Looking directly at Bibi Dong, Qian Renxue judged that Bibi Dong was not lying. She was really uneasy because of her personal experience.
Bibi Dong couldn't let go easily, and she thought Qian Renxue should do the same.
"Qian Renxue, do you understand? I don't believe this. You let go too quickly, too easily. It's so easy..." There was a tangle on Bibi Dong's face. She didn't know how to express her feelings to her.
Qian Renxue said this.
After thinking for a while, Bibi Dong said dejectedly, "I want to believe you, Qian Renxue, but it's too easy. What I got was too easy. It's like the moon in the water. You can watch it, but
It can't be touched. So I will think it is fake, even if it is so illusory that I once believed it to be true."
"In this relationship, you can break away from it at any time. Just like what you did just now, you will naturally act as if nothing has happened. You can choose to hide all your current actions in your memory. You
All you can remember are the memories you think you need."
With pain in her head, Bibi Dong held her forehead and continued to struggle with the confusion. Her confusion was now completely exposed in front of Qian Renxue.
"But you are right about one thing." There was a sneer, which was directed at herself, "I really can't tell whether I am completely awake now, and there are not a few things that can affect me."
"Maybe this topic was too sudden from the beginning. I should ask you for confirmation after thinking about it deeply."
Rubbing her temples, Bibi Dong soothed her nerves. Now, there were more clutter in her mind. The question to Qian Renxue did not sort it out very well, and Qian Renxue's rhetorical question further cleared it up.
Bibi Dong brought a new chaos.
I know a little bit about my own situation, so I am being hasty, Bibi Dong thought to herself.
"All I need is your attitude." Smoothing the frown between her eyebrows, Qian Renxue took over Bibi Dong's hands and massaged Bibi Dong's temples gently.
"Whether it's towards me or towards Yu Xiaogang, what I want is attitude."
"If you think you are not awake when we talk about these things now, then I can wait until you clarify these things before we talk."
"As long as you can give me a clear attitude, I can afford to wait no matter how long it takes."
"However, I think I need to add something." Putting down her hands, holding Bibi Dong's shoulders, Qian Renxue looked at Bibi Dong gently.
"As a daughter, I crave affection from you. This is a normal behavior. You don't have to doubt this."
"I was indeed disappointed with this, but just when I was about to give up completely, 'you' unexpectedly let me peep into it, letting me know that my so-called desire is not an extravagant wish. You have this kind of emotion, and you can also give it to me.
Me, it’s just that you are stingy.”
"The stinginess left me so heavy that I couldn't breathe."
Holding Bibi Dong in her arms and leaning on Bibi Dong's shoulders, Qian Renxue's eyes became blurred and her tone was filled with sadness.
"You know, after knowing everything, the word mother once became a nightmare that I could not avoid. It took me a long time to get out of this shadow."
"I have thought about killing you, but I have always believed in one thing, that is, I cannot really kill you. I can't let go. Maybe this is one of my weaknesses."
"Me, I just talk about it, but in terms of actual actions, I can't accept it."
Qian Renxue suddenly smiled, relieved. "In this relationship, I was the loser from the beginning. This is the last thing I want to admit, but it is also a fact that I cannot ignore. I don't want to bow in front of you, especially
I bowed my head because of my feelings, but the reality is that I am giving in step by step."
Just like now, I am also trying to avoid letting you see my vulnerability, because this time it is real and I am not pretending on purpose.
Maybe, you are not the only one who needs time. I also need time to adapt to these contacts with you.
"This time, you have changed. To be honest, I am pleasantly surprised. The biggest difficulty in the problem between us is not me, the initiative lies with you."
"So, Mom, your assumption is not valid. You should believe in this emotion, you just need to believe in it."
"Believe?"
Bibi Dong suddenly struggled violently, as if she heard something unbelievable.
"It is inherently fragile, it is not static, it is... the biggest scam in my life."
"I don't believe in feelings because people's hearts are unpredictable. I also don't want to believe in feelings because I have been stabbed in the back. I am even less willing to trust the relationship between us because the relationship has been full of doubts from the beginning.
It’s broken.”
"I don't dare, and I can't do it."
"I can't do it, I can't do it, I really can't do it..."
I can't give you all my trust, even if we are gradually getting closer to each other,
You can't reconcile with everything in the past, whether it's the teacher's things or your gray childhood,
I cannot give my heart again without any grudges. It is already full of cracks and will break into powder at any time.
"This is very torturous for me. I am constantly testing and getting closer, but at the same time I am constantly doubting myself."
"I have always doubted the authenticity of this relationship, and your abnormality has aggravated it. Even if you once said that you would tell me everything, I can't let go of my speculation before hearing your explanation.
."
I don’t even want to believe myself, so how can I believe you.
"Should I persist?"
"Qian Renxue, I..."
Bibi Dong looked at Qian Renxue's eyes, and she could clearly see the reflection in them. Now, those eyes carried more than just the stars, there was also encouragement for her, and Qian Renxue's face was full of expectation.
, but Bibi Dong hesitated.
In any topic mixed with emotion, Bibi Dong always hesitates. She wants to escape. She feels that she can't handle this feeling.
"Perhaps what they said is right. Rather than being hurt and troubled again and again, it is better to give up directly and give up this extravagant hope."
Only by completely abandoning these can I truly eliminate my weaknesses and be free from scruples.
Bibi Dong slowly broke away from Qian Renxue's embrace, ignored Qian Renxue's darkened eyes, and gave herself an answer.
"Then get out of this shadow completely."
The center of her eyebrows twitched, and the gentleness on Qian Renxue's face turned cold. Holding Bibi Dong's face, Qian Renxue tried her best to control her emotions, but her fluctuating voice still revealed her current bad mood.
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"Give up? I suppressed the unrecognized emotion and made peace with myself. Everything is getting better, but you are thinking about retreating."
"Mom, I don't accept this."
"Or do you want to abandon me again?"
This chapter has been completed!