This is a letter to you. I originally planned to wait until it is finished and write it again.
But by chance, I saw another question on Zhihu today that evaluates sincerity, so I wrote this letter in advance.
Forgive me for not having time to rephrase the text, so I only copied the original text from Zhihu. Because if I don’t write a novel, the update the day after tomorrow will be in danger...
But please believe that I am sincere.
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The question is "One year has passed, how can we fairly evaluate the work ""."
The full text of my answer is as follows:
Thank you for your concern and love for me.
But I didn't want to answer this question originally. There are three reasons.
First of all, I really cannot objectively evaluate my works. I prefer every word I write. My evaluation of my works does not have any objective value. If I really want to say it, it is still the same sentence as a year ago.
——[The only thing I can be sure of is that I will type every word with my heart, but I cannot be sure whether they will be loved. I can be sure of my efforts, but I cannot be sure of my gains.]
To this day, I still can't be sure whether it will be loved by more people, and I can't be sure of my gains.
But I think that I have used 1.8 million words in one year to prove my dedication and hard work.
Secondly, I am afraid of such a question. Needless to say, I am really afraid. When I was invited to answer that question a year ago, I had just written five chapters of the novel, and the three answers to the question were all bombast.
I felt guilty, so I quickly put down the novel and wrote an article with great fear. However, I didn’t expect that after I posted the article, I discovered that when I wrote the article, I received a lot of criticism.
What impressed me deeply were [I will lose if I get signed for this novel] [This is my son’s elementary school level.] [Only fancy writing, no story writing at all], and someone who taught me how to use punctuation marks step by step.
I have been writing for several years, and to be honest, I have never accepted such "criticism". I was very uncomfortable and in pain. This pain lasted for a long time, and I couldn't sleep for a while, just thinking, I
Is it really that bad? Are all the praises and recognition I have received fake?
I have always firmly believed in myself, but that painful experience was also true.
Thirdly, I write very slowly. Readers who follow Chixin all know that the most praised chapter is always "very short"... When I used to write entities, I basically wrote them after I had a feeling. I might only write one in a week.
Three or four days, 2,000 words a day.
After writing it, I started with two updates from Monday to Friday and one update on weekends, and then gradually turned into two updates and 4,000 words a day. Although I am at the bottom of the list among online writers, I actually feel that I am already at the top of the list.
Extremely draining my energy.
Why is writing so slow? I can explain it to readers here.
When I write, I usually need to enter that situation and place myself in that emotion, so that I can write the plot more smoothly. I usually have to sit in front of the computer for more than half an hour, running through various plots in my mind until I find me
Whichever one feels most appropriate. After writing a paragraph, you will feel like your mind has been hollowed out.
The second thing is that I have obsessive-compulsive disorder about writing. Not only can I not see typos, readers may be able to spot them. Basically, the same word will not appear in two adjacent sentences of mine. This is a sequelae of writing poetry. I think this is the case.
It will affect the sense of language. If you use it in the previous sentence, you have to think of different words for the next sentence.
I often struggle with a name for a long time. The names of people and places always try to fit the situation.
I also have my own paranoid requirements. In this world, not only every country and every sect has different systems, national conditions, and politics. In this book, even every city is different. I will compile them.
The history, customs, and special snacks, even if they are not used sometimes. The reason why I write them like this is because in the real world, every city is different.
Because of these bad habits, I write very slowly.
In the time it takes me to write an article, I may be able to refine a chapter of a novel. (My daily writing is to write two chapters and refine the two chapters from the day before yesterday.)
My hundreds of thousands of followers on Zhihu should have noticed that during the year I was writing, I almost completely quit Zhihu. Sometimes I want to write something, but when I think about it, I haven’t finished my novel yet.
Well, I can only close Zhihu in despair.
Because of the above three reasons, I originally ignored this question invitation.
But after seeing @gongsunxun’s answer, I think I should write something.
Gongsun Xun is someone I follow on Zhihu, because I like his "Overthrow of the Han" very much, and he has a rare heroic spirit.
Going back to the question itself, how to fairly evaluate ""?
I think the assessment I can make is -
It is a work that I have put a lot of effort into. It is an explanation of my dream of being a fairy. It has witnessed my strength and fragility, made me softer, and made me stronger.
As for how this work will be, I think we can only leave it to time.
You might as well look at it again ten years later.
What I want to say is that I am writing this because I didn’t understand the rules of online writing at first, and I didn’t know how to get a new book issue. It was posted on the shelves naked, and the only big recommendation so far is only one million words.
Some of them are free of charge, and at that time, it happened that the whole site was free...
Except for a reader who was the leader of Qing Sui, who helped me py with Qing Sui, I didn’t have any other py. The reader kept saying, Ah Shi, go and py it. Good books need to be promoted, but I am really socially incompetent.
What I am good at and passionate about is probably writing.
It can be written step by step from sixty to now, with six alliance leaders (two of whom have rewarded three alliances), and the monthly ticket has finally reached the starting point of two hundred.
What I want to thank most is my readers.
I will never forget that Uriel rewarded me for my first alliance leader amidst the scolding. He made me strengthen my confidence in myself.
I would like to thank the leader Huahua, as a female video author and a big boss who buys a house with her royalties, for giving me a lot of guidance on online writing.
I would like to thank Chen Zeqing for watching True Heart all the time when I was studying in the United States. Once he asked me if it was possible to add ten thousand plus one, but I didn’t dare to respond. I really couldn’t add it.
I want to thank Chai Chai. He has a bad temper, but he listens to the truth. He rewarded the leader of the alliance and also brought me Man Xi.
I want to thank Manxi, a living dictionary of plots. Every time the reader has a setting or plot that he doesn't remember, he can blurt it out. Some of them I have to turn over the settings myself...I want to thank Manxi for putting the most energy into this book.
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Besides his girlfriend, it’s me.
I want to thank Shancha. Shancha is the reader who followed me when I was writing short stories. It’s not just a year or two, but the whole time in college. After it was published, I built a building to seek alliance. I didn’t expect that Chixin was so unpopular...
It took so long to build a thousand-story building.
As I write this, I seem to have completely strayed from the original question.
But it doesn’t seem to be the case. A fair assessment is that this book is just my persistence and it is difficult to write it until now. It is the support and love of so many readers that make me determined.
I still remember the tip a reader gave me.
He said he was sorry, he had no money, the book was very interesting, but he could only give a reward of five yuan.
He ate a meal worth four yuan, but gave me a reward of five yuan.
(There are screenshots here, you should be able to find them in the premium posts in the book review area.)
When I saw that book review, my eyes were sore.
I told my mother, how much he loves this book, how could I stop writing it?
How could I stop writing?
I would like to thank so many people, thank you to the readers who have followed the online article since the beginning, thank you to the readers who silently vote for me every day, thank you to the readers who praise me every day, thank you to the readers who seriously help me recommend this book to my friends...
…
I remembered again.
Not long after the series "Red Heart" was published, I lost my hair, became anxious, and couldn't sleep all night long. I was in a lot of pain.
Some readers said, Come on, Ah Shi, sooner or later you will step on those sunspots under your feet.
A few days ago, another reader said this.
But my answer has never changed.
I said, I am not writing to defeat anyone, not to prove to anyone.
At first, I just wanted to write a long novel completely and without restraint, and write about the real world in my mind. As I said in the introduction, this is the world of immortals and heroes where love is so extreme. You are welcome to come.
I still do.
I don't want to knock anyone down.
Resentment won't get me far.
What has supported me from the beginning to the present and will continue to move into the future is the love you have given me.
Thanks again.
[Unchanged in the evening update]
This chapter has been completed!