been in the car for almost three days."
Li Peifeng drank even faster after hearing this. The sugar and trace amounts of carbohydrates in the drink were partially decomposed by a-amylase secreted by the mouth, and then entered the stomach, small intestine, and large intestine. The drink would be absorbed by the peristaltic blood vessels of the intestinal wall and enter the blood.
Circulation, and then transported through blood to reach various organs in the body...
[Xu Maning gave a gift of food (converted to 1 yuan in money), and the distance assessment task was completed...]
"His ha~"
After finishing half the bottle of drink, Li Peifeng was still unsatisfied and looked at Xu Manying with tears in his eyes: "Can you treat me to another meal? I'm hungry."
"Hungry? Didn't you just finish eating?"
Xu Maning subconsciously said: "You eat so much..."
Before she finished speaking, she was shocked when she saw Li Peifeng's face, and her first reaction was to call the hospital emergency number.
Because Li Peifeng's current state is too scary. His face is pale, his cheeks are thin, his lips are bloodless, veins are looming on his forehead and neck, his eyes are dull and have dark circles...
This is completely different from the Li Peifeng Xu Maning saw just now!
The scenes of the two eating just now flashed through Xu Maning's mind one by one. Recalling the details of that conversation, she seemed to understand something and frowned: "Are you really sick? What's going on?"
I'm so hungry!
Li Peifeng only felt a faint sadness and powerlessness sweeping over him. He did not dare to look into Xu Maning's eyes anymore. He held the car door with one hand and an empty bottle in the other. He raised his head and looked up at the sky outside the window at a 45-degree angle, because that would prevent tears from falling.
He came down, but the melancholy blue sky reminded him of his sad life in the future.
"Yeah, I'm really sick!"
"My disease... is very complicated, but one of the symptoms is that I get hungry quickly and cannot eat hard food, so I have to eat soft food."
Xu Manying was silent for a moment, then opened the car door: "Let's go, I'll take you to dinner."
…
In order to avoid attracting attention, Li Peifeng did not go to the Cantonese fast food restaurant again, but ate at a noodle restaurant nearby.
Two bowls of noodles, four eggs, and a large chicken drumstick all made Li Peifeng swirl into his stomach.
While he was eating, Xu Manying kept silent and kept searching for something on her mobile phone...
"Q: What diseases can cause a surge in appetite and make you hungry quickly?"
"Answer: Many cancer patients are prone to hunger symptoms. In fact, hunger symptoms are caused by the reduction of nutrients in the patient's body."
"Q: Cancer patients get hungry quickly and don't have enough to eat. At what stage in the morning, noon and evening?"
"Answer: It is easy to feel hungry. Usually when the cancer reaches the middle and late stages and the cancer cells spread wildly, the patient will feel hungry easily. Cancer is a chronic wasting disease. For cancers of various organs, there are generally no obvious symptoms in the early stages.
But as the disease progresses, cells tend to grow faster, sometimes causing a lot of consumption of the body, especially for liver cancer, gastric cancer, pancreatic cancer, lung cancer and organs that are closely related to the daily life of the human body..."
The more Xu Maning searched, the heavier her mood became.
So, is this why you left me?
Some time ago I learned that I was seriously ill, and I didn't want to drag me down, so I used cold war tactics to get me to break up with me, and I treated the disease silently. After a month, I spent all my savings on the treatment, but instead of getting better, my condition got worse. I had no choice but to
I could borrow money from people around me, but it was only a drop in the bucket, so I gave up treatment altogether.
Now that I know that I will die soon and there is nothing I can do to save my life, before I die, do you want to see me one last time to apologize without leaving any regrets?
Everything makes sense!
Xu Maning once again reappeared the haggard appearance of Li Peifeng for the first time today, and couldn't help but blame herself for not discovering the other party's condition in time.
You must have endured the torture of cancer and worked all night in the ward to complete that painting, right?
The sentences in the painting must have been inspired by your feelings, right?
Suffering from a terminal illness, you feel despair, pain, and silence, stuck in the quagmire and constantly struggling.
But love is a rare romance in suffering, but love is the last courage when we are afraid. It is the only one that is your spiritual support...
So, your romance, your bravery, your antidote, am I?!
Fool!!
Xu Man stared at Li Peifeng, with sad mist floating in the depths of his eyes.
"Hiss Liu~His Liu~Hiccup~"
Li Peifeng transformed into a ruthless noodle-drying machine, but in Xu Maning's eyes, he was a real sign of terminal cancer. Although he cursed this scumbag to die in front of his eyes many times after the breakup, the curse has come true now, and Xu Manying did not get the revenge she expected.
The feeling is just helpless and sad.
In these short twenty minutes, she had already imagined a bloody Korean drama...
"I am full!"
Li Peifeng didn't realize it. After drinking the last mouthful of noodle soup, he was already sweating profusely and his face looked better: "Thank you for the hospitality. You can go back. I'll just walk home."
Xu Maning asked with luck: "Does your uncle and aunt know your physical condition?"
"what do you know?"
Li Peifeng said strangely: "I just have a big appetite and digest it quickly. It doesn't affect anything."
Xu Maning interrupted: "I saw your face just now, how dare you lie to me? And why did you borrow money from people around you before? Borrowing money shows that you have no money yourself. You usually don't spend much, and you still have dozens of dollars.
Why are all the savings of ten thousand dollars gone?"
"I borrow..."
"You said you lent it to a friend. Do I know who that friend is? Do you dare to tell me? Call him now and confront him!"
Lying will greatly increase the cost of communication. One lie requires countless lies to cover up...
Xu Maning murmured: "You are a face-saving person. You will never borrow money unless you have to, unless you ask for help when you are at the critical moment of life and death... Then why don't you tell me? Why do you still want to hide the matter after it has developed to this point?
I?"
Li Peifeng really wanted to deny it, but he really had no good reason to explain his physical performance and behavior. After all, it was very difficult for him to borrow money from others, and normal people would never eat two pots of porridge in a row.
He looked like he was about to die and sucked down two big bowls of noodles.
This kind of person definitely has a serious illness!
"..."
Seeing Li Peifeng's silence, Xu Manning was even more sure of her thoughts. She was even more sad, and her words were slightly confused: "The doctor said you... how long do you have? Is there a possibility of misdiagnosis? Even if there is no misdiagnosis, there is always hope of cure, right?"
, even if it is one ten thousandth...why, why do I know it only now!"
"How much does treatment cost?"
Xu Maning's eyes were firm: "I'll give it to you."
Li Peifeng's mind was completely confused and he didn't know what to say.
What is this? What happened? How did it happen? What kind of bloody love script?
How can I explain it? It doesn’t make sense! Am I really sick? It seems like I am...
Disease name: If you don’t eat soft rice, you will die syndrome.
Cause: Obtain soft rice system binding.
Fifty-seven days countdown to life.
The treatment requires a total of two stages. The first stage "treatment fee" is 30,000 yuan. You have paid 226 yuan, and there is still...
It can only be said that due to a strange combination of circumstances, the two had a misunderstanding that was not that beautiful, but it also reflected the subconscious mind of Xu Maning, a woman in love.
"This woman really wants me to die!!"
This chapter has been completed!