She thought that at least Su Nanjin would answer her question, but after a long silence, no sound was heard. When she lowered her head, she saw that he had fallen asleep on her shoulder.
Even so, if he heard it, she had no idea how to tell him about her illness.
It had been a long time since I had taken a closer look at him, and that face that was once so familiar seemed different from the one in my memory.
Su Nanjin's facial features are very three-dimensional, only his eyes are very deep, and his already angular face seems to be thinner now. He seems to have changed a lot this year.
"Actually, if you really fall in love with someone else, I should also breathe a sigh of relief. With my current body, I don't know how long I can live. I feel relieved to have someone with you, but..."
Shen Zhiluo's voice was choked, and he sniffed knowing that he couldn't hear it when he was asleep.
"It's just that I'm also a little selfish. I selfishly hope that you will be the same as before, with me in your eyes and heart. I selfishly hope that the person by your side will always be me. I just don't want our marriage to end too ugly. , so I hope that you will admit it to me personally."
Shen Zhiluo's voice was very soft, as if it would dissipate if the wind blew.
Su Nanjin closed her eyes tightly, her eyelashes twitching slightly, as if she was disturbed by her voice. He rubbed his head on her shoulder, and a pair of arms naturally held her in his arms.
Shen Zhiluo shut up quickly and forced herself to hold back her tears. She didn't want him to see her embarrassment, not even for a moment.
Even this familiar embrace now makes her a little overwhelmed.
Not long after, Su Nanjin woke up leisurely and raised his eyes to look at her. His eyes were full of tenderness. If he hadn't witnessed such a scene last night, Shen Zhiluo would have been addicted to his tenderness again.
"Why are your eyes so red?" Su Nanjin said and lit a cigarette.
Shen Zhiluo gritted his teeth. She remembered that he used to hate the smell of tobacco. In this year, he even became so proficient in smoking.
"I didn't have a good rest last night." Shen Zhiluo responded and stared at him closely.
She originally planned to ask clearly, but now that she was in front of her, she didn't know how to speak. The two of them were silent for a moment, and the atmosphere was a bit awkward.
Since when did the two of them actually face each other and have nothing to say? Even every movement or look in their eyes would make them nervous.
"Who is that woman?"
Shen Zhiluo finally spoke in the most straightforward way. Faced with such a question, it seemed that no amount of gorgeous language was insignificant.
Upon hearing this, Su Nanjin's finger that flicked the cigarette ashes suddenly paused, and his brows were slightly touched, but he quickly returned to his natural state.
Looking up at her, she still couldn't see any emotion on her face, she was calm as if this matter didn't matter to her.
"you saw it?"
"Well, I think you should have something to say to me."
"..."
After another period of silence, Su Nanjin took a long puff of cigarette and then put the cigarette butt out in the tea cup.
"It's just a woman, don't think too much about it."
Just like yesterday, he was still unwilling to say anything. Shen Zhiluo's heart felt like a knife had been stabbed hard, and the pain made him breathless, but he still looked at him with a calm expression.
"Lipstick marks are nothing. Sharing a room with a woman for one night is nothing, so what counts? Does it count if I see it with my own eyes?"
From Shen Zhiluo's hoarse voice and tired face, it was not difficult for Su Nanjin to tell what she had done last night.
Su Nanjin's silence left Shen Zhiluo helpless: "I said, if you have someone you want to protect, I will quit, but I hope we don't end up in too much embarrassment. It's better for you to admit it yourself than for me to find out on my own. "
She still wanted to give him another chance, the last chance to be honest with each other.
But Su Nanjin didn't seem to know how to seize the opportunity. Instead, he frowned slightly and lowered his head, unwilling to even look into her eyes.
"I have nothing to admit. It's just what you saw. The woman who called yesterday is what you saw. There are even others you didn't see."
She didn't expect that he would say this. Even though Shen Zhiluo was mentally prepared, he couldn't help but feel a severe throbbing in his heart. Looking at the husband in front of him who could easily talk about many women, he suddenly felt in a trance.
The person who was once so close to her, who used to have eyes and hearts full of her, was now unwilling to even give her an explanation.
"Ha..." With a wry smile that was somewhat self-deprecating, Shen Zhiluo's tears could no longer be controlled, and they poured out like a flood that had opened a floodgate.
She has never been so embarrassed. Even when her parents passed away a year ago, she left her tears in a corner where no one was around. But now, she can't help herself with this kind of sadness.
All she could do was to raise her hands to wipe away the tears as soon as they fell. She repeated this for a long time before she calmed down.
"Su Nanjin, let's get a divorce."
Shen Zhiluo's voice was as calm as ever, as if it had no emotion or strength, but it made Su Nanjin startled. He crushed the water cup in his hand, letting the fragments of the cup cut his hand into bloody pieces.
Shen Zhiluo looked at his hand, took out the bandage from the living room, and simply treated it. Seeing that he remained silent, she repeated it.
"Let's get a divorce."
Every time she repeated it, it was like adding salt to the wound. The pain was so painful that she almost forgot to breathe.
She didn't look at him, and she knew that he didn't look at her, but she just didn't know how to face him, and he probably didn't want to look at her.
Shen Zhiluo was about to repeat himself, but this time Su Nanjin stood up before her.
"enough!"
"It's just a few women, can't you even tolerate this? Shen Zhiluo, what man doesn't have a few women around him? If you don't pursue it, I won't let them bother you. We have a tacit agreement not to mention it. , isn’t that great?”
There was uncontrollable anger in Su Nanjin's voice, and her deep eyes were full of displeasure.
But this kind of him made Shen Zhiluo completely stunned, staring at him closely and not knowing how to answer.
Very good? He actually thinks this kind of tacit understanding is very good? She thought that at least it was just a divorce, and they could still be honest with each other.
But now, he has undoubtedly torn open the last window screen between each other, revealing all the cruel reality in front of her.
For a moment, the excessive sadness made her body tingle. The next second, two streams of hot water flowed down her nose. Shen Zhiluo raised his hand to wipe it dry. It was flowing and wiping. She was already embarrassed enough now. , she didn’t want the blood to make her even more embarrassed.
Su Nanjin didn't show any concern, but looked a little impatient. He didn't intend to continue the conversation, so he loosened his tie and walked out.
"Just calm down. I'll pretend you never said anything about the divorce."
This chapter has been completed!